#rebeltimelcrd

[blackstarman]

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[usermeggy]

rebeltimelcrd replied to your post:who here is currently emotionally compromised by...

im in denial about it tbh

For me, it hasn't really sunken in yet. I'm at that point where it doesn't quite feel real that it's ending.

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[blackstarman]

GET TO KNOW ME THINGY

tagged by rebeltimelcrd <3

tagging: themajesticbagel, severaloddsocks, imnotaway, and anyone else who wants to fill out questions but hasn't been tagged

what was your:

1.last beverage: glorious milk

2. last phone call: my guitar teacher bc id missed my lesson by mistake

3. last text message: hannah 'themajesticbagel': "Just walked past your classroom and you looked totes deep in thought"

4. last song you listened to: jet pack blues by fall out boy 

5. last time i cried: last night

6. dated someone twice: nope

7. been cheated on: yep

8. kissed anyone and regretted it: quite a few honestly

9. lost someone special: oh god yes

10. been depressed: yep

11. been drunk and threw up: once

favorite three colors:

12. black

13. blue

14. grey

in the last year have you

15. made a new friend: about 30

16. fallen out of love: got over someone, so yeah

17. laughed until you cried: a couple times, yeah

18. met someone who changed you: without a doubt

19. found out who your true friends were: im still not certain about true friends but i know who my best friends are

20. found out someone was talking about you: yep, in both good and bad ways

21. kissed anyone on your fb list: about 3 

general:

22. how many people know you irl on your fb list: all of them

23. pets: none, they b ded

24. change your name: ill change my surname in future, but for now not yet

25. what i did for my last bday: had a birthday meal and went to one of my best friends' houses

26. what time i woke up today: 7:43am

27. what i did at midnight last night: tumblr

28. something i cant wait for: better times

30. last time i saw mom: a few hours ago 

31. what i could change about my life: too many things 

32. what im listening to rn: novocaine by fall out boy 

33. ever talked to a person named tom: my brother's name is tom, and i have like 2 people in college i hang out with called tom

34. whats getting on my nerves: college, me, everything

35. most visited webpage: tumbr

36. blood type: the bloody kind

37. nickname: grandma

38. relationship status: hahaha

39. zodiac sign: virgo

40. pronouns: he/him/his

41. elementary: lordsgate

42. high school: burscough priory

43. college: runshaw

44. hair color: some shitty shade of blonde, like dirty blonde but not

45. long or short: short to what im normally used to

46: height: 5’9” 

47. crush: C 

48. what i like about myself: music taste, my hat, and my friends

49. tattoos: none yet

50. right or left handed: ambedexterous - ive been told i was born a lefty, but i was forced to learn how to do stuff right handed by my primary school

51. first surgery: none that i can remember

52. first piercing: nothing yet

53. first best friend: this kid called sam who i was inseperable with up until year 5 when my dad started shagging his mum and then there was the divorce and it kind of dragged us apart

54. first sport: badminton

55. first vacation: earliest i can remember was paris

56. first pair of shoes: fuck if i know 

right now

58. eating: nothing 

60. drinking: sweet sweet milk

61. about to watch: mock the week

62. listening to: favorite record by fall out boy 

63. waiting for: a miracle

64. want kids: want to wrap them in sellotape and kick them down a hill, yes 

65. get married: no thanks

66. career: id really like to work in music production

have you ever

67. kissed a stranger: i kissed someone at a sabaton concert, but it wasnt a proper kiss, just a peck on the cheek

68. drank hard liquor: yep

69. lost glasses/contacts: i dont wear glasses 

70. sex on a first date: lol no thanks

71. broken someones heart: probably my mothers from how ive turned out

72. had my heart broken: yep

73. been arrested: had a few run ins with police, but no actual arrests

74. turned someone down: nope

75. cried when someone died: yeah, my grandad

76: fallen for a friend: yes and it was one of the biggest mistakes of my life, never again

do you believe in

77. yourself: not in the slightest

78. miracles: id like to

79. love at first sight: no

80. heaven: not really

81. santa: nah

82. kiss on a first date: i would but ive got no scope for time appropriateness so its probably wrong

83. angels: no

[blackstarman]

nobody's worthless. especially not you

tank you,ybut i am. i really anm. i think tinmf jjust going to sleep tonight,, ill save killing myself for another night. thank yout fso much for caring, i love you

[blackstarman]

we can make it if you want to. you deserve to live. and i know that it may seem like there's no reason to want to live, but there's so much to do still, and so many people to meet. so many good things will happen to you soon. please, try to wait this night out. i know it's hard but you will not regret it. i love you and care for you.

the only university choices ive pt down are for music tehcnology, im not going tog amount to anythubg but a homeless bum; i cant do anything,a dne veryhone i meet hates me. nothing good will happen to me. im stupid, under average, hideous, mental, broken and theres no way anyone good would ever want to truikly keep me around. alla i do is bring peleple down and lie to people

[blackstarman]

hey, i noticed you're posting a lot of depressing stuff. i hope everything's okay because you seem like a wonderful person. i'm here if you ever need to talk

thnkds, im just verty drunks  a nd very sad and the dnhoslidays aver hard fro me; oo;; bee okay. thnka ss cfor cargin though, its more nntahnn  most pole i acutally mnow do