#red journal

[chrxyw]

happy feb :)

[gnnosis]

flashbulb 💡

[prinz-alexiares]

it has been a really tough time in my life, sometimes i don’t even know what keeps me going, what stops me from taking my own life. out here everything hurts, now even more painful than ever. also, as a person who often takes comfort in strangers, i should know better. 

[redriverwind]

I can't sleep. I feel my teeth getting sharper, my nails ripping at my sheets. I can no longer speak, only growl and roar. The shadows are starting to consume me,I don't want to break free. I want to be swallowed into this madness. I want to embrace the monster within me. I want to go for the throat

[musicaltantrums]

[redriverwind]

I really...want to talk to someone about system stuff right now, but I’m beyond afraid to reach out about it. I don’t want people to accuse me of lying or being fake or some other stupid shit. I just want someone to understand this struggle I have that no other teenager has to deal with!

[redriverwind]

Maybe it pouring rain tonight is natures sign to me that it’s going to be alright. That I’m gonna be ok. That this monster is safe,and will be happy where he is. Heloha and Melatha bring life and new beginnings, perhaps that means a new start for me.

[redriverwind]

So,my new creative writing teacher is really hot and I don’t know what to do with myself. I guess I’ll just be part of both tcc lol.