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[waitingin]

It's curious that I continue to look for ways to be alone. I don't want to be alone. The thing I want is a new environment. A place that allows me to either find a new conversation companion, or a way to become comfortable with loneliness. I'll flip that coin. A light to converse or the abyss of thought. Gotta work on my syntax. Assuming I use that correctly. I've noticed that once I'm alone I pursue ideas that will preserve my lack of interaction with others. Some interactions end up driving me from future ones. Also, what's with my resentment of late? I don't need this. No one has done me significant wrong. Why do I get defensive? It's stupid. Food for thought.

[strandsofthoughts]

Ima find a hideout soon. A place I can read and draw at my leisure. Like a coffee or tea shop that has a comfy couch with my name on it. I'll disappear from the world and be alone.