#refinement-unbound

[icryyoumercy]

refinement-unbound

  8.15, 28th of february, i got an appointment with...

yikes, the sentiment from your tag sounds familiar. good luck!!

it’s such a horrid mess, and it hurts so much, and it’s been fucked up for the last fourteen? fifteen? years, and this is the first time ever that i’ve got the... self-confidence? self-worth? whatever to realise that i shouldn’t have to hurt like that.

like, everyone. every. single. person. at work was sympathetic and took me seriously even when i was joking and dismissive about it, and i just. that has never ever happened before? like, i am in pain and no one is dismissive or blaming me for it or saying i’m just imagining it or anything like that? so clearly this is not normal and thus something i am allowed to do something about?

it’s... i mean, my wrists don’t hurt less for it, but it’s about a billion times less stressful emotionally and mentally

[faunmoss]

11, 24, 31

11. are you listening to music right now? 

No, just the gentle humming of my laptop. For one, I don’t have my headphones with me and don’t want to listen with my laptop speakers. Also, I’ve lately found myself irritated sometimes and getting headaches when listening to music bc of some weird sensory thing :| not all the time luckily but still.

24. height 

1,65 m (and too lazy to convert it to feet/ inches for my american followers)

31. 3 random facts 

a) when I was in first grade and ppl talked about the internet (it was 1993 and we didn’t have home internet) I kinda imagined it like a huge virtual book or library, and was excited to look up ALL about orca whales if the futuristic time ever came that I could surf the pages of the world wide web.

b) I really like Corporal Reyes from the 1957 Zorro series.

c) I’m wearing a pair of hand-me-down glasses from my siblings bc I drew on my old glasses with sharpie and left them on the sidewalk as a message (?????) when I was psychotic last year. Luckily we have about the same lense requirements, but I dislike the frame.

[icryyoumercy]

refinement-unbound

  refinement-unbound replied to your post “i need...

You can do it!!

I did it! (Well, mostly. I still need to buy tea and sugar, and I need to go to the post office for airmail envelopes and three, maybe four cardboard boxes...)

[icryyoumercy]

refinement-unbound replied to your post “i need to obtain groceries, and i need to do it within the next two...”

Go go go! Get those groceries!

*embarrassed pterodactyl noise* *starts third attempt at getting things done*

thanks :)

[icryyoumercy]

refinement-unbound replied to your post “refinement-unbound  i am once again failing basic...”

Sorry about your suboptimal pizza. May it be tasty regardless.

:D thanks

it was surprisingly tasty, really. with olives on it, even! just needed some pineapples, but most things do, really

[icryyoumercy]

refinement-unbound

  i am once again failing basic adulting. someone...

Go! Eat! You can do it, I totally did that myself earlier!

yessir! *despondently stares at lack of favourite pizza*

[bengesko]

refinement-unbound replied to your post: Empire’s End doesn’t come out for another 2 weeks,...

I kind of wish I had this problem, but instead I can’t manage to finish any of the things I have already started reading and have a whole not-yet-started pile waiting for me, too. If only we could meet somewhere in the middle, we’d both be happy. -_-

well, when I say READ, I mean listen to, because my ADHD has gotten to where I cannot keep my eyes focused on pages anymore, so audio is the only way I can consume books anymore :<

[icryyoumercy]

engrprof replied to your post “okay, so. followers dealing with chronic pain. i might have a slightly...”

Once you've done all the medical stuff, the best advice I've had came from a story about soldiers in Iraq - "Embrace the suck." You just know it's going to suck and tell yourself how awesome you are for surviving it. Eventually, your pain tolerance increases and you notice it less. BUT, do monitor it and get checked if anything is different. It's easy to make actual injuries worse because you assume it's part of the usual. *hugs* I'm sorry you have to deal with this

Thanks :)

Radical acceptance it is, then. I will never fail to be impressed in how many shapes that one comes, and how many ways people find to express the idea. I love it, honestly, because it’s so simple, and it works so neatly.

‘Embrace the suck’ has to be one of the coolest ways I’ve seen it phrased, tho. Neat :D

refinement-unbound replied to your post “okay, so. followers dealing with chronic pain. i might have a slightly...”

... That said, considering it seems to run in the family and has to do with joints, I feel duty-bound to ask: have you ever read up on Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome?

refinement-unbound replied to your post “okay, so. followers dealing with chronic pain. i might have a slightly...”

I'm sorry that I have no advice for you, but I literally can't think of anything. It just fucking sucks to be in pain is how it is. :/

Thanks :)

Nah, whatever it is, it’s guaranteed not Ehlers-Danlos, since no one of us meets the diagnostic criteria, one of which is being tall and gangly. That said, tho, there’s tons of joint conditions similar to it that tend to get grouped with it for purely pragmatic reasons, so who the hell knows