#reflectiononlife

[positivethinkingoutcome]

[positivethinkingoutcome]

“ Live a life that matters ,live a life with full of accomplishment .

Sometimes life will test you , but remember that your determination to work will always have fruitfull results .

Source: positivethinkingoutcome

[militarydiplomat]

Oh this young man had so much to learn then. So much of my life experience and career benefitted from the nearly decade spent in the Jamaican Foreign Service. Forever grateful. 🙏🏽#Throwback #reflectiononlife. Circa 1998 in Kingston 🇯🇲 (at Kingston, Jamaica) https://www.instagram.com/p/B54RsnJhUMefEz9TI2LdmSqTCQzCM4IIbMzu7c0/?igshid=1j58s8p7ppgs3

[koolcurlie1]

Random Thought(s) Of The Night

Just found something I wrote almost exactly a year ago. It's funny how a year can pass and things have changed, yet your old writing is still completely relevant to your current situation. From my 17-year-old mind a year ago: "It's surprising, really, when you find someone who has a ton of interests similar to your own. There will always be people who like the same things as you, but to find someone who shares your passions in life, that is truly a miraculous gift." ~Alexis Joy Walstrom (@koolcurlie1 on ALL social media; PLEASE give credit\ tag me if you use this in ANY way!)

[thereisahell-believemeiveseenit]

a stroke for every time you were hurt and i just stood and watched

relapsed aft 5 fking weeks of staying clean.

Reading this blog of someone who i had hurt in the past kills me. It has been 2 years and he has never really gotten out of it yet. 

And guess what, history is repeating itself .

It scares me, darling, I dont want to ruin you like what I did to him. I wouldnt be able to live with it. 

I've been trying to escape from what I did. Ignoring his messages, being cold and reading less of that blog which is dedicated to me. But the fact that I killed someone's soul wouldn't stop haunting me. 

I can't afford to make the same mistake again. 

Please forgive me.

And tbh when he said he couldnt love me anymore, something in me broke. I have no idea why too. I wish I wasn't this desperate for people to love me. I wish I could be enough for myself. Enough for me to love myself so that I dont have to feed on love from others

how do you know how deep to go before it's real? I wish it was possible to cut my past out of my skin. Let the blood that flows out be the mistakes i've made. Let me be forgiven; the past be forgotten. 

[59thandlexyngton-blog]

My 18 birthday

Looking back now I've had a pretty good freaken life. Ya I've had those days, weeks, and sometimes months and I've come across some of the biggest assholes and two faced bitches ever but I've always had at least someone there for me. I've always dug myself out of the hole I put myself in. They always say life is not measured by the minutes but instead by the laughs. If that's true, I've lived a long ass life. I love and appreciate all those in my life even the ones that hurt me because from that pain I learned valuable life lessons. Happy birthday to mee