#refusetobeafraid

[hrbshrb-rat]

The crickets and cicadas

are the war cry of the summer.

Can you hear the earth resisting?

I saw a hummingbird today.

When I looked up, and turned around,

I spotted it, and it flew away.

I think it was real,

but you could never be too sure

There could have been cameras

in the dark eyes that I saw.

But I’m sure it was nothing.

It’s probably fine…

If they’re coming they’re coming…

I’m sure I’ll be alright…

[notawordtome]

Pinch me, I’m dreaming.  *pinch* Ow.  OMGYAY NOT DREAMING.

Somebody needs to pinch me because I must be dreaming.

All of our wildest dreams are coming true and nothing is stopping them...things are moving forward, we have everything we need.

Job things for Florizel are still not determined, but we have contingency plans.  We are waiting to hear from other schools, and we figure the worst case is we stay in the town we’re living in.  Get married, condense to one house and live our lives to the fullest.

The plans are in motion.  He’s already talked to his mom (who asked right away if we were engaged yet!!), and we are going to talk to our pastor and my parents in the coming weeks.  We’ll search for our rings, plan our ceremony (a proposal in the mix somewhere.  He can surprise me ;) ) We are so ready...I have never been so ready.

Last night, we had a relaxing evening at home.  We made dinner together, played some Just Dance, and talked about the future.  It looks so perfect and amazing. We know it won’t be without its bumps, but the past few months have proven over and over that we’re perfect for each other.

Part of me is still a little scared, waiting for that moment when everything falls apart...but it never comes.  Things have gone quickly, which I think scares me a little as well.  But I look in his eyes, and all my fears are at peace.  I pray to God, and He reassures me that he is the right choice.

Before the year is out, we hope to tie the knot and begin the next chapter of our lives together.

Happy is the day when you wake up from a good dream and realize your life is better than any dream ever was.  “That something greater...finally that’s for me.”

Bring it on.  I refuse to live in fear of something that will never happen to me again.  I’m ready to marry this man and have the best life possible.  Every so often, a fairy tale happens and it can change your entire life...I am so ready.