May 5, 2014
i "graduate" in 5 days, technically 4. and it still has yet to set in. why can't i find myself in the moment? why can't i just feel happy for my accomplishment. everything is an on equal playing fields of numbness, except for that one thing...but that is on the fritz too, so i am left, barely wanting to take that walk (across the stage + anxiety much?). shying away from my own accomplishments as if i don't deserve recognition for what so many others couldn't test to do. i don't deserve it. i must do better, always. i'm not done. no where near where i need to be. drive slow baby.