in today's dream
i saw Jenn, Alan and boys
I was walking down the pier. it was some carnival or a holiday idk and suddeny i saw their friendly faces in the crowd
i was on the rollerskates and they were too, and we rolled towards each other pretty fast
i hugged Jenn (i think), passed by kids who smiled at me (well all 5 were smiling actually) and there was Alan and we opened our arms and hold hands like that and started rotating, faster and faster
and thats when I felt an long-forgotten fear BECAUSE I CANT FUCKING RIDE ROLLER SKATES TO SAVE MY LIFE and I panic because I have no control of whats happening
I was trying to tell Alan about my problem but he just smiled (maybe he didnt hear?) and i thought about jumpin/falling off the pier just to stop this swirling nightmare. But then Jenn asked him "Maybe you should stop he's not very comfortable with it" and so ended somehow. Tbh it wasnt Alan's fault we started rotating accidentally because you should slow the fuck down before holding hands especially if your base is as unstable as damn roller skates and you both cant ride them
other parts of this dream were dark and unpleasant but this was cool and sunny and happy. (it was the most peaceful and nice dream in a while)