no idea
i have been absent. from so many things in the last few weeks. some kind of process occurs in me where i think the less i do. the more things i remove myself from when i get busy and overwhelmed the more time i will have to catch up.
it traps me. b/c i start removing the easy things, however these are the things that feed me that i need the most. it is easy for me to remove them b/c they are just for me. i control each part of them and their impact on my life. i short change myself and say. i can make a little while without them until i can catch back up on life.
it doesn't happen and i spiral downward. removing reading, poetry, writing, pictures, moving, trying, listening. it all goes one by one.
i was reminded of the importance of staying center by this girl. well. this blog. i had no idea i could have a relationship or feel like i know someone through. nothing more than status updates, blog entries and pictures. but tonight i figured the reason is probably b/c you can emit something of yourself over a digital world of telephone lines and glowing lcd's. tristan prettyman does that for me. her blog is proof of it. i miss her in my life. or her blog at least.
http://icecreamisbetterwithafork.tumblr.com/post/4574257171/dream-fort
i like how she is always moving, sharing, being a real person, with artist tendencies, and modern experiences and efforts toward growing, and most importantly humble sharing of those things. i like her. she is an inspiration to me.