So... it’s 2021 I guess.
2020 was a shitty year where I could no longer do my Uni class due to not being able to do the online course without having anxiety attacks every week. It was the year I learned I had PTSD and that it’s what makes me so afraid of doing anything. It was the year I got so many bad thoughts about my own body, I even self harmed again a few times. It was the year that I got back on anti-depressants. Again.
But 2020 was also the year I joined Tumblr and met so many new people. I have friends now, who I love so much, despite the constant fear that they’d leave me any day... Every day that passes, with every new thing I do together with them, the fear gets a tiny bit smaller.
I learnt that I was non-binary asexual. It’s given me some building dysphoria, but knowing a little more about who I am is so nice. Plus, I got my lovely new name to go with it!
I learnt so much about religions and cultures and diagnosis’. I can always learn more, but for now, I’m glad that I spoke to people about their cultures and read posts about people’s religions.
My second nephew was born this year. He’s so small and the months afterwards gave my sister some health issues, but both her and her two sons are healthy now. I’m getting him a little penguin blankie for a late Christmas gift...
My little brother got awards that he more then deserves. He’s definitely a ‘gifted child’ but he’s handling it better then what I did... He’s a school captain for the primary school kids in 2021; the only boy and the only Aboriginal. I’m so proud of him and I’ll be there if he needs me...
My other brother got a nice girlfriend that fits right in to the family. I rearranged my room and finally got a desk. We got two birds (Joey and Lemon) and five fish (Fishstick, Chip, Tim, Jim and Mark Sucker-burg) to add to the family. I commissioned for amazing pfp’s and I still love them so much. I donated money to people on Tumblr and to charities. I wrote several stories, got so many prompts to eventually write, I drew for myself and for others.
2020 was absolutely horrible, but there are always positives somewhere. This post took me over an hour to write as I’m not in a great headspace the last few days and it’s a little more difficult to look on the bright side, but I’m glad I did.
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Thank you @sparrowofsong for always being there for me when you could and helping me so much. I love you dude, so much <3
Thank you @ambersky0319 for being there, even though our interests went in different directions.
Thank you @landofsaltandshade for your strange knowledge and for reaching out to me so that we could eventually be friends.
Thank you @kieraelieson for being so supportive and sweet and just an amazing friend.
Thank you @edwinya for being supportive, informative and kind to me. Yeah, you do a lot of shitposts, but seeing you have fun is so amazing.
Thank you @candied-peach for being sweet as pie and for that amazing fic that you wrote for my 100th follower thing that I still think about so often.
Thank you @5am-the-foxing-hour for being so open and caring. Your cosplay and art has gotten so amazing too.
Thank you @surohsopsisofclouds for being awesome. All of you. You all explore and do so much and your posts are more uplifting then I think you all realise.
Thank you @beauty-and-passion for your amazing theories and delightful music breakdowns that people send in.
Thank you @grouptalekindnesssoul @amphibiousuprising @logan-got-yoinked @joylessnightsky @deceits-left-glove @devilsfics @impatentpending @coconut-cluster @wroammin for being so sweet to me and others. Some of you I look on from afar, but know that I think that you’re all so amazing.
And to all 155 of my followers. You’re all amazing and I wish for you a safe 2021. Thank you all so much for making a shitty year a little less shitty.
Love
- Remy
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