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[willowaudreykeyes]

Hello A quick reminder by your friendly-neighbourhood-tumblr-hermit to go read a fanfic when you feel like reading

Just read a Night At The Museum fanfic that was written in 2015 with eighteen chapters of emotion in it. I cried throughout fifteen of them. It was a good read that took me 3hrs to get through.

Ugh, I needed that cry...

So read a thing and cry your eyes out or laugh your head off- its good for ya.

[willowaudreykeyes]

So... it’s 2021 I guess. 

2020 was a shitty year where I could no longer do my Uni class due to not being able to do the online course without having anxiety attacks every week. It was the year I learned I had PTSD and that it’s what makes me so afraid of doing anything. It was the year I got so many bad thoughts about my own body, I even self harmed again a few times. It was the year that I got back on anti-depressants. Again.

But 2020 was also the year I joined Tumblr and met so many new people. I have friends now, who I love so much, despite the constant fear that they’d leave me any day... Every day that passes, with every new thing I do together with them, the fear gets a tiny bit smaller.

I learnt that I was non-binary asexual. It’s given me some building dysphoria, but knowing a little more about who I am is so nice. Plus, I got my lovely new name to go with it!

I learnt so much about religions and cultures and diagnosis’. I can always learn more, but for now, I’m glad that I spoke to people about their cultures and read posts about people’s religions.

My second nephew was born this year. He’s so small and the months afterwards gave my sister some health issues, but both her and her two sons are healthy now. I’m getting him a little penguin blankie for a late Christmas gift...

My little brother got awards that he more then deserves. He’s definitely a ‘gifted child’ but he’s handling it better then what I did... He’s a school captain for the primary school kids in 2021; the only boy and the only Aboriginal. I’m so proud of him and I’ll be there if he needs me...

My other brother got a nice girlfriend that fits right in to the family. I rearranged my room and finally got a desk. We got two birds (Joey and Lemon) and five fish (Fishstick, Chip, Tim, Jim and Mark Sucker-burg) to add to the family. I commissioned for amazing pfp’s and I still love them so much. I donated money to people on Tumblr and to charities. I wrote several stories, got so many prompts to eventually write, I drew for myself and for others.

2020 was absolutely horrible, but there are always positives somewhere. This post took me over an hour to write as I’m not in a great headspace the last few days and it’s a little more difficult to look on the bright side, but I’m glad I did. 

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Thank you @sparrowofsong for always being there for me when you could and helping me so much. I love you dude, so much <3

Thank you @ambersky0319 for being there, even though our interests went in different directions.

Thank you @landofsaltandshade for your strange knowledge and for reaching out to me so that we could eventually be friends.

Thank you @kieraelieson for being so supportive and sweet and just an amazing friend.

Thank you @edwinya for being supportive, informative and kind to me. Yeah, you do a lot of shitposts, but seeing you have fun is so amazing.

Thank you @candied-peach for being sweet as pie and for that amazing fic that you wrote for my 100th follower thing that I still think about so often.

Thank you @5am-the-foxing-hour for being so open and caring. Your cosplay and art has gotten so amazing too.

Thank you @surohsopsisofclouds for being awesome. All of you. You all explore and do so much and your posts are more uplifting then I think you all realise.

Thank you @beauty-and-passion for your amazing theories and delightful music breakdowns that people send in. 

Thank you @grouptalekindnesssoul @amphibiousuprising @logan-got-yoinked @joylessnightsky @deceits-left-glove @devilsfics @impatentpending @coconut-cluster @wroammin for being so sweet to me and others. Some of you I look on from afar, but know that I think that you’re all so amazing.

And to all 155 of my followers. You’re all amazing and I wish for you a safe 2021. Thank you all so much for making a shitty year a little less shitty.

Love

- Remy

Hey look it's me and my shitty selfie skills-

[willowaudreykeyes]

“Maybe I’m sick of being Creativity. I’m sick of the condescending tones, the ‘not good enoughs’, all the bruises and the constant worry that I’m not good enough for Thomas.” As he dishevelled Prince spoke, Remus stood off to the side with a constant change of emotion to his face. As if he was torn between helping Roman prove a point, and to end this terrible argument.

The thumbnails to Thomas’ songs, the small frames of friends and family, an ever-changing scroll of online artwork of the Sides themselves sat ruined around the room. The others stood around Roman’s destroyed room, one that looked like Remus had taken a mace to everything, if Roman wasn’t the one with the mace in his hand.

I had a dream that the new episode was out when I took a nap a bit ago. This and the fact that both the twins had ducked out, as it wouldn’t have been possible if only Roman had, was all I remembered.

Seriously, Remus just sat there and added weird commentary while Roman just kept going off about how being Creativity sucks. 

It was so weird and random XD I thought it was real since I remember seeing a YouTube thumbnail and that I wasn’t even thinking about Sanders Sides before sleeping. 

Thought I’d share what I could remember before I forgot forever.

[willowaudreykeyes]

My Brother Made A Thing

So... my brother saw the poly-Sanders ship name (drlamp) and he got a little inspired. Just know that he is nearly twelve years old, has zero clue who Thomas is other then he’s a YouTuber and that Thomas likes rainbows.

@thatsthat24​

[willowaudreykeyes]

Ya know I'm half tempted to make a post answering all 97(ish?) questions on that ask game I rbed

Even if it took me all day, I'd totally do it if I find a speck of motivation to do so

[willowaudreykeyes]

Happy Holidays!

I wish the Jewish families who’s out having Chinese on the 25th, those who aren’t, people who don’t do holidays, those celebrating Yule, and all the many many more traditional activities that people have this time of year that I’m unknown to-

I hope you all enjoy this time of year with those you care for. I can’t imagine how annoying or difficult today is for you, but I truly do hope that you’re days go by with a smile on your and your loved ones faces.

And to those who have epilepsy and have to deal with all the flashing lights everywhere... I wish that your time inside is peaceful and comfortable. Don’t feel bad for not being able to go out, it’s the worlds fault, not yours.

I love you guys <3 - Remy

[willowaudreykeyes]

Hi, back for one moment to say:

The reason why Janus and Remus haven’t shown up in recent videos is because Remus was in the hospital for a spaghetti related incident and Janus didn’t want him to be alone

That clip was a remake of the incident- Remus just wanted to show off his spaghetti eating skills and Janus thought it was funny as hell to relive his best friend being a moron and showing off how much fun they had in the hospital playing “the snake won’t do truth but the dares are fun”

He’s out of the hospital now and ready to commit more crimes against everything

[willowaudreykeyes]

I wish I was shorter sometimes...

Right now I'm longing for hugs, which reminds me of when I stayed with a friend and her two roommates. They all love hugs and wanted one from me even though I only just met her roommates that day.

They all said that hugging a tall person was so nice. Their heads rested on my shoulder, for one of them I could lay my head on top of theirs. It must feel nice to feel safe in someone else's arms like that.

But I'll try and be glad that I can help make people feel safe like that... If I can make people, who I only met a few hours prior, feel safe in my arms; then I'm not complaining.

Basically: I'm in the mood for being hugged with no one around who'll hug me right now.