jorrynoftheroundtable replied to your post “To be honest? It’s really… really, really draining being an isolated...”
Take a breath. Nobody's forcing you to do this. With the information you've been given, you've done admirable amounts of work. Team Danganronpa is a formidable opponent, and just happened to beat the fandom. It's not for you to fight the entire fandom's battle. If you want to keep going, you should. But there's no shame if you drop out.
They did indeed- that is certainly an adroit way of putting it. And thank you, your input has been a great help for a long time. I really appreciate that
It’s... confusing. I want to, but my impulsiveness - kind of hard-wired due to the anxiety - is screwing things up and making it way harder to do anything I want to effectively and at times even judge my feelings about things. Which in turn is stressful. Though now I’m wanting to do more things creatively without the binds, but I can’t do that without feeling like judging myself. I can get only so far, even simple creative things will get stuck in limbo for weeks or more. It’s such a mess
So according to my mind and the fandom’s overall atmosphere it feels like I have no choice but to gear up and tough it out, or find better solutions with some distance- to avoid feeding into lingering patterns out of fear or anger and what tf people expect from me before I’m allowed to say something is a real issue. I dunno. I always end up flying back in, so I need to work something out