I feel like sometimes my home life situation is very difficult to figure out how to get myself in a better place because I'm not sure where to really go with anything.
I have been officially diagnosed with autism, but when I tried to apply for disability, I was denied considering they didn't see me as needing it. And I'm not sure if I could really try again for it at this point considering even though I've been working the same part time job since then, I got a raise since then and probably make too much money at this point.
And I don't know if I really qualify for help with living arrangements because while I don't make enough to get an apartment, it's hard to say the sort of help I could get.
You can't really say my case is an emergency either. I'm not a minor or even technically a young adult, but I live with a stepdad that I can honestly say I'm not comfortable being in the same home with considering he is a huge overzealous religious fanatic and trump supporter.
But the line blurs here considering that he has never done or said anything that I could consider religious abuse.
He very much views his way as the only way, but I think with my mom, she's ensured things haven't been too forced on me.
I was coaxed into going to one service at their church (he actually mentioned though at the beginning when he first moved in that everyone in this house needs to attend church) and after I went, it's like they just gave up (thankfully).
But the thing is that he's always cordial and kind to me and I really only hear this stuff when I'm not present in the room and overhear it or I hear it from my mom.
I don't know, my thoughts are kind of just all over the place, but I think I just keep getting scared because there's just so many unknowns for me right now and well, I don't know if many people will read this, but if someone does, I'm mostly just reaching out to see if I can get resources to get me on the right path to getting out of here and living somewhere more comfortably and with less stress.
Preferably my own place because while I know I could try and move in with other people, I'm a little too scared of trying to share a living space with strangers sadly.
Anyway, I'm not going to be too descriptive since safety and all that, but I live in the Central Illinois area and am just looking for any possible leads into what I can do to possibly move out and live independently.
Low support places being suggested would be appreciated, but not necessary since I'm pretty good at taking care of myself for the most part.
There's also the matter of wherever I go, it has to be pet friendly since I have a cat that I'm not willing to part with considering how closely bonded we are and, quite frankly, I feel like having pets has always made me feel like I could de-stress easier.
Thank you if you do happen to offer any help to this post. I seriously appreciate anyone doing so.
