#responsibilitiessuck

[trojan0405]

Crap ... I just wanna get out in the wilderness and take cool pictures of the sky. Dang.

[herecomemintyboi]

To fill you in a bit; I’m current working crew for the MCC black box shoe James and the Giant Peach(butt). The college is legit DOWN THE STREET from #animeexpo2017 I WAS going to attend cuz it’s so close to home but I got thrown onto this show last minute. 😢 I hope everyone is having fun maybe next year I’ll make it 😭 #jamesandthegiantpeach #theatre #theatremajor #missingacon #sadcosplayer #responsibilitiessuck #animeexpo #cosplayerstruggle #cosplayer #play #blackboxtheatre (at Middlesex County College Theatre Dept.)

[brokenbutterflyunlikelyyou]

Adult Struggles

Anybody else struggling to be an adult nowadays?

Nope, just me. Okay.

It's been a rough few months for me to say the least. I decided to take the plunge and move to a new state because of personal reasons. Now I will admit some of the aforementioned things I will take credit for because I really should have done research before moving to the new state. But unfortunately, I was blinded by the idea of a fresh start. At the time of the decision to move we had less than two months to pack an entire house and I was working 5-6 days a week for about 12-16 hours a day. So, I was fairly tired and wore out by the time I got home. Plus, I was moving with people who had lived in the state before so I thought I was in good hands at the time. I trusted the process.

I should have done research though, because now I am in deep deep hole. That I am afraid that I will not be able to dig myself out of it. My car is in rough shape and in the state that I moved to you have to get your car inspected and have it pass inspection before you can register it with the state. Well, last month we just did not have the money to get everything that needed to be fix on the car done. Which means we are on are second temporary permit and that is the final one that we can get.

Now, to just list a few things that is wrong with my car:

-My drivers side tail light was smashed. (Long story but it was not my fault and it was not wrecked.) This small part cost me $70. Which I know does not seem like a lot of money to most, but for someone who is LITERALLY living pay check to pay check and barely making ends meet right now that's a lot of money.

-My brakes need to be replaced. Now this was something that I kept trying to save for but no one can save $700 overnight. Especially, when you are doing your best to keep your head above water. I've thrown out the idea of having them professionally replaced. If we don't get them professionally replaced it'll be around $170-200 according if we can buy them and find someone kind enough to put them on for free.

-Now if none of that was enough, my flipping airbag light came one randomly. I think it's in correlation to the compact of when my tail light was hit. But I can't be sure until I pay someone $200 to diagnose it.

-Oh and on top of that my rear view mirror just decided to pop off on me the other day. And I have had the damnedest time getting it to go back on. Thank goodness this isn't a monetary fix. Well, hopefully not.

If none of this was enough to break me, I just found out it will cost me about $200-300 in registration fees to get my car officially registered. Yeah...and this is coming from someone who has a terrible credit score so unfortunately I am not able to get a loan. All I got is pray for me. Because I am definitely going to need it. I just keep trying to remind myself that it'll work itself out but in all honesty I am not a person who cannot worry. That's something I don't like about myself sometimes, I worry way too much about everything.

This is one of the many reasons why I am trying to better myself and find a better me. This is why I am on a journey of self-discovery and spiritual awakening. I want to better myself and find peace within myself. Because right now it's like I am constantly at war internally. Thank you for listening to my rant/vent. Adulting is substantially hard now a days, especially since the pandemic severely messed up the economy.

[tiffagarcia]

Hopefully in less than 30 minutes I can be snuggled and sleeping...sooo tired! #work #cattired #napwontdoit #responsibilitiessuck #doingright

[countrynights]

I feel like just getting in my car, turning the radio on to some good country, and just driving away...but that isn't gonna happen.

[hellosandsmiles]

NO

Friend: I thought you needed to go to the grocery store?

Me: I do. It's just across the street but I don't want to put a bra on. It's my off day. I don't deserve this. I haven't worn pants since I got home from work Friday. (It's Sunday morning.)