❝ do you love yourself? ❞
richard siken sentence starters. // xx. ❛ DO YOU LOVE YOURSELF ? ❜
your voice sharpens the knife that i dig into my skin , scorching with the blood of others . have you condemned anyone else like you have me ? i am a sinful man , with blood under my nails like the grime from the earth . i have cut screaming women at the throat and didn’t feel a thing ! in my dreams , they have killed me . the bodies reaching from their graves , smelling of the war they fought with me . their nails lined with my skin as they were scratching . scratching , scratching , they won’t stop scratching ! they kill me , bloodier and demonic . i lie there , in my bed , and it’s just a dream . the bodies stay , piling . could you condemn anyone like you have me ?
you remind me of a blood - red blossom , fruitless morals , your spine is drawn with the symbols of your salvation , spiraling like vines . i can see the patchwork against your bones , your salvation and devotion have worked itself into doubt time and time again . but with me ? you are never doubtful , i am your picture - perfect idea of SIN . unholy , godless . i bleed red , but am i human ? ( NO . ) the lines have blurred between man and devil . i’m not sure anymore . with light slinking out of you as you were born with it , with his light . i can only focus on my darkness , how you drown me away . how i am clawing to be seen by you , how i am trying to live in your light without burning . – you ask me if i love myself . you remind myself of the lake of sanguine on my hands , enough that even god would drown in . with what i’ve done . HOW COULD I ?
❛ OF COURSE I DO . ❜
