pov: your boyfriend seb can't help it, but stress over his work, his schedule and his emotions. sadly, during one night, all he tried to push down went all the way up which caused him to do a panic attack
warnings: anxiety and stress talk, panic attack mention, keeping emotions, stress and nervosity, hard time to relax.
type: reverse-comfort!
member: sebastian moy
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note: this one is a bit longer than my original hc!
seb's job seems super easy, right? all he have to do is filming videos and tiktoks, have fun, sing... and it's done! right?
but it's not.
seb's job is hard and even though it may seem easy at first glance, it is not :(
he has to control his stress and anxiety every day, he has to pray that everything he does is okay and normal, he has to be careful what he says.. even in a joke! because in a snap of a finger he could be canceled or something like that just for being sarcastic or something
(rest of the headcanon under the cut!)
he also has to pray that social media doesn't stop working. it's true! what if youtube or tiktok shut down one day? it's one of the ways he can make money and do his job!
he also have to work hard, to find original youtube videos, cool tiktoks..
moy also has to be in control of every emotion he has inside of him
filming videos? no time to be sad!
filming tiktok? no time to be tired! he have to practice again and again, until it's perfect! even though he's tired! he want to give the best content for the stars and his community
what i'm trying to say is that seb's job is hard. even though it looks really easy like "oh, i just have to post tiktok! oh, i just have to post youtube videos", it's actually not all that
so ofc, seb kept his emotions for the last few weeks
he was trying his best
and let's say that it has not gone unnoticed by you..
"i'm okay, baby! just a bit tired!"
"don't worry, y/n! just tired, i'm fine!"
"me? sad? no, i'm just exhausted! i only slept 3 hours last night... but i'm okay! don't worry your pretty little head, okay, my love?"
he tried his best to manage everything
"i'm sorry baby, i can't hang out tonight. i have too much work to do :( maybe we can see each other another time this week?" he texted you.
"i have to shoot 4 tiktoks tonight. i'm late. i've been editing my video for like 3 days straight and i'm not even done! i'm usually fast at editing! i don't know what's happening right now"
of course, you quickly reassured him that it was okay and that you could hang out some other time! but... he couldn't help but think of you and the work he was doing!
he wanted to see you..
it's been almost three weeks since you've seen each other in person, and just like last week, he had to cancel the plans you and he made to work on his videos and tiktoks
while editing, he couldn't help but feel sad and disappointed.
what if the video he was working on was not good enough? what if the four tiktok were boring and not funny?
what if the stars were disappointed in him for not posting youtube videos almost every week?
what if you were sad and disappointed because he always had to cancel plans to hang out with you? what if you thought he was being dramatic and deliberately avoiding you? when he wasn't!
a ton of questions quickly went through his head
which didn't really help with all the emotions he'd been holding in for three, almost four weeks
he wanted to be enough, to make his work good and funny!
he couldn't help it, but tear up a little bit
it was almost 4am and his video was not even finished
the four tiktoks were not even done yet, too
and as if his schedule wasn't full enough with meetings and music rehearsals, he also had to record another youtube video for his channel!
he was so tired
without knowing it, sebastian moy pushed all his emotions to the back of his throat, which made him cry even more :(
he called you quickly, hoping to hear your voice
"hey!" you said through the phone
"can you come over?" asked sebastian worriedly
"y-yeah! hum.. are you okay? your voice seem a bit down.."
"i am, i am.. just.. come over as soon as possible, okay?"
ten minutes passed and without knowing it, seb started to shake a little bit more waiting for you to arrive
"seb, are you okay? what happened?" you asked as you entered his bedroom with a glass of water
"i'm tired, y/n. i'm so tired! i just can't hold it in anymore!"
he told you everything
his worries, his thoughts, the stress he has had for the last 3-4 weeks, the anxiety he has had because of his job
he didn't want to worry the stars.
"seb... you know the stars will understand, right? they love you. they'd rather not have a video and know you're okay and take care of you than the opposite..."
you tried your best to comfort him
"sebby, you are doing so well. don't say your work isn't enough.."
"do you really think so?" he asked while tearing up
you made breathing exercices with him, which helped him a lot
"baby, you're doing your best right now and that's what's important... please don't overwork yourself. i know it's easy to say, but please..."
he hugged you
and kissed you on the cheek
and told you not to leave him (which you won't)
he love you so much :'(
"i feel like the stars will be disappointed in me if i don't keep my smile and strong attitude. they are counting on me. maybe they had a hard day and maybe with NSB videos or my videos they can smile and relax from their day? i don't want to be sad in front of them, what if i am their only reason to smile today?"
he sighed
"and you... it's been a while since we've seen each other because of my work! i'm sorry. i don't want you to think that I'm trying to avoid you, because i'm really not! i've been really excited to see you and hang out with you all week... and like last week, i had to cancel our plans"
you caressed his cheek
"seb, it's okay! i know you're working hard, i really am. it's okay. i understand. your job is not easy and not many people would have done what you're doing right now. it takes a lot of time and patience and i think you're doing really great and doing your best right now"
he smiled a little as he drank the water you gave him earlier
"and how can you keep your smile and your strong attitude if you don't even take breaks and get a good night's sleep? i know you're busy and your job is hard, but please believe me. you're doing incredibly well. the stars really won't mind, i promise. they'll understand"
after being comforted for a few minutes, seb began to feel better and less anxious
"i love you so much, y/n. you always know what to say to comfort me, make me feel better, and brighten my mood"
he would listen to you and take breaks
and sleep
and drink water
and take care of himself
even if he doesn't really say it or show it to you often, he cares about you a lot
he love you so much
and he would do anything for you <3
hope you liked it!!! this one was a little longer than usual because i had a lot of inspiration, but i still hope you liked it :)
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