Sep 21, 2022
being denied silver fruit (making art) by some invisible - and maybe perhaps non-existant - punishment (??)
#just me hi#brain for the love of all that's good let me do something or i'll go to sleep#what's a brain to do then?? Rest????#ridiculous.......#:/#i used to say 'oh i have low motivation' but dude the motivation is there sometimes. the inspiration and energy is there. where is the-#-action my guy#like brain. dude. man. girl. c'mon. we literally have no reason to be avoiding this- we Like doing it what even Is This#could be i'm just hecka lazy. but i WANT to do it. i just can't get my body to kind of connect? in a way??#there's a large part of the Brayn that says 'er. no' and the Body is just like 'oh. sorry :/ boss says no' But I'M The Boss?????#i really wanna give my Brayn a good smack. just a solid wake-up hit#maybe even punt it and get a new one at the Brayn Store#maybe it could run smooth and not feel so crunchy and full all the time#that'd be nice#ts. tsh. t.#i think if i had to choose. i'd trade my brain#above everything else#not really i mean. i mean what meaning might be attached to it#saying 'mean' a lot. gotta fix that#but if i traded my liver. would my words be more sharp? would i be too curt to enjoy myself? hm#if i traded my stomach. would i lose any form of wanting? craving? desiring?#if i traded my tongue. would i still be able to write? would i be speaking nonsense?#what about my bones? all structure is gone. it'd all be some jumbled mess. how do you tell a brain from a heart without pillars to-#-separate the ceiling and the floor??#what would i lose if i traded the meaning of my lungs. i guess it matters what i put to it#gold's only worth as much as one thinks. right?#lungs are the same#ah actually i didn't realize i'd started off there#yeah anyway i was reading this neat book about the history of astronomy and ahahhhghhahghahhahahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#i love love love it it's so [incoherent thought]
