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And that seemingly ever-present mood never failed to grate on Kageyama’s nerves.
“I don’t think so. I won’t lose to you as a setter anymore.”
“I find the fact that you actually believe that simply adorable. Are you always plagued by such delusional thoughts, Tobio-chan?” Oikawa placed an extra emphasis on the younger’s nickname, drawing it out in a way he knew would only further irritate Kageyama.
“Someone that’s clearly superior to you in every way imaginable.” It seemed no matter what Kageyama said to him, Oikawa was always in the mood to try and pick a fight with him.
Was that right? It couldn't be right. Could it? Kageyama, that black-haired, annoying thick-headed, stupidly over-heated, incompetent idiot, was--dare he even think it--dead?
There must be a mistake. There had to be. Kei knew that Kageyama was stupid enough to get himself hurt, but stupid enough to get himself killed? That was out of the question. He knew that even Kageyama knew better than that. But there were so many questions running through Kei's mind, making him crazy. How? When? Where? Was there a 'why' to this scenario, even? He wasn't sure--he didn't know anything anymore. It was like his mind was completely wiped of intelligence, of sense and conscious.
His body felt numb. It practically moved on its own as he excuse himself from the small circle of teammates, from the rest of the team, turning himself to walk outside of the gym. Away from the people, away from the stuffy air, away from the tears and the sniffles that were still ringing in his ears. Everything felt constricted. Nothing felt right, nothing felt in order anymore. It was almost like his world was being tilted at an awkward angle, where nothing was upside down, but nothing was right-side up, either.
And what got him the most was how tight his chest felt. How he fell down to the ground on one knee by a tree, a hand clutching at the shirt on his chest. And the sudden tears that he felt running down his face, falling to the Earth quicker than he would have liked. It felt like his eyes were overflowing. He was forced to take his glasses off and put them down on the ground, pressing the palms of his hands against his eyes, trying to make them stop. But it didn't work. And he could only curl into himself, as he always did, and let it go in silent, wailing protests of anger and frustration that would go unheard by any living being.
pairing: tsukishima kei/tobio kageyama
nsfw because it's literally sex
words: 3.2k (3,203 exactly)
weeeeelp, this is all because of my friend val who dragged me deep deep deep down into tsukikage hell, and here we are. enjoy.
They breathed into each other, leaned into each other, took each other in. Despite that they were going slow, everything seemed to be going by in a haze, both of them in dazes from what they were feeling and from each other. Every action was intimate and every touch shot waves of emotions through both of them, their inner states slowly becoming weaker to the other.
Tobio sat in Kei's lap, fingers cupping the blond's face as they kissed, his head tilted just slightly. Their lips moved together in sync, still just a little inexperienced even despite how much they had kissed each other before. They kissed slowly, lightly and gently touching each other. Tobio kept his hands on Kei's face area, his fingers dragging along his cheeks before moving up to run through the blond hair on Kei's head, sometimes curling into it for just a moment before his fingers went back to roaming Kei's face. Kei's hands stayed towards Tobio's hips and abdomen area, his palms rubbing at the other's hips, his fingers gripping onto them occasionally and sometimes sliding under the hem of Tobio's shirt to rub at the bare skin of his sides, which always gained a small shiver from the raven haired male.
Both of them loved the little reactions that they could get out of the other, the little grunts and the small shivers and the slightest twitch of a body part. It made them feel more connected, and it made them feel closer, and feel like they knew the other even better than before. They already knew so much information about each other, their likes and dislikes, the scarring things that happened to them when they were younger.
Sex was the one thing that would bring them even closer to each other.
They parted for breathe, panting softly against each other's lips. Tobio's cheeks were red, and Kei's were only tinted pink. The setter got more embarrassed than the middle blocked did, which was something Kei enjoyed greatly. Kei leaned in, nuzzling into Tobio's neck before pressing a small kiss to the crook of his neck. Tobio let out a small sigh through his nose, his fingers going through Kei's hair once more. Taking a bit more charge, Kei leaned into the other more, pressing more kisses along the lining of the white t-shirt Tobio wore. He kissed up further, along his jawline and onto his chin, before pressing another kiss to the already pink and swollen lips.
There came a slight twitch from Tobio's hips, his body edging towards Kei's very slightly, but enough for Kei to notice it. The blond glanced at his boyfriend from over the edge of his glasses, catching the slightly glossy look in the dark blue eyes. "Tobio," Kei murmured his name quietly, leaning himself up to press his forehead against the other's, "Tobio, do you want..." he paused.
"Do I what...?" There was a curious tone in Tobio's voice.
"Do you want to have sex with me?" Kei asked, leaning back now and tilting his golden eyes to look into Tobio's dark blue ones.
Apparently the question had caught Tobio by surprise, but not by too much surprise, because after just a small minute of him staring open-mouthed at Kei, Tobio closed his mouth and bit his bottom lip lightly. He chewed on it a bit in thought, his fingers suddenly bunching up Kei's shirt a bit. "I...want to have sex with you, Kei." Tobio's eyes slid over to Kei's, and he nodded slightly, as if to confirm it to himself.
"Are you sure?"
"Yes."
With a simple word, Kei could feel his entire body suddenly fill with heat. He felt hot all over, like he was running a fever, his whole body burning. Something in him wanted to grab Tobio, push him against the wall, and hurry up with the sex--but Kei didn't want that. He wanted to take it slow, make it intimate, make it something special and something that they wouldn't ever forget for as long as their relationship intended to last.
In a movement, Kei had Tobio lying back on the bed now, their lips matching together in sync once more. But this time their hands decided to wonder each other's bodies, gripping onto clothing and skin alike. This time there were more noises than just the regular kissing noises, slightly whines from Tobio and very, very quiet moans from the both of them. Soon enough their shirts were off, and they were touching each other's chests. Tobio seemed the most embarrassed by it, and he didn't want to face Kei while his hands and lips were roaming the newly exposed skin. His head was turned to the side, cheeks blazing red, and his eyes almost squeezed shut. Kei glanced up at him, planting a kiss in the middle of his chest, right where he believed his heart to be. After that, he leaned back, sitting up on his knees some.
Tobio turned his head straight and looked up at him, slight worry appearing in his stormy eyes. Smiling reassuringly, Kei reached down and touched his cheek. "I'm just taking my glasses off," and he did, sliding the black frames off and setting them down on the table beside the bed, before leaning down and kissing Tobio's mouth again, muttering against it, "idiot." There came a muffled 'shut up' from Tobio as they kissed once more, bodies being pressed together.
After another minute or so of kissing and heavy touching, both of them were panting and red-faced with their hormones raging. At this point, Kei really /did/ want sex with Tobio to go fast. But he restrained himself still, pulling himself away from Tobio's body now. Tobio wore a slight pout then, his hands reaching out towards Kei's body slightly, fingers outstretched. With a small amused smile, Kei reached out and took Tobio's hands in his, lacing their fingers together. He pulled his boyfriend's hands up to his lips, kissing his fingers lightly, mumbling. "You've gotta give my mouth a break some time, you know."
Tobio rolled his eyes. "Whatever."
Kei flashed him a small grin, letting go of his hands then.
They stripped each other further, pulling their pants off clumsily with exchanged small laughs and smiles as they fumbled around on the bed. Now they were back in their previous position, with Tobio laid back on the bed and Kei above him. Suddenly they both felt completely nervous, with their bodies mostly exposed to the other now, their eyes wandering around the other's bodies. Perhaps they were both thinking the same things--is he still attracted now? Is he turned off? Is there something wrong with my body?
Ridding himself of those thoughts, Kei moved himself downward, leaning down to Tobio's waist. He placed a small kiss above the waistband of his boxers, and a small noise came from Tobio's lips. That gave Kei sudden confidence in himself and his actions now, and he smiled slightly to himself, being careful not to let Tobio feel or see it. Proud of that now he elicited from the other, Kei then pulled his head back just a bit again, his fingers curling around the waistband of Tobio's boxers. He looked up at him some, biting his bottom lip slightly. "It's okay if I..."
"--just take them off already." Tobio said, cutting off Kei's question. And with that conformation, Kei nodded, slowly tugging the piece of fabric away from Tobio's body now. Tobio lifted his legs some, pressing his thighs together to make it easier for Kei to remove the boxers. His legs fell back onto the bed afterwards, spread open some so they fell on either side of Kei, who was kneeling in front of him. Tobio's cheeks flared red, his body now lying exposed in front of the blond. But he felt the way Kei was looking at him, at his face, at his body; the other's gaze was completely filled with love and admiration.
"Stop looking at me like that..." he muttered.
"Like what?" Kei's eyebrow quirked up.
"I...I don't know, just stop it with that face!"
"But this is just my face."
"Exactly!"
Kei let out a breathy chuckle and smiled down at the raven haired male, eyes softening into it's former gaze. Fumbling some again, Kei took his boxers off as well, tossing both pieces of clothing down on the floor with the rest of their clothes. He leaned over Tobio then, reaching over to the table beside them. He opened up the drawer then and rummaged around it for a minute before he pulled out the needed items, lube and a condom.
"Were you prepared for this before the decision?" Tobio mumbled, eyeing the items in Kei's hand now.
"The condom is from my brother. He gave me a bunch as soon as he found out you and I were dating," Kei replied, remembering how Akiteru immediately started talking about the 'proper way' to have sex with a guy, even though he had little to no experience himself. "But, uh. Yeah. Kinda."
A breathy chuckle escaped Tobio. "What if I had said no?" he inquired.
"Then, I guess these would've just gone untouched."
That got a small smile from Tobio, and Kei smiled back down at him. Tobio was happy that Kei was thinking of him, and Kei knew better than to end up forcing Tobio into sex with him if he really didn't want to do it. Which, if Tobio had refused his offer, then Kei would've been fine with it. He'd handle his hormones on his own until Tobio was ready, if he were to ever be ready.
"We need to prepare you..." Kei mumbled, mainly to himself. He felt his cheeks heat up, and he glanced down to see Tobio's cheeks slowly reddening again.
"Right," Tobio breathed, one hand reaching up to grip onto Kei's arm slightly, "prepare me..."
Kei leaned back on his legs again, taking his arm from Tobio, reluctantly on Tobio's part, and he opened the lube. He squeezed some onto his first two fingers, spreading it around between the two and with the help of his thumb as he made sure they were coated well. He shut the tube before setting it down beside him on the bed, his other hand reaching down between Tobio's legs. Kei glanced up at Tobio, whose eyes were a bit wide, but fulled with excitement and curiosity, and maybe slight uncertainty. "I'm putting one in now, okay?" With that quiet warning and a nod from Tobio, Kei pressed his finger against Tobio's entrance, pressing on it for a few moments before he slowly pushed his finger in, watching as Tobio's body tensed up, his breath hitching at the same time. Kei was careful, staying still for a moment before he pushed it in farther, then pulled it back out. Tobio's body responded with Kei's finger, tensing up as it went in and relaxing when it was pulled back some. But he was slowly getting used to the feel, and small, quiet moans decided to leave his throat.
At this, Kei was pleased with himself. He bit his bottom lip lightly as he watched Tobio's body shift, his hips twitching up off the bed slightly. "Are you ready for the second one?" Tobio nodded, unable to form words at the moment, and Kei nodded back in response. He was double as careful this time, pressing his middle finger against Tobio's entrance along with his first finger. He slid them into Tobio and gained a hitched, slightly hig moan from Tobio. The black haired boy's face lit up red, and he pulled an arm up over his mouth after he had made the sound, shaking his head a bit to himself. Kei was a bit amused at how shy he was being about his moans and the sounds he was making, and found it quite adorable. He chuckled quietly to himself, continuing to move his fingers around in Tobio, occasionally spreading his fingers slightly into the form of scissors. Kei lifted one of Tobio's legs up, putting it over his shoulder as he kissed at the calf and knee, his eyes still watching Tobio's movements. His fingers went in all the way to his middle knuckle, and he slowly pushed them in farther.
Tobio's hips twitched upwards towards Kei's hand, pressing into his fingers more. He bit his lip and moaned out, which sounded ridiculous in his own ears. He pressed his arm against his mouth more, trying to lower the volume of his moans--but it was hard. Kei was making him feel so--so—so good. There weren't any words to describe it. But this was just the beginning of it, and Tobio knew he'd be feeling even better when things really did start.
After another minute or two of prepping, Tobio was growing impatient with Kei now, a whine falling past his lips. "D-Dammit, just put it in already--a-ahhn...nn..."
Kei gave an amused smirk, and he couldn't help himself from chuckling. "A bit eager, aren't we?"
Tobio shot him a small glare from where he lay, legs spread and face red and completely in his hands. With another chuckle, Kei abided by Tobio's wishes. He took his fingers from Tobio and reached down, grabbing his t-shirt and wiping his fingers off with it. The bed would end up getting pretty messy soon, anyways. The blond took the minute to unwrap the condom and slide it on, taking the lube afterwards and applying some over the condom. He was already pretty hard, and he could see that Tobio was pretty hard, too. He smiled slightly to himself, before shaking his head slightly, as discreetly as he could.
While he did this, Tobio still laid there, impatient. He watched Kei prep himself for what they were about to do, and it made him want to tell Kei to hurry up and do him already. He bit his lip to refrain from doing so, pressing his shoulders back into the pillow some. "Kei...would you hurry?"
"As you wish," the blond hummed slightly, smiling down at Tobio. He leaned down, capturing Tobio's lips with his own as he prodded at Tobio's entrance with his tip. Tobio couldn't make a protest to such stupid words then, a moan arising from his throat the moment he opened his mouth.
Slowly, but surely, Kei pressed his way into Tobio, his cock going in most of the way, but not all the way. That was fine, though. He pulled his hips back, pulling all the way out of Tobio for a moment before pushing back into him. Kei continued that motion, slowly pushing in and pulling back, though he made sure to leave more and more of himself inside of Tobio every time he pulled back. He wanted both of them to get used to the movements, to the way their hips touched, to the way they moaned into each other's mouths as they did these actions.
"You ready?" Kei mumbled against Tobio's jaw, which got him a small snort from the other male.
"Your dick's already been inside me, and you have the nerve to ask me that now?" Tobio grunted, gasping slightly in a pause.
He had a good point. Kei chuckled to himself and just nodded, before starting to actually thrust his hips now. After a few thrusts, Kei was starting to find his rhythm, thrusting with more confidence and more ease now. He shifted his hips slightly, adjusting them over Tobio’s so that their bodies fit together more. Beneath him, Tobio was practically melting. Melting into Kei’s touch, into Kei’s hands, into Kei’s body. Pleasure was running through his entire body, and he felt good.
They kissed as Kei continued to thrust, grabbed onto each other’s bodies and held each other close as much as they could, their chests pressing together. They breathed into each other, leaned into each other, took each other in. Despite that they were going slow, everything seemed to be going by in a haze, both of them in dazes from what they were feeling and from each other. Every action was intimate and every touch shot waves of emotions through both of them, their inner states slowly becoming weaker to the other.
“K-Kei...touch me.” Tobio breathed against his lips, his back arching slightly from the bed. His own cock hadn’t been touched yet, but it was clear as daylight that he was hard and needed some closure.
Tobio only received a nod from Kei, one of Kei’s hands reaching down and wrapping around Tobio’s cock, his thumb rubbing along it already. He ran his thumb over the tip, feeling Tobio’s body respond to his touch. His body arched off of the bed some, and his breath hitched, before he let out a somewhat loud moan. It embarrassed him, painfully obviously, and Tobio pressed his arm over his mouth once more, avoiding all eye contact from Kei. But Kei merely smiled small at his reaction, continuing to work with his hand. Slowly, he started to pump his hand in time with his thrusts. With both stimulations at once, Tobio was slowly starting to feel a bit overwhelmed by the sensations.
Words weren’t coming to Tobio’s mind, and all that he accomplished were soft moans and grunts and pants. Kei was quiet, make quiet grunts and pants himself, but every so often he would mumble out “Tobio” and “I love you”s in his quietness. Hearing those words and his name only made Tobio’s moans grow louder, occasional whines following suit.
Slowly, but surely, they started to reach their limits together. Kei’s thrusts were beginning to be faster, and he removed his hand from Tobio in order to grab onto the bed’s sheets. His other hand moved up and took Tobio’s arm away from his face, and he held onto that hand, slowly lacing their fingers together. He squeezed Tobio’s hand, and Tobio squeezed back. They gripped onto each other’s hands and onto the other’s body, feeling their limit being reached very soon. After just a few more thrusts from Kei, Tobio moaned Kei’s name out, gripping at his shoulder blade and burying his face into Kei’s neck. And Kei moaned Tobio’s name out, his hands gripping at whatever they were holding. They climaxed together, and a shudder ran down Kei’s spine, a small shiver going down Tobio’s.
They stayed like that for a moment, panting and keeping each other close before they slowly started to untangle themselves from each other. Kei pulled his hips back, pulling out of Tobio, who gave a slight whine at the feeling and bit his lip straight after it slipped. Kei smiled softly at him, just a slight chuckle arising from him. Both of them were tired afterwards, but they first cleaned themselves up some before Kei laid himself down on the bed beside Tobio, who then curled himself into the other. Kei wrapped his arms around the other, pulling him in close. Their eyes soon closed, and they laid there together in comfortable silence with peace of mind, before they drifted off into sleep.
