#rimbaudkin

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BSD KINS HOW ARE WE FEELING AFTER THAT NEW CHAPTER? (verlaine oh my god. i missed you. <3 MY HUSBAND IS OUT OF THE BASEMENT!!) -sigma & rimbaud (bungo stray dogs) #💜🎰🤍

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cannon thanks; i only really have one. thank you to the flags for taking care of chuuya. im in your debt. you were truly the best family the universe could have blessed him with. i am truly grateful. - rimbaud [bungo stray dogs] #💜🎰🤍

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big sigh. hi fictionkinfessions, its ya boy. im feeling sentimental again. (#｀-_ゝ-) im missing,, dazai. for some reason. im not sure why. i recently reread the 15 light novel and it gave me some mixed feelings. is it weird to say i feel,, maternal? to 15 dazai? because i do. i really really do. to him and chuuya. im not sure. they were too young. it hurts my heart to see them in such an environment at such a young age, let alone being so violent. when i was their age i was busy making friends in school, reading poetry, enjoying time with my parents.. they never really got that, and it hurts me to know they didnt. if its worth anything to either of you, i miss you dearly! please be safe! i hope you got to experience everything beautiful about being human in this life. - rimbaud [bungo stray dogs] #💜🎰🤍

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ahh, verlaine! i miss you more every day. i cant do this, my love, how am i meant to make it here without you? im crying tears over this, real tears that i havent shed since i lost you the first time. yearning is the worst punishment the world has ever given me. i feel like im doing everything to feel closer to you, but it just wont happen. i would say just a sign youre alive would be enough but i am a greedy greedy man and i am desperate to see you! i would never settle until i can have you in my arms again. oh god, help me, im trying to get myself together. ive had to edit this 3 times. i dont know if i ever did something wrong to you, if thats why i can never seem to find you, but if i did, im sorry. come back, come back, i promise to be good. what do i have to do to see you again? if youd just ask it of me i would do it, and you know that! you already have my heart, what else do you want from me? what more do i have to give than that? even if i did, somehow, meet you, god, what would you even think of me? im stuck in this body, i hardly look like myself, you would never recognize me. what if we've met? and we had no idea, and i've missed my chance, and youll never come back? if i think on it more ill cry again. ill send a thousand confessions if i have to. ill send them, even for the slightest chance that someday, youll come here, and youll find just one, and youll find all the notes ive written here, and theyre all for you, every one of them. if i can make your life even a little bit brighter, then every word was worth it. im out there, i promise, i am. i wont give up hope because i know you are too! i wont give up because you deserve somebody who wont do that to you! ill do what i can. i promise. (forgive me for how long and rambled this is,,, i shouldnt be allowed to have access to a keyboard past 9pm if im being completely honest,,) - rimbaud [bungo stray dogs] #💜🎰🤍

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getting very tired of people acting as if i was verlaines therapist. yes, i helped him. yes, i was happy to do so. but he was no scared helpless cat and i was not speaking in hushed baby voices to speak to him. we're grown men. grown men can help eachother. our relationship wasnt one-sided- even if he didnt accept his love for me he helped me when it was hard. and it was difficult very often. i was chronically ill and sickly most days. i dont think that means either of us need a babysitter. also can we please stop with the twinkification of me. i was fat, thank you - rimbaud [kungo stray dogs] #💜🎰🤍

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cannon alignments;

as sigma, i think i was probably lawful good? maybe lawful neutral? somewhere in that pipeline. as rimbaud, i think id say the same. lawful neutral. i got morals, and ill stand by them. simple. whether those morals are really *good*.. debatable. -sigma and rimbaud [bungo stray dogs] #💜🎰🤍

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verlaine,

ill always miss you. every day, i miss you. and im so happy you survived. watching you, following you around as a ghost every day, broke my heart. watching you do everything. the blood, the quiet life in the shadows.

i wish, nowadays, that we could have lived out our lives in the countryside with chuuya. sitting in wicker chairs and waiting for the storm.

i hope my present to you this time was better than the last.

yours always, rimbaud [bungo stray dogs] #💜🎰🤍

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