Fantastic Life (Mark E Smith 1957 - 2018)
When I started this blog, it was something of a displacement activity. Not a distraction, that would be too simplistic.
The Fall’s catalogue was something I saw as a jigsaw - whilst each piece could be full of strangeness (like a rich painting), these seemingly disparate missives were connected. There were lyrical themes, musical ones too and yet there was never an easy path or line one could draw. Complex and confrontational, The Fall were puzzling in the best of ways. And there was plenty over which one could puzzle. This is what I was seeking in 2012 - a lifelong conundrum was approaching a single solution and that solution was terrifying. The Fall were my *other* puzzle, the thought process that could take over when my mind was exhausted from the anxiety and stress of my transition.
The point at which I abandoned the page is interesting in retrospect. I was cross with Mark E Smith and his attitude to his former colleagues as well as to his past works. Part of this was down to him, most was down to me - I felt let down my him; I'd spent all this time on the clues and allusions he had left, only for him to dismiss them with little more than a wave. But there was another truth - I was in a whole other place and my day to day life gave me enough to think (and write) about and I no longer needed to approach The Fall this way.
I kind of lost them. I wasn’t sufficiently enthused by “Sub-Lingual Tablet” to feel like writing about it. I listened to The Fall less and less.I remained interested and still watched their progress and I still looked forward to and bought new music as well as some reissue material. But I didn’t really get The Fall back until early in 2017. I had been in hospital in Brighton for just over a week for my gender reassignment surgery and was back in Glasgow recovering. I was housebound for a fortnight and would not return to work for a further 6 or 7 weeks. I needed comfort and distraction and it was inevitable that music would provide this. I added albums and catalogues to my phone - Autechre, John Coltrane, Manic Street Preachers....I was almost nervous about adding The Fall but I did and within a week or two, I had 307 Fall songs on shuffle for a couple of hours a day. Released from the self-created pressure of analysis and conscious diversion, I began to just plain enjoy them again. By the time I was back at my desk, The Fall were back to being my favourite band in the world again. Full circle - I had regained that sense of wonder, the delightful confusion they could create, the sheer exhilaration of their attack. “New Facts Emerge” had plenty to please and, battling depression once again, I managed to drag myself out to see them in Glasgow on 4th November 2017.
So. That’s that. It’s over. The catalogue is now fixed. Whilst I’m sure we will hear further live recordings and maybe some of the material they worked on late last year, these will be appendices.
What a discography. What a run. What a group.
There was only one Mark E. Smith. I;m not sure what I’m going to do without him.












