my top 10 songs for october
//this month was the fastest in all of the year.
1. snowflake by Powfu, Jaden & Sarcastic Sounds
now this song IS something special. I could rant about it all day long and it still wouldn't be all of it. this is the story of a beautiful love, heartbreak, loss and mourning it all. it is the perfect combination of sadness and happy memories for me.
+ there was one guy who called me 'snowflake' who had a special place in my life. it reminded me much happier times in my life and really made me value the things I have.
I mastered travelling to my workplace this month and this song was a huge part of it. in the beginning of the month I felt so much and so little at the same time that I was listening to 1 song on the 40 minutes I spent travelling on repeat. this was the lucky one that I never got bored of - with number one.
3. Save That Shit by Lil Peep
I know I've been listening to this exact song for a while now. I love it to bits, but somehow he didn't make it into my top10's before. this is a masterpiece, I even wrote a novel based around this song/the experience of listening to it.
and I was on a little trip with some of my friends in the beginning of the month. we were coming home from some parties (several ones in one night) and I was handed the phone to check on the music every once in a while. I saw all the recommended music and chose to play this song because it's a fucking mood and we had so much fun with the boy who drove.
4. Go Solo by Tom Rosenthal
this song made it to my "songs that make me feel like home" playlist and I think that in itself is enough as an explanation.
5. RIP Roach by XXXTENTACION & Ski Mask The Slump God
there are things that we don't have to speak about.
actually "momma raised a solider not a bitch" is my kind of self-care and the way I hype myself up for shit. let's just say I needed a lot of that this last month.
oh, it's a perfect example of things we don't need to talk about.
this one makes my brain real happy and when things get this rough, I need every second of joy that I can give to myself.
7. Bored by Billie Eilish
found this at the middle of the month, I could realte a lot so I listened, but it didn't help my depression. actually it triggered me a lot but I didn't even notice until it was too late.
8. Better wash my mouth out with the soap - slowed by Sobertune
this remix is something out of this world. I actually love the blackbear song it's mixed with so it's a win-win. sadly the lyrics are resonating with me on a different level.
"god, I wish I never spoke, now I gotta wash my mouth out with soap"
9. Sick and Tired by iann dior, Machine Gun Kelly & Travis Barker
this is the golden trio! the artists are such a great pair.
the song is such a cool one. it has the best vibes for being stuck somewhere, loosing your mind and trying to figure shit out.
10. Life Goes On by Oliver Tree
I somehow get turned off when I listen to this one. my brain stops working, overthinking and feeling and it is a real special experience. I love it to bits.