Your fics have inspired me, Keith Buckley x Joe Trohman is real nd it will be a fic someday.
old men yaoi is on the menu for 2026
MAKE IT REAL MAKE IT REAL. BE THE CHANGE. MY DMS ARE ALWAYS OPEN IF YOU WANT TO WORKSHOP EVERYTHING I'VE WRITTEN SINCE LIKE 2017 HAS BEEN WORKSHOPPED W/ OTHER PPL
HONESTLY the damned things is such a treasure trove of fucked up old men yaoi I can't believe we don't have more fic. there exists one (1) keith/joe the damned things fic. ONE
2010/11 Keith/Joe???? that's prime alcoholic stepdad keith!!! also that's back when Andy still had his long hair, my beloved 😍😍😍
+ the dichotomy of vegan straight edge andy / fucked up alcoholic keith is. something special. i can fix him/i can make him worse 🥹 sorry I'm hijacking the original point
(I've got a thing for drummers)
But like. i believe you. you're right. tell me more *kicks feet*
i need u to know that this is the funniest shit i’ve ever seen and i think ab it all the time.
me and oomfie will be in a room and i’ll just turn to them and go ‘he was suddenly transported to the worlds worst rave’
us decorating for xmas was just this phrase bouncing back and forth between us
maurrons 5ever
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im gonna b thinking abt this ask for the rest of my life actually. the impact. real people read my shit??? people who are real???? and they LIKE it??
real talk the last three days of my life have been really really hard, and seeing this just now legit brightened my mood so much. comment on your fave fics, guys there're people on the other end who it means the world to. 🫶
It's back to 2016 again. :( Are we going to be okay?
Well, I'm not 17 years old anymore, so I'm already doing better than I was back then.
I'm literally just a random porn author on the internet so I can't say I have the most insightful take on this, but the community has survived worse. They've spent decades trying to rip community away from us so now's the time to cling to it. Volunteer if you can. Learn how to fix your own clothes. Refuse to participate as much as possible in the bloodsport of capitalism that brought this about.
And, above all, be kind. There are people out there who hate us so much that making sure they were allowed to keep hating us was more important to them than anything else in the world, and they don't care about identity politics, they don't care if you're one of the good ones.
Will you be okay? Will I be okay? When? I don't know. But will we be okay? Unequivocally yes, but it's up to us now to make sure of it.
Will you be giving the dl series an ending or would it be left as an incomplete fic once you lose the motivation? Because i am too much in love with the universe to be able to deal with the fact that the series may never be updated again if there would be no heavy(maybe heart breaking too?) ending to calm my soul lol (pardon my English because I use a translator)
Alright, I've sat on this ask for a few weeks now because I just didn't have the mental fortitude to give it the response it deserves. I slept 12 hours last night, and I feel like a new man, so let's tackle this.
I started writing Healed at the Horror Show in 2016 when i was 17 years old. I lived at home, didn't have a job, didn't pay any bills, and was surrounded by people who loved MCR. Almost my entire social circle was online and was about MCR.
I'm 25 now. I'm married. I have a full time job and bills. I only talk to one person from that original friend group anymore, and I'm super active in my local underground hardcore scene. Being honest, I don't even sit and listen to MCR anymore. I owe them so so so much of my life. They're the reason I am who I am today, but I have incredibly limited free time, and I want to spend it doing things I'm really truly passionate about still.
I have drafts and half written things for the DL verse, and maybe someday I'll finish them. I know how they end. I know how it all ends, but I don't have the passion for the project required to spend dozens of hours bringing it to life anymore. Every October I feel this sense of dread because I KNOW people want more. It's truly the only work I've ever written that seems to have resonated strongly with anyone, and that....kind of hurts, honestly. It changed my life in many ways, but it's just. Not my priority right now. I want to write things that bring me joy because I want to write them, not write them because other people want them and WORRY the whole time that it won't be what they want. I hate writing for an audience instead of writing for myself.
So, to actually answer your question, I'll not be writing the conclusion any time soon. I love the universe and the characters, but it's a relic of a past me that I've been desperately trying to dredge up and cling to for years because it made people like me. I know how it ends, I can tell you if you want, but the time it would take to write it into something I'd be proud of and willing to post is not time I have right now.
I think my previous message may not have reached you so im resenting it again. Hope this is not awkward or weird or anything but I just wanted to ask whether there are some specific songs or images or movies which you consider has the same vibe and aesthetic as your Desperate Lovers series BECAUSE I AM IN LOVE WITH IT. Seriously I can't wait for your update on Halloween :3. It is legit my favorite piece of literary work. I just freaking love it to put it in short. And also how would describe both mikey and gee's personality? As for the vibe, I did find some songs from MIW's Graveyard Shift album which reminded me of them. I just need your certified recommendations of things associated with the fic lol. I just love it. Thank you so much for writing it! Eternally grateful <3
Hi yes sorry I got both of them. Notably I am flying across the country for an orgy/BDSM event in literally less than 48hrs so my brain is NOT all the way here.
I actually do have a Mikey playlist for this universe. It's......eclectic, much like my music tastes, so sorry in advance lmao.
As far as like Other Media, get ready for a weird collection of recommendations. I CANNOT describe to you why these are the same vibe, but they are. Like all of these are integral to DL existing. Remove one of them and the whole thing falls apart.
S.K. Anon Series on Ao3 by doctor_jasley and gala_apples
As far as a direct inspiration for Desperate Lovers, look no further than The Twelve Steps (to a chalk outline). I read this a decade ago at this point, and it's 100% the reason I wrote Healed at the Horror Show. Sorry if you hate Brendon Urie (relatable).
Repo! The Genetic Opera (2008)
Literally cannot describe to you how foundational to my brain chemistry this musical is. 80% chance this is where the necro kink came frm. Terrance Zdunich who wrote it is a PIECE of SHIT tho so absolutely pirate it.
Red vs Blue
DO NOT @ ME ABOUT THIS I WILL TAKE NO CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISM
If you have EVER found ANYTHING I've ever written funny it is because of Geoffrey Lazer Ramsey, Matt Hullum, Joel Heyman, Michael Burnie Burns, and Gustavo Gus Sorola. Like I'm SORRY but they raised me. They created my favorite murder obsessed freak, Felix McScouty, and they are ABSOLUTELY the reason I am so horny about knives.
The Rocky Horror Picture Show (1975 NOT the remake)
I'LL COME BACK LATER AND TALK ABT THEIR INDIVIDUAL PERSONALITIES I am on mobile and literally stopped packing bc I remembered I had this ask. If you have a discord DM me on here and I'll add you also. I LOVE talking abt my boys. I am just. Busy lol.
i truly feel this one is self explanatory. these bitches gay AND murderous.
hi!!!! As a baby queer to an established queer: can I ask you what your best threesome you ever had and worst threesome you ever had were?? If you have of course!! And I'm sorry if this is too personal.... I'm just starting to experiment with my friends, and I love your blog and your openness, and felt like you'd have maybe good stories... 🥹🥹
Hiyeeeee. So I've technically had a lot of threesomes? But just with the same people. I feel like I have a LOT better stories abt non-threesomes lol.
I was in a throuple when I was 18 (they're engaged now! congrats you two, lol), and then I fooled around w/ two of my friends who were engaged for a while.
The best one was definitely during the throuple. We fucked in my parents bed a lot because we all still lived at home. It was with my first girlfriend, also. You always remember your first more fondly than anything else I believe. I feel weird sharing too many details bc I do still talk to them occasionally.
The WORST though. Man.
If I can offer you any advice in your journeys, think with the brain in your head, and don't help monogamous people experiment. I ignored A LOT of red flags because I was 20 and horny, including the fact that the person I considered my best friend at the time was wildly uncomfortable with me sleeping with her fiance. She broke down crying the first time because it was so distressing and then--here's the kicker--WE KEPT DOING IT, FOR LIKE, SIX MONTHS? Because she wanted to make him happy, I was in love with her, and he was a man.
Consent is not consent if it's coerced. You can't control other people doing things or their motivation, but YOU can and should say no if you sense that they're not all about it.
I found out about a year later that he SECRETLY RECORDED THE FIRST TIME on his laptop webcam, also. So, third piece of advice, don't let anyone point a laptop at you while you sleep with them. He's currently in jail states away for soliciting a minor, and she doesn't talk to me anymore.
Your desperate lovers series has greatly impacted me as a person. Im thinking about getting a tattoo based off of it. Are there any visual symbols or motifs that come to your mind when you think about writing them?
I really cannot emphasize how much those works mean to me. I don't think I would be as far in my journey of self acceptance and artistic expression. I have friends who have felt more comfortable to explore the macabre and taboo because of me. They ask me how i found the confidence to be such a freak and i always point back to your fics.
Thank you for writing and thank you for sharing. Its really impacted some people.
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Oh god oh man. That's like. So incredibly honoring. PLEASE please feel free to DM if you want to talk about it more. (I actually have a relevant tattoo I'd like to show you if you do. I don't post identifiable photos here.)
I can't even put into words what this message means as an author.
Something you need to know is that Desperate Lovers is a song by King 810 which HEAVILY inspired me.
"I needed something from you, that shit you're ashamed of that's sick and disgusting. [...] I need your blood and guts. Give me your blood, motherfucker. I want you, all of you, like we're two desperate lovers."
The imagery I think of most is definitely Mikey's knife. Which is ironic because I don't think I've ever actually described it in detail, but I've always imagined him with a wood-handled folding buck knife. Something like this:
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I also think about hands and mouths covered in blood a lot. Mikey's blood soaked hands gripping Gerard's cheeks. Mikey licking up the blood running down his wrist or biting hard enough to break skin. His fingers digging into the wound on Cat's (Kat's?) neck, ripping it open wider. Both of them gripping each other, after, Gerard's bloody hands shaking and slipping and Mikey's holding him steady. Mikey's hands disappearing in the viscera of the human abdominal cavity.
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That brings up a good point actually, I've always found disembowelment to be the most sexual way of killing someone, splitting them from ribcage to pelvis and flaying them open so everything they try so hard to keep in spills out of them. The Y cut of the autopsy. The way every time Mikey thinks about killing Gerard it's by cutting him open so he can see his insides, so he can grab his brothers beating heart in his own two hands until it stops beating because of him. So he can wrap Gerard's guts around his cock and rub his cum into his meat and his bones so it will always always always be a part of him.
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A few of my favorite lines from Healed--specifically ones I've thought about getting tattooed myself--are:
"I don't think god would let me get away with the things I've done.
"You're going to look so pretty covered in blood."
and ”I killed a man tonight, and you’re reading a magazine.”
So uh, yeah! I'm not sure if this made any sense or was helpful, but like I said please please DM if you have any questions (or if you just want to talk abt DL. I love these boys, life just keeps getting in the way of Making Things. (Or if you want to talk about other bandom things. (I'm very friendly just autistic.)))
