#rlkmsdiaries

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uh hello zoloft if ur there cOULD YOU FUCKING DO SOMETHING

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depression do you MIND i have shit to do

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i have bruises all over my legs deadass looks like someone beat me up lmao

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tw'ing de fuck out of this bc i need to word vomit but hatehatehate sharing triggers so PLZ (i talk weight numbers below)

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OK so i weighed myself and I'm 91 pounds which is like fine whatever (i'm 4"10 soooo) but that's the first time i've weighed myself in YEARS. the last time i did was post recovery (dumbass decision fyi i cried for days) and i was 7 and a half stone which is like 105 pounds. yeesh. 7 stone was always the number my ed would NEVER let me surpass so recovering (get it har har har) from seeing the number took like a good year. now that i'm below that again i'm gonna have to go through all that all over again - joy. deadass recovery was the hardest thing i've ever had to do and doing it again is uhhhh a rough thought. i mean its recover or die, ultimately. that's what rexie is. depressing ass shit fuck this disorder man

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ugh ok so i’m like a chronic sh’er been doing it TeN yEaRs but i’ve started seeing someone recently and my lord it’s hard out here. been trying to stop doing it for like a year anyway but now someone will know if i relapse- v stressful but i guess it’s not necessarily a bad thing. yeesh

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why is zoloft giving me brain zaps wtf