#roachrant

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i started reading the apothecary diaries yesterday and now chapters 37-39 (rose balsam and wood sorrel) have rendered me a sobbing mess

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almost got a virus on my phone from bein dumb

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im not a small talk hater

im more of a small talk mocker

like im sorry, i cant help but giggle if its obvious you said something to fill the void, no matter how conversation important it is

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so when im about to sleep and have an idea late at night i just type whatever real fast so i dont lose sleep and i can continue the next day (i, in fact, dont. the creativity gods have forsaken me)

but..

i really have no idea what i meant to continue in here

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studying for my framework exams by finally publishing fanfic in html

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my workout playlist is literally just my 'ateez title songs ranked' playlist so im hearing them sOooo much

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just woke up from a nap and i have to share this dream

it was a(nother) video essay on hailey bieber and they showed her recently posing in underwear for a magazine but the most important part of the video was a single she released

the music video was just her and justin like daylight saturated while kissing and the song was DOGSHIT

i kid you not

her voice was trembling, the falsettos were airy and shaky and the instrumental was like guitar simple

and the chorus lyrics were so basic

from what i remember it was a loop of

"i love you from the bottom of my heart

i love you

i really really love you

i truly love you

I'll always love you"

or some shit like that

just THAT

and worst of all, i dont care about either of these people

i saw ONE video essay on her and that's that

why me

WHY

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ophthalmologist qhy must tour eyedrop birn