it’s been 50 days since i’ve been back in the gym. all my lost strength has returned still waiting on the mass but i’m in no rush. i decided i’m gonna bulk til march then cut to get ready for surgery. i might even cut earlier depending on how much fat im carrying on me. i think I’m sitting around 20% bf rn. my mood towards my body changes constantly. sometimes it can be mentally hard, looking in the mirror, smiling one hr and the next im avoiding mirrors for days. the more masculine i appear (anatomically) truly brings me internal joy but mental anguish at times due to being pre op. i could never work towards and fully understood the idea of “loving yourself” until going through this process; both transitioning and bodybuilding. im thankful for both. 👹Macros 225p-300c-100f/ 3000 cal total👹🍊🎃🔨🖤 #imhungry #nofliter #ineedaneckmassage #workatit #roadtorhonan #softboy #tattoo #babyabs @melanated_transmen @ftmfitnessandmore @transandinked (at Frosty Boy)