Roan kom Azegda: A King in Love
A/N: This is just something random because I really fucking miss Roan. I wish he could have survived. This is placed after Azgeda took over Polis and Roan is training for the challenge of the Ambassador. Y/N is one of the delinquents who Roan took a liking to and is ~extremely~ overprotective of.
Warnings: all the angst, some kissing, overprotective lovey Roan (because let’s be real that needs a warning all its own), smut,
Prompts: “Please don’t argue. You have to leave right now, you're not safe here. If you were to get hurt or worse, I’d never forgive myself, so please.
“Have you lost your damn mind?”
“Stay awake, please.”
Y/N’s POV:
I was sitting on the steps in front of Roan’s throne watching him and Echo spar. They’d been at it all day and with Abby continuing to tell him that his wound wasn’t healed enough to safely fight this he kept putting more and more effort into it. Now don’t get me wrong I knew he could hold his own in a fight but seeing him in pain just sparing made me worried for this fight.
“If you can’t help me why are you still here?” Roan snapped at Abby. I slowly stand and look at Echo, I motion for her to leave with Abby so that I could talk to Roan. Quietly she grabs her sheath and left. Putting my hand softly on his shoulder I turn him towards me.
“Hey, go easy on her. We just want you to be careful. This is a dangerous time and you know other clans want to be in Azegda’s position and won’t hesitate to take you out.” I tilt my chin up to look him in the eye.
“I know that, ai haiplana. But if I want them to not think me weak I can’t shy away from this challenge. And like you said, it's dangerous, if I want to keep you safe I can’t afford to be weak. Some people from Skaikru are coming today, I don’t know if Kane and Abby told you.”
“They did. What’s with the sudden shift in topic Roan? What aren’t you telling me?”
He looks down at our joined hands, “I need you to leave Polis. Like you said it’s not safe here. The other clans will take any measure necessary to take me down. That includes hurting you. Please don’t argue. You have to leave right now, you're not safe here. If you were to get hurt or worse, I’d never forgive myself, so please. I can’t lose you.”
I look up at him in shock, “Have you lost your damn mind? Roan, I leave it would make it even more obvious th- that I’m your weakness. The safest place for me is beside you.” I step even closer to him. “I don’t care what danger it poses to me. If I leave it shows one of your weaknesses, not that there are many, and that leaves you vulnerable.” I force him to look at me, my hand holding his jaw so he can’t look away from me, “Ai hod yu in. Roan I love you more than anyone else.”
“Ai hod yu in seintaim, so much my love. I will not argue with you about this but if you aren’t with me Echo will be with you, I can’t lose you. I won’t lose you.” He pulls me into a searing kiss, holding me against him as my hands run through his hair.
“You won’t my love. I’ll be by your side till the end of time.” I whisper against his lips before I pull him back to me.
Roan’s POV
Y/N had gone back to Arkadia for the week to help around their camp and to bring news from Polis, she was to be coming back today. Sitting in the throne room Echo was telling me of all the reports that were coming in from the guards. After so long of the same thing, I begin to tune it out, thinking of when she’d be home. One of the guards at the door came in bowing to me and showing someone in.
The person raised their head and of course it’s none other than Wanheda herself. Clarke walked up to Echo and said something softly to her, to which Echo nodded and left the room after giving me some lie about having to check the armory all of a sudden.
“What do you want, Wanheda?”
“Look Roan, I know we don’t always get along but I figured this would be easier if I was the one to tell you this.” She takes a deep breath. “Y/N got hurt on the way back here. We were on the road and some people from Trishanakru attacked us. We were closer to Polis so we came here. Abby is looking at her now to see what can be done. I think your guards took her to your chambers.” I leaped from where I was seated before she was even done talking.
“Thank you, Clarke for telling me yourself,” I take a deep breath to stop my hands from shaking. “I’m going there now, can you tell me exactly what happened on the way there?” I say as I walk out of the room, Clarke trailing behind me.
Listening to what happened, the seemingly random attack, the knife stabbing Y/N in the stomach, Y/N bleeding out in the back of the Rover. It all seemed to be like some horrid nightmare. I push the doors open and instantly see Y/N lying unconscious on our bed. I walk slowly towards the bed almost hoping this is just some elaborate prank, but the instant I look at her face any hope of that is crushed. Her eyes are sunken in her pale face, her shirt is covered in a thick layer of blood.
“Is there anything I can do to help? Anything you need to keep her alive?” I ask quietly.
“I could use some more bandages. I’m having a hard time stopping the bleeding.” I nod towards one of the guards at the door and he scrambles to go get what Abby requested.
“May I have a minute with her?” Everyone in the room slowly files out and I’m left alone in the silence.
I softly move some of her hair out from in front of her face. Looking over every inch of her face my worry only increases, I know she’s strong but I know how deadly wounds like this are. I thought she’d be safe with the Skaikru guards with them, and Echo had seen them training and had declared them perfectly capable. Damn it! I shouldn’t have been so reckless. I look back down at her pale face, memorizing every line, every single breath for the fear that I might not get to see her, to hold her again.
“Roan? What happened? How- how did I get here?” Her voice raspy and dry.
“Shh, ai hodnes. Drink some of this, you’ve been out for a while. Do you remember what happened?” I speak softly as I watch every move she makes, looking for any sign of anything going wrong.
“No, the last thing I remember is getting dragged out of the Rover after Bellamy said something about some grounders blocking the road. After that it’s all a little blurry.”
“You’re safe now. I promise. I need to go get Abby so she can make sure everything is okay.” I start to stand as she grabs my hand.
“No, stay. I don’t want to be alone.” I look down at her frail body, her eyes locking on to mine as if trying to hold me there just by staring at me, and to be honest, it was working.
“Okay.”
Y/N’s POV
Roan moves me over towards the middle of the bed and sits beside me, drawing me closer to him. He tells me how scared he was when he heard what happened, how he realized that I might not survive. After a while we just sat in silence the only sound in the room coming from the fireplace opposite the bed.
I start to get light headed as I was turning to look up at Roan and grab onto Roan’s hand, “Roan? You might want to get Abby.” I look down at where the wound was, and instead of the blue shirt I have on being the correct color, all I saw was blood seeping through it.
Roan’s eyes follow mine and sees the blood and he holds me close to him so that he could press on the wound to try to slow the bleeding, “Abby! Get in here NOW!”
After a few seconds Abby and Clarke rush in and come to the bed. Seeing Roan’s hands covered in my blood and the panicked look on his face they immediately get to work.
Roan holds my head to his chest and quietly talks to me, “Stay awake, please. I can’t lose you Y/N, I love you. Please just stay awake, please,” he trails off at the end tears streaming down his scarred face.
“Roan, I’ll be okay. Why would I leave the best thing that has ever happened to me? Just promise me you won’t leave.” I pause for a moment closing my eyes to try and stop the tears from falling, but instead all it does is let all of the tears I’d been holding back fall swiftly down my face. “I’m so scared Roan. I don’t want to leave you. Just stay here with me, please.”
“I’m never letting you out of my sight again, ai hodes,” he whispers pressing a kiss to my forehead.
Third person POV: 3 weeks later
Y/N was still on bed rest technically, because none of us wanted to risk anything, but Roan couldn’t bear to argue with her when she asked him to take her out of the room she’d been stuck in for so long. But the one thing he wouldn’t budge on is that she wouldn’t walk, he wasn’t going to risk her opening her stitches and causing it to get worse. So, he carried her everywhere. And if anyone thought it was strange to see the self-proclaimed “Caretaker of the Throne” and King of Azgeda carrying Y/N around, no one mentioned it, most likely due to the fact that everyone didn’t want to get on Roan’s bad side.
Laying on the bed Y/N called over to Roan, who was laying on a couch in front of the open window. “Roan, Abby said it’d be okay. She said I’m almost back at peak health. Why do you keep treating me like I’m glass?” She walks up to him. Roan had taken his shirt off and was lounging by the window reading some old book that Bellamy had lent him. And Y/N, well she’d just changed into the sexiest thing she had, it had been three weeks of being always next to Roan yet him treating her like glass and all she’d wanted for so long was for him to just touch her. Just to have his way with her, she wasn’t injured anymore she could take it, hell she wanted to. But, Roan wasn’t having any of it, saying she still was hurt and needed more rest.
“I don’t treat you like glass, love. You are still healing, I don’t want to hurt you.” He looks up and gapes at her. His voice suddenly dropping, “Where did you get that, ai hodnes?” He sets his book down on the table beside him and stands to his full height, towering over me.
She smirks and looks up at him, “I’ll tell you, after.” She reaches up and grabs a handful of his long dark hair, pulling him down to her face. And as if that flipped a switch inside him, any pretense of holding back flew out the window. He grabs her waist and lifts her off the ground and tosses her gently onto the bed, his eyes never leaving her.
“You’ve been trying to get my attention for weeks now haven’t you? Well, it seems like you’re going to get your wish, and I’m happy to oblige ai haiplana.” He stalks towards Y/N taking in every inch of her. “And it seems that I have a lot of time to make up for.”
Translations:
Ai haiplana: my queen
Ai hod yu in: I love you
Ai hod yu in seintaim: I love you too
Ai hodes: my love