I have my little ghost at the head of the bed and my favorite podcast with ghosts in it, too, what's more to-
Episode summary: "Returning home, Bill Tyler grapples with the revelation of Morrison’s actions… And the role he played in enabling them."
Oof. This is going to hit hard.
Upd. IT DID. Gods. I'm shaking.
First of all, I rarely want to beat someone's face up but Morrison is asking for it. Gods I hate him. The worst thing? He's VERY realistic. That's why he pisses me off so much. This. Damn. Arrogant. Jerk. I hope he gets killed. I REALLY hope so!
Secondly. I desperately wanted to give Bill a hug for the most of the episode. He finally broke down, bad. Punched a wall. I know this type of frustration, of being so angry at yourself and powerless at the same time because the mistake or mistakes are already done, it's in the past, and it can't be changed.
After all, he had it worse than anyone else from the team. He was hiding Sam and had to hide this not just from Morrison, but from Robert as well. No one could know. It's painfully obvious how his personal relationship suffered from this, and he didn't do anything bad, he was literally saving a life.
And here it came to the point when Robert couldn't bear it any longer. He saw the state his love was in, how he was being torn apart inside and suffering but still keeping silent. This night though it breached any limits, Bill literally told Rob to go away because he had to let his rage out, to put his thoughts in order, and you normally NEED to be on your own for that, but Bill couldn't explain any of that because he had to keep Sam a secret, and that meant keeping everything else a secret, too!
The way he TRIED to push something out to explain as much as it was possible but there was just nothing, so he cut himself mid-sentence several times was painful to hear. It's dark in the room but I still had to hide my face in my palm because. It's just. It's insufferable.
And familiar. When you're demanded to tell something - righteously so - but you can't, because it's someone else's personal information so you can't disclose it and have to dance around inventing ways to find what you can tell while keeping out what you can't… yeah it's hard and I hate it. Especially with an added "don't talk about it this topic is still painful for me" and then being interrogated about this exact topic but I can't even say that because I'm not allowed to talk about it?? And Bill had it so much worse. Just. Buddy. You deserve the world. And one much better than the one you live in.
Apparently Rob noticed something specific because he went from being offended to talking soothingly and reasonably, explained how all this made him feel, and what will most likely happen if they go on like this. It felt a bit like pressuring and threatening to leave if Bill still kept everything a secret, but at the same time he was just laying out the way he felt and warned of what would follow. He was simply being honest - and in a careful enough way.
So Bill broke and told him everything.
The episode has a CW "character betrayal" and I prayed that it isn't Robert's. That he's not the traitor.
I let such a deep sigh of relief out at the end. He's just a good partner, like Bill is just a good person.
And when he was telling Bill about why he wanted to know, and how he didn't need Bill to be a superhuman, how he wanted him to just be present, all of him, the good with the bad - I think I forgot for a moment to whom it was addressed. I just listened. And it was very calming.
If Bill looks like a saint, Robert seems to be his angel. I don't know how else to explain it.
Then I had to cover my face with my hand once again because when Rob asked Bill to get something at the groceries, Bill apparently went straight to Morrison.
Y'know, the VERY thing others asked him NOT to do?
🤦♀️🤦♀️🤦♀️
Bill, dear, you're probably one of the best people of all the podcast characters I know but you really did a BIG mistake and it was painfully obvious.
But the way Morrison told he can do anything he wants… I think I may be more emotional about it because of the situation in my country for the past few years. He sounds just like them. He knows he can get away with anything and he doesn't care if there is "colloteral damage".
And you should hear the way he said all that.
I.
HATE.
HIM.
Also insane kudos to the voice actor, he's something else for real. They all are, actually.
What a rollercoaster of an episode. I'm going to need some time to calm down after this.
