Madam X's Shoulder Strap, Part II || Rhys, Xavier, Rohan, & Ariel || July, 2023
Rhys: Xavier had made an excellent pillar. Hidden in their special place, staring at the stars, the light pollution, the thousand and one uninvited guests, they passed their cigarettes and said very little. They didn't need to. There, Rhys would inquire about the museum, and indulge any question in regard to his coterie, the tedious politics of the Ivory Tower, or himself. He was in a generous mood this evening. Xavier's warm presence was to thank for it.
Eventually, his head came to rest on the demon's shoulder. Thick lashes rested on his cheek. Thin gold spectacles became askew as he turned his head enough to rest his forehead against his jaw. Only temporary. Just a few seconds to gauge Xavier's reaction, before another cigarette was pulled from his coat.
Xavier: There were questions, but few and far between. They were an excuse to hear Rhys’ voice more than anything else. He’d missed the sound of it even if he hadn’t had much of it to begin with, like everything about this man. His scent, his company, his affection.
The most he ever got of Rhys was his handwriting in their letters so this felt…special. Like getting a treat.
And receiving his affection? Like a blessing from the universe.
The demon sighed contentedly, offering what remained of the cigarette to light the new one. A little ritual they’d perfected.
“Did you have any plans tonight?”
Rhys: Lighting cigarettes with cigarettes had become their version of a kiss. He smiled to himself and held the lit stick between two fingers for Xavier to enjoy, before taking it for himself.
"Your message found me on the couch, staring at the ceiling, avoiding a Toreador's invitation. She has cause for concern this week, I'm just in no mood tonight."
Xavier: Xavier took a long drag and exhaled slowly, watching the wind carry away the smoke before it had time to linger in the air.
"As nice as her club is, I can't see you willingly spend more time in there than strictly necessary. I take it there was an incident that required attention?"
Rhys: "Not yet, but one approaches." The silence didn't stretch for long, only just now considering the subject. He decided on a particular question, rather than elaboration.
"Have you heard of the games?"
Xavier: Xavier shook his head slowly. “Nnnno, I don’t believe I have. Although the way you phrased it brings to mind games in the Ancient Roman sense.”
Rhys: "When there becomes a surplus of ghouls, some Kindred think it wise to thin the herd... with an Ancient Roman flare."
Xavier: “How gladiatorial. I wasn’t aware there could even be such a thing as a surplus of ghouls.”
Rhys: "They're a breach of the masquerade. Kindred look away from them because they are the next potential generation. You can't just let them walk away. Either one makes a dinner party... or a game. Games are the topic right now as an olive branch between territories."
Xavier: “Truly Roman then,” the demon mused. A dinner party made more sense to him than games but it was hardly surprising. Blood sport was as natural as breathing to those that were or had once been human.
“What opinion do you hold?”
Rhys: "I was never a ghoul. I think an intended childer should be one. That's my only opinion."
Arms came to rest on his knees.
"And January needs to lie about how many she has."
Xavier: The need to lie probably meant that January had several ghouls to her name, or at the very least, more than some limit that had been set.
“Is she concerned?”
Rhys: "Concerned... yes. Doing anything, no. She might send a few away until this blows over."
Xavier: He thought of Rohan. “Is Mr. Cassidy among those that will be sent away?”
Rhys: Rhys turned enough to look over his shoulder at the demon.
"Is that a request you want to make?"
Xavier: If Rohan took a liking to the DJ and something happened to him, the devastation might very well leave his friend with a complex and make him close himself off completely.
Xavier couldn’t have that. Rohan deserved a chance to be happy.
“Is that a possibility? I’d compensate her.”
Rhys: "Your friend must mean a great deal. They only just met. Could mean nothing."
Xavier: “That could very well be the case but if it isn’t, and there’s a possibility I can help in some way, I have to take it. He would do no less for me.”
Rhys: Rhys considered a moment, turned back to rest against Xavier once more. There was no such thing as something for nothing. She would guarantee one of her gems, but she would no doubt add to the exchange, somehow. Some personal touch.
"I'm not her keeper. You can say whatever you like to her."
Xavier: No, there certainly wasn’t. How fortunate for him that he was in the perfect position to make a favor worth someone’s while.
“Would she be cross with you for telling me all this?”
Rhys: Rhys' head tilted to one shoulder then the other. Take that as you will.
"Mm... depends on your approach. She already knows her ghoul fancies your man. That's probably the safe angle."
Xavier: Xavier nodded, humming thoughtfully. January had been the one to pass along the DJ’s card. That certainly made things easier. He didn’t like the idea of playing to her intrigue and encouraging more observations but it was a worthy cause.
“Is there a gemstone she’s particularly fond of? Or a specific item of jewelry?”
Rhys: He supposed a ghoul had to be worth the trouble if it kept the peace. A something for a something. Doing this would please Rohan, which would please Xavier, which pleased Rhys. Preventing January from weeping, he supposed, was an added benefit. Certainly less yelling.
"Combinations of ice and fire attract her. Sapphires and... I forget the name."
Xavier: “Rubies? Garnets?” Xavier thought for a moment. “Fire opals?”
He was fairly certain he had something that fit the bill in his vault. He’d been collecting jewelry for decades.
“Well, it would seem I will be setting foot in Lady Dune’s club again. Perhaps a noise muffling spell is in order.”
Rhys: "No. Something yellow." His former captain would have the answer off the top of his head. No matter. "She'll be pleased with any jewel you give her." But, knowing Xavier would be back... he didn't know how to feel.
"The sooner the better," he confessed, "I want you all to myself."
Xavier: “Ah, citrine.” He definitely had something that would please. Several things actually, which was always a bonus.
Xavier smiled to himself, pleased that Rhys was possessive of his company.
“I don’t know how negotiations with Kindred usually go, but I don’t imagine it taking very long. What’s the timeline for these games?”
Rhys: "If it's being rumored now," a shoulder rose and sank. "A month, most likely."
His brows fell, his smile concealed. "I forget, but surely I'm not your first."
Xavier: So there was some time. Not much, but enough to ascertain whether Rohan truly liked the DJ and intended to pursue him.
Xavier didn’t conceal his. He did, however, keep his eyes determinedly forward. “The first Kindred I’ve ever negotiated with?”
Rhys: "Let's call it that." He offered what remained of the forgotten cigarette. This time he turned to watch Xavier's lips, just because he could.
Xavier: Xavier felt his gaze and was grateful that the cigarette offered a distraction.
“You’re the first. Not the first Kindred I’ve known, but the first one I’ve…negotiated with.”
Rhys: "As a warning, because I like you so much, you're not going to throw money at this situation and make it stick."
Xavier: “If throwing money was all it took to resolve situations, do you know how much simpler my life would be?” That typically only worked with humans and even then, it was no guarantee.
Rhys: "What do you want that money can't buy?"
Xavier: “Omnipotence,” he sighed. “No amount of money in the world can buy that.”
Rhys: "Power?" His tone skeptical. "You're telling me you feel powerless."
Xavier: “Not power necessarily just…the ability to know when things are coming, from which quarter, why. Stopping problems before they become problems.”
Rhys: "Omnipresence."
He took Xavier's hand, resting his lips against his knuckles.
"Not for me to tell you how to feel, but, you should want the strength to face your problems."
Xavier: “How many torments is one person supposed to be assailed by,” he wondered, not really expecting or looking for an answer. He had no room to talk, of course; he was a demon.
It was a demon’s lot to be tormented.
“What about you? What do you want that money can’t buy?”
Rhys: A rhetorical question he could not answer. Not an answer Xavier wanted to hear, so he kept his silence, and waited for the next comment.
For his family not to have perished at the hands of his sire? No. They were in Heaven. The family tree continued without them.
The strength to gift his sire final death? No. He was his mentor.
“Funny you mention that,” he said as he sat up. “I actually have a bit of a surprise for you. Or a gift, I should say. Surprises usually come with a bit of fanfare.”
Rhys: You certainly are a quiet fanfare.
Rhys sat up as well, turning to offer his undivided attention.
"Surprised. Your presence is enough."
Xavier: He smiled and shook his head. “Careful, or my ego will become truly insufferable.” Although some would argue it already was.
“I can’t remember if I mentioned it in my last letter, but last month I bought a resort in southern Thailand. It was mismanaged and has required some hands-on attention while I sort things out, so I’ve been spending a lot of time there and well…”
Xavier pulled an envelope out of his inside pocket. “I thought you might enjoy seeing the sun again.”
Within the envelope were photographs; of the beach, the sea, the surrounding gardens and nature, and most importantly, of several sunsets and sunrises.
Rhys: "You didn't forget Thailand in your letters." No, he hadn't forgotten a thing. None of this was news, except for why Thailand was chosen at all. Just didn't seem Xavier's aesthetic. Florence, Argentina, or Morocco, perhaps.
The envelope was taken. The butt of the dead cigarette dangled from his mouth as he inspected each of his offerings. After the first two photographs, his movements slowed. Lingering over every detail, expression softening.
For reasons unknown to the demon, upon the last photo, Rhys got to his feet, keeping his chest to Xavier as he pocketed the photo with nary a word said. Only when it was safely tucked away did he smile and remove his cigarette.
"These will see me through the next century. Grazie."
Xavier: “That long?” the demon asked, indescribably pleased to see Rhys smile at his gift. “Well then I’ll have to take more for you to make up for every sunrise and sunset you’ve missed since you were made a Kindred.”
Xavier tilted his head in curiosity but didn’t comment. Rhys had said he wanted a sunrise and there were some truly spectacular ones among the collection of photos. The one he’d taken was probably one of them.
What Xavier didn’t realize was that the photo wasn’t of a sunrise at all, but of him.
A candid moment captured by his familiar of a smiling, laughing Xavier completely unlike the one Rhys had known so far. In the photo he stood on the beach clad in swim shorts and a loose-fitting linen shirt that hung open, letting the warm afternoon sun caress his skin and kiss his hair.
The photo had been snuck into the envelope without the demon’s knowledge and was partially covered by a sticky note that read:
Don’t react! He doesn’t know this is in here. ;)
Rhys: Every single photograph would be kept in a box in his room, but this one in particular... he didn't know what he wanted to do with it, but he knew Xavier couldn't find it. Not if he ever wanted to see it again. The demon was confident, but even he had his limitations.
"Is that not long enough?"
His gaze dropped to a photograph of an orange sunrise. Colors he had forgotten accompanied the sun.
"How long has it been since your companion."
Xavier: Xavier shook his head. “Not by half. You deserve far more than a few photographs of a few days of sun after thousands and thousands of days without.” But it was a start.
All poetic and romantic notions were swept away like so much dust at Rhys’ question. The weight of the ring on his finger, negligible a few seconds ago, suddenly felt like lead.
“Nearly four months,” Xavier said quietly.
Rhys: Four months. A shorter span of time than that of their night at the hotel. He would not judge that any more than the photographs, their hands, and their cigarettes.
"It goes away," he said, softly. "Their eye color. Their voice. You hear words they've said, but it's not quite right. It doesn't happen all at once. It's quite painless. And then one day you remember a joke, and you'll laugh without shedding a tear. They still exist as indescribable warmth. An idea that comes to you."
Two fingers calmly held Xavier's chin.
"I smile for both of us. If he loved you as you loved him, he is smiling when you smile."
Xavier: Xavier wouldn’t refute Rhys’ words. They were meant kindly, he was sure. Meant to offer comfort and empathy and understanding. Never mind that the nature of what he was wouldn’t allow the edges of his wounds to soften or grant him the mercy of forgetting.
Who was to say, really. Maybe Rhys was right and this loss and this wound would be different. Xavier didn’t believe it, but he wanted to.
So he silently accepted the comfort for what it was and let Rhys touch his face and told himself that he believed what Rhys said.
Unable to respond, he simply nodded.
Rhys: Still standing, caressing Xavier's face, Rhys felt no sense of urgency to move. Not until a thought finally occurred to him.
"I want to show you my home." I want to invite you into my life.
Xavier: A flicker of surprise cut through the grief. Somehow, that simple invitation felt just as intimate as everything that had occurred on this bridge, at the museum, in the wine cellar where they’d first met.
Such simple words, yet they held so much weight.
Xavier nodded slowly. “I’d love to see it.”
Rhys: "If you know St. Ann's church or Columbus Park, you've passed my home." Not far at all from where they frequented.
Rhys offered to pull Xavier to his feet.
"Let's get you out of the wind."
Xavier: “I know the park,” said the demon, taking Rhys’ hands so he could stand. He didn’t need to really but again, any excuse for contact.
He nodded. Rhys was given the usual few moments to brace himself and then it was off through the ether and to a quiet corner of the park where they wouldn’t be noticed appearing out of thin air.
Rhys: Rhys knew as well as Xavier that this was unnecessary contact. Purely for their own pleasure.
The park was the quietest place in all of Brooklyn Heights. This time of night, people were more interested in nightclubs, bars, and their beds, not grass, trees, and park benches.
Xavier was led toward the church, but not the church itself. A building just nearby. The words Trinity Monuments in gold over the two-story brick building. As gray as January Embers. Same paint, one might bet.
Rhys went around the building to the back. To the black door partially concealed by a young tree.
The scent of fried livers and potato hit just as loudly as Patsy Cline singing Walkin' After Midnight in full voice.
A woman sang along in a kitchen somewhere down the hallway.
"That would be Barbara," Rhys said under his breath.
Xavier: Xavier gave the church as wide a berth as he could, clamping down on the paranoia that seeing it caused. The danger wasn't just in whatever sanctity remained within, but in what it represented and the memories it brought to the surface.
But as they passed it, so too did the dread.
Although the building wasn't exactly what he expected Rhys' home to be, it was fascinating nonetheless. Trinity Monuments. That could be the name of anything from a funeral home to a studio specializing in sculpture. It could even be both in the right circumstances. Something to inquire about later.
The music and the smell of food being cooked made him nostalgic for vastly different reasons. "She has good taste. Is she your staff?"
Rhys/Barbara: "Sapphira's ghoul." Practically her daughter. If not for the eighty-year difference in age.
The foyer opened up to a long hallway with rooms on either side. Royal blue millwork walls and immaculate gray tile floors. A petite woman peeked out from a doorway to the left, drying off her hands on the skirt of her outfit.
She turned toward the foyer and squeaked, covering her mouth to conceal her cleft lip and burns.
"Friendly?"
"Yes, friendly," Rhys greeted. "Rossmara."
"Oh! Do you eat?" Never mind the fact that it was just hours until sunrise. This was her lunch time.
Xavier: There was only a moment to admire the interior before they were joined by who Xavier presumed to be Barbara.
The demon inclined his head as he was introduced, giving her the same charming smile he’d given to January.
“Good evening, and yes, I do.” The time of day was meaningless to a man who didn’t strictly need to sleep. “Whatever it is that you’re making smells lovely.”
Rhys/Barbara: Not what he had intended bringing Xavier home with him, but such was his life with a coterie.
"You can call me Barbara." A woman in her forties at best. Red and white hair wrapped in a loose bun. Once sun-kissed skin now aged with freckles and spots, mostly hidden in a gray shirt dress and mules.
Her hand didn't leave her mouth until bringing down another blue plate from the steel cabinet. The same blue reflected on the walls. The plates and food were brought to a white round table by the coffee station. Fried livers and sauteed onions over fingerling potatoes, parsnips, and green beans.
"How much?" She wouldn't look up to meet Xavier's eyes, still making an effort to hide one side of her face.
Xavier: “A pleasure to meet you, Miss Barbara.” The name suited her well. He couldn’t help but wonder how she came to be a ghoul but like so many other things, it was a thought he’d keep to himself.
Like the urge to tell her she didn’t have to hide her face. It was natural that she would, he was a stranger to her. Best to make sure she felt at ease with him first.
“A good, healthy portion. My body hasn’t adjusted to the time difference yet, it thinks I missed lunch.”
Rhys/Barbara: Barbara didn't once look to Rhys for direction. She didn't have to. A plate as generous as her own was filled and placed opposite of the table. Despite the warmth in her voice, her head remained down as she started on the potatoes.
"Must be pretty far from home."
Depends where you think home is, Rhys thought. Rather than sit, he leaned his back against the wall by the coffee station and looked through his flip phone.
Xavier: Xavier nodded. “Yes, very. Home is on the opposite side of the planet.” For now, his mind added by force of habit.
The demon wouldn’t sit until she did, the same for eating. Just like Lady Dune and her club, this was Barbara’s kitchen and her territory and as such, she would be afforded the same deference.
“I was telling Rhys that you have excellent taste. It’s not often that I get to hear Patsy Cline anymore.”
Rhys/Barbara: Every food item was stabbed with her fork, hovered by her misshapen lips.
"Why not? You banned?"
Rhys only glanced up.
Xavier: “In a sense, though not so much lately,” said Xavier. He would only elaborate if asked. Otherwise he was simply going to continue eating and pretending he didn’t notice the way Rhys looked up from his phone.
Rhys/Barbara: "Oh. Okay." She wouldn't ask for elaboration, turning her attention to her plate and the occasional glance at her own phone. Texts from the only one that mattered to her.
Texts Rhys was also receiving.
"You continue to surprise me," Rhys said, eyes to his screen.
Xavier: He didn’t mind the silence. The second he’d taken his first bite he realized that he actually was rather hungry, although it was less to do with the hour and more with the fact that dinner had been hours ago.
He wondered if Rohan was still awake and feeling the same.
This time it was Xavier who looked up, masking his surprise with a smile. “Do I? How so?”
Rhys: "You're eating fried calf livers in my kitchen."
Xavier: “They’re excellent. I never turn down a well-prepared meal.”
Rhys/Barbara: "You're a nice one," Barbara said between a bite. For more than his compliment. His silence and avoidance staring had put her at ease.
"I'm going to see Sapphira." Rhys kicked off the wall. "I'll be five minutes."
Xavier: “Why thank you, Miss Barbara.”
Xavier nodded at Rhys. “Take your time.” In the meanwhile, he was more than glad to finish his meal in pleasant company.
Barbara: Rhys wasn't the only quiet one in this building. The ghoul was satisfied with silence, humming along with Patsy Cline, Elvis Presley, and Harry Belafonte. She glanced up to check Xavier's plate and stood to clear the table.
"Staying the day?"
Xavier: Who could have guessed that it was going to be a night of such nostalgia.
Xavier felt an indescribable warmth and fondness sitting in that kitchen with this woman he’d just met. It was a balm he hadn’t known he’d needed.
“I am, for a couple of them.” His baby and his hotel were waiting for him at home.
Barbara: "Here?" Barbara looked at the dirty plates in thought. "Well, what do you like?" Not her place to judge, only to serve, and it was nice eating with someone other than the employees.
Xavier: “No, not here. I’m staying in a nearby hotel.” And observing it now that he had one of his own.
“However, I wouldn’t be opposed to sharing another meal with you if you’ll have me. You’re a very good chef.”
Rhys/Barbara: Her frown was hidden as she turned. Hands occupied by the water and a sponge.
"Sure. It's mostly the nasty bits. Livers, hearts, laying hen." She turned her cheek in his direction and back.
Rhys appeared before she could ask her pending question.
"Finished?" Rhys leaned his chest into the entryway frame.
Xavier: “I’ve acquired a fondness for hearts in recent weeks. There’s a noodle shop near my home that prepares them very well.” Perhaps, if he managed to endear himself enough to her enough, he’d bring her some one day.
Xavier turned to Rhys with a smile. “We are, yes.”
Rhys: Another excuse for Xavier to return. Rhys didn't mind however many the demon fathomed.
Xavier was led to an unassuming black door near the end of the hallway. Opening outward to an iron spiral staircase of a single large room. More than enough space for an Alaskan king bed to appear modest. A claw foot tub separated by a Victorian divider. A chaise lounge placed before a holy wall of various antiques. The room was heavy with vanilla tobacco.
His coat was carefully removed. Mindful of the tucked away photograph. Placed over the divider tonight to keep out of Xavier's reach.
Xavier: Xavier made his way down the stairs very carefully, making sure no part of him except the soles of his shoes touched any part of the stairs. He really wasn’t looking to get a burn tonight.
He wasn’t looking to be faced with a plethora of religious artifacts either, but just like at the museum, it was simply a matter of not touching. Besides, there was an entire divine smelling room to distract him.
“It feels like you,” he mused as he took everything in.
Rhys: Rhys kept his distance by the divider, enjoying the image of this elegant man amongst his things.
"I'll feel the same of yours." He could make an educated guess, but now his secret photograph gave him doubts of accuracy.
"I wrote your letters there." The small black oak desk in the corner. The stamp and ink box still left out from his last letter.
Xavier: The demon ducked his head and smiled. “I’m told that my whole house feels that way. I’m exceedingly proud of it even if I’m not living in it at present.”
He wandered over to the desk, imagining Rhys sitting at it. A mental image that warmed him.
“Those letters have been a comfort to me.”
Rhys: "It's for the best. If you've ever heard my voice on the phone, that alone is a miracle."
Shoes were removed and left by his coat. Things he would re-wear before dawn, if need be.
Rhys pointed to one of the cubby holes in the desk. A neat row of Xavier's letters returned in their envelopes. When the cubby was full they would meet their final resting place, hidden.
Xavier: “Hearing your voice in person is better than any phone call.” Xavier’s voice was so quiet, he might’ve said it to himself instead of Rhys. Everything between them always felt so much more intimate when they left the bridge.
Even just seeing that Rhys had kept his letters.
Rhys: The gap between them had closed in their span of silence. Mere inches from Xavier's back. A single finger applied pressure to the back of the demon's neck. An investigation, awaiting a sign of approval.
Xavier: It was as though Xavier could feel Rhys before the vampire even touched him. He could feel a tingle move down his spine, his arms, his fingers.
Such sensation from such a small point of contact.
Xavier took a deep breath and relaxed his shoulders as much as he was able, silently giving his permission by turning his head toward Rhys.
Rhys: His middle finger remained in place as he leaned forward to press his lips to Xavier's shoulder. As slow and mindful as his finger. Only after a moment of observation did he wrap his hand around the back of his neck and squeeze. He had no intention to bite. Yet. Not for a while longer.
Xavier: Even though the kiss was given through two layers of fabric, Xavier felt it as though it had been placed on bare skin. Leaning back, leaning into the affection, was an involuntary response, as was the relieved sigh that escaped him.
It felt like Rhys’ cold hand was tethering him to the earth and reminding him that he was real.
“Thank you,” the demon whispered without meaning to.
Rhys: "I'm getting gratitude now," he mused sotto voce. Xavier was turned to face him, wanting to look into his eyes and understand his expression. He held the demon's face in his palms and brushed his thumbs along his chin and lips. He had a sneaking suspicion their explorations could go as far as he desired tonight. Regardless, every action remained paced, savoring.
"Remove your coat."
Xavier: You deserve it, Xavier thought. He wouldn’t say that but it was enough that he knew, enough that Rhys had been thanked even if the vampire didn’t understand why.
Although the emotions on Xavier’s face were varied and complex, there was no mistaking the openness or the softness or the vulnerability that shone there. He was placing so much of himself in Rhys’ hands. More than perhaps either of them realized.
Cold water. That’s what Rhys felt like. Cold, soothing water on too hot skin.
Xavier obeyed and removed his coat and immediately felt exposed. He’d forgone a waistcoat due to the warm weather and found himself feeling far more undressed than he actually was without it.
Rhys: Taking his sweet time, Xavier's coat was taken and folded over both hands. Just a foot of distance between them, and this was intentional. Allowing them both to acclimate.
And so long as Xavier didn't crumble, he would continue. Another step back, and another. Walking backwards towards the massive bed. Its thick black sheets as cold as his fingertips. He knew the contrast in temperatures would be exquisite.
"Get on my bed." His words were without magic. Calm, composed, and patient.
Xavier: This wasn't the first time Rhys had seen him in a state of undress. It wasn't even the first time the two of them had been in proximity to a bed. They'd shared intimate moments, personal thoughts, indirect kisses. They'd slept beside each other and yet, something about this felt...different.
Different in a way that was making Xavier Atlas, of all people, feel shy.
Xavier slowly sat on the bed and looked up at Rhys, wondering if he could hear the way the demon's heart pounded in his chest.
Rhys: A little ritual to put Xavier at ease. Rhys placed his coat at the foot of the bed and lowered to his knee. He didn't bother looking at him while setting to task removing his shoes one at a time.
Xavier: Claiming that he was put at ease might be going a little far, but Xavier did have a moment to breathe and calm down while Rhys removed his shoes. It was something at least.
Now in his stocking feet, Xavier looked to Rhys again, awaiting whatever instruction came next like it was the most normal thing in the world. And in a way, for reasons he refused to ponder or admit, it almost was.
Perhaps that was why it never once crossed his mind to question it or disobey.
Rhys: Xavier was free to do as he pleased. He could leave or stay. He was allowed to yearn, to demand, to deny. Just months after the death of his beloved. No, he would not judge, and they had made it this far, but he was aware for some the body was still warm.
He met Xavier's eyes, debated hard on using his dominating voice, and decided against it.
"Touch me."
Xavier: There was precious little that Xavier’s guilt allowed him to do.
Demanding was never something he did of people with whom he had any intimacy. Denying was not something he would do unless he sensed they were about to cross a line he wasn’t ready to cross. And yearning…
Yearning was something he had to hide, even from himself.
Very slowly, very carefully, he took Rhys’ face in his hands. Not with the intention to kiss because that would hit his denial threshold, but simply to touch it. To trace his features as if admiring a fine sculpture. To count all the different shades that made up his eye color. To feel the texture of his skin and his hair.
So he did and, not for the first time, wished he were an artist.
Rhys: Rhys would not close his eyes to indulge in the sense of touch. They would remain open, watching Xavier's every breath, where his eyes focused, and the subtle flex of his muscles for such minimal effort.
He knew not of any threshold, only that Xavier had wanted something from him, and he was patient enough to see every last detail.
"What are you looking for."
Xavier: The demon shook his head, smiling softly for the first time since this delicate dance had begun.
“Nothing,” he murmured. “I’ve just wanted to do this since the day we met. A face like yours belongs in a renaissance painting.”
Rhys: "Before or after you cursed my presence, I wonder." His smile was as soft as his tone.
"A man of your talents must have an artistic bone in his body. I'll commission my likeness. A painting, a scribble. If you insist your talents aren't worth the paint, then write me."
Xavier: "During." A beautiful face was a beautiful face; even when one was surprised and annoyed it had to be acknowledged.
Xavier shook his head and gave in to the impulse to play with a strand of Rhys' hair. "My talents lie elsewhere. But if you do commission an oil painting, I'd love to see it. I can even recommend a painter with the skill to do you justice."
Rhys: He closed his eyes, allowed and relished Xavier's touch. This was only their beginning. No need to rush. Xavier could take his time.
"You can't tell me you don't write poetry. I won't believe you."
Xavier: Even though he couldn't see it with his eyes closed, Rhys would able to hear the smile in Xavier's voice.
"I can't say I do or ever have." Very slowly he was going from playing with only a strand of the vampire's hair to simply playing with the vampire's hair. "I've only read it, and not very much at that. The only writing I do is my letters."
Rhys: But you are poetry.
"Letters are your love language. Pulling me around a museum by the hand. Fingers in my hair. Cigarettes."
His eyes opened, wanting to see emotions behind the blue.
"I'm going to ask you a question. If I kiss you, will you despise me?"
Xavier: It would be so easy to get lost in the romance of Rhys’ words, so easy to let himself get swept away and by god did he want to.
Longing and guilt and apology warred and were reflected in his gaze as he sighed. He was too much at odds with himself to answer Rhys with anything but a question.
“Will you despise me if I ask you to wait?”
Rhys: Xavier's voice floated to his ears like a melody. He could have said no outright. Could have promised then and there that would never come to pass, and still he would have smiled that mellow, sentimental smile.
"You are waiting for something to happen?"
Xavier: “I’m…” Was he? Was he waiting for something to happen? For something to change? For enough time to pass?
How much time? What needed to change?
Xavier sighed and rested his forehead against Rhys’, closing his eyes. “I’m just waiting,” he whispered.
Rhys: His eyes did not close. Only watched the enchanting demon, protective.
"We'll just sit here and wait," the Lasombra whispered. "Or lie in my bed, and I'll give you a heartbeat to count."
Xavier: “What if the waiting takes longer than one night?” the demon asked, not daring to open his eyes yet. “Will you despise me then?”
Rhys: "You're wrong to think I can despise you." Xavier's face was held in both hands. "I don't have to be your only one. I'm nothing more than a name. A cigarette."
Xavier: Xavier placed his hands on top of Rhys’. He was so much more than a name or a cigarette, so much more than Xavier wanted to admit because admitting it would only amplify the guilt that he felt.
“Can you really give me a heartbeat to count?” Xavier asked softly.
Rhys: His hands, much like his gaze, remained steadfast. He would not close his eyes as so many Kindred preferred. Only breathed intentionally slow and deep for Xavier to see the life return to his skin. The warmth in his palms was gradual. The olive in his skin accentuated subtle white scars on his hands and forearms.
"Go on."
Xavier: As he felt Rhys’ skin slowly warm beneath his hands, it struck Xavier that he wasn’t only seeing life flood into the vampire, but that he was seeing him as he’d been when he was alive. When his life was the sea and the sun’s light could touch him without hurting him.
Xavier’s hands slid down just a bit to the vampire’s wrists, thumbs finding his pulse points. Sure enough, there was a gentle throb in each.
“How does it feel?” he asked.
Rhys: "Palpitations. Not the same as exercise, but fear, and lust. The anxiety that forces blood from your heart." His hands released the demon, one clutched his chest, beat rhythmically. "At my age, my body knows the importance of playing alive."
Rhys climbed into bed. Propped himself up on two pillows.
Xavier: It didn’t sound like an altogether pleasant experience, but Xavier supposed it wasn’t meant to be. Playing alive was a survival tactic.
“And being warm again? How does that feel?”
Rhys: A question he rarely thought about. Years if not decades. He was not oblivious to sensation, only by comparison to others.
He crawled into bed while considering.
"The way your skin feels on a hot summer's day. Sunbathing. Your normal is my sunbath."
Xavier: “Like having a fever, only less so,” the demon mused to himself. He experienced a lot of that living in Thailand.
“My normal is closer to sunbath than the average mortal. That’s why I like cold water.” He slowly leaned back.
Rhys: "I felt as much." He would think such extremes would be too much, but he supposed to a demon, the sharp needles of cold were a relief. Could have bordered on sexual.
Amusement hid behind his lashes.
"Is it a wonder you gravitate to me."
Xavier: “One of many reasons.” He wouldn’t say that Rhys’ body temperature soothed him or that his preference for cold water was a direct result of his punishments in Hell. Some things didn’t need to be said to be understood.
Rhys: Rhys stared up at the ceiling for a time, before tilting his head, letting his cheek rest on Xavier.
"Comfortable?"
Xavier: Xavier nodded, sighing contentedly and basking in their nearness. “I am. I apologize in advance if I fall asleep on you.”
Rhys: "Go ahead. Won't be the first time," he smirked.
Xavier: “No, it certainly wouldn’t.” He fell silent for a few long moments, staring at the ceiling, enjoying the feeling of having Rhys lying next to him.
When he spoke again, his voice was soft and quiet.
“What did you do that night? While I slept.”
Rhys: "I didn't only watch you sleep." He assumed that was Xavier's concern. "I rifled through your things, stole some of your clothes, and read Scripture over your body."
He was doing his best not to smile.
Xavier: "I wouldn't mind if you had." Xavier was asking more out of curiosity than concern. Watching someone sleep was usually a time of contemplation, at least for him. Was it the same for Rhys?
An exhaled laugh was given in response. "Did you indeed? Rather kind of you to put me out when I burst into flames."
Rhys: "Naturally. Can't sleep next to overcooked skin."
Fingers combed through Xavier's hair.
"Yes, I watched you. Like some monster in a Mary Shelley novel. I watched you. I planned my week. I messaged my housemate. I slept beside you."
Xavier: "Naturally." Xavier leaned in closer and sighed again, feeling his body relax into the bed. "You learn a lot by watching. The monster did. Did you?"
His words were beginning to slur as he drifted closer toward sleep.
Rhys: "I wanted to kiss you as much then as I do now," he whispered.
He turned his head, nose squished into Xavier's hair. Eyes closed.
"Do you feel my heartbeat?" Quite literally, it beat for the demon in his arms.
Xavier: "Thank you for holding back. I want to be conscious the first time I kiss you." His breathing was starting to even out and whatever filter he kept on himself was starting to slip oh so slightly.
A small nod. "Mhmm. I can hear it too."
Rhys: He would never be able to surpass this level of romance, he realized. No one asked for his heartbeat. No one asked for his warmth or his breath in their hair. Not any other lover. His bite. His violence. Other requests were made of him, and none so delicate. A demon in name only.
His eyes closed, resting despite the hour. The only downside of Xavier Atlas, he concluded, was sleeping in.
Rohan: His internal clock refused to let him rest.
Sometime just after seven, Rohan sighed deeply and burrowed further into his pillow. The scent clinging to it was slowly piercing though the fog of sleep with every inhale, coaxing him toward wakefulness, forming a hazy image in his mind. But it was still so early, and he was still so tired. Just a few minutes more.
His brow furrowed in annoyance. Something sharp was pressing into his ankle. Why was there metal in the bed? Rohan attempted to shift his leg away from it and succeeded in moving it only a few inches before something retrained him.
He lifted his head and reached down to free himself from the bedsheet, but instead of seeing the empty right side of his hotel bed, found himself staring at a man's--
"Shit!" He hissed under his breath, sitting up and looking around. Not his hotel room. Not alone. Sleep vanished in an instant as last night flooded back in its place; dinner, the club, French toast, dancing, the DJ...
The DJ.
Rohan turned to the sleeping man sprawled on the bed beside him and nearly blushed when he realized the state of them. Or rather the state of him, because somehow Ariel was far more dressed than Rohan was. If there was any question of whether last night had really happened, his open shirt and the pants at his ankles answered it quite decisively.
There was an embarrassingly almost giddy grin on Rohan's face as he shook his head at himself and ran a hand through his hair. "I can't believe you," he whispered to himself, carefully climbing off the bed so as not to disturb his boyfriend.
"Your boyfriend. Listen to yourself." He shook his head again, grin still firmly in place as he pulled his pants up and went in search of a phone that was, alas, very much dead.
Ariel: The man beside him was stained and disheveled and could not have looked more at peace. His features were soft, his breathing quiet and even. Legs as spread as the confines of his chinos would allow. Arms above his head and buried underneath his pillow.
Only when Rohan made his escape did the ghoul stir. The same argument was made against his clothes but quickly surrendered. A huff, a pout, and he was back asleep once more.
Music still played downstairs on the TV. Colored lights slowly transitioning from one to the next, washed out by the barely conscious sunlight.
Someone in the building was yelling at someone else. A feminine voice, maybe, but nothing clear enough to decern. Someone was laying on a car horn down below. Ariel continued to sleep. This was no different than Seattle. Just less rain and an absence of that familiar rumble that had comforted him growing up.
It was at 8:54 AM that Ariel felt at the left side of his bed.
Rohan: It wasn’t the most productive morning Rohan had ever had but it was peaceful.
After finding his phone dead in his suit jacket downstairs, he’d availed himself of the charger on Ariel’s bedside table and had left it to power up while he showered.
There were missed messages and calls inquiring about work and his whereabouts and everything he had scheduled for the day, all of which were methodically answered with only a tiny bit of guilt at having gone completely radio silent. It had been worth it though.
When Ariel finally woke, the first thing that searching hand would find was a thigh.
“Good morning,” said a gently amused voice.
Ariel: His thumb brushed over his finding, looking rather pleased with himself. His hand was traveling upwards by the time he opened his eyes. He really needed to invest in a fucking curtain. Even sheer would block the initial sting to his eyes.
"You smell like me," Ariel muttered.
Rohan: That hand wouldn’t get far before Rohan took it and brought it up to his lips.
“I borrowed your shampoo and your soap,” he said, setting his phone aside so he could stroke Ariel’s hair.
Ariel: "I missed the party?" Sounding genuinely disappointed. "Ah, fuck. What do I look like?" He finally sat up to assess the damage, not seeming to mind his nude state, only that this man had stayed the night, and was now kissing his hand. That was worth watching.
Rohan: Rohan laughed. “I’d hardly call it a party.”
He was sitting beside Ariel on the bed, propped up against a pillow and smiling for all he was worth.
“You look cute and disheveled.”
Ariel: "I would."
And there this man was, in the light of day. No artificial light, no near darkness to trick his eyes, and that look of awe remained firmly entrenched.
"Ah..." No, no, he wouldn't ask that. He laughed, and without thinking, pulled Rohan down for a chaste kiss. Only brief and simple, well aware he needed to clean up.
"I'm gonna shower. Wanna wear one of my shirts?"
Rohan: The kiss was delightfully unexpected and succeeded in making Rohan smile even more than he already was.
“Want me to smell like you even more?” He gave in to the impulse to gently pinch Ariel’s cheek. “That’s okay. I need to be getting back soon.”
Ariel: He forced himself to his feet after that pinch.
"Don't tell me I'm your dirty little secret." If he was disappointed, it wasn't showing in his smile. The depth of the idea hadn't yet sunk in.
Rohan: “Of course not.” There was no disappointment or regret. Just quiet joy. “I have to go change anyway, I’m accompanying Rossmara to an appointment this morning.”
Ariel: "Ah, right. Dracula." Still, they couldn't part this way. He pulled his pants back up and tossed his shirt in a pile by the bathroom door, disappearing into the closet behind his computer desk. He emerged a moment later with a dusk purple shirt with DJ Cass across the chest.
"Keep it."
Rohan: Rohan followed suit and got to his feet. Despite the things he had to do, he found himself reluctant to leave.
He held up the shirt Ariel gave him and smiled at it. “I like this color. It reminds me of you.”
Ariel: "It's my favorite." He bit his lip, biting back something he wanted to say. Holding back because he didn't want it to come true.
No, he would see him again soon, though his body refused to accept that.
"You really gotta leave now? I can make you breakfast. Walk you back to your place. Or, you know... not. I'm -" being clingy. "Whatever you wanna do."
Rohan: If Rohan hadn’t been holding the shirt he would’ve pinched those cheeks again. How was this walking marble statue of a man so cute?
“I’ve got some time,” he said, barely containing his smile. “Go on and shower, I’ll be waiting downstairs.”
Ariel: His smile was the same as last night. Stupid happy, he called it. It was exactly how he felt. He turned towards the shower and back to Rohan, pulling him by the purple shirt into another innocent little kiss.
"We're boyfriends? Like, just one date?"
Rohan: “We’re boyfriends,” Rohan confirmed with a nod. “Unless you’re wanting to take it back or you’re riddled with regret and want to get rid of me.”
Ariel: "Why you'd think I'd wanna take it back?" His hands came to rest on Rohan's waist. "No. You're just - I've never had a real boyfriend before."
Rohan: “Not ever?” How was that possible? Ariel was so handsome and personable and sweet. He should’ve had a line of suitors that wrapped around the block.
Ariel: "Girlfriends. Guys, uh... Guys catch and release." What wrapped around the block were friends with benefits, one-night stands, and the singular hate fuck. Not something he felt like spelling out.
Rohan: “I see.” That made far more sense. There was no way someone like Ariel had gone his entire life without anyone wanting to be with him.
“Well then, I’m honored to be your first.”
Ariel: You're the romantic type, which means, "I'm not your first." Meant to be a question, but he was so certain of his statement.
Rohan: Rohan shook his head. “You’re not, no. I’ve had boyfriends before. Girlfriends, too.”
Ariel: That said a lot with a little. He knew based on several statements that one of those lovers had been shit to Rohan's self-esteem. He'd keep that to himself, for now.
"Alright... shower. So... I'll just be a minute." He didn't want to let him go, as though coming out of the bathroom he'd realize this had all been a dream.
Rohan: “I’ll be downstairs,” he said. And then, just because he could, he kissed Ariel’s cheeks.
Right now he wasn’t thinking about past relationships or what had and hadn’t gone wrong with them. He was thinking only if the beautiful man in front of him and how happy he felt in his company.
Ariel: Not one but both cheeks? That made his boyfriend laugh. Rohan's ass was given a slap before he turned to the bathroom. He didn't give a damn. He was stripping in front of his dirty clothes before turning the shower on.
Downstairs, the music had finally transitioned from EDM to a random 70s rock playlist.
Rohan: Rohan chuckled and shook his head fondly before heading down to the living room. Even though there was plenty of time before they were due at the showroom, he sent Xavier a message anyway telling him that he’d be late getting back to the hotel.
The suspicious lack of teasing in the exchange meant he was in for a tidal wave as soon as they saw each other.
Ariel: This had to be the fastest Ariel had ever showered. Shampoo in his eyes while he washed his body. Conditioner lasting mere seconds before being rinsed while washing his face.
Deodorant, cologne, teeth. No shaving. Without thinking, he walked out of the bathroom naked and crossed the bedroom to his closet.
"Still here?"
Rohan: “Still here,” Rohan called from downstairs. That had been very fast…
“Did you rush through your shower in case I decided to leave?”
Ariel: "No!" said like a caught child.
Rohan: Precious man. “Why would I leave? My boyfriend promised me breakfast.”
Ariel: Yes, he had! "You want," processing, proc - "eggs?"
Rohan: “Yes, please.”
Ariel: Ariel came downstairs with shiny damp hair, wearing faded jeans and a gray Seattle sweatshirt.
"Omelet, sunny side up?" he greeted.
Rohan: “Sunny side up.” Rohan propped his chin on his fist and gave Ariel a long admiring look.
“You look even more handsome in daylight.”
Ariel: "I need sunglasses just to look in your eyes." Wanna tell him about beauty, look in the mirror.
"You can put on whatever you want," he motioned to the TV.
Rohan: "Flatterer," Rohan chuckled, shaking his head. "I don't mind the music. It's been a long time since I heard some of these songs."
Ariel: "Favorite genre?" A carton of eggs and other ingredients were brought from the fridge, as well as OJ planted in front of Rohan.
Rohan: "Not really. I actually don't listen to music all that often. When I do it's usually Leonard Cohen."
Ariel: "Is that jazz?"
Rohan: "Folk rock. You know the song 'Hallelujah'? His is the original."
Ariel: "Who am I thinking of?" Ariel motioned to the TV again. "Play him?"
Rohan: Rohan pulled up the song and it wasn't long before Cohen's raspy hypnotic voice filled the room.
Ariel: "I dunno this." But he listened quietly while making sunny side up eggs and toast with butter.
"So you don't listen to music, and you picked me?" he asked, sitting a plate in front of him.
Rohan: "I think most people have probably only heard the covers." But an old man like him? He'd always prefer the original.
He smiled. "I sure did."
Ariel: "My looks, too?" Referring to Rohan's question last night.
Rohan: "I'd have to be blind not to be pulled in by those."
Ariel: Ariel was smiling at nothing while making his own plate.
"You're smooth with it."
Rohan: “I have my moments. Few and far between but they happen. You make it easy.”
Ariel: "Looks the only thing keeping you here?" A dangerous question to ask. Every chance Rohan could take offense. He leaned against the kitchen counter and back, much the same as he had done to his DJ booth last night.
Rohan: He shook his head. “Looks aren’t everything. They’re not even all that important in the long run. What matters is how someone makes you feel. I wouldn’t be here if you were just a pretty face to me.”
Ariel: "Think I said the same last night." He bit his lip, staring off thoughtfully. It only just occurred to him in the light of day what had happened by the window. What had been said.
"You... said last night... You know? That you know...?"
Rohan: Momentary confusion was followed by a nod of understanding. He’d wondered when they’d be getting back to that particular subject.
“About the supernatural? Yes, I do.”
Ariel: "How much you know?" asked tentatively.
Rohan: “Enough to know why the ankh on my bracelet worried you, which I have to apologize for again.”
Ariel: "I - I shouldn't have freaked out." He was telling himself this now, but in the moment the concern had been very real.
Rohan: “It’s okay that it did. It caught you off guard and I’d say you and I know more than most that in this world we live in, caution keeps us alive.”
Ariel: "I had so much going through my head. Like I was... like, oh god, he's like me! Maybe really really old but like me. Or, like them. Just-" he shook his head, then froze.
"How much... you know about me?" Because he might have just given himself away.
Rohan: “Rhys mentioned what you were when he passed on your card,” Rohan said gently. Ariel had been given away, but not by his own doing.
“When I sat and waited for you and went to the diner with you and did that with you, I did it with full knowledge that you were a ghoul. And before you ask, no. It doesn’t bother me.”
Ariel: Rohan had his full attention. Watching behind soft eyes of consternation. All this time he'd been known, seen, and not a word said. He didn't know how he was supposed to feel. Not about Father Mello and not about Rohan saying nothing. He wasn't angry; he didn't think he was angry.
"What -" he cleared his throat. "Are you... some...thing?"
Rohan: However Ariel felt, Rohan was prepared to accept it. They hadn’t even known each other a full twenty-four hours and already they had crossed lines and had meaning to each other. Given the circumstances it was only right that they lay their cards on the table.
Just like they had last night.
“I’m human. I have a working knowledge of the supernatural and a working knowledge of magic. I also practice it. Beyond that, I’m just someone’s second-in-command.”
Ariel: By now breakfast was completely forgotten.
He wanted to ask what Mr. Dracula was, but felt an icy fear in his gut. Something told him not to.
He managed an honest smile.
"So you're, like, a wizard, Harry?"
Rohan: Rohan smiled. “If that’s what you’d like to call it, by all means. I usually use ‘witch’.”
Ariel: "Thought that was just women?"
Rohan: “Not necessarily. Anyone can call themselves a witch. A lot of people use ‘mage’ as well.”
Ariel: "So you cast spells and shit?"
Rohan: “Not quite like in the movies but yes.”
Ariel: "What's the difference?" He finally bit into his toast.
Rohan: “Some magic can be very theatrical and intense but a lot of it is more invisible and quiet. Wands aren’t always required either. Some people don’t use them at all.”
Ariel: "No shit? So do you have a wand?"
Rohan: Rohan chuckled and shook his head. “I’m one of the people who doesn’t use them.”
Ariel: He wanted to ask more questions, but his interest wasn't so much in magic itself but the man behind it. How to even articulate that?
"How's your eggs?"
Rohan: He didn’t mind answering questions, whether about magic or himself. If he had answers to give, he would.
“They’re perfect. Thank you.”
Ariel: "You gotta be at the hotel like, right now?"
Rohan: "I have some time still. I told Rossmara I'd be late."
Ariel: His grin returned. "How late?"
Rohan: "I should be fine as long as I'm back at the hotel in the next hour."
Ariel: Ariel practically gasped. "Do we get to make out?" he whispered.
Rohan: "Do you want to?" Rohan whispered back.
Ariel: "Since the moment I saw you."
Rohan: "Let's do the dishes first."
Ariel: Just as Rohan had thought, less than 24 hours together, and Ariel wanted to laugh! His new boyfriend wanted to do the dishes before making out. It didn't bother him so much as tickle him. Caught him off guard.
"Well put your arm around me while I wash!" He took their plates and slapped his hip. "Get over here."
Rohan: Oh, Rohan would do more than that. He'd wrap both arms around Ariel, taking advantage of their slight difference in height to nuzzle the back of Ariel's neck to see if he was ticklish.
Ariel: That giant window was what ultimately won Ariel over to the loft, and being able to tediously wash dishes while staring out into the heart of Brooklyn had sealed the deal.
And he wasn't paying the window any attention when he felt the warmth of Rohan against his neck. Not at all ticklish but he shivered just the same, and pressed himself against the counter.
Rohan: So his lovely DJ wasn't ticklish, but there had been a reaction just the same. Interesting.
What would happen if Rohan switched things up and pressed tiny feathery kisses to his neck instead? Would he get more shivers?
Ariel: He would get a chuckle. "You trying to get me hard? It's working."
Rohan: “Hmmm, in that case I should stop,” Rohan mused. “I’d hate to leave you high and dry before I have to leave.”
Ariel: "Nah," he couldn't stop smiling, "don't stop. I'm not gonna." Just one more fork. Everything placed on the drying mat and hands wiped down before turning and pulling his boyfriend into a heated kiss.
Rohan: Ariel couldn’t stop smiling and neither could Rohan, even as he trapped his DJ against the counter with his body and his arms and his kiss. This beautiful man hardly seemed real.
This whole situation hardly seemed real. If he wasn’t experiencing it he never would’ve believed it.
Ariel: It seemed Ariel didn't mind being trapped. In fact, something about their position had him leaning down, accommodating the bare difference in their heights. Hands circled Rohan's chest. His kiss had become softer and more submissive.
Rohan: It would’ve been all too easy to get carried away and have a repeat of last night and tempting as it was, they were limited on time. Better to keep things softer and slower while still giving this sweet boy what he wanted.
“Why are you so cute, hm?” Rohan asked when he came up for air, nuzzling Ariel’s cheek.
Ariel: "What I do?" His voice was as gentle as his kisses. Hands rested around Rohan's waist. "Just being me."
Rohan: “You being you is cute.” That wasn’t quite it—although it was true—but Rohan didn’t know how to explain it. Something about Ariel was just…sweet. There was a give to him that Rohan couldn’t articulate but that made him want to squeeze and kiss the life out of Ariel.
And he would. Gently, so as not to escalate things.
Ariel: Rohan knew better, it seemed. There was something about his boyfriend, more than the thrill of lust from someone new that had his body warm and bothered. Warm enough to feel through his clothes. Not only that, but he was indeed firm.
"Need to walk you back?" He could tell Rohan didn't want beyond this; he wasn't going to press his hips into him, as much as he wanted to.
Rohan: “It’s a long walk, I can take a taxi.” Or better yet, Xavier could send his car service to come get him.
That warmth was almost unbearable to part with though. He didn’t want to give up his beautiful prize.
Ariel: "Ehh, Uber's cheaper. Don't yell as much." He looked around for his phone before remembering seeing it upstairs.
"I'll get my phone." Ahh, but he didn't want to part either! What to do...but...pry himself away.
Rohan: “Don’t worry. Rossmara is even cheaper than Uber.”
There would be no prying away, for Rohan’s phone was in his pocket and easily accessible.
Ariel: "Don't wanna let me go, huh?"
Rohan: Rohan shook his head and texted Xavier with one hand. “Nope. Unless you want me to let you go, in which case…” His hold on Ariel loosened and his arm began to drop.
Ariel: Letting go was the last thing he wanted. "Only if this moves to the couch." Since Rohan was letting go anyway, he lifted him up by his thighs.
Rohan: “If this moves to the couch it’ll—oh!”
Ariel had picked him up just as easily last night but as someone unaccustomed to being lifted, it still caught Rohan by surprise.
Suddenly that arm was clinging again and he was back to grinning.
“Well then. I guess we’re moving to the couch.”
Ariel: "Wherever you want. Can move downstairs, the couch, upstairs. Wherever."
Rohan seemed as reluctant as himself. First a taxi then his friend. Had been to keep Ariel in his arms, he guessed.
Rohan: “If we move this upstairs I’m never getting to this appointment on time. Only option is the couch.”
The couch posed just as much of a temptation as going upstairs did but Rohan was determined to resist. And besides, the car would be here soon and there wouldn’t be time for those temptations to really get their claws in.
Ariel: Wide steps were taken toward the couch, mindful and determined not to have Rohan slip out of his grip. As though he was not in fact a ghoul with ridiculous strength.
Ariel sat victorious, but then, after barely a second of decision, he leaned back, flattening himself and allowing Rohan to straddle.
Rohan: “No no no no,” Rohan chuckled, attempting to tug Ariel into a sitting position. “Don’t be naughty, you know I’m about to have to leave!”
Ariel: "I'm just stretching out! Still tired! Aren't you tired? We can just lay together. Nothing sexy."
Rohan: “I’m all right. I’ll just go to bed early today to make up for the late night.”
In lieu of straddling, he sat beside his DJ as best he could. For his own sanity.
Ariel: Said DJ looked very much wilted at losing his straddle buddy. Arm melting off the couch and a gentle moan of complaint.
But with a smile, he sat up and rested his cheek on Rohan's shoulder.
Rohan: “Oh dear me.” Since Ariel was in range, those cheeks were being pinched and kissed. “You’ll see me again soon, I promise.”
Ariel: "Back to Cali today?" No more pinches! Both hands were taken and - well, he didn't know what to do with them now that he had them. Circle his thumbs over his knuckles to start.
Rohan: “Tomorrow. Rossmara is staying a little longer to do some business before he goes home but I need to get back to the estate.”
Ariel: "So you're leaving today?" Because, truthfully, he didn't care about Rossmara.
Rohan: “Tomorrow,” Rohan repeated, kissing those hands. “I’m leaving tomorrow.”
Ariel: "You said he's staying longer!" He laughed. "Thought you were giving me Dracula details!"
Rohan: Rohan laughed and shook his head. “The second part was Dracula details! The first part was me answering your question!”
Ariel: "Well are you staying over? Because - Because I'd like that!" Why are we yelling? I love it.
Rohan: He gave Ariel a fond look. “Would you really want that?” he asked softly. “For me to stay here with you?”
Ariel: As Rohan softened, so too did he.
"...Yeah. This is like, the best and worst start to a relationship I've ever been in. I wanna get to know you."
Rohan: “We did skip a few steps, didn’t we?” Rohan said thoughtfully, petting Ariel’s hair just to touch some part of him. “I want to get you know you, too. I want to learn everything about you. What you like, what you don’t like, what you were like growing up, how you look every hour of the day.”
Ariel: The more Rohan spoke the more he made him smile.
"Damn, baby. That's romantic as fuck." His laugh was soft and brief.
"We did skip a lot, but I guess that's how long distance feels? Gotta do shit quick."
Rohan: Rohan smiled. “I have my moments.”
He petted Ariel again, wondering how he could possibly feel this fond of someone he’d just met. “I guess so. Maybe it’s not just about being quick, but about doing things while you can.”
Ariel: Ariel didn't see much of a difference at the moment, but his focus was on Rohan's impossibly bright eyes, wanting to kiss between them. He hadn't felt this soft with someone in years.
"What time'll you be back?"
Rohan: He thought for a moment. “I can probably be back…around dinner time? Maybe late afternoon if we finish up a little early.”
Ariel: "Whaaaat do you like to eat, besides strawberry french toast?" He laughed at the absurdity of asking. Felt like something he should have known before asking Rohan out, but time was of the essence.
Rohan: “I have a sweet tooth but I’m not picky. Unless it’s goat cheese. I hate goat cheese.”
The question wasn’t absurd. Getting to know each other meant asking all these little questions.
“What about you?”
Ariel: Where to even start? "I like... soup," he laughed and rubbed at his face with a free hand. "Ok, like, clam chowder and pho, that kinda soup. I like Asian food and diner food."
Rohan: So cute. “Do you? Well that’s lucky. I can make all kinds of soup. All kinds of diner food.” He grinned. “I need to cook for you sometime.”
Ariel: "I kinda had a feeling you can cook. Not only are you a businessman but you're business in the kitchen."
Rohan: “I’m not the businessman, I just work for one,” he chuckled. “But I can definitely cook.”
Ariel: "Well, I can make you eggs and toast, and... omelets, and... Oh! I can do oysters rockefeller! And like, crab boil! Are you allergic to shellfish?"
Rohan: “I’d be so sad and miserable if I was. I love shellfish. All seafood really.”
Isabel had once given him the recipe for a seafood soup… Maybe he’d make it for Ariel.
Ariel: He secretly loved that they were both from the same state. Country and accent be damned.
"I'll pop around the corner and get us stuff while you're out!"
Rohan: “What are you gonna ge—“
He was cut off by his ringing phone. Their time—for now—was up.
“That’ll be the car.”
Ariel: "I'll think of something."
His stomach did a flip to the sound of their impending separation.
"I'll walk you out," he said, softly.
Rohan: Rohan nodded and answered the phone. “Yes?”
“Good morning, Mr. Dalca. I’m downstairs.”
“I’ll be right down, thank you.”
“Yes, sir.”
He put his phone in his pocket and got to his feet with a sigh. He put his suit jacket back on, straightened himself as best he could, and held a hand to Ariel.
Ariel: Ariel looked to the hand and to the man offering as he joined him on his feet.
His smile returned. "You like holding hands?"
Rohan: A smile and a nod. “I do. I also like kissing them and looking at them.”
Ariel: "That's..." So sweet. He'd never thought about what his hands must look like. Large and tanned and rough from years of gym, sports, and - and Rohan wanted to look at them.
"You can have it." He took Rohan's hand, and refused to tell him no other man had ever wanted to. It didn't matter.
Rohan: “Why thank you,” Rohan said softly, squeezing it and leading Ariel by it as they made their way downstairs where the town car and its driver were waiting for him.
Ariel: Ariel remained quiet down the hall, in the elevator, and across the foyer. Just staring at their hands. Seemed in a trance-like state. Before the final door, he pulled Rohan's hand to his lips and kissed. One long, slow kiss goodbye, as though he wouldn't be seeing him in a few hours. Just happened to be his first kiss of a man's hand, and this entire silence was in debate whether or not he should.
Rohan: Rohan didn't know if Ariel's intention had been to utterly melt him and lodge himself in Rohan's heart, but he'd succeeded. What power did he have that he was able to do it so easily?
"Sweet boy," he murmured, gently pinching one of Ariel's cheeks and kissing the other. "I'll be back this afternoon. Don't miss me too much."
Ariel: "Not too too much." He would wait by the door. Watch for Rohan to reach the car before turning and heading for the stairs. He needed the exercise and time to retrace his steps back to the DJ booth and first setting eyes on the man now his boyfriend.
What was he even making for dinner tonight? Was Rohan coming back, or had this in fact been about sex? He knew he had been desperate last night. In the heat of the moment he would have said anything to keep him, but walking up the fourth flight of stairs, he realized wholeheartedly that he had meant every word. That same inexplicable pull Rohan felt was his the same.
MJ: MJ placed his head in Rohan's lap. His long, exaggerated yawn said more than a whine possibly could.
Rohan: Hands immediately went to MJ's hair. "My, my, my, what did the gods place on my lap this day?" he asked with a grin. "A tired vampire?"
MJ: "I'm bored. Teach me a new spell, beautiful witch."
Rohan: "Ah, a bored vampire! What would you like to learn? Something useful or something fun?"
MJ: "Teach me...how to turn water into wine," he grinned.
Rohan: Rohan chuckled. "Red or white?"
MJ: "What's your favorite?"
Rohan: "White."
MJ: "What kinda white? That uh...chardonnay?"
Rohan: "I do enjoy chardonnay, but I prefer pinot grigio. It's smoother."
MJ: "I don't really know any of that. So, let's try em all."
Rohan: "In that case, we're going to the nearest vineyard. Going to need to pick up some grapes."
MJ: "What. You're supposed t'be the vineyard!" he laughed.
Rohan: "I'm not as good at poofing up things as Xavier is!"
MJ: "I got a trick for ya. I gotta practice on someone anyway."
Rohan: "Oh?" Rohan ducked his head to kiss his vampire. "What trick?"
MJ: "Yeah, it-" MJ smiled into the kiss, seemed dazed for a heartbeat. "Uh, yeah. Do we have wine any - of course we have wine."
Time to get up.
"C'mon."
Rohan: "We're lousy with wine. We just can't steal Christine's, she'll hang us by our thumbs in the garden."
One more kiss and he would let MJ get up.
MJ: "Xavier has a shit ton. I know he does!"
Rohan: "And you're right. He has the most ridiculously huge wine cellar in North America."
MJ: "Well let's go down there n'steal some."
Rohan: "Borrow, puiule, borrow." He took MJ's hand and led him down to the basement.
MJ: "Yeah, sure. That word." His hand was given attention during their descent. Each pad of his fingers given their own little kiss.
Rohan: Rohan smiled at all the affection, taking the first opportunity to pull MJ into another kiss.
"Any particular kind of wine you want to borrow?"
MJ: "Nah. I don't care. Hey, c'mere." Those lips required more of his attention.
Rohan: He was only too happy to oblige, wrapping his arms around MJ's waist to keep him close. "You come here," he whispered against his vampire's lips, wine temporarily forgotten as he let himself get lost in this beautiful man.
MJ: Arms were made comfortable around Ronan's neck. The wine also forgotten by the man sighing into their kiss.
"You're so beautiful," he purred.
Rohan: Rohan hummed in response, kisses migrating to MJ's neck. "I'm no match for you, puiule."
MJ: "Don't be ridiculous." Oh, his neck. He was still sensitive enough to shiver, massaging the back of his neck.
Rohan: He smiled against his vampire's skin, nipping and kissing and nuzzling more, hoping to elicit more shivers. Maybe even one of those soft moans he loved so much.
MJ: Moans which were given freely. Both hands grasped softly at his hair, tugging and combing as a means to keep himself busy.
Rohan: There it is, Rohan thought to himself. He loved those sounds. Those gorgeous, sweet little sounds.
"Beautiful," he murmured, tugging MJ's shirt aside to feast on that lovely spot where MJ's neck met his shoulder. "I have half a mind to take you back to the bedroom."
MJ: "What if I take you in my mouth right here and now?" One hand to the back of his neck, the other reached to cup him. "Lemme have this."
Rohan: Rohan's answering chuckle tapered a soft, barely-there growl at the touch. "Is that what my vampire wants?" he asked, pressing into MJ's hand. "Because there's a very comfortable looking chair right over there we could make use of."
MJ: The growl would have caught his breath in his chest had he been able. What an unexpected sound from the witch. He felt compelled to fall to his knees, but he was right; there was a chair better suited for their activities. Rohan would be carried to it.
"What now, sir?"
Rohan: It was rare, but every time MJ called him 'sir', a special kind of warmth pooled in Rohan's belly. It was almost enough to make him growl again. Almost.
He kissed MJ again as he was taken to the chair, settling in comfortably and taking that beautiful face in his hands, holding him in place for more kisses. "Now, my vampire can take what he wants," he whispered.
MJ: "I gotta undress ya." He kissed him again. "Ya gonna let me, sir?" It hadn't taken long to figure out what that word did to the witch. He used it at every appropriate opportunity for their mutual pleasure. Never around company, of course. It was their own private fetish.
Rohan: This time he couldn't quite manage to keep in the growl, quiet as it was. It, too, would be something kept private between them, something they only indulged when they were in their little bubble.
"Of course I am, puiule." Another kiss, two. "Go as quickly or as slowly as you want."
MJ: "Tell me why ya call me that." Tell me while I undo your belt, your button and zipper. Let me hear your voice while I expose you to the cellar air, kiss and swallow you whole.
Rohan: "It's a Romanian term of endearment." Though Rohan's voice was soft and laced with affection as he watched MJ, his eyes were a different story. They were no less affectionate, no less soft, but they were alight with lust and anticipation. At least until the feeling of MJ's mouth around him closed them.
"It means baby, but simply calling you baby just wouldn't feel the same." His voice was breathier now. "Puiule holds more meaning." Puiule felt closer to his heart.
MJ: Puiule. He'd have to memorize other words for Rohan as a gift. Just thoughts while he sucked down and tickled scrotum. He worshipped this man as he believed he deserved. It was all just spontaneous lust...but something more. He knew Rohan loved him. He knew Victoria would never allow their romance to flourish.
His movements began to slow.
"D'ya wanna fuck me?"
Rohan: MJ's ministrations were rewarded with soft moans and jerky little movements of Rohan's hips as he slipped deeper and deeper into his blissful state. His vampire felt so good around him, so perfect. Rohan could spend hours with him like this and be completely content.
He was thinking about saying as much when he felt something...shift. It was subtle, but it was there.
He opened his eyes, instinctively caressing MJ's cheek with his thumb. "Only if it's what you want as well."
MJ: "I just want ya t'take me."
Rohan: Rohan sat up, bringing MJ in for a lingering kiss. "Let's go back up to the bedroom."
MJ: "Kay. One sec." He was still going to grab one of Rohan's favorites before they returned where they had began.
Rohan: He smiled as MJ grabbed the wine. Even in the heat of the moment, his vampire still thought of him.
Once he'd gotten himself at least halfway decent, he took MJ's hand and led him back up to the room and into their private little bubble, pulling MJ back into his arms the first chance he got.
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Q: Q Traxler turned once again to check on the man behind him. His blazer was undone and draped over Luke Graham's shoulders.
"You alright?"
Luke: Luke smiled, Q's gesture seeming to pull him out of his reverie. His mind felt like it was a thousand miles away.
"Yeah, I'm fine. Just distracted."
Q: "We don't have to do this tonight if you don't want, babe."
Luke: "No, I do. I need a distraction from my distractions. They're all work related."
Q: "Which work? You're running yourself thin, you know. You sure you want a house party?"
Luke: "Law firm. Been mentally calculating how much of Ryder's workload I'm going to get once he goes on his honeymoon in a couple months." He stopped long enough to tug Q down for a kiss. "I'm sure. It's exactly what I need."
Q: Down he went, plenty content to give as many kisses as Luke required. "Then I'll give you what you need and then some when we get home," he winked. "Just keep Stacey at arm's length. She's a chatty Kathy."
Luke: That earned Q another smile, and another kiss. "Looking forward to it like you wouldn't believe."
"Pfft, don't have to tell me twice. Her two favorite questions to ask me are 'are you rich yet?' and 'are you sure you're gay?'."
Q: "She has an agenda against anything not straight. Hides it behind a sweet smile and "I swear I don't care" attitude."
Luke: "Makes her the worst kind of person. You know she's scared of Stella?" he added with a grin.
Q: "Is she really?" he laughed. "And you don't mind meeting my friend Tane?"
Luke: Luke nodded. "Yep. Stella can and has beaten people up in the past for giving me and Pete shit for liking men. It's a treat to watch."
"No, not at all. June said he's really tall and nice."
Q: "And handsome, and gay, and mature, and can hold his own, and his hugs are the best you'll ever get. Next to mine."
Luke: "He's gay and he has to work near Stacey? I should send the poor guy a condolence card." He chuckled. "They'd have to be pretty amazing to beat yours. You're my sexy teddy bear, remember?"
Q: That word won't belong to me after you meet him. I promise."
Luke: Another stop, another kiss. "We'll see about that, sugar."
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Lawrence: Lawrence Atlas checked his watch for the third time in less than five minutes. He paced towards the tea kettle and back to his account book on the dining table. A page flipped. Back to the kettle. Watch, book, kettle, repeat.
"How long is it until we see the results?" He already knew the answer, but he just wanted to hear it again.
Gina: Lawrence's pacing was making her nervous, but she knew she'd be even more nervous if she got up to pace with him. Better to just stay put and jiggle her leg.
"Just a couple minutes," said Gina. "Are you sure you don't want tea? You keep looking at the kettle."
Lawrence: "I do but I don't know if I want - I prefer coffee. Can you even drink that if you're - probably not. Right?"
Gina: Yes, good, something to do with her hands. "I'll make you coffee." She was already getting up before she'd finished the sentence.
"I can, just very small amounts." 200 milligrams if she remembered correctly. "So herbal tea for me. Chamomile I think."
Lawrence: "Gina." He took her hands and squeezed them. "Is this what you want? If the test comes out positive, are you ready for that?"
Gina: She took a deep breath. She'd been asking herself that very question since she realized she'd missed her period and there were two facts she knew for certain.
"I'm terrified, but...yes." Her voice softened to a whisper. "I think I am. What about you?"
Lawrence: "I...If you - if you're willing to be with me, despite what I am and how I - I came to be... Of course I'm ready."
Gina: Gina brought a hand to his cheek. "Who you are is Lawrence. My Lawrence, who I love. That's what matters to me. I couldn't even imagine being here right now or doing this without you."
Lawrence: "So..." After nearly an hour without, his smile returned. "We're gonna have a baby? Wait - Are we having a baby?" he laughed. "Check the stick-thing."
Gina: Seeing Lawrence smile made Gina relax enough to smile back. Hearing him say that just...
"Oh, lordy. Let's check the pee stick." She walked back over to the table and picked it up, taking a deep breath before looking down at the little screen.
".....Lawrence...."
Lawrence: Well, that was that. "What shall we name him or her? What if we have twins or triplets? Gotta think of multiple names. Colors for the -" the room. "What are...we gonna do with...the room?"
Gina: His questions just washed over her for a moment. She stared at the little window, vision going blurry with tears as she read the word 'pregnant' over and over. It was right there, written in plain English.
"It's going to be our baby's room," she whispered, finally looking up. Her eyes were swimming and her smile was as radiant as the sun. "Our baby. We're having a baby. Lawrence, we're having a baby!"
Lawrence: The more she said it, the brighter Lawrence's expression became. Each equaled a hundred kisses. His heart had flown to the heavens.
"A baby!" he laughed. "Oh my god!" His sweet fiancée was lifted into his arms, brought into his lap as he sat. "Can I do that? Will that - I should get into the habit of not picking you up."
Gina: Although she was now openly weeping, Gina's laugh as she was picked up was pure joy. She hugged her arms tight around Lawrence's neck, still reading the word on the test over and over just to make sure she wasn't dreaming. This was real. They were going to have a baby.
"We'll be okay on it for a while," she sniffled, smiling wide as she kissed him. "When I start showing it might not be a good idea but for now..." She took one of his hands and placed it on her abdomen, holding it there as she twined their fingers. Their baby was in there, probably no bigger than a grain of rice.
Lawrence: "That's ours," he whispered, fascinated by what he couldn't see and yet to feel. "Is that...alright to say and feel right now? I know this is your ordeal and...I don't want to overstep by - I don't know what I'm trying to say."
Gina: She nodded immediately, not feeling or showing an ounce of hesitation. "Ours. Always ours, never just mine, okay? Always ours. Our ordeal, our weird cravings, our pregnancy, our baby grain of rice."
Lawrence: "You already have names in mind, don't you? We need to - I'd like for us to be married before the baby is born. Do you want the baby in the photo? You showing, I mean."
Gina: "A few might've popped into my head," she chuckled, resting her forehead against his.
"I'd like that, too." She'd imagined it more times than she could even count. "And I'd love for the baby to be in the photo. It could be something simple and lovely. Down at the beach maybe, or at the inn."
Lawrence: "So, a beach wedding six months from now, and we also reveal the sex at the reception?" he grinned.
Gina: "To everyone else. I want us to know as soon as possible." She grinned back. "Our little secret."
Lawrence: "Really? You don't want it to be a surprise until then?"
Gina: Gina shook her head. "I want to know right away. Too impatient to wait."
Lawrence: "Then we gotta think of names quick!" he laughed.
Gina: "What are you thinking? Tell me the first names that pop into your head."
Lawrence: "I like...the name Brogan...Brenna...Loreto. I've always liked the name Juna." However long was "always". "What about you?"
Gina: "Brenna," she repeated softly. "I like that. It's very sweet. I've always liked Camilla. Kelly, for a boy. Noelle. Sam."
Lawrence: "Kelly for a boy? That's one of those names like Ashley or Lindsay?"
Gina: "Yep," she said with a nod. "My dad's brother's name is Kelly. He's my favorite uncle."
Lawrence: "Kelly Lawson? Has a nice ring to it, like a lawyer." As did Mason Atlas in his opinion, but he wouldn't say that. "What are we going to do with...her room?"
Gina: "Close, he's an investment banker," she chuckled. "His favorite thing is to meet people who think he's a woman when they hear his name and see their faces when they realize he's a man."
Gina leaned against him. "I want it to be the baby's room. But I don't want the baby to feel like he or she is living in her shadow, but I also don't want to just...push her aside."
Lawrence: "I think we can honor both children. I don't see anything wrong with our baby playing with her toys, or wearing old shoes. It doesn't - it'll be fine, as long as you're alright with it."
Gina: "I don't see anything wrong with it either. Those things should be used. Maybe if the baby uses them, they'll feel less sad." Not that the things themselves would feel sad, although this was the same woman who named (and bonded with) all her kitchen appliances and her car.
Lawrence: Gentle kisses were peppered from ear to ear and to her lips. He wanted her to feel loved and appreciated more now than ever with such a delicate subject.
"Our baby will know about her."
Gina: Gina smiled softly, letting his love wash over her. There would be some sadness and fear and maybe some grief as her pregnancy progressed, but right now there was only joy. Joy and love.
"Thank you," she whispered, wrapping her arms around him and squeezing him tight. "I love you so much."
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Q: Q balanced three cocktails with ease as he waded through the familiar faces towards where he had left Tane Lukela and Luke Graham. He knew Stacey would be on the hunt; he knew she would find a way to learn who was dating or fucking or trying to fuck whom.
Two couples passed agonizingly slow, women versus men, forced him to wait. He took the moment to tilt his head up to the setting sun and quietly bake.
Tane/Luke: Luke liked to think he was perfectly equipped to handle Stacey. His poker face was second to none, his suspicion of her general person was always at its peak, and he was just cold and hostile enough to deter her and still somehow manage to be polite. She wouldn't get so much as the damn time from him.
But Tane Lukela? Yeah, Luke was in no way equipped to handle him.
He'd been flustered from the moment Q had introduced them and it only got worse when his pretend boyfriend had gone to fetch them drinks. He felt like he was bright red and radiating heat as he explained what he did for a living.
"Ah, so you're one of the good guys," Tane was saying.
"Yea-yep." Luke nodded. "One of the good guys. Only represent the good people. No bad ones."
Q: Q smiled at the mere sight of them. He loved their natural contrast. Already he wanted to see more...so much more. A friendship was all he hoped for, but given the tint of Luke's cheeks, pleasantries only scratched the surface here.
"Are you that intuitive to know which are honest and which are playing you?"
Drinks were passed around, and a wide flirtatious smile was given to both. Step one into easing them into his scheme.
Tane/Luke: Oh, thank god. Alcohol and Q. Maybe now he could make himself calm down.
Luke took the drink gratefully, forcing himself to sip slowly. Being drunk wouldn't do him any favors right now. "With some people, but others require some looking into." Fuck, don't smile at him like that. There was nowhere they could sneak to for a kiss which, unbeknownst to him, was Tane's exact thought.
Tane returned Q's smile before turning to shifting his attention to Luke again. He was so cute with his blush he was trying to pretend wasn't there. "Looking into?"
"Yeah, we um..." Luke cleared his throat. "We have a P.I. on retainer."
"Seriously? How often do you use them?"
"A couple times a month at least, when there's a case that gets ugly."
Q: "More than the usual scandal, I hope? Can't be the same old same old in Raleigh. Too much military around." He was just going to play off their exchanged glances and that obvious look in Tane's eyes. Best he could do for both of them, he believed, was to play as casually as possible.
"So, we're going back to Hawaii for Tane's birthday. Yours being in September, you know, you should come with us."
Tane/Luke: "Never is." He took another sip. He was already starting to feel a little more composed. "People always find new ways to screw each other over, which would be impressive if it weren't such a pain to deal with."
Luke's face lit. "Hawaii?"
Tane nodded. "Yep, Honolulu. Ever been?"
"Never. I've always wanted to though."
"Then you should absolutely come with us. We're taking Logan, too, hopefully."
The offer got more tempting. "When's your birthday?"
"July 30th."
Q: "If I had it my way, we'd be there until your birthday, but as it is, it'll be for four days. What I /really/ want to do is hop around. Hawaii, Australia, New Zealand. I want a whole month dedicated to it, and then a whole month dedicated to the best places on Earth to snowboard."
Tane/Luke: "A month and a half would be nice, but four days in Hawaii is better than four days pretty much anywhere else."
Tane smiled at that, which made Luke's blush just a little darker. He was definitely flustered. "Exactly. Knew we'd get along."
Just drink, Luke told himself. Drink and try to act like a person. "If you want to snowboard, definitely go to Colorado," he said to Q. "And Canada."
The thought of all that snow and cold made Tane shudder. "You go to Canada, I'll stick to showing you around my homeland and adopted homeland."
Luke blinked. "You're Australian?"
Q: "I'll take Colorado. I was thinking more like Sweden, but you know, I should have something to compare it to. Oh and, you are coming with. No excuses."
Tane/Luke: Tane nodded at Luke and shook his head at Q. "I'll freeze to death and go broke buying dad sweaters!"
Q: "You'll be fine! You'll have us to warm you up." He winked at Luke.
Tane/Luke: Luke? Oh Luke wasn't here anymore. A tomato with blond hair had taken his place. "I take it you're not a fan of the cold?" he asked, voice sounding squeaky and nervous to his own ears.
"Not one bit. I grew up in Hawaii and Australia, dealing with snow is not in my wheelhouse. If I go, I'm going to spend the entire trip inside by a fire with a mug of hot chocolate."
Q: "You'd hate Chicago. Especially in winter. It's just an excuse to wear your best clothes and an even better excuse to strip the one you're with."
Tane/Luke: Tane tried not to smile too much when Luke choked on his drink and coughed at Q's little comment. "My step-dad worked in Chicago when he was younger and he told me his eyelashes got frost on them when he was waiting for the bus in the winter. Fuck that. I'll stick to the warmth."
Q: "I going to have to show you Chicago. If you wanna hide that's fine. Maybe you'd prefer March. Everything becomes green."
Tane: "I'll go anywhere in the spring and summer. Colorado, Canada, Chicago, anywhere. The sun is my friend."
Q: "Then it stinks and you can feel the pollution aging your skin."
Tane: "You can go to the beach and swim and have barbecues and bonfires."
Q: "Getting half-naked and sweaty, dropping wet after a swim."
Q looked Luke over and grinned from ear-to-ear. "Am I being too much, baby?"
Tane/Luke: Tane couldn't help but chuckle when, rather than answer, Luke returned to his lovely crimson shade and downed some more of his drink.
"That looks like a yes," he said, taking a drink himself.
Luke cleared his throat, trying to save face a little. But there were two handsome men smiling at him and flustering him and god, he couldn't get it together. "I'm fine. Totally fine."
Q: Q just smiled on patiently. "Would you be totally fine if I kissed you right here and now?"
Luke: "Not with our current audience." And he didn't mean Tane. There were four judgy people just in his line of sight.
Q: "What if weeee were to excuse ourselves from the party in a few minutes?"
Tane/Luke: Luke blinked. Glanced to Tane. Tane put two and two together. Luke blinked again.
"Seriously?" he asked, feeling the sudden need to look around for Stacey and make sure she couldn't hear. So much for his poker face.
Q: Q's tone remained as calm as ever, though with flecks of lighthearted libidinous still present. "Only if you want to, if everyone is comfortable. We don't have to do anything you don't want, baby."
Tane/Luke: There was a certain deer-in-headlights look in Luke's eyes that tugged at Tane. Something was making him nervous, and it wasn't the notion of taking a private moment with Q.
"She won't bother you," he heard himself say as he caught Stacey's voice somewhere in the crowd. His own had gone reassuring and gentle. "Her attention can be focused elsewhere."
Q: "We all arrived as friends, and we're all leaving as friends. That's all she has to know." She had made mountains out of less material, but that wasn't something Q cared about in the least.
Tane/Luke: "And if he tries to say something or stick her nose where it doesn't belong, we'll have Charmaine's little sister Mira say something mean to her." He pointed toward the other side of the room. "She's right over there flirting with that Jason Bourne look-a-like."
That got a smile out of Luke.
Q: The escort laughed. "Yeah. We'll use Mira. Super effective and devastating attack." He wanted to touch Luke, to give him the usual assurance as he would in private.
Tane/Luke: Tane smiled. He could see Luke start to relax, even if it was only a little. "She takes after her Uncle Glenn. She's a third his size but she's just as scary in that really quiet way." The perfect deterrent against Stacey and her big mouth.
"She is scary," Luke said, chuckling softly. It was one of the things he liked best about her. "I'm okay, really."
Q: Stacey, at least in this moment, seemed harmless as she chased her child around the yard yelling, "I'm going to get you!" She wasn't all bad, just a gossip. A really fucking annoying gossip, but her faults were few.
"Smells like the crab boil is almost done. Ever had that before? You know, grab and potato and corn on the cob in one pot?" He grinned at both. "Maybe Tane, but not you."
Luke: Luke grinned back. "I did grow up here, remember? If it has a shell and it came out of the ocean, I've had it cooked a thousand different ways."
Q: "But you're my posh lawyer. There's not a dirty bone in you."
Luke: Now there was a laugh. "Before I was a posh lawyer I was a squeamish kid who used to hide in his brother's lap when fishing with our dad so I wouldn't see the fish guts."
Q: "That's so adorable and also makes my point," he laughed.
Luke: "There are no fish guts today though," Luke chuckled. "I'm fine as long as I can't see or smell them."
Q: "But you're cracking into their hand! They needed those for eating! You're a monster," he teased. He figured Luke was one squeamish moment away from being one of those vegan people.
Tane/Luke: Hearing Tane chuckle made Luke smile even more. "They're chilling out in crab heaven, they're totally fine!"
Q: "You can justify your eating their insides. You're more devious than I imagined!"
Luke: "Oh, yeah. The most devious, posh family lawyer in all North Carolina."
Q: "And you're mine."
Luke: And there went that blush again, this time accompanied by a ridiculous smile that Luke tried to hide by ducking his head.
Q: "What's that? You're hiding from me?"
He stepped closer, but not to touch him with his mouth. That would be too much for their setting. Instead, he whispered in his ear how much he wanted him, how much he wanted to kiss every inch of blush.
He looked into Tane's eyes and winked.
Tane/Luke: "Not from you," he managed, smile obvious even in his voice. He was hiding from everyone else, not wanting to draw any attention to their little corner of the party.
Of course, there was no telling how Luke was going to be able to avoid that with all the lovely, swoon-worthy things Q was whispering to him. He wished with every fiber of his being that they were in an invisibility bubble so he could snuggle into his pretend boyfriend's arms and kiss him.
Tane chuckled silently over Luke's shoulder. "You're flustering him," he mouthed to Q.
Q: Oh, I know, Q thought. I bet you could fluster him just as easily.
Ignorance was bliss, thanks to an elegant past lover, no idea that he possessed an innate preternatural talent. The very same power which could have inflicted Tane Lukela since night one.
"Do you really want to stick around for under seasoned food, or do you want to feign a headache and have us walk you home?"
Tane/Luke: "I thought there was no such thing as under-seasoned in the south," Tane mused, eying the food table suspiciously.
"You'd be surprised." Luke cleared his throat, finally lifting his face. It was very much red. "It's tempting. I could feed us properly seasoned food. Got some mahi at the market I was planning to grill."
Q: "Now that sounds like a party I want to be a part of." An extrovert though he was, time spent with Luke was spent as though paid. His happiness and satisfaction were still very much a priority. He wanted Tane to be a part of Luke's life.
"You do that, and maybe...maybe I'll put on a show for you...both."
Tane/Luke: Tane quickly nodded in agreement. "You had me at mahi. Not enough places around here serve it." Plus, he was curious to see what Luke was like when he was in an environment he felt confident and secure in.
Luke's brows shot up in surprise. "Is that code for a strip tease in my living room?"
Q: "Is that something Mr. Graham would like from me?"
Luke: Ordinarily yes, but Q had said 'both' so...
"....Perhaps. Perhaps."
Q: "What are the conditions required for a yes?"
Luke: "No conditions, just...mulling."
Q: "You don't have to do anything you don't want to, baby."
Luke: Luke nodded. "I know," he said, smiling softly.
Q: "Tane has been a surprise I've been debating for you for a while now." He smiled to Big T, gentle and, as the bouncer would probably recognize, loving. His attention returned to the lawyer, fingers brushed over his hand as he took his glass from him.
"I'll get refills."
Tane/Luke: Of course Tane recognized that smile. It was one of the many, many things he loved about Q, and he would always give one back in kind when he was gifted with it.
Meanwhile, the look of flustered embarrassment on Luke's face had been replaced by one of, well, surprise.
Tane was a surprise? For him? Did Tane know he was a surprise? Even if he didn't, he seemed perfectly fine with it. He was still smiling and friendly. That was probably a good sign, right?
He nodded at Q while the conga line of questions danced through his head. "Okay. Thank you." He turned to Tane. "So...you're...."
"Your surprise," Tane said softly, smiling at Luke in his gentle, soothing way. He hadn't known beforehand but as Luke surmised, he was perfectly fine with it. "Is that okay?"
You're giant and gorgeous. Of course it's okay. "I--yes."
Q: Q took his sweet time in the kitchen, watching them every once in a while from the open window. They were unique. The contrasts between them didn't negate either man. He wouldn't always be what Luke Graham needed. Someday he would have to move on. Tane Lukela was the only man he could think of worthy of his company. He knew he would treat him preciously, like the gift he was. Watching them, it was already apparent that his assumption had been accurate.
Small talk redirected his attention. He allowed it, and allowed himself to relax.
Tane/Luke: Even though he was starting to relax, what remained of Luke's nerves still made Tane smile. He'd never met a lawyer this soft and cute before, and yet he couldn't help but think that not everyone got to see this side of Luke, or even knew it existed. He struck Tane as a very private person and that just tugged at him in some kind of way.
"What Q said still holds up, you know. Surprise or not. You don't have to do anything you don't want to or anything that makes you feel uncomfortable."
Luke nodded again. He hadn't needed it, but the reassurance was still nice. And appreciated. "Thanks for that."
"No need to thank me. It's a given, always will be. For me and for Q." Another smile. "He cares about you a lot, and I can tell you care for him."
A warm tingle settled in Luke's chest. "I do."
Q: Q slowly began to make his way back. Every sectioned crowd was given a greeting and his input. Those outside by the giant pot were assisted in cutting up a new batch of potatoes with his pocket knife. A beer was chugged with the most heavy drinking competitive. Finally, he made his way over.
"What did I miss?"
Tane/Luke: This time around, Luke wasn't nearly as anxious for Q to return as he had been the last time. Which wasn't to say he wasn't keeping an eye out for him, waiting for his warm, comforting presence to make itself known again. Still, it was a good testament to Tane's powers of distraction and innate ability to set people at ease.
He even managed to make Luke laugh. He was still patting himself on the back for it when Q came back to them. "Not much. I was just telling Luke about how my brother Derek scarred me for life literally and metaphorically with the frisbee."
Q: "Oh, that story. You're going to have to get over it, Big T. I'm going to throw one at you every day until you chill. That's what's going to happen."
Tane: "I already did!" he chuckled. "When I played with you and Logan. I even caught it a couple times."
Q: "You still flinched."
Tane/Luke: "But I still caught it!"
Luke couldn't help but smile. He just couldn't imagine this giant man flinching,
Q: "I'll show you later, Luke. It's fucking adorable and yet you want to make it worse and do it again."
Tane/Luke: Tane gasped in sheer, dramatic betrayal and Luke lost his battle with his giggle.
"It is not!" said Tane. "I am not adorable when I'm ducking from rogue frisbees."
Q: "Luke will be the judge of that later," he nodded.
Tane: "Luke is gonna be Logan today because I will hide behind him if you throw the frisbee hard on purpose just to make me flinch."
Q: "Luke will know that getting out of the way is good for you."
Luke: "Luke also has a healthy fear of getting hit in the face," Luke chuckled. "But I will simultaneously protect and help provide exposure therapy."
Q: "You're going to protect him? Tell me how. I want it all."
Luke: "I may be a ref now but once upon a time on my college team I played goal keeper. I'm very good at blocking foreign objects coming at me."
Q: "Are you going to reach the top of his head? Maybe if he ducked. He does that often." Oh, he was grinning from ear-to-ear.
Tane: Tane was squinting at Q. "You're enjoying this far too much." He was definitely going to have to do something about that later.
Q: "What are you going to do about it?" Tell me in front of Luke.
Tane/Luke: A smiled tugged at the corner of Tane's mouth. "Not entirely sure buuuuut…..that ass of yours is very bite-able."
Luke inhaled sharply.
Q: Q smiled knowingly, breathed slowly. "What do you think, Luke? Any truth to that?"
Luke: You would think by now Luke would've relaxed and gotten his blushes under control, but that wasn't the case.
His face was still very much red as he gave a jerky nod. "Mhmm." He didn't trust himself to speak.
Q: "What's the matter, baby?" Q tilted his head, completely innocent.
Luke: He just smiled and shook his head. "Nothin'." Ah ha, he found his voice! "Nothin' at all."
Q: "What's good, then?"
Luke: "Ah, well...Tane's suggestion has merit. A lot of merit."
Q: "Want a demonstration?"
Luke: He gave a slow nod. Not hesitant, just slow.
Q: "Want to go home?" A question asked to both men.
Tane/Luke: Another nod from Luke, along with a smile from Tane. "Let's go have ourselves some seasoned food."
Q: "You know the way to my house." His keys were given to Luke. "Going to say goodbye to our host and explain how so very ill you are, and we need to take care of you."
Luke: "I do," Luke said as he took the keys. If his smile got any bigger his face was going to start to hurt. If anyone believed he was really feeling sick, it would be a miracle. "Just gonna have to stop by my house to grab the food so I can feed you both."
Q: "Take Tane with you. I'll meet you there."
Tane: "You sure?" Tane asked.
Q: "He won't bite unless you want him to."
Tane: He laughed. "I meant about walking all the way back."
Q: "I'll be fine. Promise."
Tane: "All right." Since he couldn't give Q the kiss he wanted to give him in their current setting, he simply gave him a smile that promised one soon. "Come on, Luke, let's go get the food."
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MJ: The expensive bottle of wine had almost fallen to the floor, rescued in the last possible second. The vampire exhaled and set it safely aside.
"Are ya sure ya wanna?" The idea had been planted by no other, but it had been a heat of the moment suggestion.
Rohan: Rohan inhaled sharply the moment the bottle slipped out of MJ's hands, exhaling in the same fashion and chuckling as it was caught. They'd narrowly escaped a lecture from Xavier about the carpet.
He smiled at his vampire. "I'm sure. Are you?"
MJ: "I...It's - I'm dead, Ro. I don't...understand. Xavier tried t'explain that I - I dunno what m'sayin'."
Rohan: "You are but you're not." MJ was given a gentle kiss. "It's all right if you change your mind, either now or during. We'll start slow and if you want to stop, we'll stop."
MJ: That sounded reasonable. Of course. Solutions were quicker from the witch than with himself. Answers which saved everyone. And those kisses.
"I wanna be...naked with ya."
Rohan: You like the kisses? Have another, beautiful vampire. "As you wish, puiule," he whispered, locking the door and leading MJ over to the bed.
"Want me to do the honors?"
MJ: "So long as I get t'undress ya." So satisfying it was to peel away his clothes like an ugly second skin for something so appealing.
Rohan: His smile radiated with affection for the man before him. "I would never dream of refusing you."
Rohan stepped within his vampire's reach, taking the liberty of removing his shoes before allowing those lovely cool hands to roam everywhere they wished.
MJ: This was a favorite ritual of his. To slide his hands underneath Rohan's shirt, allowing him to siphon his chill before removing the barrier altogether.
"Ro..."
Rohan: Rohan hummed softly at that initial difference in temperate, smile slowly growing as MJ's evened out with his own. He lifted his arms obligingly so his vampire could remove his shirt and stole another kiss before asking, "Yes?"
MJ: "Do you ever think 'bout anyone else?"
Rohan: "In the same way I think about you?" Rohan shook his head as he kissed MJ's shoulder. "No."
MJ: "Not...ever?" He cupped his face and leaned away enough to study his expression.
Rohan: MJ would find nothing but sincerity, and perhaps a bit of curiosity. "Not since the day I met you."
MJ: "The day I came in here all bloody n'crazy?"
Rohan: He nodded. "That day."
MJ: "But..." I was a catastrophe. "Are we... What are we?"
Rohan: A thumb caressed MJ's jaw. "I suppose you could say we're dating or simply....together. Together has a nice ring to it. But what do you want us to be?"
MJ: He leaned into his hand and quietly debated. He knew his instinct.
"Like...a... Ya know like...when ya smoke, or drink, orgasm or pop a pill. That high like... it's not all perfect, but, life ain't shit anymore? S'what it's like with ya. I wanna keep it, but I know the high goes away."
Rohan: "Eventually, perhaps." The perhaps was very important in this scenario. Even if MJ wasn't ready for something permanent or didn't want to label whatever was between them, Rohan wasn't planning on going anywhere anytime soon.
"But not now. Not for a long time," he whispered, nuzzling his beautiful vampire's cheek.
MJ: "N'ya still wanna..." Those kisses were distracting, simple though they were. "...Ya still wanna...have sex with me? Real sex?"
Rohan: Rohan nodded. "I do, but still only if that's what you want too."
MJ: "N'ya don't see it as...as..."
Rohan: He shook his head. "I don't."
MJ: "Then...finish undressin' me. Please."
Rohan: MJ was given a soft smile and one of those kisses he loved so much as Rohan pulled him close. He wanted every bit of his vampire in reach while he eased his shirt off, while he undid his jeans, while he lavished every inch of exposed skin with affection.
Rohan was going to take his time and take great care with the precious man in his arms. He wanted tonight to be as pleasurable for MJ as possible.
MJ: Bare skin, pale, dusted with the occasional dark freckle. A mole over his rib.
He wanted to give Rohan similar treatment, but he wanted to wait. He wanted to be completely nude before offering the same to his witch. It felt... submissive.
Rohan: Every one of those freckles was given loving, lingering attention, as was that sweet little mole. As was all of MJ.
Rohan's lips followed MJ's jeans as he slid them down the vampire's legs, and once they had been tossed away, the process was repeated with MJ's boxers until at last there was nothing between him and all that lovely skin. He would slowly work his way back up MJ's body, pausing briefly at his groin to press a soft kiss just above the base of his shaft.
MJ: No one had ever made him feel so feminine. No one had been given the opportunity. Not even Peter Graham, the man he believed to be his and his alone.
What an inappropriate time to think about the man that had broken his heart.
Rohan was suddenly held around his shoulders, face nuzzled into his neck.
Rohan: The sudden movement took Rohan by surprise. For half a second he expected and prepared for MJ to tell him to stop, that it was too much and that he'd changed his mind. But then his vampire was simply holding him.
"It's all right, puiule," he murmured, arms immediately coming up to hold MJ close, to offer reassurance and comfort and affection. "I've got you. It's just you and me. I've got you."
MJ: "M'alright," he muttered. "Don't need t'talk t'me like that. M'not gonna break." Not yet, anyway. Not by this.
Rohan: Rohan nodded and kissed MJ's shoulder, hands rubbing over his back for both the pleasure of feeling his skin and to reassure.
MJ: "Ya feel so warm," he marveled at the differences in their skin. "Aren't ya hot all the time?"
Rohan: He chuckled softly. "Only in the summer. All other times I'm comfortable, even when it's cold. I have that thick Romanian blood."
MJ: "Show off." What would Rohan do with fangs teased against his throat, with the obvious arousal against his thigh? How would he feel to the deliberate breaths against his skin...
Rohan: How would he feel in the face of so many signs of MJ's attraction and arousal?
Absolutely divine.
Rohan gave an appreciative little hum, hold tightening around MJ so he could feel more of him. That beautiful face required kisses, as did that shoulder. And that perfectly sculpted ass? Well that needed a loving squeeze.
MJ: Rohan must have known that such a hold made him feel secure, protected from that which was within. It would do nothing against Victoria, he assumed. He was mistaken. The stronger he felt, the less control she could wield.
"Tighter."
Rohan: If MJ wanted to be held tighter then Rohan would practically fuse them together. He'd lower him to the bed and all but wrap around him as he covered him with kisses.
MJ: No one. Not one man or woman had ever - he must have repeated that thought a hundred times.
He hadn't given Peter a chance to.
"Just...um... If we, uh, do this...are ya gonna be rough, or...?"
Rohan: Rohan shook his head. "No, puiule. If we do, it's going to be nice and easy. I want you to be comfortable."
MJ: "How do you want me. Like this on my back?"
Rohan: "For now, yes." They could change positions later if MJ preferred or needed it. They had all the time in the world and Rohan intended to use it all. MJ deserved for his first time being with someone like this to be special, for the person he chose to be gentle and thorough and put his pleasure and comfort above all else and Rohan was immensely honored to be that person.
"I'm going to prep you first. We'll go slow, I promise."
MJ: "Ya -Ya don't gotta - Ya ain't gotta be gentle. I mean...m'not gonna cry. Not much can hurt me, so..." A tough front, unwarranted bravery in the face of sex. He wondered...if Peter would be this caring. He wondered if Fletcher Goodman had been careful with him.
Rohan deserved better.
"Are ya sure ya want me? Are ya sure - Why me? I'm trash."
Rohan: "I'm sure, puiule," Rohan murmured, pulling MJ into a kiss and pouring himself into it. It was far more eloquent than anything he could ever say.
You're the farthest thing from trash there is. You're good. You're beautiful. You mean the world to me and I want you so much.
MJ: Naked and vulnerable, MJ involuntarily mewled into their kiss. Safe, he chanted. He was safe here. This man loved him. This man...
He kissed his jaw and fiddled with the witch's hair.
"If we're a thing, are - Ya won't...ever...cheat, will ya? Just be honest. I can take it." He couldn't.
Rohan: That was the sweetest sound he'd ever heard his vampire make and it made every single fiber of Rohan's being clench with feeling.
He nuzzled MJ's cheek, kissed it. "Never. I'm yours, MJ. Only yours."
MJ: He'd told Peter to move on, so it hadn't been cheating.
No, he'd come back. Peter had every opportunity to tell him. He hadn't. He lied.
He deserved it for having Victoria inside him.
When had his eyes glazed pink with tears he couldn't say. He didn't realize.
"Promise?"
Rohan: More kisses were placed on MJ's lips, his face, his hair. It broke Rohan's heart to see him cry.
"On my life."
MJ: MJ covered his face when he realized what had happened. A soft growl of frustration followed.
"Sorry." Man the fuck up.
Rohan: "Don't apologize." So many more kisses, for distraction and affection and everything in between.
MJ: "You're too sweet," he grumbled.
Rohan: He smiled against MJ's skin. "No such thing when it comes to you."
MJ: "See! There ya go again!"
Rohan: Rohan would simply continue to smile and lavish affection on MJ every which way he possibly could.
MJ: "Stooooop," he whined, laughing a moment later.
Rohan: Ah, there it was! That lovely laugh he didn't get to hear nearly enough of.
He finally lifted his head, smile triumphant. "Stop? As you wish! My kisses will be locked away!"
MJ: "Good." No, no not good at all. Now it was his turn to lovingly assault his beautiful witch with kisses from his face to his neck to his shoulder.
Rohan: MJ would be immediately rewarded with soft, appreciative hums as Rohan melted into the affection. He'd never get his fill of those lips and those kisses. They were just too perfect, and the only way he could think to communicate that was sneaking in some more affection of his own. MJ's chest was right there, after all. It would be positively criminal not to love on it.
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MJ/Lawrence: MJ held his arms around Rohan's head and breathed him in. His shampoo, his natural scent, the subtlety of the wine cellar.
Lawrence looked over the list for what felt like the hundredth time. Things they would need. Things they would want. When they would need to see the doctor, and the pros and cons of leaving his home with Mason Atlas.
Rohan/Gina: Whatever MJ did, if he was within easy reach he was going to be held tight and lavished with all the love Rohan could possibly give him.
Gina watched Lawrence stare at his paper, imagining she could see the wheels turning in his head. It was a good long time before she said, "If you look at that list any harder you're going to burn a hole in it."
Lawrence: "Hmm?" He managed to tear his eyes away to look at her.
Gina: She smiled. "Where are you?"
Lawrence: "Finances, months ahead of us." He tapped his pen over the last of his tasks. Possibly moving out of Cameron.
"I don't want you to have to see him."
Gina: "I haven't in months." She didn't have to ask who Lawrence meant. "Something tells me I'm a subject he avoids like the plague. Maybe even more so now."
Lawrence: "Mason doesn't hate you."
Gina: Gina gave him a disbelieving look.
Lawrence: "He has no reason to. You didn't influence Callum. With you or not that man doesn't care about me."
Gina: She reached for Lawrence's hand and held it to her cheek. "That's his loss. You're wonderful. Possibly the most wonderful human being ever."
Lawrence: Her fiancé smiled. "You're just putting a daisy chain on the truth."
Gina: "No daisy chains. Just the truth." She kissed his palm. "What else is on your list?"
Lawrence: "I need to rethink and...or...expand my career. I want to be on the right foot for this."
Gina: Gina smiled. He really was the most wonderful man she'd ever met.
"You already are. Tell me what you're thinking. Your career has to be a source of happiness. Or it should be anyway."
Lawrence: "Notary is Mason's job, his life, a source of satisfaction. It's not difficult to maintain, but I'm not also a contract demon. I love...domestic work."
Gina: She considered for a moment. "Could I run something by you? If it's too weird you can absolutely say no."
Lawrence: He gestured for her to continue, sitting back in his chair.
Gina: "What if you worked at the inn? Supervising the cleaning staff?"
Lawrence: "Is that - Is that something you actually want?"
Gina: "I've been thinking about it for a while. I just didn't know if you would like the idea or think it was too weird but....I would love it if we ran the inn together. It's going to be our inn now. Not just mine."
Lawrence: "I don't want you to feel obligated or compelled to share with me. I don't want to take away your independence. This is yours and I don't want you to write me in any documentation."
Gina: "I don't and you aren't. I own a business and a home and a car, my independence is well established." She leaned over to kiss him. "I'm offering because I want to."
Lawrence: "So... you want me to be the housekeeping manager? And who is right now?"
Gina: "Would you be interested? Mary-Beth Carter is right now, but she gave notice nearly two weeks ago since she got a new job in Kitty Hawk."
Lawrence: "She moved? Where has my mind been..."
Gina: "Not properly. She's been moving slowly over the past few weeks instead of doing it all at once."
Lawrence: He resisted the urge to ask if she needed assistance. With a child on the way, such good will would have to take a backseat. To an extent.
"...Alright. Yes, then. But if and when you're done with me, say so."
Gina: "Yay!" Gina gave him another kiss and squeezed him tight. "I could never be done with a man who attacks a dirty oven with the white-hot passion of a thousand suns."
Lawrence: To that he actually laughed. "To think I found a woman with as much passion for cleaning as I have."
Gina: "It's so satisfying!" she chuckled. "And dinner's more fun when we have dance parties with the kitchen clean up afterward."
Lawrence: "We're an 80’s movie about coming of age."
Gina: "We are. All we need is ridiculous hair and denim jackets."
Lawrence: "I'll have you know denim jackets are cool."
Gina: She chuckled again. "Sweetie, you might be the only person who can pull one off."
Lawrence: "And men with long hair, with tassels on the sleeves."
Gina: "You could pull of those too. And aviator sunglasses and saying 'bitchin' every other sentence."
Lawrence: "What kind of image have you made of me?"
Gina: "It's forming as we speak," she laughed. "We should have 80's themed costumes for Halloween."
Lawrence: "What will you be?"
Gina: "Madonna."
Lawrence: "Pointy breasts and everything?"
Gina: She laughed. "Yep! Although by that point it'll be a little difficult to pull it off."
Lawrence: "A pregnant Madonna. You'll be fine!"
Gina: "That's one word for it," she said with another laugh. "You know, I bet there really is a maternity size Madonna costume that exists."
Lawrence: "You could be a victim from the Alien films, too."
Gina: "Ooh, I could! Or Ripley!"
Lawrence: "The best part of being pregnant is going to be Halloween, isn't it?" he laughed.
Gina: Gina grinned. "Absolutely. I get to eat all the chocolate I want!"
Lawrence: "How..." He shouldn't be shy about the subject, but he was. "...How many complications did you experience the first time?"
Gina: It was understandable, considering her history. She squeezed his hand. "None with my actual pregnancy. I had anemia but so did my mama when she was pregnant with me."
Lawrence: "Anemia. What - What does that entail while pregnant?"
Gina: "It basically means I'm not producing enough healthy red blood cells for me and the baby, so my doctor had me take iron tablets and vitamin B12."
Lawrence: Nodding, the pad and pen were take once more to write what she said.
Gina: "Oh, also folic acid and ginger since I had pretty severe morning sickness which was partially what caused the anemia."
Lawrence: "I'll look into pregnant friendly foods with the highest iron content. Probably dark leafy greens."
Gina: She smiled. "Yep, that's what I ate. All I wanted was spinach salad with strawberries. And lobster rolls."
Lawrence: "You can have lobster?"
Gina: "Yep, in moderation."
Lawrence: "I feel...like being alive for a lifetime could have come in handy at this time."
Gina: "Pregnancy is a weird and complicated topic. Even people who have been alive for a lifetime have plenty to learn."
Lawrence: "Is that...Does that bother you any?"
Gina: Gina shook her head. "Not one bit. There was a lot I didn't learn before that I'm excited to learn with you. Not just about pregnancy but raising a baby, too."
Lawrence: "And...what about other things? Things like what I am and behind the veil?"
Gina: She shook her head again. "What you are has never bothered me, the things beyond the veil don't bother me. All that matters to me is that we're together and we love each other and that we communicate. I always want us to be able to communicate."
Lawrence: "I understand that you were taken aback by my big reveal, but you don't miss what I was? Is this," his face to which he gestured, "actually alright?"
Gina: Her face softened as she smiled. "This," she said, lifting a hand to his face, "is absolutely beautiful. You look different but you're still you. You still /feel/ like you. My Lawrence."
Lawrence: Lawrence softly blinked, stunned by her positivity and acceptance. This woman gave more than his own - no. He didn't want that thought like a plague rotting his future. If he did, he knew he'd also think of her own, wherever her soulmate was.
"I'm robbing someone of you."
Gina: "I really don't think you are. Call it a gut feeling."
Lawrence: "You're just saying that, Ginnie."
Gina: "If I didn't believe it, maybe. But I do believe it. I don't think I have a supposed soulmate out there. I believe you're it for me. You're the love of my life, the father of our child, and soon my husband."
Lawrence: "I wish I had your kind of belief. It's beautiful, like faith."
Gina: She smiled, kissing his knuckles. "Maybe one day you'll have it, too. Babies bring faith and belief."
Lawrence: "I'm going to be a father," he mused. Smile slowly returned to light his features. "I want to forget - forget why I exist and give myself a new reason. You."
Gina: "Yeah, you are." More kisses were given to his hand and then his face. She was so very grateful he existed. "Not just me anymore, sweetheart." She placed his hand over her belly again. "Don't forget little name-to-come."
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Q: Q felt his pocket for the second time as he wound the sidewalk leading up to the apartments. He hadn't expected to see his Tracker under his personal carport. They had real chemistry, and his expectations for their budding relationship was high. High enough to offer his own body for their mutual pleasure. Who knew? Maybe Tane would realize he would never find true love with a prostitute. He would have to wait and see.
Tane/Luke: The trip to his house and then to Q's wasn't nearly as awkward as Luke had (briefly) been afraid it was going to be. They made small talk, Luke gave Tane a tour of the first floor of Pete's house, he introduced him to Midas. All with only a couple of moments of silence. Definitely something to be proud of.
When Q entered his apartment, he'd find Tane dutifully playing sous chef while Luke prepped their meal. Luke was blushing something fierce and Tane had a distinctly amused look on his face that Q was sure to recognize as the one he wore when saying random and scandalous things to make someone laugh.
Q: Q had quietly shut the door behind himself. Not wanting to surprise, but wanting to have a better study of the two without their notice. This was Tane and Luke without his influence, and he liked what he saw.
"Whatever he said, it's probably true."
Tane: Tane looked over when he heard Q's voice, grin still in place. "It is. I'm telling him about that really really drunk lady at that bachelorette party who hit on both of us, Stacey, some random girl, and then the boss. Remember, she was yelling everything she wanted us to do and thought she was whispering?"
Q: "Ah, yeah. I've never seen her since. I think she's too embarrassed to ever show her face again."
Luke: "I would be too," Luke muttered, trying to compose himself. "I'd probably never leave my house again."
Q: "Don't say shit like that. I will come up with horrific ways to embarrass you in public. I'll fall to my knees and kiss your ass."
Luke: "I'll spontaneously combust. You wouldn't make me spontaneously combust."
Q: "I will if the spirit grabs me," he grinned.
Luke: Have a puppy dog look.
Q: He would have it, and he would dare kiss those lips in front of Tane. Soft, slow, deliberate. What would Tane think? feel?
"Just like that," he purred. "The spirit grabbed me."
Tane/Luke: The spirit had made Luke's entire face and probably his body go bright red and immediately burrow into the crook of Q's neck to hide. From the embarrassment? From Tane? Who knew.
But if Luke was worried about Tane, he needn't have been. The reaction to that kiss had to be one of the sweetest, most intimate things he'd ever witnessed, and he felt strangely...moved by it.
Q: Arms wound their way around Luke's shoulders, swaying him in an effort to coax a laugh or smile. He turned them just so to lay eyes on the bouncer, locking eyes with an interest in his thoughts and compulsions.
Tane/Luke: Q succeeded. It wasn't a laugh, but Q would definitely be able to feel a smile against his skin.
Tane was looking on with a soft smile, one that just got softer when he met Q's gaze. What he was seeing there was a lot of trust from Luke. Trust that he would be able to hide against Q, that Q would hold him and make him feel safe. It was beautiful to see. So much so that a part of him wondered what it would be like to experience it for himself.
But he and Luke weren't there yet. Developing that trust took time and they'd only just met.
Q: Trust was part of his job. It had been since his first hundred dollars. Trust to be clean, appropriate, skilled, the perfect pseudo boyfriend. But Luke was more than a client. He had been since before the checks stopped flowing. He didn't know what to call them.
"So," he whispered, "dinner, yeah? You're teaching him how to be a proper chef?"
Luke: Luke nodded. It was so tempting to just stay snuggled against Q; it was by far his favorite place to be.
"Yeah. He's a decent chef already."
Q: "Is he now?" he chuckled. "He sure fooled me."
Tane: "Hey," said Tane. "I'm an excellent sous chef and part time chef."
Q: "What have you ever made me besides breakfast?"
Tane: "Shrimp, in many ways. Sometimes with rice."
Q: "Your Hawaiian is showing."
Luke: Ah, what was that? A giggle from a certain lawyer who had yet to emerge from hiding?
Q: Oh, that noise. He wanted more of it. He would take it by loving force, tickling at his ribs without mercy.
"What was that noise? Did that come outta here?"
Tane/Luke: Luke was helpless to stop the flood of giggles caused by such a loving assault, or to keep from squirming in a half-hearted effort to get away.
Just like Tane was helpless to stop the smile from splitting his face in half. It was official. Luke Graham was the most adorable lawyer in the world.
Q: Once Luke seemed too exhausted to resist, he was lifted into his arms by his ass. He loved hearing this man laugh. He loved being the cause just as much.
"No room on the counter for you. Guess you're trapped in my arms."
Tane/Luke: Luke all but wrapped himself around Q, nuzzling in even further as Tane's expression went all soft and melty again.
It wasn't just trust that Luke had with Q; it was complete trust. Luke could relax and be vulnerable and maybe even forget Tane was there because he knew Q wouldn't drop him.
"Guess I am," Luke said happily.
Q: Luke would hear a soft chuckle in his ear, followed by a trail of kisses down his neck. Precious man. He needed to be protected for when he'd no longer be around. Hence Tane Lukela.
Time to give the neglected Tane some attention.
"What stage are you guys on? Need help, Big T?"
Tane: Tane tore his mind away from the sweetness that was Luke and smiled at Q.
"We're nearing the end. Need to get a grill pan going and marinate the fish."
Q: "You'll be the first to use any of that stuff. You know what I eat on the daily."
Tane: "Yes I do. You and Logan are on the same level cooking wise."
The grill pan was placed on the stove before he went to grab the fish from the fridge.
Q: "I beg to differ. She can actually bake. I make smoothies."
Tane: "That's still amazing to me. We both watched her make a full fledged baked Alaska and burn pasta in the same day."
Q: "She's quite the catch." Just like the man in his arms. He deserved another kiss and sweet nothings whispered in his ear.
Tane/Luke: "Yes she is." He looked over in time to see the affectionate exchange and it made him smile once more.
Luke had braved enough to return Q's kisses, albeit in a much more demure way than he usually would. There was a big part of him that wanted to say screw food and just stay right where he was, but that would be rude.
Q: "So, before...you agreed with something Big T said. Do you remember what that was?"
Luke: Luke's blush returned as he nodded.
Q: "Why don't you tell me."
Luke: He would, but he'd whisper it very softly, so only Q would be able to hear.
"That your ass is biteable."
Q: "Do you want to see that?"
Luke: A moment. A pause. And another nod.
Q: Eyes never left the man in his arms. "T, you want to show Luke what it's like to bite my ass?"
Tane: Tane could practically sense Luke burrowing again without even having to turn around.
"You know," he began, tone light and gentle, "I really think I would."
Q: "Might want to turn the stove down, then."
Luke was gently tossed onto the touch, and the man he enjoyed calling boyfriend turned back to the kitchen and placed his hands on the fridge.
"All yours," he purred.
Tane/Luke: The sudden absence of Q's warmth left Luke feeling cold enough to want to protest, and had it not been for the anticipation of what he was about to see, he would have. As it was, he'd keep himself warm and give himself a hiding place using one of the couch pillows, because apparently Tane's presence was enough to make him as shy as when he...nope. He'd never been this shy. Ever. This was a first for him, one of many he suspected would come today.
Tane chuckled and turned the pan all the way to low. "Just like that, huh? No ceremony or anything. Right to the point." Have a chaste kiss to your shoulder.
Q: Q knew what Tane was going to do. At least he assumed, going off of every other time he'd played the same game with him before. What he knew for certain was Tane's lips against him, clothed or unclothed, was both soothing and arousing. He could calm his mind and divert his thoughts, but instead allowed himself to bask in the attention and his own selfish erection. This was what Luke wanted to see, after all.
"Slow," was his command. "Give baby a show." Much like his own, trailing his hands to the top of the fridge, allowing full access to his ass.
Tane: Oh, Tane could do slow. Tane loved slow. It gave him time to lavish and explore at his leisure, and now it would also offer Luke a very special show.
Starting at the back of his neck, Tane kissed his way down Q's body, letting his hands trail ahead of his lips and stopping when he hit the small of his bartender's back. Only then did Tane lift up Q's shirt, finally kissing bare skin as he slooooowly inched his pants just far down enough to expose that beautiful ass of his.
Q: His ass so exposed for Luke's viewing pleasure was exactly what he had expected. This had to be a positive experience for his favorite lawyer. He wanted him to enjoy every moan of pleasure and approval. Bare skin needed to be admired by both men. His shirt was tossed aside, offering a better view of his lithe willing body. Sun kissed skin warm and inviting. Almost everywhere. The subject matter at heart was still very much pale.
Tane/Luke: Luke wasn't sure how he was feeling about all this--there was a lot going on in his head at the moment--but so far...this was a very positive experience. He didn't feel weird or jealous seeing Tane with Q, like he was afraid he would, but there was still a lot of shyness and vulnerability he had to work through. No matter how enjoyable it was to experience, he simply wasn't used to being in an intimate situation like with anyone other than Q. Sure he'd had his share of boyfriends but Q was different.
A fact that was obvious to Tane, who was making sure not to move too suddenly or look at Luke directly for fear of embarrassing him further or making him feel uncomfortable. He wasn't only being gentle with Q; he was being gentle with Luke now, too. This would be a show, but it would be a gentle, loving show.
As gentle and loving as the series of open-mouthed kisses and teasing nips he placed all over that beautiful pale skin, watching Luke's reaction out of the corner of his eye.
Q: Q remained as still as he could, allowing his approval to show with soft hums and dips and turns of his head. If he focused, he wouldn't have to submit to arousal.
"What do you want to see now, Luke?"
Tane/Luke: Ah, but they hadn't gotten to their main event yet. The thing that had piqued Luke's curiosity and landed them here.
Before Luke could try to respond, Tane gave him a wink and gave a playful little bite to Q's ass.
Q: "Ahn!" Nails lightly scraped over the stainless steel fridge. A laugh quickly followed. "Goddammit. Ya got me."
Tane: "Oh yes I did," Tane chuckled warmly, pressing a kiss to the same spot to soothe. "Lulled you and your ass into a false sense of security."
Q: "Neither of you will gain access to this temple." Another little something for Luke.
Tane: "Promises, promises." Another playful bite and Q's pants were set to rights.
Q: And it was back to their cooking, playing it smooth for Luke's sake.
"How was that?" he asked the man on the couch.
Tane/Luke: Luke would've responded, but he was busy blushing and trying to gather himself.
Surely the look in his eyes would answer for him; it had been a very pleasant sight.
Q: "I think we broke him," he whispered.
Tane: Tane smiled to himself. "Maybe just a little. Better go kiss him back to life."
Q: Then his spoon was set aside. He joined him on the couch and wrapped an arm around his shoulders.
Luke: Luke immediately leaned into Q. "Hi," he murmured softly.
Q: "Are you alright, baby?"
Luke: He nodded, offered Q a shy little smile. "Better than."
Q: "Good." A kiss to his cheek, his temple, and his hand.
Luke: The smile got brighter. "We should go to the beach. Get some sun."
Q: "Today? Tomorrow?"
Luke: "Soon. I know all the good beaches without any tourists. Completely private."
Q: "So you're saying a nude beach," he grinned.
Luke: "Not officially but yes," Luke chuckled.
Q: "Is...Tane invited?"
Luke: He glanced over to where Tane had resumed dinner prep and nodded. "Yes. He is."
Q: "So you're alright with Tane?" he quietly asked.
Luke: Another nod. "Yeah, I think I am," he said just as softly. He's a lot like you."
Q: "Twice the fun," he smiled.
Luke: "And twice the handsome. I might swoon."
Q: "Swoon, will you?" He kissed his neck again. "What a romantic notion."
Luke: "Yep, maybe more than once." He hummed softly at the kiss, nuzzling him. His blush had started to fade in the face of such lovely affection.
"What can I say, you bring out the romantic in me."
Q: "You understand why I want Tane here?" The apartment was small. He expected the bouncer to hear every word. That was somewhat the point. What was more critical was Luke's understanding.
Tane/Luke: Tane did, but he didn't plan to interrupt unless he was spoken to directly. This was a moment Luke needed to have with Q.
And to that end, Luke tried to speak as softly as possible. "Kind of?"
Q: "I won't always be in Edenton," he continued on just as gently. "I want you to have another friend. And...maybe more."
Luke: "What do you mean you won't always be in Edenton?" Was Q leaving?
Q: "Someday I am going to move. I love this place," and he paused, allowing Luke to fill in the blank, "but it's not my forever home."
Luke: His gaze fell to his lap. That sounded too much like he was never going to see Q again and Luke didn't like it. He didn't even live in Edenton full time himself but something about 'it's not my forever home' sounded too much like....
Q: "Baby? Talk to me." That silence was much too long.
Luke: Luke shook his head. "It's nothing." He didn't want to think about Dana. That was for nights at his condo when he was alone and couldn't sleep.
Q: The very thought which had Q pressing his forehead against his neck, breathing him in.
"Why are you here?"
Luke: He reached for Q's hand, suddenly in need of the comfort it provided. "To spend time with you," he whispered. "To get to know Tane. To have dinner."
Q: Q took his hand and kissed each finger.
"Is knowing Tane like you do me going to make you happy?"
Luke: He smiled and leaned against Q. "Time will tell, but I hope so."
Q: "Good. Mind if I kiss you?"
Luke: "I don't mind one bit."
Q: Now for another question.
"Will you mind?" he asked the man in the kitchen.
Tane: The man in the kitchen simply smiled and shook his head. "Not one bit," he echoed.
Q: A temptation crept into his chest like every sexual inkling. Would he mind kissing Luke? He bit his lip and considered, but thought better of it. Instead turning back to his favorite lawyer for his lips.
Tane/Luke: Tane wouldn't mind at all, but it was probably too soon. They'd have to ease Luke into it, help him feel comfortable and safe.
And nothing could do that better than Q's kisses.
Luke hummed softly, melting against his pretend boyfriend, aware of Tane's presence but feeling at ease.
Q: Easing Luke probably didn't mean placing his hand between his legs. It probably didn't mean squeezing, gently biting his throat, humming against his skin knowing what it would do to him.
Luke: It probably didn't, but that didn't mean Luke wouldn't react to the touch.
His breath caught in his throat as his thighs closed around Q's hand. He wouldn't let the moan building in his chest escape.
Q: "Do you want me to stop?" he whispered.
Luke: Luke shook his head.
Q: Then he would continue to squeeze.
"Tell me when to stop." He would unzip him if allowed, though his hand would not dip on the other side just yet. He wanted to gauge his reaction. Luke's security was his number one concern.
Tane/Luke: Tane had stopped mid-chop to watch the scene unfolding on the couch, eyes alight with quiet but very focused interest. He could tell Luke was holding back some, which wasn't a surprise at all, but what he wasn't holding back? Now that was a beautiful sight to behold.
Luke was clinging to Q, hiding his face against the bartender's neck. His lower half was starting to give jerky little movements, clearly aching for more but again, holding himself back.
Q: Squeeze after squeeze without relief. He wanted to torture, just enough to coax a beautiful sound from his companion. Give me something more, his fingers commanded, his lips plead, nuzzling in order to capture that perfect mouth.
Tane/Luke: It was the kiss that did him in. He never could resist those wonderful lips, much less control his reaction to them. Especially not when they were paired with those fingers.
The softest, sweetest little whimper finally managed to escape him, making him hide more at the same moment Tane felt a shock of lust go straight to his groin.
Q: Q's smile would have hurt had he allowed it in full. He had suspected such gentle and submissive noises from this man. Opposite of his brawny and hirsute body. Now there was a witness, a willing audience. Despite his assumption, it had not prepared his body for its reaction.
That cock belonged in his mouth. He asked permission in his ear, and kissed it.
Tane/Luke: Permission was given with another soft whimper. His body's need was successfully trumping his shyness, although not entirely. Absent Q's neck, Luke would be hiding his face in the couch pillow again.
Meanwhile, Tane had given up on cooking entirely in favor of watching the two men on the couch. His hands were itching to touch but he didn't dare approach. This situation was still so new and fragile.
Q: Slowly, with the same attentiveness as Tane, Q dropped to his knees. No sudden movements. His shirt was raised. Open mouth kisses and tongue across and around his navel.
Luke: Luke clung to the pillow like a man clinging to a life preserver. Behind it, his face was bright red and his breathing was quickening. It was just now hitting him that Q wouldn't be the only person seeing...well. A tiny part of his brain wondered what Tane would think. Of him, of this situation, of his reactions. What if he didn't like--
The potential litany of 'what if's' was cut off by Q's wandering mouth.
Luke's breath hitched, hips moving in an attempt to follow the affection. More. He wanted more.
Q: His gaze quickly turned to Tane, questioning his appeal. His crotch was studied and admired.
Flesh was softly bitten. Nudity was the logic in which to follow. But first, "Luke. Look at me. Tell me if this is okay."
Tane/Luke: The appeal and Tane's response to it was written all over his face and reflected in his eyes and his stance. All of his attention was on Luke and on the erection nestled against the soft looking blond hair on his abdomen. He wanted to touch so badly. Would Q be able to tell? Would Luke?
It took a few long seconds, but eventually the pillow lowered just enough for Luke to be able to peer over the top. He could feel Tane's gaze even without meeting it.
He nodded. "It's okay," he whispered.
Q: Wasn't he just beautiful, Tane? That golden hair and sun kissed skin from his weekends of soccer. His shyness, his masculinity, his femininity. He was just so fuckable.
The approval given, he smiled, kissed his stomach one more. "I'm going to undress you now. Want to undress me? Take my shirt off."
Tane/Luke: Absolutely beautiful, and all the more so because he strongly suspected Luke had no idea.
Luke whimpered softly again, burrowing his face against the pillow once more. Just for a little while though. The thought of being able to feel Q's bare skin against his was too appealing to pass up.
Very carefully, the pillow was set aside and the hem of Q's shirt grabbed. Up and over his head it went.
Q: Good. That's exactly what he wanted to see. He raised his arms and chuckled, allowing Luke to keep the garment if he wanted to.
"You're so fucking edible," he teased, nipping softly at his stomach (again) before giving the same treatment.
Luke: Oh, he was keeping it. It was soft and smelled like Q and that was even more comforting than having a pillow to hide his face with.
Ah ha, Q finally managed to get a teeny little smile from Luke! "Edible?" he asked quietly, feeling all warm and glowy and squirmy inside when Q gave more affection to his stomach.
Q: "Mhm. I'm gonna just eat you up, Mr. Graham." Starting with those lips. His tongue offered only a heartbeat into their touch.
Luke: There was a soft chuckle that turned into a soft, dreamy sigh at the kiss. If Q's shirt was a comfort, then his kisses were where Luke felt most at ease, most relaxed, most free to be himself and enjoy.
He let go of Q's shirt in favor of clinging to the man himself, wrapping his arms around his pretend boyfriend's neck to bring him closer.
"Promise?" Luke whispered.
Q: Those needy arms did things to him. This man had been one of his favorite clients. He would become a fond memory when the time came.
Those warm arms were kissed, followed again by his lips.
"I promise I'll eat you nice and slow."
Luke: Shy, embarrassed Luke seemed to be dissipating with every new kiss, allowing more and more of smiley, loving, needy Luke to shine through who hummed into every kiss and made a tiny noise of protest if Q's lips moved away for any reason.
"And you'll give me all the kisses?"
Q: "Every single kiss you want from me."
It was time to remove every article of clothing between them. His pacing was no longer slow and mindful. He felt confident in himself and Luke to move forward, to relax and trust Luke's response to Tane's gaze.
Tane/Luke: "I want a million," he said, smiling so brightly Tane felt his heart clench across the room.
He felt like he was walking a fine line between appreciating the sight of Q rapidly undressing Luke and making him uncomfortable, but from the looks of things he was successfully staying on the appreciation side. He might've even taken a step or two closer.
It was all he could do to keep himself from heading directly to the couch to see if that chest hair was as soft as it looked.
For Luke's part, he was helping Q undress him and returning the favor, resuming his clinging the moment they were both completely bare. And that lovely neck? Well it had gone far too long without some affection. As had those shoulders. And that chest.
Q: Q closed his eyes and allowed Luke to seduce him. His body was warm with life and appropriately turgid. He leaned closer to whisper his proposal.
"Do you want to make love to me? Do you want to watch Tane's hands on me?"
Tane/Luke: The proposal may have been whispered, but Luke's reaction was more akin to it having been shouted. They'd only switched roles once or twice before, and it had never been in a situation quite like this.
Still, the idea of loving on Q and watching someone else do the same.....it had an appeal that made his heart race.
He looked from Q to Tane's stunned face and nodded very slowly.
Q: Q didn't want to put Luke in a position so vulnerable as to be the submissive in Tane's presence. It was a choice he made, but one Luke could refuse if he wanted, which was why it had been a question. He was mindful of those wide eyes and what they were truly saying.
"Yes to both?" He wanted his answer clear.
Luke: It was a consideration Luke would be immensely grateful for later on. The fact that Q gave his comfort such priority and took such care with his trust made Luke treasure him that much more. No one had ever had a better boyfriend, real or pretend.
Another nod. "Yes to both."
Q: One more kiss, one more gentle, loving, slow kiss before turning around, exposed, to Tane Lukela.
"He wants your hands on me."
Tane/Luke: That one kiss was all it took to have Luke practically melting in Q's arms, and have Tane's heart melting along with him.
He gave a single nod before shutting off the stove and washing his hands. When he approached, he did so slowly, waiting for Luke's go ahead before closing the rest of the distance.
Q: Q watched his approach and wanted to laugh. He was so damn cautious. As cute as it was, he could bet it was appreciated by the beautiful nude man beside him.
"I think you're too clothed, but that's my opinion," he grinned.
Tane/Luke: It absolutely was; as was Q's opinion on Tane's current state. Appreciated and shared.
Tane chuckled softly. "Is it now? Then I better do something about that." Starting with his shirt. It was pulled up and over his head, tossed onto the coffee table. "Naked enough yet, gorgeous?"
Q: "You tell him when to stop, Luke. I sure enjoy the fucking view." Goddamn eye candy is what Big T was.
Tane/Luke: Eye candy was right. Luke didn't think people who looked like Tane existed in real life, yet here they were.
All it took was a glance to Tane's belt and off it came.
Tane was hyper-focused on this tiny blond lawyer, you see. Everywhere those eyes went was exposed to his view.
Shoes and socks followed the belt, then his jeans....and then his boxer briefs.
Q: Q leaned back and watched their silent exchange, marveled at their living Adonis and proceeded to touch himself with gusto. In that moment, life was completely and utterly perfect.
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Rohan: To an onlooker, it would be astounding that Rohan managed to move so much while moving so little. MJ was being explored to both their hearts' content all without being denied the safety and comfort of Rohan's embrace.
He wanted his vampire to be delirious with pleasure, to feel nothing but a warm glow as Rohan made love to him. And this was most certainly making love.
While his lips delivered an onslaught of kisses, his hands eased and explored. Rohan wanted MJ to get accustomed to not only his touch, but being touched in all those lovely intimate places he had yet to explore and learn. The length of him was traced with feather light strokes, his sac cupped with the gentlest pressure.
MJ: The warmth of those hands was almost too much for his pale cold skin. The intimate fondling caused shivers up his spine and into his lungs. Another first.
"You're wearin' too much," he purred.
Rohan: "By all means," he whispered, peppering kisses along MJ's chest. "Feel free to rid me of all this cumbersome fabric."
MJ: With pleasure, he thought. Sitting up, he began with the belt, ripping one of the belt loops and sending it flying across the room. His short trimmed nails lightly raked over his hip. He continued with the jeans, wishing he could breathe life and celebrate being with this man the way he deserved.
"D'ya...love me?"
Rohan: Rohan laughed softly as his belt went flying, watching to make sure it didn't hit (and break) anything valuable.
The laugh was short-lived, however, soon replaced with a fond smile and appreciative hum. He adored those cool hands and the man they belonged to. Surely MJ would be able to see it in his eyes. And if he couldn't, Rohan's kisses and murmured endearments should show him.
"Yes, puiule," he whispered against his vampire's lips. "I love you." If his declaration halted things in their tracks so be it. MJ needed to hear the words.
MJ: His vampire - his? - stared up at the witch with blank expression. The expectation had been succeeded by truth. Had he breath to lose it would have vacated.
"I... You..."
Rohan: He smiled, kissed him again. "I love you, MJ." Another kiss. "I love you."
MJ: "Thanks." The realization of his reply caused a headache like cringe. "Not that. The fuck would I say that - I...I...love ya, too."
Rohan: That just made his smile grow more. It was such an MJ response, and that made his heart just as happy as the 'I love you, too'.
Rohan held MJ close, hands briefly abandoned his vampire's groin to hold him properly and drown him in kisses. This was a beautiful moment; it had to be savored. "I love you so much," he whispered.
MJ: "Alright, alright," he laughed. "Don't make it all mushy. We...We got love. So, back t'sex, right?" Oh no. Sex with...romance? Love? More emotional and tender than any night before.
"I shoulda asked after ya fucked me."
Rohan: Rohan gave him one more kiss, just to make really sure his vampire knew how much he was loved.
"Whether I said it aloud first or not, the sex would've been emotional. You would've been able to feel my love even if you didn't hear it."
MJ: "S'why I asked," he said softly. "Just had a feelin'. You're too sweet t'me, old man."
Rohan: "I'm exactly as sweet as I'm meant to be. And you, are very intuitive." Maybe just one more kiss.
"Do you still want to...?" It was fine if he didn't. There had been a lot of emotional intensity today.
MJ: One more? They would have many. "Yeah. Yeah, of course." Of course he said. What the fuck are you doing, his mind exclaimed.
Rohan: If MJ wanted many, there would be many, along with all the loving touches Rohan's two hands were capable of.
"Are you sure? We don't have to. I know it's a lot."
MJ: "If ya keep sayin' that I'll never go through with it," he laughed.
Rohan: "Nothing wrong with that, puiule," he said with a soft smile, letting his hands roam below MJ's waist again. "Promise me you'll tell me if you want me to stop or slow down." He kissed his vampire's shoulder. "Your comfort is the most important thing." A kiss to his chest as his hand gently cupped MJ's sac. "Your comfort and your pleasure."
MJ: MJ swallowed and licked his lips. Somehow he'd forgotten what that felt like. He placed his hand over Rohan's wrist. Closer. Harder.
"I'm fine. Keep doin' that."
Rohan: Rohan obligingly increased the pressure, massaging more firmly, occasionally stroking MJ's length from base to tip and back down to his scrotum.
MJ: Blood had to be willed between his legs. The act nearly took him from the scene, but the witch's lips fueled him. Softly, he hummed.
Rohan: Rohan smiled against his vampire's lips, giving him an approving and gentle squeeze.
"That's it, puiule. You're doing so well." His lips began to migrate lower. "So beautiful."
MJ: That feminine sensation again. He shivered, brought his hands to Rohan's hair and squeezed. So lucky, he thought. So unworthy. Tonight, this moment, this was for Rohan. Giving in to his nature was an indulgence.
"What d'ya wanna do t'me?"
Rohan: "Love you," Rohan said simply, kissing just below MJ's navel. Tonight his vampire was going to be positively worshipped and thoroughly pleasured.
A soft, open-mouthed kiss was placed on the tip of MJ's cock. "All of you."
MJ: Oh. More familiar. Not quite sensational, but the mere idea of Rohan's mouth against him was enough for the butterflies to flap their wings.
"Love ya, too. I wanna taste ya. Let me taste ya."
Rohan: "Of course you can," he purred, nuzzling and kissing MJ's scrotum. "Where do you want to taste, puiule?"
MJ: "Sit on my face, Ro. We can have each other."
Rohan: "Mmm, I like the sound of that." He liked it very much.
He leaned up to give MJ a proper kiss before straddling him and adjusting positions, making sure MJ was comfortable before continuing his exploration and letting his vampire explore.
MJ: His mind wandered to the first time he had ever kissed someone. To the warmth of their lips. The sloppy urgency. The fumbling hands which followed. None of which felt present tonight. Every move Rohan ever made was deliberate. He was beautiful and mature. Even now, with his body for the taking. He was brought into his mouth, tasted and played with, with two uncertain hands.
Rohan: MJ was immediately rewarded with a soft moan. It didn't matter how uncertain his hands were; Rohan loved their touch, loved his vampire's mouth's attention. And he wasn't shy about making his pleasure or his approval known, and he definitely wasn't shy about lavishing every single inch of MJ's groin with affection.
He kissed and tasted his cock and his sac and his thighs, lips gentle and thorough. "Beautiful," Rohan murmured to himself, pressing a kiss to MJ's abdomen as he petted over his entrance.
MJ: Fuck. This was Rohan Delca. He might as well be a prince, or an angel. The man was meant to be worshipped. He was so elegant and intelligent and yet somehow tolerant and patient - didn't he grow tired of being so wholesome? Somehow this man loved him. He would never deserve him.
Which was motivation in his attempt to offer himself as one of the druid's best experiences. He kissed every available inch of perfect skin and massaged firm muscle.
Oh. His legs spread submissively. More touches, please. Invade me at your will. Love me with your fingers and mouth.
Rohan: That was precisely what Rohan intended to do. The word 'beautiful' played on a loop over and over in his head as he reached for the lube and generously coated one finger, never ceasing his lavish kisses and warm little nuzzles against MJ's cock.
He petted over his vampire's entrance again with his now prepped finger, circling it slowly, getting it nice and wet before he even thought of breaching it, however slightly. At first, of course. He wanted MJ to get used to the touch and the feeling of being penetrated before he took things further. He'd work slowly and carefully, letting MJ control the pace while making sure every moment of the process was as pleasurable as possible.
Madam X’s Shoulder Strap, Part I || Rhys, Xavier, Rohan, & Ariel || July, 2023
Rohan/Xavier: “So you met how exactly?”
Xavier exhaled a cloud of smoke and looked over at Rohan, smiling fondly as he recalled the memory. “He surprised me while I was in the middle of helping myself to someone’s private wine collection.”
Rohan nodded. “I’m surprised he let you walk out alive.” He looked around, taking in their surroundings. The hotel they were standing in front of, the people on the street, the noise of the city. It wasn’t, he knew, the part of New York that had historically drawn Xavier’s interest, which begged many questions. The most pressing of which was, “Why am I here? You’re only in New York for a few days, wouldn’t you rather spend time with your friend alone?”
“Because you need a break and because you’re my friend, too.” Xavier looked at his watch. He’d informed Rhys of his arrival (and Rohan’s presence) and had arranged to meet him. It had been too long of communicating with just letters.
“He’ll be here soon. Then you can stop overthinking.”
Rhys: Xavier had informed of his presence only an hour ago. He had been groomed, of course, lounging as he so often did on the couch, doing his best to ignore the vibration of his phone which he knew to be January Dune. Every Friday on the dot, and almost every Friday he declined. Never would her nightclub be to his taste, but he knew he could only deny her so many times.
And then, rather than the usual short burst vibrations, two long hums. A man he was willing to see.
And, apparently, a new face.
Sapphira ran her fingers through his hair one last time before bidding him farewell and good luck. If he had to step foot in the noise factory, might as well be with welcome distractions.
Dressed in black from shoulders to toes, hair pulled back in a meticulous bun, gold earrings, rings, and glasses, the Lasombra smiled, polite and brief.
"I thought you would have a tan," he greeted.
Xavier: The way Rhys’ presence shifted the air drew Xavier’s attention mere seconds before he became aware of his approach. This such a familiar sight. Such a familiar scenario.
The vampire really did cut a stunning figure.
“I’m an Englishman,” he said, smiling as he put out his cigarette. “We don’t tan, we burn. Good evening, Mr. Mello.”
Rhys: "A burn? That's less likely on you." Pale as usual. Beautiful, as usual. That irresistible hair, just begging to be touched. He would not, of course. Not in the company of others.
The other in question was given the same brief smile. Rather than a frozen offered hand, he bowed his head.
Rohan/Xavier: “Less likely but not impossible, so I found.” Somehow in those initial weeks, and despite his advanced age and experience, he’d managed to underestimate the sun and his own proximity to the equator.
Xavier gestured to Rohan. “Mr. Mello, I’d like to introduce you to a very dear friend. This is Rohan. Rohan, this is Mr. Mello, a new friend but no less dear for it.”
Rohan gave Rhys a nod and a polite but soft smile. “Pleasure to meet you,” he greeted in a distinct Romanian accent. “I’ve heard quite a bit about you.”
Rhys: "'Quite a bit,'" he echoed. "Good things, I hope." Of that he had no doubt, but, it was a coy enough reply, and the company kind enough to tease.
"Would you mind terribly if I stole an hour of your time to visit my friend's club? If EDM won't rupture your eardrums."
Rohan/Xavier: “All good. Where you’re concerned, of course. Xavier painted himself in a far less flattering light.”
Xavier had nothing to say for himself. He simply smiled innocently and shook his head at Rhys’ question. “It won’t. All things can be endured so long as there’s alcohol. Do you mind?” he added, turning to Rohan.
“Not at all.” It wasn’t his music but then again, was any music his music? As one partial to silence, he doubted it.
The demon nodded. “Lead the way then, Mr. Mello.”
Rhys: "Alcohol, dancing, dim lights," Rhys gestured to the east, waiting for Xavier to reach his shoulder before making pace.
"Less flattering, are you?" The demon was given a look behind his spectacles. "What nonsense did you tell this man?"
Only a few blocks from their beloved hotel. Bass could be felt before turning the corner. A gray unassuming building. January Embers in neon cursive of blue, red, and orange. The black door with the same name painted in white was guarded by two men and their blue velvet rope.
Rhys' cigarette was pressed out against the brick and pocketed. The line was ignored, much to the chagrin of a party of five young women.
"Mr. Harris. Mr. Lee," he greeted. A single finger was pointed at both Xavier and Rohan. Nothing needed to be said.
The rope was unclipped and pulled to the side.
The foyer was tight, leading only to a coat check and metal detector before opening wide to a single enormous room. A room that would have been pitch black if not for the stage lighting. Wide strobe lights glimmered in blue, white, and purple. The bar, of course, was like a beacon from Heaven. A long strip of light ran the length of the entire bar. Another illuminated the mirror wall behind the hundreds of bottles.
The music, a heavy rhythmic pump overshadowing retro dance, ran the risk of engulfing their ears, minds, and very souls.
Xavier: “The truth. After a fashion,” Xavier added with a grin. Although with how accustomed Rohan was to hearing stories of the situations Xavier got himself into—and just barely scraped out of—the ‘less than flattering’ light was probably not so much unflattering as unsurprising.
The club was an environment that, unbeknownst to either Xavier or Rohan, reminded them both immediately of John Ramsay. Only someone like him could regularly spend time in a place like this, being consumed alive by noise and movement and colored light.
Well, it was certainly the distraction that the demon had been wanting for Rohan. And the bar was rather stunning, he’d give it that.
Xavier touched Rhys’ arm and nodded toward it, not even bothering to speak. It’d be impossible to make himself heard.
Rhys/Ariel: After a fashion. He'd have to pry a little further into the night. Not so pressing to need to push now. There was certainly a correction pending.
A Rhianna song had been transformed into a progressive trap, mellowing out to chillwave and falling off the melodic cliff back to a heavy four-on-the-floor beat.
There was no sense in drinking other than the pleasure of pretending in Xavier's company. Long fingers brushed along Xavier's elbow, lingering for a beat and slipping away.
The DJ was impossible to miss. The stage was high and illuminated by the long table of equipment. His shirt could have been crisp white or neon pink. Impossible to tell in the dynamic lights. The man was a pure presence. With his arm in the air, it seemed as if he were controlling the crowd with every flick of his hand. Up and down. Up and down.
"You're going to see a woman in a tiara in a minute. That will be my friend," Rhys warned, whispering in Xavier's ear.
Rohan/Xavier: Impossible to miss was putting it mildly. It was near impossible to look away.
Rohan found himself drawn in almost in spite of himself, only giving his surroundings enough attention to avoid running into other people as he followed Xavier to the bar. This may not have been his venue or entertainment of choice but it was oddly…pleasant. Alluring.
Xavier’s brow furrowed. “Should I be concerned?” he whispered back, leaning in close.
Rhys/Ariel: Rhys just knew he could distinguish Xavier's cologne from the stench of over five hundred mortals. A scent he hadn't enjoyed in months. Too long. If he leaned an inch towards Xavier's neck, it was only for a heartbeat. Gone again.
"Nosey. Flirtatious."
She had yet to spot them. A woman with as much presence if not more than the DJ she was approaching. A delicate blend of Audrey Hepburn and Mia Farrow. Pixie cut hair bleached white. Not a tiara. Not even a diadem. She wore a circlet of silver and diamonds. A heart-shaped sapphire dead center, dangling just between her eyes.
The DJ introduced her as Lady Dune, the proprietor.
Rhys turned to face the stage. Glass in hand.
"Right on time."
Xavier: “Ah.” Xavier nodded to himself. He’d experienced no shortage of either nosy or flirtatious interactions but good judgment advised him to exercise caution. After all, Rhys himself—and the manner in which they met—had shown him that while humans could be safely underestimated in many senses, any other being could not.
Still, Rhys’ friend had an air about her that was as entrancing as it was nostalgic. She could have been a film star in another life, or perhaps a model.
“Lady Dune, hm?” Xavier tilted his head as he studied her. “Fascinating.”
Rhys/Ariel: "She was a noblewoman, once. Her own ladies-in-waiting. Too rich for my blood."
Said next to a man that should have had one hundred suitors. He smiled from behind his glass.
It was her turn behind the table. Shifting from house to trance between a single song. Her mirrored dress acted as a disco ball, glittering the dance floor like a thousand gems.
A word was whispered in the DJs ear. He waved to the crowd, applauded Lady Dune, and stepped down from the stage.
Only feet from the bar did the DJ finally turn from the audience. A second more, and he was frozen altogether.
Rohan/Xavier: “So a lady in the true sense of the word then.” Xavier couldn’t help but wonder how a noble ended up choosing this sort of venture but he supposed it made an odd sort of sense, especially if this wasn’t her first foray into the nightlife business. Boredom and wealth were old friends and often yielded interesting results.
Although there hadn’t really been a reprieve from the music—Rohan was trying desperately not to think of it as merely noise—the changing of the guard, so to speak, did offer a small reprieve. It felt like he could actually focus on the drink in his hand for the first time since they’d entered the club although that would soon prove to be short-lived as well.
He’d been noticed.
The man that had halted the DJ in his tracks had rather a different aura than his companions. He was elegantly dressed in a deep brown suit and midnight blue shirt, the top two buttons of which were undone. He was well-groomed, dark hair styled.
And the moment he felt a gaze, silvery blue eyes would meet his admirer’s.
Ariel: They were opposite ends of the coin. Chinos; Nike's as white as his shirt; a silver cross around his neck, just the right size for his frame; silver watch to match.
The man had not shaven in so long the precision was being lost in his scruff. His toffee hair accentuated his hazel eyes, and they were locked, trapped by two full moons.
He was supposed to talk to Rhys. Supposed to point him towards the VIP room and away from the crowds, away from the mirrors. His hand raised in gesture, but forgot the words.
Rohan/Xavier: Rohan felt the sudden urge to break eye contact but found himself unable to despite the feeling that he was caught under a spotlight. He was rarely, if ever, the focus of such attention.
Especially standing right next to Xavier.
Was the DJ trying to greet him or get his attention? He wasn’t waving so perhaps it wasn’t a greeting, and they were already looking at each other so he doubted the man wanted his attention.
He seemed unlikely to know Xavier, which meant that the person the DJ must have been trying to communicate with was Rhys.
Armed with this logic, Rohan finally managed to look away and intended to get Rhys’ attention, only to notice that Xavier had been observing the interaction and was already doing it for him.
“Mr. Mello,” the demon said in a tone that was impossible to discern. “I do believe we’ve been spotted.”
Rhys/Ariel: With eye contact severed, Ariel managed a hundred blinks, turning to the stage with a sigh. Just a moment of reprieve before returning his attention. Would have been nice, just a few seconds more to themselves, but he had to wonder if this was another vampire. Would make sense why he'd been as captivated with those eyes as he was with music.
Another astonishing moment, Rhys thought. A raised brow followed another brief smile, tighter on the lips. Appearances, then. He'd thought them past this, but perhaps with the recent death...
"She wants you in her VIP suite. You and your friends."
Rhys set aside his glass. Might as well indulge in a little curiosity.
"This is Ariel Cassidy. If you want to introduce yourselves..." A look was given to Xavier, to Rohan and back.
Rohan/Xavier: “Mr. Cassidy.” Xavier inclined his head toward the DJ. His smile could have reasonably been interpreted as polite but there was an undercurrent of interest and amusement that, though subtle, couldn’t be denied.
“You may call me Mr. Rossmara and this,” he patted Rohan’s shoulder, “is Mr. Dalca.” Given the circumstances, some formality was probably best for now. If Rohan wanted to give his first name then that was his decision and his business.
Rohan offered a nod and the same smile he’d given Rhys earlier.
Rhys/Ariel: The man had given his name, but Ariel had his eyes fixed on only one. Having finished his micro assignment, he was free to do as he pleased. At least until January had finished her set. Always one a night, and the timing couldn't have been better.
Rhys placed cash on the bar counter, whispered words in the bartender's ear, and set off for the spiral staircase. Fingers brushed Xavier's elbow once again but kept his silence.
Ariel's chest rose high and caved. Before Dalca could move, he leaned in. Damn near cheek-to-cheek to be heard.
"You like music?"
Rohan/Xavier: Right then. Xavier could tell when he was superfluous to the situation and at this moment, he and Rhys may as well have been painted on the wall.
He followed Rhys, grinning to himself and leaving Rohan to his admirer.
Meanwhile, that spotlight Rohan could swear he felt was only getting more intense. How did he even begin to answer that without sounding exactly like the sixty year-old man he was?
A nod was the safest option, and one that made sense given the noise. “I do,” he said, trying to maintain as much distance as he could. An impossible pipe dream.
Ariel: Just two words, but he'd managed to catch them. The nod more so. Having leaned in, some of Dalca's hair had brushed his forehead. Those little touches mattered. There was a scent he didn't immediately recognize, and he wanted another whiff. Couldn't just breathe him in like a creeper. Had to be organic. He knew just the thing.
"So, like, if you're not," he gestured between them, "like I get it. No hard feelings, but like, you wanna dance?"
Rohan: What was this odd mix of bold and friendly that was succeeding so well at flustering him? That was precisely how he was feeling. Flustered.
A sensation as foreign to him as the desert to a fish.
“I—well…” Oh, he was still holding his drink. There was indeed a higher power. He made great effort to sip and not gulp while he took a second to collect himself.
Of course, the moment he had to lean in to speak, his efforts were useless. “It’s not that you’re—I don’t really dance.”
Ariel: Yes, perfect. Another lean in. His cologne, shampoo, whatever that was, was nearly as addictive as his eyes.
Time was ticking. Adagio for Strings had the dance floor buzzing. He took a chance, maybe too eager, maybe too soon, but pinched Dalca's suit coat between two fingers and tugged once.
"All you gotta do is sway and jump. Fake it 'til you make it, you know? Trust me, you're perfect."
Rohan: Rohan took a slow, deliberate breath, reaching for calm from somewhere.
Sway…he could do that. Maybe not jump, but swaying wasn’t bad. He wasn’t nearly drunk enough to be considering this and perhaps the fact that he was considering it meant that Xavier was right and he’d needed a break from work. That was the only explanation for this temporary insanity.
Not the fact that the person asking was a very handsome man. No, that definitely wasn’t it.
Help me, he thought to the universe, finishing off his drink.
“All right.”
Rhys/Ariel: January plugged into her love of all things Tiësto couldn't have made for a better setting with someone unaccustomed to dancing. There wasn't much to this kind of music. Another gentle tug to Dalca's suit, he was led dead center of the dance floor. The safest place for someone awkward, in his opinion.
"Just feel it," he explained, using full voice to be heard over the swelling trance. "Just vibe." He laughed at his own explanation, not realizing they had their own private audience of two.
Rhys had yet to slip behind the blue curtain just behind them. Leaning against the railing, arms crossed, he watched on with Xavier in silence, to be broken by a question.
"This is unusual, isn't it? Or strangely usual." A guess, given Xavier's radiant expression.
Rohan/Xavier: Desert. Fish.
That explanation was decidedly unhelpful. It was impossible not to feel the music, it was making his atoms vibrate. Moving to it was—
He needed to stop overthinking or he was never going to do this. He’d follow the DJ’s lead and blend into the sea of bodies and with any luck, he’d avoid embarrassing himself.
Xavier laughed. Forget radiant, he felt positively giddy for the first time in weeks.
“Oh, it is. Supremely unusual.”
Rhys/Ariel: Rhys attention was stolen by the smile in Xavier's tone. At least he could still smile. Had he missed him? He didn't usually miss anyone. He had to be careful about that.
"You're going to tell me about this less-flattering light you painted yourself before we're interrupted again. First," he pointed down to the sea of bouncing bodies, "that man belongs to January." He didn't want to use the word ghoul in public. Despite the hum of music and chatter, he refused to take that risk. "What he is, is that going to be a problem for your man?"
Ariel had to try his damnedest not to touch. He wanted to, but this man was just seconds into his life. His arms raised, his hands went out, anything but touch.
"You're gettin' it!" he cheered. Stiff as a board but the man was trying.
Xavier: Rhys didn’t have to say it outright. Context was all that was required. Although the jump from baby vampire to ghoul was sure to put up a wall or two, provided things progressed…at all.
This was one evening. Why count chickens?
Xavier shook his head. “It won’t. He’s made of stronger stuff than he seems. And for the record…”
He turned his smile on Rhys. “Don’t go thinking I stooped to self-deprecation. I’m not quite so far gone. I simply told Rohan how we met and in that situation, you come off far better than I do.”
Rhys: Rhys and Ariel had one thing in common, at least in this moment; they couldn't take their eyes off of the man in front of them.
Quietly, Rhys reached out to cup Xavier's face in both hands. Pulled the demon close enough to kiss under his eye. He wanted that since the hotel, and it was his.
Xavier: The smiling, amused man of a few seconds ago became as soft as water the moment he was given affection. Even simple contact would’ve been more than enough.
The effect Rhys had on Xavier hadn’t been lessened by time, distance, or even circumstance; the smallest reminder of it was enough to make the demon yearn.
Xavier closed his eyes and, helpless to resist, leaned into it.
Rhys: He would never, ever understand what made this man a demon. This was no demon. This was an angel. He would know.
A cool, false breath was breathed against Xavier's skin.
"Come," he whispered, knowing he would be heard. Leaning away was a gentle torment and deliberately slow, waiting for Xavier to right himself. He was then led behind the curtain to their own private booth. Black leather wrapped around an acrylic bar table.
Xavier: There would be no righting himself so long as he remained in Rhys’ company, but an attempt would be made. At the very least he could unknowingly do what Rohan had done and take a slow, deep breath. It would have to do.
He followed Rhys into the booth and felt immediately relieved. Although the curtain did precious little to block out the noise, it was comfortable and private.
“I thought I was becoming accustomed to constant noise living in Bangkok. Apparently not.”
Rhys/Ariel: "Now, there is a place I haven't been in an age. Two, perhaps. Are you enjoying as much as your letters imply?"
Some two dozen more mortals had joined the dance floor. A perfect excuse to press in closer, turning to face the stage and the performance from January. Just enough attention so as not to seem his world revolved around his acquaintance. His arm raised as hers raised, singing along to Sarah McLachlan.
This was going to come to an end. How fucking tragic was that?
He turned, almost buried his face in Dalca's hair in a momentary loss of coordination.
"What's your first name?"
Rohan/Xavier: Xavier nodded, a smile returning to his face. Softer, but still a smile.
“I am. Prior to moving there I hadn’t been in over a decade, nearing two perhaps. I’m enjoying it more this time around. I’m…comfortable there.”
Knowing it was going to end eventually was helping Rohan relax, however…it would be a lie to say he wasn’t enjoying himself. Just a bit.
In the moments where he wasn’t hyper-aware of his company.
What was—that’s right. Xavier had only introduced him as Mr. Dalca, no doubt considering his first name personal information that wasn’t his place to disclose.
There was an instinctual reaction not to give it but this man had had him in a trance since he stepped foot in this building.
“Rohan. My name is Rohan.”
Rhys/Ariel: "Is it your permanent residence from this night forward?" His way of asking how often these visits would take place. Wasn't that obvious?
Rohan would be able to tell under minimal lighting that Ariel was testing his name on his lips. Not once but twice.
"Are you having a good time tonight?" January shouted over the microphone. His signal to return. He had to do something.
"Wanna see?" He pointed up to the stage.
Rohan/Xavier: “I suppose that depends on how one defines ‘permanent’,” Xavier mused as he recalled the similar conversation he’d had with Abel. “Let us just say that it’s my residence for now. And that now that things have begun to settle, I have some free time back.”
To write letters. To travel. To pop into Brooklyn.
Rohan looked from Ariel to the stage and back again. Getting away from the crowd was tempting but, “Not if it will get you in trouble.”
Rhys/Ariel: That would do. There was nothing Rhys could think of to say, and it wasn't his place to say anything at all.
Before he could open his mouth, the curtain opened. A man dressed in all black, hair and beard perfectly groomed, tattoo on his neck, smiled politely. Their conversation would have to remain in suspension.
"Champagne?" Rhys asked.
Trouble? Why would he think -
Ariel tried to laugh, not truly reaching his eyes. "Why... would I be in trouble?"
Rohan/Xavier: Xavier nodded. He’d never say no to a drink, even if it came at the cost of an interruption.
“Yes, please.”
Rohan could think of about half a dozen reasons stemming from the mere fact that he was a stranger alone. If he gave it serious thought, he could easily come up with more.
“Maybe your boss doesn’t want random people up there,” for starters.
Ariel: Oh. Okay. Maybe Father Mello had human friends after all, and this was all just a crazy coincidence that Rohan Dalca was like a living breathing drug. Just a wild, spectacular find.
Sure, and his boss wasn't a vampire that sank her teeth into his body every Saturday night.
"It's my shit," he laughed. "It's okay. Just... you sticking around?"
Rohan: The answer to that wasn’t entirely up to him but Rhys had mentioned staying for at least an hour.
“For a while, yes,” said Rohan, nodding. More importantly, why was Ariel asking? His company couldn’t possibly be that enticing.
Ariel: "So I'll see you." That wasn't a question. He knew where he was going because he had to give the message. This was a hopeful certainty he'd see him again before walking out the door.
"Come up to the stage anytime."
Rohan: No, it certainly wasn’t a question, and in any other situation, that had the potential to bother him. Here and now? When he couldn’t even begin to make sense of how and what he was feeling?
All Rohan could do was nod. He would. Either Ariel would see him or, more likely, Rohan would see him given how impossible it was not to look at this man.
“I should…” He gestured toward the stairs.
Ariel: His shoulders rose, as though startled. "Right!" The gap between them was closed, pointing as best he could to Rohan's point-of-view to the corner curtain.
As easy as it could have been to wrap his arm around his waist, maybe even a hand on his lower back, he denied himself both. It was simply too much. Just fantasies of a man he would probably never see again. But he would be thinking about him all night.
Rohan: Rohan nodded a second time. He’d send Xavier a text in a moment to ensure he wasn’t about to interrupt anything.
“Thank you. For the guidance and…for the dance,” he added with a smile that held some its usual relaxed warmth.
Ariel: Oh. The gratitude seemed to have caught him off guard. Ariel gave a boyish smile. One akin to a certain Ravnos.
"Absolutely. Absolutely. Hope I see you again." It just slipped, but there it was, and he was off to the stage before embarrassment took over.
Rohan/Xavier: That brief flash of familiarity felt like a rock lodging itself somewhere between Rohan’s throat and his chest. He didn’t want to think about it for too long.
“Right…” he said weakly, watching Ariel’s retreating back and only making his way toward the stairs when the DJ was back at his post.
Halfway up he remembered what he’d intended.
{Text to Xavier} Are you okay for me to come in or do you want time alone?
Xavier felt at his inside pocket for his phone and read Rohan’s message, smiling to himself.
“It seems our Mr. Dalca has concluded his sojourn on the dance floor.”
{Text to Rohan} Come in
Rhys: "Has he now?" He had an idea why, but he would keep to himself. If he was correct, then January would not be far behind.
Rhys made no effort to conceal how close he had placed himself to the demon. Though, he would move aside the bottle and bucket of champagne to the empty side of the booth.
"Welcome, Mr. Dalca."
Rohan/Xavier: With the all-clear given, Rohan made one last effort at composing himself and stepped behind the curtain.
“Mr. Mello,” he greeted, slipping into the side of the booth opposite the two of them. Their closeness was barely even noted.
“Did you enjoy yourself?” Xavier asked, using his glass to hide his smile.
Rohan made a noncommittal noise and poured himself some champagne. “Mm.”
“Did you not? Your skin is positively flushed.”
Xavier was given such a look. “It’s hot.”
Rhys/January: "I'm sure it is." Though, unlike Xavier, Rhys wasn't fighting a smile. He was not one to judge proclivities, but he would be lying to say he wasn't entertained by Xavier's response.
"The owner has yet to plant me on the dance floor."
"But one day!" A voice no harsher than a flute chimed from the other side of the curtain. A man as tall as Ariel, dressed in the same black suit as the bouncers, stood on the other side of the velvet curtain as it was opened and closed. A bodyguard if there ever was one.
"Hello. I'm January." Her petite hand was offered first to Xavier.
Rohan/Xavier: Almost as one, Xavier and Rohan got to their feet when their hostess entered the booth.
“Good evening.” Xavier gave her a smile that was all charm and took her hand, placing the most delicate, gallant kiss to the back of it. “A pleasure to meet you, Lady Dune. I am Xavier Rossmara.”
Rhys/January: Rhys was the last to his feet, and after decades of knowing January, did nothing more than nod his greeting. He was ignored; she was all too flattered by the beautiful creature by his side. And this wasn't the one that had caught Ari's eye? Of course her bouncers had been of no use, telling her two men with no juicy details!
"Now that is a gentleman." Her hand was offered then to the one with eyes like ice. Not too shabby. No, not at all.
"Tonight's my lucky night!" she giggled, taking her place by Rohan's side.
Rohan: Rohan made far less of a show of his greeting than Xavier had, but he afforded their hostess the same courtesy and treatment, and gave her a smile that, though quieter, was no less charming.
“Rohan Dalca. Pleasure to meet you, Lady Dune.”
January: "Rohan," she said slowly, sounding out his name. No, he had not captured her in the same manner, but the second time that night, someone mouthed his name to remember it. The second person because of the first.
She turned back to Xavier and Rhys. Two seconds to study both, and she nodded once.
"Not every night a demon walks into my establishment."
Rohan/Xavier: Curious. Ariel had done the same thing down on the dance floor. Was his name that uncommon or was it simply a shared quirk? Something to ponder while he sipped his champagne and the attention was blessedly on Xavier.
Xavier smiled at their hostess. All cards on the table then. To be expected, and quite frankly easier. Whatever power Lady Dune did or did not have, Xavier recognized that by virtue of her not being human, the playing field between them was level enough to beget respect.
Respect, and cautious honesty.
"No, I don't imagine so. But I can assure you, my lady, that no trouble will be caused to you or to your establishment from my quarter. I am a gentleman."
Rhys/January: "I should hope so, or Rhys has lost his senses! Priests have such big hearts, don't they?"
Rhys was staring at his empty glass. Long fingernail circling the rim before tapping twice. His own language with his coterie, it seemed, as her smile dropped by a centimeter. Her attention returned to Rohan. Elbows on the table, chin in hand.
"Wow. Wow, wow. And you. You sure do... sparkle."
"Will you excuse us." Rhys said, getting to his feet. "Won't be long."
"Yes! You two enjoy yourselves. Please! Music, drinks, lovers, whatever you want. It's yours."
The curtain was opened before either vampire reached it, closed by January's bodyguard.
Rohan/Xavier: "You flatter me, Lady Dune," Rohan said with a smile. Was it the suit? Had Xavier had some catnip-like substance sewn into the lining? All of this attention was so odd. Not unsettling or bothersome, just...foreign.
Xavier wasn't about to comment on that. If he remembered correctly, Rhys no longer considered himself a priest and probably didn't appreciate being referred to as such.
"Yes, of course," he said with a nod as he and Rohan got to their feet. Their seats would only be resumed once they were alone. Well...alone was a relative term in a place like this.
Still, it was enough for Xavier to do some innocent prying.
"You never really answered my question." He grinned at Rohan. "Did you have fun with the DJ?"
Rohan heaved a good-natured sigh. "Must we?"
"Of course we must. I don't think I've seen you dance once in all the years I've known you. It's a momentous occasion, how could we not discuss it?"
"We could just as easily discuss why you're visiting a Maserati dealership when you already have a car."
"Can't a man just look at a car?"
"Can't a man just dance when they've been dragged to New York?"
They squinted at each other over the rims of their glasses.
Rhys: Rohan would have no way of knowing it was all about the auras. The distorted mess that made up a demon and the sparkling glow of a magic user. Then the obvious trance he had placed on her ghoul; Rohan was a man worth investigating. A Toreador had to admire what captivated another Toreador, whether that be a ghoul or Kindred.
The music had slowly transitioned from trance to house. Dark house to be specific. Rhys couldn't differentiate the many genres the way January could. A far cry from her previous lives. A lady-in-waiting, a duchess, a fashion designer, a painter. Just a river of hyper-fixations lasting decades only to nearly drown in the next current.
But that was only a fleeting thought from the Lasombra. This was nothing more than a check-in. January had made it seem urgent, and he should have known better. Had it been important Sapphira would have been in her office.
Rhys returned from behind the curtain within ten minutes.
Rohan/Xavier: Xavier and Rohan’s conversation was kept light and casual. Frivolous even. In unknown territory, the safest option was always to assume that the walls had ears, and that nothing said in private truly was private.
Paranoia had its uses.
So they discussed the merits of one luxury car brand other another, the various trinkets Xavier wanted to buy, the places they each wanted to visit while they were in the city.
Rhys would enter the booth to find Rohan with a fond, long-suffering look on his face while Xavier told him, with great disdain, how some random dilettante had swooped in like a vulture and made off with a painting Xavier had been in negotiations to acquire.
Rhys: The bodyguard January had left planted in front of the curtain was dismissed. One ghoul was an indulgence. Three was an agenda.
"Not another instance of breaking and entering?" Rhys greeted, returning to his seat no worse for wear.
Rohan/Xavier: “If only.” Any sourness in Xavier’s expression dissipated the moment he saw Rhys and heard his voice.
Rohan noticed.
“Breaking and entering would’ve been simpler, but the painting was meant to be a gift for someone who rather prefers me to acquire art through ethical means. So now I must contend with auctioneers who can apparently be swayed with a comped weekend in Atlantic City. Can you imagine?”
Rohan grinned into his champagne. “The absolute state of art auctions in this country,” he said, his intended sincerity easily won over by amusement.
Xavier gestured with his glass. “You joke but it’s true.”
Rhys: "I can't see you stooping so low as to seduce someone for a bit of art. Holding their head in a bucket of water, certainly."
The only one with an empty glass. Rhys was in need of sustenance. Reluctantly, he leaned closer to Xavier, sighed, and whispered, "I... might have to excuse myself again in a minute... for a drink."
Xavier: “I only seduce through bribes, I assure you.” Although now Xavier was certainly wishing he had held that man’s head in a bucket of water. It might have yielded a less infuriating result.
Xavier nodded and whispered, “I understand.” And he did, even if it brought to mind the memory of a certain jazz club singer and even if that memory happened to gnaw at him.
Rhys: A single nod, and green eyes climbed from that exquisite neck to those lips to those stormy blues.
His back then curved, slouching back, making no effort to distance himself from the demon as he looked at the one January called a magic-user.
"You were introduced to me as Rohan. You must be very dear to Xavier to be on a first-name basis."
Rohan: Rohan noticed that, too, but notice was all he did. The nature of Rhys’ relationship with Xavier wasn’t his business. Whatever Xavier wanted to disclose and when was up to him.
Rohan smiled and nodded. “We’ve been friends and colleagues for many, many years. Good ones.”
Rhys: "You've been to battle for this man," Rhys smirked, curious which way Rohan would take his phrasing.
Rohan/Xavier: “And I would do it again,” said the witch, directing his words and his smile at Xavier. There was more than fondness and loyalty in his expression; there was love as well. Love, but no possessiveness or ardor. Theirs was a platonic relationship.
Xavier smiled back. “As I would for you.”
Rhys: His expression seemed akin to the ones Sapphira would give him, and the ones given by January, when she was less distracted by her own life. That was all he needed.
Whether sex was a part of that relationship was of no concern to him.
"Tell me of your first meeting, if significant at all."
Rohan/Xavier: “We met through a mutual acquaintance,” said Xavier. “Or rather a mutual acquaintance suggested I seek him out. I was looking for an antique at the time and wasn’t having much luck finding it.” An antique with magical properties, but an antique nonetheless.
Rohan nodded. “I was working in a historical archive at the time. I had access to resources that allowed me to track it down and we remained in contact. The rest is history as they say.”
Rhys: "And this is something you still do for him, no?" Not the only thing, but a resourceful companion was a hell of a thing to waste.
Rohan: “Occasionally, yes. I no longer work for the archive but I enjoy doing research.” And he’d discreetly maintained most of his resources.
Rhys: "So, a resourceful, intelligent, charming individual as yourself... would or would not want this." A business card was pulled from his coat pocket. Dusk and neon purple. Placed center of the table. DJ Cass.
"A gift from our hostess, from her ghoul."
Rohan/Xavier: Xavier tensed beside Rhys. The revelation would surely come as no shock or great surprise; in fact, it was the most logical assumption that could be made considering who owned this club and how her kind operated. Surely Rohan realized that.
No, what gave him pause was how said revelation would be taken by Rohan given…recent events. Spring had come with a vengeance for them both.
However, Rohan…wasn’t really reacting outwardly. His initial surprise had tempered toward neutrality and he was now staring at the card on the table as if…well, it was impossible to say.
But this had been a gift, and it would be rude not to accept it.
“Thank you,” he managed softly, taking the card and putting it in his inside pocket.
Rhys: Rhys was watching intently. If Rohan took the time to study the card, read the name, number, or email. If his brows rose, fell; whether or not his blinks were soft or frozen altogether.
He was merely the perception. January had the wit to do something with his information. Just seemed a little silly to him.
"Where did you plan to go after this visit?" His attention returned to Xavier.
Rohan/Xavier: Not once did Rohan’s face harden or close off. His expression had remained soft, but to someone who knew him as well as Xavier or was studying him as closely as Rhys, there would be a definite impression that effort was being exerted to keep a mask in place. His thoughts were hard to gauge.
“Ah…” Xavier turned to Rhys. “Unfortunately most of the things I’d like to do will have to wait until the daytime but I had a thought that I might pop into a museum or two before dawn.”
Rhys: Ah, the daytime. He could just imagine the sun on that pale skin, in his hair, and the glow in his eyes. He wanted very much to request a photograph but would do no such thing with another present. Perhaps if ever alone again. Felt as though their privacy was merely a dream in a place like this.
"Which museums did you have in mind?"
Xavier: “The Met and the Guggenheim primarily. It’s been a long time since I’ve been to either one and going when all the tourists are there is pointless and a waste of time.”
Rhys: "If you'll allow me the honor of accompanying you..." He waited to gauge Xavier's expression, "...then please allow me to excuse myself, one last time."
Xavier: The smile returned. He’d wanted to ask but worried Rhys wouldn’t be available since this visit had been such short notice.
“I’d love your company,” he said with a nod. “Please, do whatever you have to. There’s no rush.”
Rhys: "Thank you." His eyes lingered as he bowed his head. He would touch him again, soon enough, but at this moment he needed to find someone. The bodyguard January kept on the second floor, perhaps. The one with silver crosses for earrings and the birthmark on his neck.
Rohan/Xavier: They had no more privacy now than they’d had the first time they’d been left alone in the booth, but Xavier needed to see how Rohan was doing.
So he got creative. Telepathic communication involved more of an effort with someone who didn’t possess the gift but it was still possible.
“Ro,” Xavier said softly. “May I?” He tapped his temple.
Rohan nodded and poured them both more champagne just for something to do.
‘Are you all right?’ the demon thought at his friend, lingering in his mind so he’d be able to hear his responses.
‘I’m fine, X. Why wouldn’t I be?’
‘You know why.’
Rohan sighed and sat back. ‘I’m fine. Really. This isn’t the first time the universe has had fun at my expense and it won’t be the last. I don’t think I can even say that’s what’s happening. It was a single dance, nothing more.’
Xavier shook his head. ‘I’d agree with you if he hadn’t gone out of his way to give you his card. That’s something people only do if they want to speak to someone again. Or see them.’
‘Are you telling me that’s what I should do?’
Xavier shook his head again. ‘No. Whether you do is up to you. I simply don’t want you to write it off because of everything that’s happened.’
Rohan went quiet for a while, watching the bubbles in his glass while he contemplated.
‘I’m not carrying a torch for him, if that’s what you’re worried about.’ He snorted softly and shook his head at himself. ‘Not that I even have a reason or a right to. He didn’t think of me that way. We weren’t in a relationship. I was alone in my feelings.’
‘But you did have them.’ Xavier reached across the table for his friend’s hand. ‘I’m the last person who’d tell you to pretend they didn’t matter. I just don’t want them to haunt you. You deserve to be happy.’
Rohan took Xavier’s hand. ‘It was only a dance, X.’
‘Nothing in this world is only anything.’
Rhys: The bodyguard, Jori, was just as pleased to see Rhys as Rhys was relieved to see his source of food. By now, after a year in January's service, he was certain this bubbleheaded mortal was her so-called gift. She did so love gifts.
His sigh of pleasure was drowned by heart-stirring bass. The stuttering writhing might have been pleasurable before, but tonight could not carry his interest. That was not the kind of love he sought this evening.
The little wound was sealed with a swipe of his thumb. The stain licked from his finger as he bid the young veteran goodnight.
The curtain was opened for the last time.
"Was the champagne to your liking?"
Rohan/Xavier: Again the immediate smile on the demon’s face. This was becoming a pattern. “Very much so.”
Although Xavier and Rohan had let go of each other’s hands before Rhys’ return, the effect of the comfort the contact had given would be noticeable if one were to look closely.
Rohan didn’t look quite so much like he was trying to keep his composure anymore.
“Shall we?” Xavier asked Rhys, getting to his feet.
Rhys: The curtain was pulled completely. He found himself irritated. Not with anyone but himself. The way he altered his demeanor for the sake of a new face. How close he wanted to walk to this man. To share a cigarette.
He felt out of balance. The worst feeling.
"I assume you have your means of being unseen? What of your man?"
Rohan/Xavier: Xavier patted his pocket. “But of course.” His means this evening didn’t take the form of the coin Rhys would’ve perhaps expected, which only meant Xavier would have the opportunity to show off a bit more of his magic.
“Rohan is going to return to the hotel. He’s a creature of the day and sleep is paramount.”
Rohan nodded. What Xavier said was true, but he wasn’t going to return just yet.
“It is. The two of you enjoy the museum. It was lovely to meet you, Mr. Mello.”
Rhys: A small noncommittal noise accompanied his nod. "Shame." The polite thing to say for someone tolerable.
"Please," he turned, offered his hand, "a friend of Xavier's is a friend of mine. Rhys."
Rohan/Xavier: “Perhaps another time.” And so was that.
Rohan shook Rhys hand and smiled warmly. “Then you must call me Rohan. Please be careful,” he added to Xavier. “And remember that you’re there to look at art and not to make a shopping list.”
“I can only promise the former.”
Rhys: "Enjoy what remains of your night."
Fresh air and a modicum of silence were all he needed for the next five minutes. Stepping out into the warm city night. Sanctuary given under a streetlight. Rhys raised his head to the moon and reached for a cigarette. Alone at last.
"I apologize for the inconvenience."
Xavier: Oh, blessed silence. For a moment there Xavier had forgotten that it existed. And knowing that the museum was going to be even quieter than the street? He could weep.
“No apologies are necessary,” he said as he followed Rhys’ lead and pulled out his cigarette case and lighter. “Errands are errands and my arrival was a surprise.”
Rhys: "You were the surprise I wanted." His own cigarette was offered to light the other.
Xavier: There it was again; the immediate utter softness in Xavier’s face and entire demeanor that to Rhys’ mind made him seem more angel than demon.
“I’m glad.” He lit his cigarette and put the lighter back in his pocket. “Which museum would you prefer?”
Rhys: "I have no opinion." If that didn't tell Xavier everything he needed to know.
Xavier: It did, and it made him smile.
“Then let’s go to the Met and look at beautiful art and enjoy being in silence together.”
Just as soon as they found a secluded spot from which to teleport and engage Xavier’s concealment magic.
Ariel: Last he'd seen of that suit was coming down from the VIP staircase. He almost checked his watch but stopped himself in the nick of time. Raised his arm in the air and sang along with the Ne-Yo.
Hours until the last call; he didn't need to check his watch to know the obvious. The club was still at full capacity.
He understood his domitor now; the long stares at walls, the hours of the same song on repeat. Her hyper-fixations had fascinated him before. She had promised one day soon he would have his own, and there it was like euphoria.
And now without those eyes, the music wasn't quite the same.
Rohan: As much as Rohan envied that Xavier was about to be embraced by the soaring halls of a silent, empty museum, he knew himself well enough to know that if he stepped out of this club, he probably wouldn’t ever step back in again.
And for reasons he couldn’t fully reconcile yet…he didn’t want that to be the case.
So he stayed. He didn’t know yet for how long or what he hoped to learn or accomplish by doing so, but he stayed. He found a seat at the bar with a decent view of the DJ booth, ordered himself a club soda, and watched while he tried to sort out what he felt and why he seemed so aware of the card in his chest pocket.
Rhys: In all his years in New York City, The Metropolitan Museum had been mentioned only once, in passing with Sapphira. A place she had slipped into on numerous occasions, never once invited a single soul. It was her private world, and if not for knowing for a fact that she was in Queens that very moment, he would have expected to see her stalking the very hall they had entered.
"This isn't your first time," he mused. "Not with that look on your face."
Xavier: Xavier breathed deeply and closed his eyes, letting the bliss wash over him. It had been too long since he’d done this.
“Not remotely. It’s been an absolute age since I’ve seen this museum with people in it. Any museum, really.” After the club, stepping in here felt like a cool shower on a hot day.
“Have you ever been here?”
Rhys: While he could have enjoyed another cigarette, Rhys slipped his hands into his coat pockets, denying himself cigarettes and touch out of respect.
"I can't say I have. Never had a reason to." He shrugged. "Now that I'm here, I wouldn't mind seeing the religious artifacts."
Xavier: “Then let us do precisely that.” As this ground was hallowed only metaphorically and he didn’t intend to touch anything, he’d be safe from whatever they encountered.
“If memory serves, the hall that houses them is this way,” he said, walking perhaps just a little closer to Rhys than he strictly had to.
Rhys: A hand slipped from his pocket, placed over Xavier's stomach as the reached the end of the hall.
"Security is still a thing with two legs," he whispered. Xavier was the seasoned explorer here, but a healthy dose of caution was his nature.
Xavier: Xavier could’ve told Rhys that the spell he was using to hide them protected them from being detected by guards as well as the security system, but then the vampire wouldn’t have a reason to touch him.
He let himself peek around the corner and cocked his head for any sound. It wouldn’t hurt to check anyway.
“We’re safe,” he whispered back. “The closest guard is on the floor above us.”
Rhys: It only dawned on Rhys in that very moment the lengths he had gone to spend time with this man. The noise factory that was January's club; hidden within a museum in the heart of Manhattan, not at all his territory, nor where he was welcome.
"Your lead, then." Said, though he had yet to release Xavier from his hold.
Xavier: “Right.” It would be another moment, or perhaps even two, before Xavier took that lead.
Their letters made it feel like he spoke to Rhys very often though in reality, months had passed without them seeing each other. Every point of contact, every look, every smile felt precious. Rare. Something to be treasured even if beneath it all there was an undercurrent of guilt.
But…at least for tonight…he wanted to try to forget it was there.
He just wanted to enjoy the quiet and look at beautiful things with the man that had so captivated him from the very first moment they’d met.
Rhys: Eventually, Xavier would have to be released. Time was of no concern in the grand scheme. But this man, despite time, space, and loss, was still his lover. A word Xavier had seemed to shun, but not outright reject. Didn't change how he felt. All he had wanted tonight was his comfortable silence.
There was too much museum and not enough night. Rhys intended to read the details of every interesting artifact, starting with a painting in a room off to the left of Christ and his mother. Surrounded by older artifacts of books, medallions, and saint pendants.
"Do you know your saints?"
Xavier: Despite what they represented, the artifacts were still beautiful and worthy of admiration. But watching Rhys admire them? Watching him learn about what he was seeing? That was infinitely more interesting.
"I did at one point." The knowledge had been beaten into him. "The only ones I can ever seem to remember are Saint Christopher and Joan of Arc."
Rhys: "The patron saint of travelers, loved by every mariner with an ounce of Christianity in their blood."
Rhys smiled from his hunched position, still admiring the golden pendant before him.
"I can tell you a secret about her. A rumor by association. Do you know the name Gilles de Rais?"
Xavier: And associated with one mariner in particular in the mind of a certain demon.
Xavier nodded. "I do, yes. His name is often associated with hers." The man had been a serial killer himself, if he was remembering correctly. One far more vile as far as Xavier was concerned.
"What is this rumor?"
Rhys: "From one elder to another elder to another elder, Gilles de Rais was a mage. I don't know what kind. But her supposed vision of angels was untapped magic that drove her insane. He might have had a hand in it. So the story goes."
Xavier: "Ahhh..." Xavier turned the matter over in his mind. Not only did that make perfect sense, it was so much more plausible than Joan's own account of what she experienced.
"I knew it had to have been something. Simply hearing angels supposedly renders humans all but deaf, actually seeing them would've blinded her if not killed her entirely. I'm more inclined to believe the influence of this mage."
Rhys: The statement of angels had Rhys sitting up straight, turning his attention to Xavier.
"Have you ever laid eyes on one?"
Xavier: "Yes and no. I wouldn't be standing here if I'd ever seen an angel's true form but..." He hummed thoughtfully. "Nothing will ever shake my belief that my father is a fallen angel and I've either just never seen his actual true form or if I have, it's been so warped by Hell that it's indistinguishable from a demon's."
Rhys: Rhys' chin rose and slowly fell.
"The one who made you? Your... sire." As he could understand it.
Xavier: "Yes," he confirmed with a nod. "Sire, father, creator. I suppose it all amounts to the same thing."
Rhys: "Dangerous line some cross, confusing sire as lover. Not unheard of. I rarely hear 'father' or 'mother' in my circle." He could assume the taboo was universal.
Xavier: In that moment Xavier could have sworn he felt Zagan's touch beneath his clothes, along with the all-too-familiar shame and despair and self-hatred licking at his insides like flame.
"Creator and father--or mother--seem to be used interchangeably among demons."
Rhys: "In recent years, you find childer making attempts on their sire's head. The respect it once carried has diminished." His mouth curled, incredulous. "Maybe it's just the abundance of frivolous embraces these nights."
Xavier: He thought, inevitably, of Holden White.
“Pardon me if I’m mistaken but aren’t there meant to be systems in place to prevent those frivolous embraces? Outliers will always exist of course but it seems like a terribly reckless thing to leave unchecked.”
Rhys: "Systems, yes. Keeping your equals in check."
His hand felt for his pack of cigarettes, squeezed. Not here.
"Camarilla run a tight ship. You hear a Scourge is coming for you, your time is up. The bringers of death to high generation illegals."
Xavier: “I take it at least part of the reason for the state of affairs is a decided lack of Kindred keeping each other in check?” An unsettling thought to be sure, just like whatever this Scourge was.
Xavier wasn’t entirely certain he wanted to know.
“I hope no one in your territory is making trouble of that caliber.”
Rhys: "A lot of people abandoning the Ivory Tower. We don't like being told what to do."
Two fingers were pointed towards the nearest window.
"We're in Camarilla territory. Manhattan belongs to them. Anarchs surround them. It's a mess."
Xavier: “Politics usually are. But you can at least rest easy in one respect.”
Xavier smiled at the window, knowing full well that if one were to look in, they wouldn’t see anything but the items on display.
“No one but me will ever know you’re here.”
Rhys: His smile returned. "You make it sound as though you've stolen me."
Xavier: “It feels as though I have. Just for a little while.”
Rhys: Hmm. A thought tingled the tip of his tongue, urged to escape. With a little hum, it was bedded down.
"Then I am yours. For a little while."
Xavier: The demon smiled. “Is there anything you’d like to do tonight? Anywhere you’d like to go?”
Rhys: "You're the one..." in recovery, "tonight is for."
Xavier: “Then…after we’ve seen all we care to here…would you be opposed to sitting on the bridge with me again?”
Rhys: "Play a game of hawk-dove with the sun again?" A replica of that unforgettable night? "With pleasure."
Xavier: “A game that we’ll win,” he said with an easy smile that he had to turn away to hide. He needed to keep some of his excitement for himself, lest Rhys suspect an ulterior motive and ruin the surprise.
Rhys: What was that? He reached forward to pinch Xavier's chin. Affectionately, of course, wanting another second of that secretive smile.
"Lead on."
Xavier: He wouldn’t have to try hard to get it; Xavier was doing a terrible job of not appearing like someone with a secret.
“Let’s go seeee….” He went over his mental map of the museum. “The Greek and Roman art. I’m in the mood for sculpture.”
Rhys: Rhys' smile grew and his hand fell. Now it was his turn to look away. He should explain himself.
"Sculpture, yes. You're touch-starved." He shrugged, starting off towards the hallway. "January's theory."
Xavier: Xavier blinked, then kicked himself mentally. Of course January had a theory; she’d been observing and gleaning all the information she could about those observations because he was a stranger in her territory.
He’d accounted for the lack of privacy but not, somehow, for that little inevitability, fool that he was.
“Mm.” Xavier fell into step beside Rhys. “And here I was hoping my impeccable sense of style would take center stage.”
Rhys: "She loves her theories. One of her favorite stories is how her ability to read people saved her from a swift beheading." A diminutive hedonistic detective with no drive beyond her own pleasure. "Her joie de vivre will do her in."
A lot to say after so long apart. Too much, perhaps. The art opposite of Xavier was suddenly interesting.
Xavier: “Fortunate as it was that she managed to keep her head, one cannot always rely on their ability to read people. Humans and things like us are frighteningly unpredictable.” Yet another benefit of paranoia.
“Did she happen to share her theories about Rohan?”
Rhys: "Enough trust in my own judgement to give me his card. If she didn't like what she saw, he would be empty-handed."
He could face Xavier again.
"What do you know of ghouls? You tightened."
Xavier: Xavier heaved a long sigh. “Not much beyond know what they are and how their bond is established but that isn’t exactly what caused my reaction. Do you recall the fledging I told you about?”
Rhys: "Something happened to him." Or Rohan wanted something to happen with him for him to be the subject.
Xavier: “He walked into the sun. It all finally became too much for him to handle.”
Rhys: "I'm not surprised." Not with everything Xavier had told him. "It's for the best."
Xavier: “I’m inclined to agree. But Rohan was beginning to develop, or rather had developed, feelings for him.”
Rhys: "Feelings. Hmm. You didn't warn him against it? For a fledgling..."
Xavier: “Perhaps I should have, but I never imagined that he would begin to see him that way. In any event, those feelings were unrequited. The rabbit never stopped pining for the woman who turned him and Rohan never said a word to him.”
Rhys: "Would it be wise to play with a ghoul, then. He seems to be a stone enamored with flighty things."
Xavier: “I don’t know,” Xavier sighed. “I didn’t say as much to him but it almost seems as though the universe is toying with him a bit. He loved a Kindred, then cared for a fledgling, and now seems primed to be pursued by a ghoul.”
Rhys: "Forgive me, but, is he a masochist?"
Xavier: “Would that he was. Then this all might not be so tragic. You said he seems like a stone but really…he’s a harbor. He’s a harbor that wants a boat to keep safe.”
Rhys: "Saying that, does he need a lover or children?"
His shoulder rose and fell. "I had a captain like that. Wanted to be the leader of his misfit of lost boys. A menagerie of oddities. He's an only child, I assume."
Xavier: Xavier nodded. “He is, yes. In all honesty, he needs and deserves both. Someone to love him and make him happy and show him the same care and compassion he shows to everyone else. Someone who wants him and not someone else.”
Rhys: Rhys leaned over to read the history of an ornate mask embedded with lapis lazuli. Rohan seemed with them even in their privacy.
"And what do you need and deserve?"
Xavier: Xavier managed to catch himself before saying the first thing that came to mind, which was that he didn’t think he deserved anything. He had a feeling Rhys would find that answer unacceptable.
“A Maserati,” he said, choosing the most frivolous, casual answer to steer them into less fraught waters. “And a cigarette on top of the Brooklyn bridge.”
Rhys: "You're not already bored of the museum." The column read, he turned back around. Both hands held out, palms opened, then closed.
"Show me your favorite artifact."
Xavier: He smiled and shook his head. “I don’t think I’ve ever been bored in any museum I’ve visited. Granted, I’m very picky.”
He looked around the hall. “My favorite artifact here or in the whole museum?”
Rhys: "The artifact you must visit every time you step foot in this building."
Xavier: The answer was immediate.
“Follow me.”
Xavier took a moment to listen for any guards before leading Rhys through hall after hall and gallery after gallery to the opposite end of the floor they were on. He led them into the American wing, to a small cozy corner where their goal lay waiting.
“There she is,” said the demon, gazing adoringly at the portrait of the infamous Madame X.
Rhys: Rhys followed in step, making no effort to hide the way he glanced at Xavier, admiring the flow of his hair and the click of his heels. This man belonged here. And for a moment, all he could imagine was his pale, lithe form splayed on the floor, surrounded by his beloved art.
His spectacles, which had been sitting gingerly between his teeth for the length of the journey, were returned to his face as he leaned in to study her. He could not by a margin understand the depths of beauty a Toreador could, but he could appreciate complexity when it was in his face.
"These straps on her shoulders are meant to be diamonds? Gold, maybe," he mused. "Her face is familiar to me. Masculine. Tired. She seems... human."
Xavier: “Mhm. Jeweled in some fashion.” He sighed wistfully. “She does, doesn’t she? When I first saw this painting I sat in front of it for hours, studying every inch of the canvas, every nuance of her expression. Coveting her. Do you know the story behind it?”
Rhys: "I can't say that I do. She's not fantasy. That much is clear."
Xavier: “Indeed,” Xavier said with a nod. “Madame Gautreau was very real. This portrait is what you may call a revision.
“When John Singer Sargent originally painted it, this strap here,” he indicated the strap farthest from her face, “wasn’t sitting on her shoulder. Do you see how its placement disrupts the line created by her profile, the direction in which she’s leaning, and her arm? It doesn’t quite look natural because that wasn’t what Sargent intended.
“In the original, the strap had slid from her shoulder. When Sargent exhibited the portrait, it was deemed so scandalous that he was forced to paint over it.”
Rhys: Over a strap. If prudish critics were to go so far, might as well condemn straps altogether. Cover her shoulders entirely.
"If only those same people were dropped in Lady Dune's club," he smirked.
Xavier: Xavier laughed softly. “Oh, they’d faint clear away. They deserve far worse in my opinion.
“You know…I’ve often thought of taking her. The first day I saw her, I wanted to take her. I’d even picked a spot for her in my mind. But I didn’t—and haven’t—because it’s never quite felt right knowing that how she is portrayed here isn’t how she was meant to be portrayed. So instead I’ve spent years searching for a painter with the skill required to reproduce Sargent’s original vision of her.”
Rhys: "And your replication, was it ever produced? If ever comes a time... I would like to compare." He wouldn't mind seeing more than a painting. The wallpaper, curtains, wood floor. Every decision Xavier made for a house he no longer calls home.
Xavier: He shook his head. “I’ve never been able to find a painter equal to the task. You see I don’t just want my cake, I also want to eat it.”
Xavier finally looked away from the portrait and smiled at Rhys. “I want a perfect reproduction, indistinguishable from Sargent’s in every way except for that single detail.”
Rhys: "That is something you cannot create from your magic?"
Xavier: “Personally, no. I’m not quite sure what sort of skill set would be required in order to do it with magic. Perhaps I should look for a painter who also happens to be mage.”
Rhys: "Plenty of those, I'm sure. But if you're willing to be in her presence, you could call upon a certain Toreador. She was once a painter herself. Her style is... Monet. The one with flowers."
Xavier: “Ah, yes. His famous water lilies.” The notion wasn’t entirely unappealing. He certainly had nothing against January, only a reservation about her apparent penchant for putting people under a microscope.
“It’s an option to keep in mind.”
Rhys: "Mm." He looked back at the woman, wondering what she was looking at during her modeling.
"Have you ever been painted?"
Xavier: “I have. I’ve sat for portraits and been both subject and canvas for an artist friend of mine.”
Rhys: "Elaborate on canvas."
Xavier: “My friend is a body painter. He’s quite literally painted me.”
Rhys: That had Rhys staring at the demon with fresh eyes. "Now that's scandalous."
Xavier: If Xavier were a weak-willed sort, he would’ve blushed at the prospect of Rhys trying to imagine what that looked like. “Scandal follows art like a shadow and like beauty, it’s in the eye of the beholder.
Rhys: Speaking of which, "Is there any more beauty you wish to dazzle me with? I am yours."
Xavier: “Countless things more, but then we’d be here all night and miss our time on the bridge.”
Rhys: "The night is young, I assure you. You have me until dawn."
Xavier: Not young enough. It felt like the night was going by so quickly and so slowly at the same time. Xavier wanted to show Rhys the entire museum but knew, or at least hoped, there would be another opportunity in the future. He wanted to take him to the Guggenheim. He wanted to show him beautiful things.
But more than anything, he wanted to be close to him and give him what he’d been wanting to give him for weeks.
Xavier held a hand out. “Come with me to the bridge.”
Rhys: Xavier had said he wanted to take him here, and here they were. Nearing an hour, possibly longer. He'd expected to stay until the first rays of the sun, dodging security guards and whispering in each other's ears until the inevitable could no longer be ignored. That was the kind of passion this demon harbored, and he was a willing tourist.
There must have been a reason he was intent on leaving.
Pale fingers in a pale hand, squeezed, saying nothing more.
Xavier: Xavier hardly knew where the sudden urge to leave had come from, only that…he was suddenly feeling too many things. Rhys’ comment about stealing him had been made in lighthearted jest but it had a ring of truth.
Xavier did feel like he was stealing something, although it was hard to discern precisely what he was stealing and from whom. Was it Rhys? His time? His affection? A moment of levity and comfort?
Or was it all of those things, neatly wrapped in a package of guilt and the undeniable feeling that he did not deserve any of it?
These questions would haunt him in the days to come, of that Xavier had no doubt. They’d steal his sleep, unsettle his mind. But maybe, just maybe, if he whisked them to the top of the Brooklyn bridge and let the night air shroud the two of them, the wind could fend off his thoughts for just a little while longer.
So that was precisely what he did. He took them back to the spot they’d visited all those months ago and felt himself finally able to breathe out.
Rhys: Stolen was a word used carelessly. Xavier had done nothing of the sort. In Xavier's presence was exactly where he wanted to be. Not in the heart of a club, and despite good company, not with anyone else. In privacy was how they had begun. He had become spoiled by their intimacy, even in correspondence.
The high winds were an old friend. Rhys pulled a cigarette from his coat and took a seat. This night would be different. Tonight, Xavier would have his arms around his waist.
"Come."
Xavier: Leaning into Rhys, the demon closed his eyes and took a deep breath. Though his hold was tentative, he could slowly feel himself returning to his center, returning to calm. They were alone and together and that was a comfort.
“Thank you.”
Rhys/Ariel: "Don't thank me." His voice just managed to carry over the insistent wind. There was not a single hesitation in leaning his weight against the demon, offering his cigarette to share. Their version of a kiss.
Ariel had the best vantage point in the club, but no amount of height was going to shine a spotlight on a dark suit in a room of darkness. He had accepted the loss after an hour of passive searching.
He needed to think about something else. Editing his latest video; the dance class on Wednesday; the conversation he'd have with January tomorrow night.
It was time to start wrapping up. Transitioning into his chillwave mix to set the tone. People needed to take the hint and start for the door. Just an hour remained.
Rohan/Xavier: I have to thank you, thought Xavier, taking the cigarette. Thanking Rhys and writing to him and being here holding on to him were the only ways Xavier knew to express his eternal gratitude for this man’s presence in his life.
Perhaps it was for the best that Ariel hadn’t been able to spot Rohan. Seeing the storm of emotion in his face probably wouldn’t have inspired any confidence.
And it most certainly was a storm.
While he’d sat and watched and contemplated Ariel, Rohan had had to stop himself from leaving half a dozen times. He’d stopped himself from drinking more alcohol. He’d stopped himself from calling Abel or Ramsay and begging one of them to tell him what to do.
By the time the music seemed to settle into something less frantic, Rohan had no more insight into how he felt than when he’d sat down. All he knew was that he couldn’t make himself leave, and that he simply could not take his eyes off of the man onstage. He was surprised Ariel’s skin didn’t catch fire from how intensely Rohan was staring at him.
He also knew that when the music stopped entirely? He was going to have to talk to him again.
Ariel: The music came to a crescendo at exactly 2 AM. Half of the club knew the ritual and had started outside. Some didn't want to leave. Some never left. The guards upstairs began ushering people to the spiral staircases. January was nowhere to be found. Tucked away somewhere enjoying yet another meal.
No sooner had the music ended did Ariel grab a bottle of water, finishing and crushing the thin plastic. The next priority was his phone. Hunched over his equipment, his shoulders wilted.
Rohan: As was almost always the case, the silence brought clarity. And in Rohan’s particular case? Resolve.
He didn’t know what he wanted to happen as he finally slid off his barstool and crossed the emptying dance floor with a singular focus, moving against the tide of bodies toward the stage. He didn’t know how he wanted the DJ to react. How he would react. Would he be surprised? Glad?
Had he expected anything at all when he’d asked January to pass on his card or had it been just a shot in the dark?
“…Ariel.”
Ariel: The word almost didn't register. Ringing in his ears to blame. And then, for just a moment, believing he had imagined it. Looking up was only to confirm his sanity.
His phone was placed face down on the table. Both hands hold him steady. He rocked forward and back. Stared, processing. Not disenchanted or listless. Surprised, elated, confused, enamored.
"Hi," came a small, modest voice.
Rohan: Out of the turmoil that had been his emotional state for most of the night, the feeling that rose victorious in that moment was relief.
Ariel seemed glad to see him. Surprised, but glad. That at least could be a comfort.
“Hi.” Rohan breathed deeply. Now that he was here he didn’t quite know what he wanted to say. “I um…I received your card.”
Ariel: "Shot in the dark," he blurted. A glance was given to his equipment. A hundred ideas. Hardly any of them worth the same shot. Quickly filtering out something worthwhile.
"Did you - Did you, like, go and come back?"
Rohan: Rohan blinked. Oh. Well that was one question answered immediately. He suddenly felt a bit better about his decision-making this evening.
There was a possibility that telling the truth might make him sound pathetic, but he didn’t see the point of lying about such a small detail when it wasn’t necessary.
He shook his head. “I’ve been here the whole time.”
Ariel: Ariel's smile was a bit incredulous. There was no way. Right? Couldn't be.
He began shutting down his equipment.
"You don't look drunk," he said through a suspicious laugh.
Rohan: “I’m not.” Although it had been very tempting, being drunk wouldn’t have helped him one bit. “I’ve been drinking club soda and ginger ale.”
Ariel: That was...
Enough to have Ariel look up. This man hadn't plastered himself in the hopes of getting laid. Having a night with someone he could brag about later on Instagram or Twitter. Rohan didn't even seem the type to have social media. Maybe he was judging that suit too much.
Or maybe this was a serial killer, and he'd never trust himself again.
"You hungry at all?"
Rohan: “I—“ Rohan had been about to say that’d he’d already eaten dinner but it was two in the morning. Dinner had been hours ago.
“…I could eat.”
Ariel: "Some of us go to a place called Greasy Spoon. It's around the corner. You know, breakfast food. Bad burgers. They got like thirty kindsa omelets."
He looked up again, bit his lip.
Rohan: Xavier often described his jaunts to hole-in-the-wall ramen shops and street stands of questionable repute in the middle of the night as a way to help his mind when it needed to sort itself out. A balm in the form of a midnight meal.
Tonight felt like the kind of night for that.
“Would you like to go with me?”
Ariel: Ariel was back to swaying. Forward, back, forward. This was obviously a habit.
"I'd love you to come with me. You're not tired?"
Rohan: He shook his head. “I’m used to staying up late.”
Ariel: His job, maybe. At least now he had time to ask.
"Occupational hazard," he smiled.
"I'll be done real quick."
Rohan: More like force of habit for reasons that…no longer existed.
“I’ll be here.”
Ariel: "Ever...?" He motioned to his lifeless machines.
Rohan: “No, never.” Ariel may as well have been shutting down a spaceship for all that Rohan knew of his equipment.
Ariel: His smile returned. "Oh," he rubbed his hands together, "I'm starving, but next time. Next time I'll show you everything."
Rohan: Next time…
For Ariel to say that, he must’ve had enough optimism about this meal they were about to share—and about him—that he anticipated another meeting. It was flattering in a way that Rohan wasn’t accustomed to, even if part of him did want to caution Ariel that he might well be disappointed by him outside of this club.
Still, Rohan smiled and nodded. “Next time.”
Ariel: He said next time! His body was both alive and exhausted, but one was clearly winning with that ear-to-ear smile. Bouncing on his feet as a large cloth was thrown over the equipment. Having another set at home had been the most sane purchase of his life.
"Awesome." He suddenly looked over Rohan's shoulder.
"Joey!" The bartender was given a wave.
"Spoons?"
"You coming?"
"Not tonight, bro."
Ariel nodded, secretly relieved. "Take it easy."
Rohan: Ah, so the bartender’s name was Joey. Rohan was almost embarrassed to look at him after all the hours he’d spent sitting at the bar staring at Ariel.
He took a sudden interest in his phone that was mostly to save face but also an opportunity to tell Xavier where he was going.
Ariel: Yeah, Joey was cleaning glasses and staring, wondering how that would go, and if he'd ever see that face again. A lot of people were in and out of these clubs. Men and women for January, the guards - hell, he'd had a few tasty treats himself, before asking one of those treats to give marriage a try.
Enjoy your snack.
No sooner did the summer breeze kiss his skin did Ariel tilt his head back and sigh.
"I can't believe you waited."
Rohan: Rohan had never been so glad to be out of a building before in his life. Even though his bones weren’t being rattled by noise anymore and the city wasn’t exactly silent even at this hour, being outside still felt like the first real quiet he’d had since earlier that day.
Ariel wasn’t alone in his disbelief. “Neither can I,” Rohan said softly.
Ariel: So, around the block, then. The streets were still saturated with inebriated fools talking as loudly as they had with his music, taking selfies, or hugging a little too long.
"So, where you from?" That accent wasn't lost on him.
Rohan: Cities at night all tended to be the same. Their charms were highlighted during the day but when night fell? They became the universal dominion of drunken humans and the things that usually lurked in the shadows.
“Romania. I was born in Bucharest.”
Ariel: "Oh, uh... this is gonna sound dumb, but like, Dracula?"
Rohan: At last! A smile. “It doesn’t sound dumb. Yes, he’s Romanian, too. From Transylvania.”
Ariel: "Always get that mixed up with Hungary." Now that he'd made a fool of himself, moving on. "I'm from Seattle."
Rohan: “You’re not the only one. Their capital is Budapest. Easy to get them mixed up.”
Rohan turned to him. “Are you really?”
Ariel: "Born and raised nineteen years. Clam chowder is still the best shit ever."
Rohan: “A friend of mine lives in Seattle. I lived in Washington too when I was growing up.”
Ariel: A few waves to shouting fans. Rohan was kept to his left, away from the street and away from line of sight. Nosy people.
"Oh yeah? Where?"
Rohan: “Near Spokane. My parents like being close to nature.”
Ariel: "Jeez. You might as well have been in Idaho!"
Rohan: Rohan laughed, and realized as he did that it was the first time in a while.
“Idaho wasn’t as appealing to them as Washington. I think they liked the sound of it better.”
Ariel: This song and dance was familiar. Where are you from, what do you do, how long are you staying; it was expected, and they'd already begun. He didn't want that to be all they had.
Another wave to a group of five drunk heathens as he rounded the corner.
"How do you know Father Mello?"
Rohan: “I don’t really,” Rohan said, watching Ariel out of the corner of his eye. He was popular, seemingly well-liked. Easy to talk to.
“I only met him tonight. Rossmara is the one who knows him.”
Ariel: "The one that looks like Dracula?" he asked, making a point not to look at him. Anywhere else.
Rohan: Rohan laughed again. He had to. Everyone looked at Xavier and wanted to put him in a museum and now here this man was with such a biting assessment.
“You think he looks like Dracula?” he managed, clearing his throat to try and get his mirth under control.
Ariel: At least he was laughing. His logic assumed if the man had been a vampire, his reaction would have been much more offended. Again he wondered if Rohan knew anything about the things in the dark.
That laugh was perfect.
"Yeah! Thought he'd have your accent!" he smiled.
Rohan: He shook his head, unable to stop another small bout of laughter.
“Nope. No Dracula and no Romanian. He’s an Englishman through and through.”
Ariel: "There any English Drac - Draculas?" He laughed now, too. "Bro, I think we found one!"
Rohan: Somewhere in this city Xavier’s ears must have been burning. If they were, Rohan wouldn’t tell him why.
He might tell Abel though.
“I think we have. He even has a castle.”
Ariel: And Ariel had shit to tell no one. Everyone at the club spoke to January, using any information for favors. It was better to keep the important things to himself. A little suffocating these past few years.
"No shit? Fucking where?"
Rohan: “France, Germany. Technically it’s castles, plural.” Vague enough information to divulge. Besides, at least two of those castles were about to be sold.
Ariel: Who the fuck was this guy? Had to be a vampire, or January and her associates would make him one.
He'd save his next question, for now. The diner was packed with people from the club and the bar across the street. Ugly yellow tile for walls and records hanging from the ceiling. Pictures of famous people framed on the walls. A run-down jukebox by the equally run down cash register. Cash Only written in sharpie and slapped on with tape.
The Hollies' "Long Cool Woman" played over the drone of a hundred voices.
The DJ was quickly recognized. People from across the street knew his face and wanted a handshake, half-hug, or how you do.
Rohan was noticed as well.
"You a DJ, too? Can you take our pic?" A woman in a red sequined dress asked.
Rohan: It wasn’t as quiet as the street, but Rohan much preferred a crowded diner to a crowded club. At least here he felt more in his element, even with Ariel getting recognized as much as he was.
“No, not a DJ.” But he would take their picture and make sure it came out nice.
You really do look good with anyone, Rohan thought as he tapped the screen.
Ariel: She and her friend in a backless drape and shorts hugged to either side of Ariel, holding up peace signs as he did the same. Now that that was over, a single tug was given to Rohan's suit before making his way over to a table with dirty empty plates. A woman in her thirties with the name tag Rachel was quick to finish tidying up.
"Lemme finish first, Ariel!"
"Sorry, Rach!"
Rohan: Rohan thought nothing of being tugged along except for how foreign it was. And a little endearing. It made him happy in a way that made his chest ache.
He apologized to their waitress for rushing her and took his seat opposite Ariel.
“You really must come here often if you’re on a first name basis with people.”
Ariel: "Thursday to Saturday. If I eat before work I feel weird, so," he threw his hands up.
Right, the question he had pending.
"So you like, the Dracula's secretary or something?"
Rohan: “More like second-in-command.” The Dracula, he thought, shaking his head with a smile.
“I manage some of his business interests. Not nearly as interesting or exciting as being a DJ.”
Ariel: "So, vice-president of a company? Or, I know this, fuckin' - COO?"
Rohan: “Mhm, exactly.” It was actually more accurate than it appeared on the surface, especially these days with Xavier in Thailand.
Ariel: "Wow, wow." Man probably made more money than him! So this wasn't someone trying to jump in the sack with him, wasn't drunk out of his mind, wasn't trying to get his own picture snapped, and wasn't after his money.
"I'mma start calling you Prince Charming," he laughed.
Rohan: “Please, that’s far too generous a title for someone like me,” he chuckled, shaking his head and looking down at the table. “I’m not usually…”
He gestured at himself, his suit.
Ariel: "Oh yeah?" Ariel leaned forward, arms folded over the table. "What's usual look like?"
Rohan: “I work in jeans from a home office. This is only because I went to a nice dinner earlier.”
Ariel: "A nice dinner when?" Was he about to have a glass of water for a meal, and this was all for him?
Rachel returned in the nick of time. Ariel leaned back in his seat. He didn't even need to look at the menu.
"Well, you're a new face," she greeted Rohan. A little too fresh for Greasy Spoon.
She looked between the two. "Sweetie, you know what you want?"
"I know what I want." Ariel looked to Rohan. "Think we need a minute. Been talking his head off. He ain't even looked."
"Oh! Well, our specialty's omelets. If you can eat the Monster Clucker you get your face on the wall, Facebook, all that."
"That's like, a dozen eggs. I think he'd die."
"Well for now, what you wanna drink?"
Rohan: “A while ago.” He only wasn’t feeling the hunger full force yet because he’d kept himself well-hydrated back at the club.
Rohan returned Rachel’s greeting with a nod and a smile. A dozen eggs? He’d have to tell Abel about this place.
“Coffee, please. And French toast.” No need to look at a menu; he knew exactly what he wanted.
Ariel: "Coffee. Strawberries, chocolate, or smores?"
"You sure? It's like a huge dessert."
Rohan: Rohan nodded. “I’m sure. Strawberries.”
Ariel: "Was gonna ask if you like fried cheesecake, but I think you'll die if you have both."
Ariel ordered himself an egg sandwich with chard, extra bacon, hash browns, orange juice, and fried cheesecake bites with caramel.
No sooner did she leave was he back to leaning forward.
Rohan: “Fried cheesecake?” He asked when Rachel had gone. “That’s the most American thing I’ve heard in a long time.”
Ariel: "It's so good. They do smores french toast, pizza, waffles, pancakes, but their fried cheesecake? Oh my god. It's like Lucky Charms kinda marshmallows."
Rohan: “So pure sugar,” Rohan chuckled. Maybe he’d give it a go next time, if there was a next time. “At least it’s something it makes sense to fry. I’ve seen lots of questionable fried foods in this country.”
Ariel: "Fried Oreo is God's gift to mankind."
Rohan: “I won’t argue with that. It’s like eating an Oreo wrapped in a funnel cake.”
Ariel: "Oh shit, it is!"
Ariel leaned back long enough to stretch, arms over head.
"You going back to Washington or a castle?"
Rohan: “Neither actually. The company’s in California. San Francisco.”
Ariel: "I didn't see you being a San Fran kinda guy. More like... Spokane."
Rohan: He smiled. “I don’t live in the city. Nearby, but not in San Francisco proper.”
Ariel: "So, nice suit," he counted with his fingers, "work for Dracula, you're from Dracula's country, you... work in San Fran but too fancy for that shit. You're hot. You're... You're smart." You hang around vampires. "Prince Charming."
Rohan: Rohan’s efforts to appear calm, which had almost been working up until Ariel started in on his list, vanished in an instant and he went right back to feeling flustered.
“You’re far too kind,” he said, shaking his head. Where was that coffee, he needed a distraction. “And you’re giving me far too much credit. I promise I’m no Prince Charming, I’m just me.”
Ariel: Coffee, orange juice, and two glasses of water arrived before Ariel could think of anything to say. Only word to come to mind in that moment was sophistication. The next he managed to fathom was modest.
"We'll see." For now a lull in conversation, momentarily distracted by "Roadhouse Blues" by The Doors.
Rohan: He sent up more thanks to the universe for giving him the much-needed reprieve of stirring sugar into coffee and sipping it to ground himself.
It served another purpose, too. There was something he’d wondered from the moment Rhys had given him Ariel’s card until now and for whatever reason, he finally felt brave enough to find out.
“Can I ask you something?”
Ariel: By now his hands were being used as pillows for the back of his head, staring first at the ceiling and then Mr. Charming. In this light, the red under his eyes was becoming more prominent.
"Anything."
Rohan: “I just…why me?” His voice and expression were genuinely curious, and maybe just a bit confused.
“You said it was a shot in the dark but something must have made you take it. You could have your pick of anyone. Everyone. So why me?” Back at the club, Ariel hadn’t known the majority of the reasons he’d cited when he called him Prince Charming; all he’d known at that point was Rohan’s name.
Ariel: There was truth in his questions. He could have practically anyone.
"So I'm Prince Charming?" His smile was brief.
"Because." Not good enough. "First your eyes, then your voice. Then... I dunno. You seem... genuine. Like, there's no filter on you." He gestured to his own face.
Rohan: From where Rohan was sitting, Ariel certainly came closer to Prince Charming than he did.
“So…it was because you were attracted to me?” The most normal reason in the world, yet this man looked surprised.
Ariel: "Course." He looked Rohan in the eyes. "How can I not be?"
Rohan: Look at you. Look at me. Something doesn’t add up here.
Rohan sipped his coffee and was grateful that there was still something in his immediate universe that made sense.
“I have no idea how to answer that.”
Ariel: "Can I ask a question now?"
Rohan: “Go ahead.”
Ariel: "Did someone hurt you? You're acting like no one's ever wanted you before."
Rohan: “Getting hurt is a part of life, isn’t it?” Rohan said quietly, staring into the depths of his mug. His words were neither admission nor denial.
Ariel: Absolutely fucking not, he was about to say, before Rachel arrived with their orders. A thank you was muttered, waiting for her to be out of earshot.
"When my grandparents die of old age, yeah. When someone's kid gets hit by a bus. Yeah. Someone being a douchebag, you don't gotta take that."
Rohan: Yet another distraction. Rohan thanked Rachel and let his attention shift to his food instead. He still wouldn’t meet Ariel’s gaze.
“That’s just it. Existence isn’t always pleasant. Things can happen that are no one’s fault and sometimes those things can hurt people.”
Ariel: Ariel would have to think on that a moment. Take a bite of his sandwich and stare out the window. The man spoke with such eloquence.
Ah ha.
"You loved someone that didn't know you loved em?"
Rohan: “No one escapes being a teenager without at least one unrequited crush.” More generalizations, more avoidance of eye contact.
Either he was pathetically easy to read or Ariel was far too astute for his own good.
Ariel: That was just it, he could catch a lot of things a lot of the time; didn't mean he had any wits to utilize that information effectively. That, or he chose blindness. Jessica suddenly flashed in his mind. A mistake on the cusp of his adulthood.
"How old are you?"
Rohan: “Thirty-two.” A lie that, tonight at least, felt bitter on his tongue. Ariel might have been a ghoul but that didn’t mean that they could discuss the complexities of that question in a public diner surrounded by people with no awareness or knowledge of anything supernatural.
He finally looked up. “How old are you?”
Ariel: Raised brows gave away his surprise. He couldn't put his finger on why that caught him off guard. Not at first. He thought maybe 29 by his clear skin and healthy eyes. His demeanor, on the other hand, older. Much older. He didn't fit at any age.
"I'll be 28 on the 29th. You're invited to my birthday party. Gonna be a little thing at my place. Then some shit at the club."
Rohan: Rohan just hoped that it was actually surprise and not disbelief, however justified it might have been.
Regardless of how Ariel reacted to hearing his age, Rohan looked more than a little relieved when he heard Ariel’s. Why? He wasn’t about to say.
The smile made a tentative return. “Are you looking forward to it?”
Ariel: One day, he would have to lie about his age, but not for a long time to come.
"Looking forward to you being my date," he smiled, taking a bite of bacon.
Rohan: “So I’ve gone from guest to your date, have I?” A good-natured tease now that they were in less complicated territory.
Ariel: "Wanna come? I'll show you a good time."
Rohan: He was just being nice. They’d only met a few hours ago, there was absolutely no reason to interpret it as anything other than a friendly invitation and therefore no reason to say no.
“Sure. I’d be glad to go to your birthday party.”
Ariel: "Yes!" Fist and all. "It's a date." But then he remembered the obvious. "How long you in town?"
Rohan: Cute, Rohan thought as he took a bite of his French toast.
“Just a couple of days this time but that’s not a problem. I can come back.”
Ariel: "You'd private jet back just for me, Mr. COO?"
Rohan: “I’d commercial jet back just for you, Mr. DJ.” Another white lie but again, time and place.
Ariel: "Over there making me feel special."
Rohan: “Everyone should feel special on their birthday.”
Ariel: "You make me feel it and it ain't even my birthday yet."
Rohan: “I wouldn’t be a very good date if I didn’t.”
Ariel: "I make you feel special?" Nothing else in the diner existed.
Rohan: Only an honest answer would do. Rohan may have found it surprising, it may have felt foreign and perhaps even undeserved but the fact of the matter was…
“Yes. You do.”
Ariel: His empty plate was pushed to the edge of the table. Orange juice given a sip. Courage without the alcohol.
"Can I sit over there?"
Rohan: Unknowingly or not, Ariel was giving him no time to settle. He was determined to fluster the old man sitting across from him.
And the old man was helpless to stop him.
Rohan nodded. “Yes,” he repeated.
Ariel: No one would say a thing. His bisexuality had been known from his very first posted video. If people didn't like it, they could say it to his face. Preferably when a gentleman like Rohan wasn't around.
Around the booth he went. Both hands on the seat, shoulders up. His smile was between ecstatic and sheepish. No secrets behind those eyes. He was enjoying every inch of exposed skin. Looking beyond, undressing only in a daydream.
"Hi."
Rohan: All there was for Ariel to enjoy was some of Rohan’s chest and his neck. Everything else was covered by his suit and it would be up to Ariel’s imagination to fill in the blanks.
There was an instinct to lean away but Rohan tamped it down. He was sixty dammit, not sixteen. He’d been close with a man before. He’d been in relationships.
He would not lean away, he’d meet Ariel’s eyes, and he’d return his smile.
“Hi.”
Ariel: Ariel had kissed people this soon. Men and women. Sex in gyms. On rooftops. He didn't feel compelled to rush things, but there was an honest yearning. He didn't want to fuck this up, but he wondered about those supple lips and whether or not they were warm.
He forced himself to look away. Rachel didn't need to swing by with the check.
"I'm gonna go pay, and when I get back I'm gonna ask if you wanna come back to my place for more coffee, or chill, or whatever. Don't gotta be anything. Just think about it til I get back?"
Rohan: For a moment—one brief, fleeting moment—Rohan thought Ariel was going to kiss him. Then he didn’t, and everything in Rohan seemed to relax.
A tiny corner of his mind voiced its disappointment but he paid it no mind. Rohan didn’t go around kissing strangers, even if they looked like Ariel.
He also didn’t just go into stranger’s homes but…he didn’t get a bad feeling from Ariel. And if that changed, Xavier was just a thought away.
Rohan nodded. “Okay. I will.”
Ariel: God, he was right there. Just a few more inches and he could have those lips.
Instead, he got to his feet and over to the cash register. Paid for both meals plus tip. Rachel was given a cheek kiss. She whispered a ‘good luck’ and a wink.
Rohan: Another small battle between relief and disappointment raged in Rohan's mind as Ariel moved away, with relief coming out the victor. Letting himself get swept up in the moment and acting on impulse would only lead to trouble later on down the line.
He didn't want to get attached or get his hopes up or start making more of things than he should. Not again. Better to be sure of what he felt and what Ariel wanted before anything happened.
For all he knew, Ariel just wanted to be friends. Attraction or not.
Rohan got to his feet as Ariel returned to the table.
Ariel: The door was opened for Rohan to leave first. Ariel never too far away, brushed his shoulder and stretched yet again. DJing was a mental and physical workout, no matter what anyone else said. He felt different coming from the club than an hour at the gym, but still an ache from his legs to his jaw.
But he had no intention to sleep. Not anytime soon.
"Thought about it?"
Rohan: Back out into the quiet of the night. Like before, the silence strengthened his resolve. "I did."
Rohan turned to face Ariel. He was an adult, he had his failsafes, and he trusted his gut. There were no bridges to cross or things to overthink. He was completely free to do as he pleased.
"Ask me."
Ariel: Ariel's stomach twisted. The delay in a response had him expecting a decline. This man wasn't like that. He didn't kiss on a first date. It was a miracle he had taken his card.
But Rohan had stayed for hours at the club. Had gone with him to dinner. Had allowed his nearness, his insistent gaze, and his flirtations.
To ask again had to be a yes. His eyes lit up with the very prospect.
Both hands were ever so gently claimed. He didn't give a fuck who was looking.
"Come back to my place? Lemme play you some music. Talk. Get to know you."
Rohan: Rohan let his hands be taken. They were warm and steady, and just calloused enough to suggest that they were used for things other than typing on a computer and handling paper.
He took a deep breath and nodded, smiling softly. "Okay."
Ariel: His smile became a grin. He wasn't going to ask if Rohan was certain; he didn't seem the type of man to say when he didn't mean.
"Fifteen-minute walk or an Uber?"
Rohan: There it was again; that achingly sweet enthusiasm. "It's a nice night. I don't mind a walk."
Ariel: "Alright." He might as well have been walking on air. This kind of happiness made him want to dance, but that could wait. For now, he clapped his hands once in celebration and started for across the street, heading deeper into Brooklyn Heights.
Rohan: Ariel's reaction alone was worth having accepted. Whatever else ended up happening tonight, at least Rohan got to make him happy and know that he was the cause.
"What would you normally be doing after work? If I wasn't here."
Ariel: He had planned for nothing short of honesty the moment Rohan had uttered his name. This question made no difference.
"I wrap up at the club. Get paid right there or wait til Saturday." Get bitten or given blood. "Go to the Spoon. Find an after-party to go to." Teeth softly raked over his lip. "Get high, drunk, both. Pass out til like, I dunno, 9 or 10 AM. Then it's like, gym, audition for some shit, work on my channel."
Rohan: Rohan nodded as Ariel spoke. Minus a few details, that sounded almost exactly like Ramsay’s routine on any given night. Perhaps that was why Rohan seemed so unfazed.
Except of course for one little thing.
“Your channel?”
Ariel: "Yeah. Got a thing on YouTube." Man, Rohan really didn't know him. Didn't follow any of his social media. He wasn't upset about that at all. Just confirmed this man wasn't after any shallow fame.
"Got my music on there, a music video, some vlogging. Working on another song right now. Thinking about doing some dance tutorial shit."
Rohan: They were back in the desert and Rohan was once again a fish.
Well, not entirely. He wasn’t so old that he didn’t know what YouTube was, he could give himself a little credit. All was not lost.
“That makes sense,” he mused, mostly to himself. Ariel was a musician; it was logical for a musician to put their work out into the world to be appreciated and enjoyed.
“Is this what you always saw yourself doing?”
Ariel: A question which put a smile on his face again, looking up at the sky and shoving his hands in his pockets. A safe place for them.
"Nah. Most my life I thought I was gonna be a dancer. And then like, the guy teaching the dances. Like I wanted to be the guy in all the music videos. Still... sorta doing that. Been in some but," he shook his head. "I'm - I'm not a choreographer. Like doing my own thing more than telling a buncha people what to do. Music's way less stressful.”
Rohan: “You certainly have the face for it.” Rohan suspected he had the body for it, too.
“I can understand though. It’s more freeing to only be responsible for what you create without having to think about different moving parts. We only have control over ourselves, after all.” He imagined that especially applied to a creative field.
Ariel: "Oh, well thank you," he beamed, hand sliding over his stomach.
"You sound like you're not the COO of someone else's shit." Or had his own dreams, once.
Rohan: Rohan smiled back. It was the truth and after all the little white lies, it felt good to tell the truth.
“I’m only in charge of one small part of a very large whole. Usually the part I’m in charge of is even smaller. The moving parts have always been Rossmara’s to think about.”
Ariel: "So what do you wanna do? If you could do anything you wanted to do, anything at all, where would you go? What you wanna be?"
Rohan: “Would you think me boring if I said I’m already doing it? Not the COO part, of course, but I have a lot of freedom. I get to travel, I get to indulge all my hobbies, I get to spend time with people I care about.”
Ariel: "So you're a sentimental guy. Still should do something that makes you happy to get outta bed in the afternoon - morning, whatever."
Rohan: “I do. All those things I mentioned make me glad to get out of bed in the morning. That’s all anyone can ask for.”
Ariel: "Agree to disagree, but, you're happy. What's these hobbies, anyway?"
Rohan: Rohan chuckled to himself. “You’re really going to think I’m boring but, I used to be an archivist so…I like doing research.”
Ariel: "So reading?" he chuckled.
Rohan: “Reading, learning things, tracking things down.” Slowly losing his mystique and appeal in the process, he added silently, heaving a great internal sigh.
Well, there was nothing to be done. It was going to happen sooner or later. Ariel was a DJ and he was a boring old man.
Ariel: Not his mystique. More and more he seemed like an international man of mystery. An educated man that wanted for nothing. So what would he want with a disc jockey.
"What about... hiking? Skiing? You know how to swim?"
Rohan: Rohan hummed and nodded. “I can ski and I can swim. Spend a lot of time hiking since I live in the woods. I fish sometimes. I can drive a boat.”
Ariel: "You fish? My grandpa says we fished when I was little but I don't remember at all. Been on a cruise once. Was fucking dog sick most the time."
Rohan: “Mhmm, there’s a creek and a fishing hole near my house. I went sea fishing not that long ago, too.” Thanks in part to Abel and his insistence that Rohan come along on his birthday trip to the beach.
“Don’t do well on the water?”
Ariel: "I dunno what that was. Maybe something I ate. I dunno. I barely left my room after the first night. Maybe try it again?" His hands weighed up and down.
"You take me fishing, and I'll take you... to... Tomorrowland in Ibiza."
Rohan: “If you do, get a sea sickness bracelet. Just in case.”
He had no idea what Tomorrowland was, but given Ariel’s profession, Rohan could make an educated guess.
“Is that a music festival?”
Ariel: "Yeah." He thought everyone knew what that was. Thousands upon thousands of people. An entire town's worth every single scene. Blew his mind what Rohan didn't know.
"What's a sickness bracelet?"
Rohan: “They’re basically wristbands that put pressure on a specific acupressure point that helps nausea and motion sickness. They work pretty well.”
Ariel: "Sounds like new age kinda thing." He bit his lip. A new question presented itself, but, "Here."
A modest building, given the location. Eleven stories of red brick. A code was placed in the door. The next set of doors required a key card.
He felt an instinct to tell Rohan the code, but one only needed it coming in. He said as much, for Rohan's security.
"I'm on seven."
Rohan: Rohan was debating how to respond to that when they arrived at Ariel’s building. Saved by the metaphorical bell.
Why Ariel felt the need to share that, Rohan could only guess, but he’d file it away regardless.
“I almost expected you to live in a skyscraper.”
Ariel: "What, like Manhattan?" He pushed the elevator button.
"Brooklyn just feels better. Ever been to Coney Island? Wanted to live over there until I met January."
Rohan: “Not necessarily. Just something, I don’t know…more modern.” More suited to a DJ.
Rohan nodded. “I have. What made you want to live there?”
Ariel: "Something about it felt like Seattle. Families. Fun. Food. Music. It's got good vibes. Brooklyn Heights, Dumbo, ain't bad, but it ain't Coney Island."
Seven stories, and the first white door on the left with a silver handle. A code was punched in as a camera above them came to life.
A modest loft, some might say. Clean and minimalist in its beige and gray and single yellow chair. A table of DJ equipment sat against the window in the living room. A Tomorrowland poster in neon hung behind the couch. Laptop shut and forgotten on the kitchen counter. One floor to ceiling window took up the entire back of the loft. This space would have been an astronomical price in Manhattan. Here... still shameful, but convenient.
"Want a drink? Water? Juice? I don't have wine. Seem like a wine guy."
Rohan: Yet more surprises. They’d just met but even so, if Rohan had to picture the kind of space Ariel would live in, he wouldn’t have pictured this. If not for the equipment and the poster, this could have been anyone’s apartment. An accountant’s, a banker’s. It didn’t quite fit the friendly vivacious man he was coming to know.
“Just water is fine. I’ve had way too much wine today.”
Ariel: The aesthetics of a man rarely ever home.
Rather than pulling from the tap - perfectly acceptable - a bottle of water was pulled from the fridge. Long ago Ariel had stocked his house for things a guest might prefer. He was never more grateful than the night half the guests from a party crashed all over his house.
The TV was turned on. An R&B playlist clicked and turned low. The back of the TV came alive with a slow transition rainbow of color.
Rohan: Rohan smiled to himself. Not at the music, but at the colored light. That was more like it. Such a little thing but already the space felt so much more like Ariel.
Still smiling, he took his water and went over to the window to see what sort of view Ariel had.
Ariel: A view back in the direction they had come. Not much of a view from the seventh floor but that of other buildings and a party going on at the neighboring apartment complex. The roof had been this building's selling point; a distant view of the Brooklyn Bridge.
His host had yet to bother with a curtain.
Ariel made his approach with his hands behind his back.
"Dance with me?"
Rohan: He turned away from the window and the party across the way and gave the man in front of him a helpless smile.
“You’ve seen just how much I can’t dance and you still want to dance with me?”
Ariel: "Ain't nobody better to dance with. I can teach you. It's just you and me. Look as dumb as you want. I won't tell."
Rohan: It’s because it’s just you and me. That’s what Rohan wanted to say. In the club he’d almost been able to hide; in the sea of people, in the dark, in the noise. Here it was quiet. Intimate. There was absolutely nowhere to hide.
So why on earth was he unable to help saying yes to this man he’d only just met?
Rohan sighed fondly, setting his water aside and shedding his suit jacket.
“All right.”
Ariel: Something about the loss of an article of clothing had Ariel sitting up and hands falling to his thighs. This momentary shock to his system lasted about a second before righting himself, turning to position by Rohan's side.
"Don't know any dance?" Before he began any instruction he needed to know his student.
Rohan: “None that would help here. I can waltz if I have to but that’s about it.” And the only reason he could do that was because of his mother and her insistence that everyone should know how to waltz.
Ariel: "I've never waltzed. That how you say it? A waltz. Never even been in a suit."
Alright, time to inspect. He ran his fingers along Rohan's arms, feeling the tension or lack thereof.
"We're gonna do something called a step touch. All about bending your knees, okay? Add a little bounce to your body."
Rohan: He nodded. “Yep, that’s how you say it. And like a suit, it comes in handy every now and then.” At weddings, at events, and, according to his mother, whenever one wanted to make a good impression. Not that he’d ever had the opportunity to use it for that last one.
There was tension but not enough to make Rohan stiff. Just a bit nervous.
Rohan nodded. Bounce, bent knees. “Got it.”
Ariel: He'd made at least one fantastic impression.
Ariel moved to stand in front of Rohan, showing the very basics of hip-hop dancing, only to return to Rohan's side to bring it all together. Every laugh that followed was pure happiness at his good fortune, and never at Rohan's expense. Going so far as to avoid laughing when he felt it might be misinterpreted.
"You look so good like this."
Rohan: Rohan took it all in stride. For all that this was foreign to him, as long as he had a task he could avoid thinking too much and focusing on the intimacy and nearness of the situation.
And besides, it was making Ariel so happy. How could he not relax and enjoy himself?
“How?” he chuckled. “Learning how to dance in your apartment?”
Ariel: "Relaxed." God, could he just kiss this man already?
Instead he sighed, blissfully, and turned around to find the remote, switching the music to something as retro and silly as possible. A little "Pump Up the Jam" would suit their purpose.
"Okay, follow me. We're gonna bust a move," he laughed.
Rohan: The song change succeeded in getting another one of those laughs Ariel liked so much.
“Do you know how many years it’s been since I heard this song? I forgot it existed!”
Ariel: "You fucking millennial!" Ariel laughed along with him. "Come on! Move your arms! Lemme see you work it!"
Rohan: Oh, if Ariel only knew.
Rohan had no idea how to work it but move his arms? He could do that. He could do anything as long as Ariel gave some guidance.
Ariel: And guidance came as easily as his smile. Eventually his fingers came to rest over Rohan's ribs, no gentler than tickling feathers.
"Don't just move side to side, really move your knees. Put your hips into it."
This was not at all as he danced to EDM, but that wasn't the point of this lesson; it was an excuse to get in close, not to mention learn a little about the man he'd become obsessed with.
Rohan: Whatever Ariel told him to do, Rohan would do—to varying levels of success and embarrassment. But he remained relaxed and smiling, even when Ariel touched him.
Because as long as he kept moving, he wouldn’t have to think about how intimate this was. That would come later.
“You’re enjoying this, aren’t you?”
Ariel: "Fucking right I am." As though his bright tired eyes and dimpled smile wasn't evident enough. By now he had brought himself in. Hips dangerously close to what could be considered a grind.
But something held him back. The lack of Rohan's hands on his body, possibly.
The song came to its inevitable end, moving on to something soft by Usher, and Ariel began leaning away.
Rohan: Dangerously close was close enough. Any more and there was nothing in the world that would be able to keep Rohan from overthinking.
Thankfully the universe gave him a reprieve.
He let Ariel put some distance between them and fish that Rohan was, he took refuge in his bottle of water. An easy out considering all the moving around they’d been doing.
“Surprised you’re still standing. You must be exhausted.”
Ariel: "Got someone to stand for." No one else in the room, nothing else to see. His eyes were fixed exactly where he wanted them. The flesh of his lip softly bitten. He smiled at his own line and retreated to the kitchen.
Rohan: Rohan couldn’t have second-guessed himself even if he’d wanted to. Not with Ariel looking at him like that.
This man…really knew how to walk up to a line and come just close enough to crossing it to leave Rohan flustered.
“Too smooth for your own good,” he muttered softly, all but gulping his water.
Ariel: A glass of tap water for himself. Chugged in merely two gulps. He kept his distance, the few feet of sanctuary in the kitchen, but he couldn't keep his gaze from Rohan for long.
"Nah. I haven't done what I wanted all night. If I were really smooth... I'd know what you taste like."
Rohan: Rohan nearly choked on his water. Nearly. But even though he’d saved himself the embarrassment of that, there was no hiding the cough or the way his entire body seemed to freeze for a moment before he pulled himself together.
Well, one thing was for certain; Ariel was a dancer in the literal sense only.
“I—you—hmmm.” Water wasn’t cutting it, he needed to look out the window. “Case in point.”
Ariel: That reaction was almost as delicious as he imagined his lips to be. He savored Rohan's expression while it lasted.
"Look, I dunno... why you waited all night at the bar. I dunno why you came home with me. But you can say no anytime. But I want you here, and I don't care if that's with or without a goodnight kiss."
Rohan: How could he explain it to Ariel when he didn’t know himself? When he’d sat for hours trying to figure out why he was sitting for hours? When he’d probably walk back to his hotel later and wonder why he was walking back from Ariel’s apartment?
“I don’t have a good answer.” For either Ariel or himself. “I just…it felt…like something I couldn’t not do.”
Ariel: A hundred things he could say. As with any moment of his life, there were always a hundred things. Some clever, some shitty, some perfect. The perfection always eluded him, but he tried in the fleeting seconds that felt essential.
He took a step towards his muse.
"If you could be selfish right now, do anything you want, do it."
Rohan: “I’m already doing it.” Rohan doubted that was the answer that Ariel wanted but it was the truth. Selfishness was the only explanation for his completely self-indulgent actions this evening. He couldn’t call the last time he’d behaved this way, if ever.
“What about what you want, Ariel?” he asked softly, meeting the DJ’s eyes in the reflection in the window. “What do you want from me?”
Ariel: "If this is what you wanna do, and this is all you wanna do, then... I've got nothing." Because if he answered truthfully, Rohan would become a stuttering mess of modesty, and he would probably never see him again.
He didn't just want from Rohan. He wanted with him. Wanted to be with him. Wanted to kiss him. Wanted to be naked with him. Wanted to hear the music this man made between the sheets.
Wasn't that obvious?
Rohan: He may have been modest, but a blushing maiden Rohan was not. He also wasn’t naive; he could feel the intent behind every lingering look from Ariel.
They were adults and the writing was on the wall.
“Can we put all our cards on the table?”
Ariel: "Mhm." Not knowing what Rohan was about to say was giving him a bit of a thrill.
Rohan: “If all you’re looking for is sex, I’m not the person for that.” It was best to just get it out in the open. They’d already established that Rohan wasn’t a dancer.
“There’s nothing wrong with wanting that and only that but I’m not your guy if that’s the case. I’m sure you could find dozens of people who would be. But if you’re looking for something else, something…more, then…I’d be open to that. To talking and getting to know each other and, if things go that direction…” His voice trailed off.
Ariel: "I've had the that and only that. Had the other thing, too. But... you waited for me at the club, and you - you clearly don't think I'm a serial killer," he laughed, briefly.
"I don't wanna not see you again. You feel me? But I think - I think we can do both." And he was willing to explain, if Rohan needed a guided path.
Rohan: Oh, the turns his life had taken for being a serial killer to not be an immediate deal breaker.
“You mean be sex friends? Or friends with benefits or whatever you want to call it?” His tone remained steady, open. Earnest. When he’d said he wanted all cards on the table, he’d meant it. Life was easier when you talked about things honestly and with good will.
Ariel: They had been so close to clarity. Just a few better-chosen words. Now, at last, it was Ariel blushing. Hand wiping at his mouth as he looked away. He wouldn't have minded that, either, but he couldn't believe himself. Couldn't believe what he was about to say.
"I feel like I'm being weird. I'm - I'm sorry... if I'm being weird. But I feel like you know where I'm coming from. Is that crazy? Like - the you staying, like... it means something. What I said before. What I mean is, would you... uh, would you wanna try... being... "
Rohan: It wasn’t often that Rohan felt his age in such an…endearing way. Somehow knowing this bold, outgoing DJ was actually capable of blushing was what finally had Rohan turning away from the window and leaning back against it.
He tilted his head as he listened, arms crossed over his chest and a gentle, teasing smile on his face.
“…being something more?” he said, finishing the sentence. It would seem he’d gotten his answer. “Are you saying you want to date me, Ariel?”
Ariel: "Yes!" he blurted, grateful for the reprieve. He couldn't help but laugh. Rohan was smiling about this! The audacity to laugh at his fumbling! It was cute and maybe confident. From Rohan, it seemed like confidence.
"Do you - Do you give a shit if it's long distance? This is crazy. This is crazy! Yeah. I wanna date a man I just met. It feels right. You feel right."
Rohan: Oh yes, Rohan was absolutely smiling about this. He hadn't even been trying to fluster Ariel and now that he had, he was delighted. Ariel delighted him.
And surprised him. He'd had no expectations and still Ariel was managing to subvert them. It didn't quite feel real. Nor did his own feelings and behavior. Was he actually considering this? Was he actually considering dating a man he'd met less than ten hours ago simply because his gut wouldn't let him walk away?
...Yes. He was.
"No distance is ever really that long in my world so no, I don't have any objections to that." Crazy? Yes, this was definitely crazy.
Ariel: He knew this was desperate. He'd never offered such commitment on the first swing. Sex, absolutely. Different levels of intimacy, desires, and willingness. The expectation of never seeing someone again never stung. The opposite of what he had placed between them.
Rohan had to have known he would say yes to anything. Had to see right through him, and feeling seen made him feel exposed.
"Can I kiss you?"
Rohan: Rohan wouldn't have called it desperate. Like almost everything else about tonight, including his own thoughts and feelings, it was an unexpected surprise. He couldn't see through Ariel any more than he could see through himself, explanations and rationale as far away as stars.
For the first time in a very, very long time, Rohan was letting himself be led by instinct. Whatever it was that drew him to this man, he wasn't fighting or embracing it. He was simply letting it draw him. Simply letting it exist.
He nodded. "Yes."
Ariel: By the time Ariel had asked his question, half the distance of the loft had been crossed, and by the time Rohan affirmed, two large hands were cupping Rohan's jaw, bringing the exquisite man to his lips and tongue. This was a ghoul, not a vampire, and his skin was damn near feverish. His tongue like cashmere silk, eager and begging for an invitation.
Rohan: Selfishness wasn’t the only explanation for this; it was pure madness. He who had always been so careful about his relationships, who never took a step that wasn’t thoughtful and deliberate, was now standing in a loft in Brooklyn and was letting himself be kissed by a man who felt like the sun.
That’s exactly it, Rohan thought as his hands came to rest on Ariel’s waist and his lips parted just so. Ariel was the sun, and Rohan was getting swept away by the intoxicating heat of him.
Ariel: Those lips fit lock and key with his own. In the throes of love and lust, he could not be dissuaded from believing Rohan's tongue was nectar, and a taste he knew by heart. The accepted invitation leaned Ariel closer, hungrier as he pressed Rohan against the glass. His hand dropped down to explore as he had daydreamed all night. Feeling for strength in his chest, and the shape of his body.
Rohan: The juxtaposition of the coolness of the glass at his back and the heat of Ariel at his front had goosebumps covering the whole of Rohan’s body. He was barely aware of them.
He felt drunk. It was as if Ariel were seeping into every one of his senses and making his head swim. There was something about him that felt so comfortable and familiar and thrilling all at once.
He wouldn’t stop Ariel from exploring. Although their difference in height was slight, Rohan wasn’t as broad. His frame was smaller, toned but not quite athletic. There was give to him, a softness that couldn’t help but press against the wall of muscle that was Ariel.
Ariel: Ariel understood he was being reckless. A part of him believed the blood of his domitor had caused some manner of temporary insanity. But Rohan felt so good in his hands, and being allowed to explore, his fingers roamed from Rohan's ribs to his shoulder, down his arm to his wrist, finding a beaded bracelet with some sort of charm. He felt the vague shape of it, assumed a cross, and brought Rohan's hand to his lips to kiss.
And froze when finally laying eyes on the ankh. How he had managed not to notice until now, he couldn't say. Not at the club, not at the diner. All excitement drained from his eyes.
"Ro?" his voice had become small, with a world of caution behind it.
Rohan: He had forgotten about it completely. It was so much a part of him that he’d simply stopped noticing its presence.
It followed, then, that the bracelet Rohan wore was the farthest thing from his mind while he was tentatively surrendering himself to Ariel’s hands and lips. He was too caught up in the moment to think about how much there was to explain between them. He was enjoying Ariel’s touch and his kisses too much to remember just how many things would eventually need to be laid on the table with the rest of their cards.
For a while it felt as if nothing could break the spell between them, until Ariel stopped and said his name in that quietly alarmed voice.
“What? What’s wrong?” he asked, concerned, confused eyes meeting Ariel’s. His brain hadn’t caught up yet.
Ariel: He didn't know how to word his intention. If he was wrong, this man would surely think he was stupid, or a lunatic, and he would never see his face again. But it couldn't have been a coincidence. Not at January Embers. Not with everything he knew.
He had yet to release Rohan's wrist.
"I - I uh... Do you... believe in supernatural shit?" That felt clumsy as hell, and easy to misinterpret.
Rohan: Only with Ariel’s question did he realize just which wrist Ariel was holding and what was on it. And just like that, reason and reality came flooding back in.
Rohan sighed and leaned back against the window, catching his breath. He would answer the question with an explanation, as that would spare the need to dance around the issue.
“I bought in Cairo years ago. I go to Egypt a lot. I do know about the supernatural and I do know what the symbol is associated with outside of Egyptian mythology, but I can promise that that’s not why I wear it.”
Ariel: For everything Rohan admired, his stature, strength, and heat, Ariel's hand had just the slightest tremble. Too subtle, perhaps, if not paying attention.
The symbol had put the fear of reality back in his soul, but also a dangerous possibility that caused a wave of guilt churning his stomach like a terrible cramp.
"I'm sorry," his voice shook. "I'm sorry. I thought - I thought for a minute you... you were... like you played me."
Rohan: Rohan shook his head. Now it was his turn to take Ariel’s face in his hands, to hold it gently, to offer comfort. The tremble hadn’t gone unnoticed. Not when they were this close and this attuned to everything about each other.
“You don’t have to apologize,” he said softly. “I should, for alarming you. I’ve worn the bracelet for such a long time that I don’t notice it anymore.”
He took one of Ariel’s hands and placed it over his chest, holding it there so Ariel could feel how his heart thundered in his chest.
“There is a reason I wear this bracelet but it’s not the reason you fear. I’m human. I’m alive. I promise.”
Ariel: "So you... you know?" That was one dance he had been dreading since their first conversation, and now they didn't have to. He stood there, hands cradling Rohan's jaw and chest and doing everything in his power to control his breathing. A wave of warmth washed over him so completely he knew it was relief in its purest form.
There was a heartbeat. He'd seen this man eat. Felt this man breathe. Basked in his warmth. The bracelet was from Egypt. This man had a heartbeat. This man... had a heartbeat. Safe.
Rohan was suddenly lifted into Ariel's arms. Held up by his thighs and gently pressed against the window once more. From this angle, the rest of the loft could be seen. The upstairs softly glowed from neon purple squares on two sides of the room. If Rohan would notice at all with warm lips roaming from his neck to his chest.
Rohan: “Yes, I know,” he said, taking slow even breaths both to calm himself and, subconsciously, to encourage Ariel to match them.
Reality had thrown a bucket of cold water over them both but it had been needed and there was no harm done. They were okay.
Caught by surprise, Rohan inhaled sharply as he was lifted. He hadn’t expected them to pick up where they left off after he’d unintentionally put the fear of god into Ariel but apparently Ariel was recovering just fine. Better than fine.
Before his brain could short-circuit again—and it would if those lips had anything to say about it—Rohan gave into an urge of his own and, taking advantage of his position, kissed Ariel’s hair in silent, tender apology.
Ariel: How much Rohan knew he couldn't exactly say. Enough that fear had been swept away like a breeze, for now. Tomorrow morning promised something else, but he didn't have to think about tomorrow. Only the pulse beneath his lips and tongue and the mindful use of his unnatural strength to massage Rohan's thighs.
Burying his face in Ariel's hair was much like nuzzling into his neck. The scent of citrus and spice was as strong there as it was everywhere else. Hiding the heart note of his own natural scent.
"I'm gonna carry you upstairs. That okay?"
Rohan: There were multiple conversations that needed to be had and multiple things they needed to share. But not now. Not tonight.
Tonight, they could give themselves the luxury of staying in this little bubble where the only things that mattered were Ariel’s hot hands and the scent clinging to him.
“Yes.” Murmured softly as Rohan wrapped his arms around Ariel and breathed him in.
Ariel: The man moved about as though Rohan weighed nothing more than a child. Up the stairs, pausing only a moment to make certain Rohan's head wouldn't strike the loft beam. The upstairs was simple. Bedroom, bathroom, closet. On the one wall by the stairs towered a six-by-six grid of clear containers, each filled with a variety of shoes, mostly sportswear. A long braid of purple lights had been draped over the square, mimicking the same shape over the gray platform bed frame. A camera had been set up on a tripod by the foot of the bed.
Still holding Rohan in his arms, he laughed.
"When I vlog," he explained, "I sit there," he nodded to the foot of the bed. "Nothing kinky."
Rohan: Like downstairs, Ariel’s personality was reflected in his space in very specific, if sparse ways. The wall of shoes, more colored light.
But if there was one thing that would always give a person pause, it was a camera at the foot of the bed. Or anywhere near the bed really.
“I see,” he laughed softly. He didn’t entirely believe that camera had never been used for kinky purposes but he’d take Ariel at his word. “Why don’t we…move it out of the way.”
Ariel: Yeah. He could do that without releasing his prize. He bent just enough for Rohan to reach, stifling another laugh.
"Go on, grab it!" No hiding it. He was terrible at hiding it. Shoulders quivering and all as he chortled.
Rohan: Rohan was not a gymnast. But.
He’d been on enough horses and climbed enough trees to know how to hold on very, very well with his thighs. So when Ariel bent for him to reach, Rohan released him and, holding onto him with only his legs, used his newly freed hands to remove the camera from the tripod. There was no need to move the entire thing when only the camera was the issue.
“Where do you want this?” he asked, smiling.
Ariel: "Where do you want it?" He squinted. "You want it moved." And he didn't care where he put it, so long as it wasn't thrown. He didn't come from money, so things that cost an arm and leg were valued as such.
Rohan: “A drawer somewhere, so it doesn’t feel like we’re being watched.” Of course he wouldn’t throw it! That would be unacceptably rude behavior.
Ariel: "Ohh." He wanted to laugh again, point out what he did for a living, all of his entrepreneurship, but it went without saying. Rohan was carried to the floating end table and bent again to tuck the camera away. Only then was his guest placed gently on the edge of the bed. Ariel then lowered his knee, looking up with no pressing expectation.
"Hi."
Rohan: A shame to have to let Ariel go, but getting to look at him properly more than made up for it. Again Rohan had to wonder just how the hell he'd ended up here.
"Hi," he said softly, smiling at the beautiful man in front of him. "Are you okay?"
Ariel: "Yeah." His tone had become something tender, whimsical even. Looking Rohan over in the purple light, doing everything in his power not to pounce. Rather, he leaned up and over, offering a softer, almost chaste kiss.
Rohan: Rohan would take it, placing his hands on Ariel's shoulders and squeezing them for the pure pleasure of feeling all that muscle. And maybe to offer just a little bit of reassurance and gratitude for Ariel's restraint.
Ariel: If this bed wasn't leading to sex, then he wasn't certain by any means where this was going. Rohan had agreed to the bedroom, but to what end? He wanted this man to lead him in this confusion. He offered lips, tongue, and patience, waiting for Rohan to do something else, tell him something. Until then, he continued to lean, and lean, until his beautiful guest was flat over the mattress.
Rohan: Somewhere between being set down on the bed and being pushed back on it, Rohan had made up his mind. All it took to confirm that choice was breaking their kiss, just for a moment, and looking at Ariel’s face.
The uncertainty Rohan read there made him smile.
He hooked a single finger around the chain on Ariel’s neck and tugged him down with the most delicate, feather-light touch to meet his lips again. Then he began to explore.
Rohan’s hands traveled across Ariel’s shoulders, down his arms, across his back, over his chest, learning him. Mapping him but making a point not to touch bare skin. Not yet.
He found Ariel’s nipples through his shirt and teased them, wondering what his reaction would be while keeping him trapped in a kiss.
Ariel: It hadn't occurred to Ariel that Rohan might desire a certain behavior from him. Not at all a thought on his mind as he lowered when commanded. He became a pillar for Rohan's explorative touch. This was his boyfriend now, wasn't he? He could take as much time as he desired to memorize and map every nuance of the unseen. It only served to stimulate an already encouraged man, his erection hidden and pressed into the mattress. An undulation he could not pretend was anything else.
Rohan's determined pinching sent a shiver through the ghoul. A pause was needed to exhale, pressing their foreheads together and smiling.
Rohan: Delightful, just like everything else about this man. But it wasn’t nearly enough.
Rohan hooked a leg around Ariel and rolled them so that he was on top, giving his DJ a smile before continuing his exploration.
His lips now joined his hands, kissing everywhere he touched but still refusing to move clothing out of the way…until he reached the waistband of Ariel’s pants.
Then that shirt would begin to be pushed up one agonizing inch at a time, and every sliver of skin kissed as it was exposed. Rohan wouldn’t let Ariel take the shirt off and wouldn’t do it himself. It was so much more wonderfully maddening for it to stay on.
Ariel: This delicately beautiful, perfectly sophisticated, painfully modest man flipping their positions was the last thing Ariel had expected. His grunt of surprise was followed by a flighty laugh, dissolving into a barely-there moan. Hands left over his head, denying himself an equal touch.
What Rohan would find was an unshaven auburn treasure trail, gooseflesh, followed by the only cause of self-consciousness. Only a glimpse at his protruding navel, before his hand appeared from above to cover his stomach.
Rohan: A treasure trail went both ways, and getting denied access to Ariel’s navel had Rohan looking up at him with a gentle smile.
“You don’t have to do that,” he murmured, kissing and nuzzling Ariel’s hand. “It’s cute.”
Ariel: Another response he hadn't expected. He bit his lip and slid his hand away, head falling heavy on the bed.
"Okay," he breathed. "Sorry, just..." He had nothing to say. His actions were obvious enough.
Rohan: “It’s okay.” Now that Ariel’s cute little navel was exposed, it was getting kisses like the rest of him. “There’s nothing to be embarrassed about.”
But, to distract Ariel, Rohan continued his slow torment. The higher the shirt went, the higher his lips went, not stopping until he got to Ariel’s nipples. They’d be given relentless, loving attention.
Ariel: Ariel suffered from a bit of farmer's tan around his hips, worsening the further Rohan pulled at his shirt. There were no other tattoos than those at his forearms and hand. A freckle by his left nipple, and a thin white scar over his ribs.
The man underneath him was writhing and taut. His moans floaty and bordering on a laugh.
"Ro... fuck."
Rohan: Would Ariel be able to feel Rohan’s smile against his skin? Because not only was it there, it grew and warmed with every passing moment.
He gave each nipple one last kiss and sat up, looking fondly at Ariel as his hands slid down his body and came to rest at Ariel’s waistband.
“May I?”
Ariel: Even this request was given so sweetly. What a man. What impossible luck.
"Can I?" He reached out to pinch Rohan's button-down.
Rohan: “In a moment.” I have plans for you.
Rohan undid Ariel’s belt and his pants before bending back within proper reach of his DJ’s hands. If he wanted to undo Rohan’s shirt, he could. If he wanted to remove it, he could do that, too.
Rohan, however, had no intention to remove anything. Instead he was going to slip his hand into Ariel’s underwear and squeeze him gently.
Ariel: The answer was enough to return his hand by his head. He could only stand so much of this slow torment before using his elbows to bring them deeper into the king-size bed, sitting up long enough to offer Rohan his lips and falling back. Their foreplay nearly slid them both from his bed. And no sooner had clarity returned was it stripped by the warm grasp of Rohan's fingers.
"What hap - happened to taking it slow?" He couldn't believe he was jeopardizing this by opening his mouth. "If you don't... want..."
Rohan: Ariel’s questions were answered with a kiss every bit as sweet as he was.
Rohan was absolutely sure of himself and what he wanted. Foreplay didn’t always lead to sex, and sex didn’t mean only one thing. They didn’t know each other well enough for a lot of things, but they knew enough for this.
“I’m sure,” he whispered, nuzzling Ariel’s cheek and squeezing him again, more deliberately this time. “Let me give you some relief. Let me make you feel good.”
Ariel: "I wanna make you feel good, baby." By now he was brave enough to reach out and cup the back of Rohan's head, burying his fingers in thick brown locks.
He didn't want to lay back down. Sitting up on his elbow, holding Rohan close as he was caressed and massaged. Forehead-to-forehead as he breathed, eyes closed, just within reach of a kiss.
Rohan: It was so tempting to just lean in and kiss him, but Rohan wanted to hear Ariel’s reactions even more. He wanted to see if Ariel’s brow would furrow, how his eyelashes fanned across his cheeks. He wanted to torment himself staring at Ariel’s lips while he learned and mapped even more him, while he committed Ariel’s shape and girth to memory.
“You already are,” he said, working his hand up and down Ariel’s shaft, occasionally massaging his scrotum.
Ariel: In the limited light, Rohan would only see enough to tease a complete image. He would not see that his eyelashes were the same color as his treasure trail. Would not see the goosebumps that had reached his entire body or the tear of precum he could only feel with his thumb, threatening to drip over his pale cock.
He would see the concentration behind those lashes. Eyes that could not stay closed for long. Wanting to study and memorize just as much. With the loft window directly behind Rohan, he was little more than an erotic silhouette.
He could not stop the whimper that escaped his throat any more than he could cease the throb between his legs. He was being denied so much and it was driving him crazy.
"Fuck, fuck." If Rohan wouldn't stop him, he would reach out to unbutton his shirt, frustrated and needy to see more of his boyfriend's bare skin.
Rohan: No, he wouldn’t stop him. Ariel was free to touch and do with Rohan’s shirt as he pleased.
For his part, Rohan was far too enraptured with his DJ to care much about himself at the moment. Even if the dark was hiding much of Ariel from view, Rohan could feel the affect he was having in his firmness, his whimpers, the gathering moisture at his head that Rohan simply couldn’t resist squeezing out.
It was a delicate balance between drawing out Ariel’s pleasure and giving him the relief he needed and prolonging his own enjoyment, but Rohan couldn’t bring himself to deny this sweet man everything.
So Rohan indulged them both and gave Ariel his lips.
Ariel: It was now, with Rohan's body covered in shadow, that Ariel ever considered a curtain over the loft window. Frustrating was putting it mildly. But he couldn't deny the truth of it. The delayed gratification was a thrill he never wanted to experience again.
Collapsing back, both hands felt blindly at his chest in victory. The exploration was clumsy but well-intentioned. Kissing was proving a distraction.
This was just a hand, but it was Rohan's hand. It made all the difference. His stomach was alive with butterflies.
"Baby," was a barely-breathed warning, "I'm gonna come."
Rohan: Rohan’s approval was given with a soft hum and a deeper kiss. His hand squeezed a little bit harder to give Ariel some more friction but kept its steady pace in a final mild effort to make Ariel’s pleasure last.
He had no idea of the effect he was having beyond that, or that part of Ariel’s pleasure stemmed from the simple fact that it was Rohan giving it to him. That he wanted to touch because it was Rohan, that he felt frustrated because it was Rohan.
Ariel: The man had given him nothing but a faraway noise and the promise of his tongue. If this was their relationship going forward, tonight was another promise: the promise of further torment.
Pleasure had begun as a tickle in his scrotum and thighs and ended in devastating waves. There was nothing he could do but clench and cling for dear life as thick white spilled onto Rohan's hand. Only a broken uttered, "Fuck," interrupted their kiss.
Rohan: “That’s it,” Rohan whispered in Ariel’s ear, kissing his cheek and his neck as he reveled in the throbbing heat of him in his hand. He wouldn’t stop until he’d gotten every last drop and Ariel was little more than putty in his arms. “Dulce băiat frumos.”
Ariel: Through the fog Rohan had created, only one word had registered. The limp and useless man beneath him barely managed a laugh. More like a cough.
"No, you're sweet," he mumbled.
Rohan: Rohan laughed softly, nuzzling Ariel’s neck. His DJ looked utterly spent and all the more beautiful for it.
“How are you feeling? You okay?”
Ariel: "You okay?" For some reason he believed his hands had been too strong. Had squeezed too roughly.
Rohan: “I’m perfectly fine.” Tiny praising kisses were littered across Ariel’s chest. “You didn’t hurt me.”
Ariel: Then just as easily as Rohan had flipped them, Ariel did so in kind. At last, he could see this beautiful body, and immediately put his lips over one of his nipples.
Rohan: Oh! Here Rohan thought he’d be coaxing this beautiful rag doll into the shower and then to bed in a minute but it appeared that Ariel was getting his second wind.
It wasn’t until Ariel’s mouth touched his skin and elicited a gasp that Rohan finally became aware of his own body’s pressing need. It had become background noise while he pleasured Ariel, easy to tune out and ignore. Not so now.
Ariel: This body was softer than his own. Pale and perfect; as delicate as his voice. He should be praising god just for looking at him. The ebbing current of his orgasm offered clarity, and a more constructive activity.
Removing his belt, button, and zipper took calculated strength, and only one quick pull with both hands to bring his clothes to his knees.
Ariel looked up, watching for permission to continue. Fingers climbing back to his nipples to tease.
Rohan: That body couldn’t have been more of a contrast to Ariel’s. Rohan was slighter, paler. He had no tattoos, only a few artfully scattered moles to add any visual interest to his skin. All his body hair seemed to begin below the waist. But, despite his appearance, there wasn’t a single part of him that wasn’t warm to the touch.
He gave an involuntary groan of relief as Ariel removed his clothing and freed him from their confines. There would be absolutely no mistaking the effect that bringing his DJ to orgasm had had on him, and even though his whole body shuddered beneath Ariel’s hands, Rohan still said, “You can but you don’t have to,” with a breathless chuckle.
He hadn’t done what he’d done because he’d wanted something in return. He really had just wanted to make Ariel feel good.
Ariel: As sexy as tattoos could be, he hoped there wasn't one hidden on his body. The ink would have been an insult to the canvas. A fleeting thought as he smiled up and shook his head. The very idea of leaving Rohan to ache was unacceptable. His pleasure was the only cloudless intention.
"I want to." The last affirmation before sucking the warm, soft tip into his mouth. One hand restless on his chest while the other slid down to cup his scrotum. Not long for Rohan to feel the back of his throat. Bright amber eyes watching his every breath.
Rohan: Rohan swore softly in Romanian and felt another shudder pass through him from head to toe. The heat of Ariel’s mouth was nearly unbearable in the most delicious way.
He held Ariel’s hand against his chest, idly and sporadically caressing it while he made his best effort at taking slow, complete breaths.
Any sound he made would be soft and quiet, always accompanied by either a shudder or a furrow in his brow, as if he were concentrating and losing himself in sensation at the same time.
Ariel: For a half-second, Ariel was concerned Rohan's hand had meant something. Permission had been granted, he reminded himself, and continued to suck to the point of wanting to gag. A small tear from his efforts rolled down his cheek, paid no mind as he came up for air, licked down his impressive length, and buried his nose in his balls.
Rohan: The permission held. Holding Ariel’s hand was merely Rohan indulging his desire for contact, as well as a way for him to ground himself. He didn’t want to lose himself completely to the moment; he wanted to be present, to enjoy it as if he was never going to get another.
A gasp and a bloom of goosebumps followed another involuntary noise that was pulled from the depths of his chest when the cool air hit his aching shaft. Something between a moan and a whimper that sounded too much like Ariel’s name to be anything but.
His free hand searched for his DJ’s hair and buried itself there, petting him gently.
Ariel: Was that his name? He wanted to hear it again. Selfishly, again and again. How could he care so much about someone so quickly? Lust was an acceptable excuse, but this was more than that. More profound than any guiltless lay on any given night. He could swear he knew this man, but he wouldn't. No matter how many supernatural oddities surrounded him, he would not dare say he harbored anything as significant as clairvoyance.
And another fleeting thought was thrown away as he licked underneath his scrotum and back to the tip, sucking everything down as though life-sustaining air. His head began to bob, losing himself in his determined rhythm.
Rohan: Although presently Rohan’s mind was a haze of pleasure, Ariel wasn’t alone in his thoughts and questions. Before today, before meeting this man, Rohan never would have believed he’d be doing this with someone he just met. There was something about Ariel that was special, something that drew him and held him and wouldn’t let him go, something that was absolutely making it so that Ariel would hear his name again.
And again. And again.
So long as he maintained that pace, his name would fall from Rohan’s lips like a chant in between gasps and breathy moans. He wasn’t going to last long at all if Ariel kept this up.
Ariel: Truthfully, he loved hearing his name from the lips of lovers. Loved giving just as much. In the span of a single night, Rohan had spoiled him rotten. Nobody else would give as exquisitely ever again.
Eyes finally closed, pouring all of his concentration into coaxing every last salty sweet drop from Rohan's writhing body. He swallowed, moaning, licking his lips of his sweet treat. His shoulders bowed as he hunched, licking across the length again and again, suckling the tip and kissing his stomach.
Rohan: Rohan just managed to give Ariel a bitten off warning before the exquisite tension that had been building and building and tightening and tightening finally released into blessed free fall.
“Ariel…Ariel…”
Even breathless Rohan couldn’t stop saying Ariel’s name. He moaned softly as his DJ lovingly brought him back down to earth, petting his hair, squeezing the hand he’d yet to release.
“Ariel…”
Ariel: One could easily believe the eyes looking up at him were loving. Eventually, Rohan would be too tender to play with, and even nuzzles would be too much. When that time came, he would kiss his ribs, nuzzle one last time, and ask, "Can I kiss you?"
Rohan: He’d somewhat managed to catch his breath but at Ariel’s question, Rohan found himself all too glad to lose it again.
He nodded, giving Ariel a dreamy smile as he opened his arms to him.
Ariel: Open arms he wanted to collapse into. He climbed the few inches back to Rohan's lips, offering all the energy he had left, and the remnants of his flavor on Ariel's tongue.
"Thank you." He didn't know why, but he felt compelled to say it.
Rohan: Rohan would take that energy and offer what remained of his own, happily letting Ariel flood his senses like he had been all night.
“That’s my line,” he whispered, nuzzling Ariel’s jaw like a cat.
Ariel: Clothes still trapped both of their legs. A disheveled heap they were. He would laugh in the morning, but for now, with what remained of his strength, he wrapped his arm over Rohan's ribs and hauled them to the pillows in just two shifts.
"Why?" His eyes were already closed, now resting his cheek on Rohan's shoulder.
Rohan: “Because I’m the one that just had the orgasm.”
He’d intended to talk Ariel into a shower but he’d still had willpower then. Now that his body was spent and he had his DJ resting on him and was comfortable, all that willpower had left.
Besides, playing with Ariel’s hair and stroking his arm were infinitely more appealing.
Ariel: Rohan could count the seconds until the man in his arms breathed evenly with sleep. Thirty-two seconds spent fighting the oppressive urge to sleep. Too many hours awake. Too much excitement. Too much all at once. Another five minutes before Rohan was nuzzled, and not another movement.
Rohan: He hadn’t quite counted, but he certainly didn’t discourage it.
Rohan would keep offering his quiet affection long after Ariel had fallen asleep, thinking and reflecting in the purple illuminated dark for a few long moments.
“What have you done to me?” he whispered to his sleeping boyfriend, kissing his forehead and sighing contentedly as he let himself drift off.
The first pink tear was shed. Quickly wiped with his shoulder. Despite his involuntary breathing, shivering, those tears gave away the truth, and always would. More obvious than the blood on his already ruined shirt.
"She's not dead." He shook his head. "She's not. She's not. I can't stay here. I won't. You can't take more of me."
MJ had finally been given his attention. He knew that last sentence was for him, and wordlessly got to his feet to excuse himself. Rohan would make better headway alone.
“No one will take more of you, Holden.” He couldn’t—and wouldn’t—make assertions about Sona. He assumed Simon would hurt her for making Holden or punish her in some other way but he wasn’t certain. If and until he was, he wouldn’t say a word about her.
But he could say that Holden wouldn’t have any more of him taken away. Rohan simply wouldn’t allow it.
“I’m sorry, Holden, but you have to stay here. Simon thinks you’re already dead and as long as he does, and as long as you stay here, you’ll be safe. I’ll make sure you have whatever you need.”
Abel was given a pat, and he would contemplate which one of his coterie was really his Jiminy Cricket. Right now, Abel felt the strongest. Rohan but a sad temptation.
Hopefully Xavier hadn't caught that. Hopefully no one had.
"So! What cha wanna do now, Mr. Mage?"
Rohan heaved a long, weary sigh. “First order of business is to set up a cot for you in Holden’s room. Not ideal but it’s the most protected from the sun. Later on I’ll make some wooden shutters for it.”
Mason looked between them, tempted to brush their minds for the answer. Instead, Rohan was approached as the door shut behind him.
"I'm in no mood for the frills. The fuck is goin' on?"
"Your brother has a fondness for the frills. They comfort him. Right now...he's in desperate need of comfort."
Rohan sighed. This was different from telling MJ and Ramsay and Hamilton. The only thing that would do here was directness.
"Before I tell you, I would like you to take care with the information I'm going to give you. I won't ask you to promise me, it would be unfair and you don't know me well enough to give me a promise. Even if you don't agree, I'll still tell you because you deserve to know. All I ask is that you hear me out completely. And sit down."
Mason wasn't the least bit surprised to find the door opening before the first knock. One of those beautiful mortals, like living ornaments in a house with far, far too many servants. Bitter thoughts, because anger was simply a drug, and he'd already taken his pill well before disappearing across the country. "D'ya know where my darlin' lil brother is, Hamilton?"
Hamilton nodded. “Yes, Mr. Atlas. Please come with me.”
Into the drawing room, where instead of Xavier, Mason would find Xavier’s agent waiting by the fireplace.
Rohan nodded his thanks to the butler. “Thank you, Hamilton. Can you bring us some tea, please?”
“Yes, Mr. Dalca.” Hamilton nodded and disappeared, closing the doors behind him.
Breaking the News || Xavier, MJ, Rohan, Ramsay, & Abel || September 18th, 2021
Ramsay: Sunset on Saturday evening found John Ramsay sitting at the usual meeting place opening a fresh pack of cigarettes before he finished the one in his mouth. He was early, but he'd wanted the extra time to figure out what the hell to say to MJ.
The vampire was due to come back to the manor today. Abel was usually the one who came to get him but as Abel was currently glued to Xavier's side, the task had fallen to Ramsay. Both tasks actually.
Transporting MJ and filling him in on the...current situation before they got home.
"And how the fuck am I meant to do that," he muttered to himself, exhaling smoke on a sigh.
MJ: A perfectly spherical glassy green orb appeared in Ramsay's lap. From behind, MJ had slowed to a near halt. Whatever reason Ramsay was here had yet been determined, but the man was on MJ's good side. Good or bad, the treatment was the same. The glass orb exploded into neon orange confetti and disappeared with a fanfare of a kazoo.
"Sup, sexy? What cha doin' here?"
Ramsay: Ramsay only had time to squint at the glass ball and wonder where it came from before it exploded confetti all over him. Loudly.
“Fucking shit!” he shouted, springing up like he was on fire.
Of course it was MJ.
Ramsay lobbed an acorn at him. “Having a bloody heart attack, no thanks to you,” he laughed.
MJ: "Ha!" Ramsay was given a pat on the cheek. "You'll live." For some reason that reminded him. "Ya know, love seein' your face, but why ain't your face Abel's face?"
Ramsay: “Also no thanks to you.”
Ramsay’s face lost its easy humor at MJ’s question. No getting around it now.
He took one last drag from his cigarette and stomped it out. “Abel’s face is indisposed. And speaking of faces.” He nodded toward the picnic table he’d been sitting on and lit another cigarette.
“Why don’t you take a seat, mate?”
MJ: "Sup?" Being told to sit down was a universal red flag, wasn't it? One that had him wanting to stand instead. Pillaring his position.
"Someone dead?"
Ramsay: Ramsay nodded. Even if MJ didn’t sit, he would. Heavy news needed a chair. Or a picnic table.
“You could say that, yeah.”
MJ: "Dead dead, or 'well shit' dead?"
Ramsay: “Latter.” Ramsay sighed. “Xavier ever mention his father to you?”
6:58 PM] MJ: So, Xavier. Or someone close to Xavier when...
"Just vague shit. Skip t'the end."
Ramsay: “The old man kidnapped Xavier and tortured him.”
There. Bandage ripped off.
MJ: "Kidnapped? Like, for random kidnap?" His method of coping rearing its head. Nitpicking at the details.
Ramsay: He shook his head. “Kidnap like he’s a psychopathic old tosser who had nothing better to do.”
MJ: "But he's like me. We're already dead, so... he's...?"
Ramsay: “In a new body. His old one was fucking destroyed.”
MJ: MJ just nodded, looking at the ground. "How long he have him?"
“Based on what I saw? Had to have been hours. But X ain’t talkin’.”
MJ: Just hours. Not days or - no, couldn't have been weeks. He would have known. He hadn't been gone that long.
"Let's go home."
Ramsay: MJ was taking it better than he’d been expecting, but then Ramsay hadn’t gone into detail. Nor would he.
What he saw in that church was something he would take to his grave. He and Rohan dealt with it so no one else had to, because it had to be done, and because they were equipped to do it.
The burden was theirs.
Ramsay nodded and put out his cigarette.
“Right then.” He got his tools and talismans out of his pockets and performed the spell that would carry them back to the manor.
MJ: Very different working with Ramsay's magic. Gave him time to dwell on what he was about to see. Xavier was the epitome of confidence and poise. The man only buckled once, and a handful of salt had been involved. Even at MJ's worst, yelling and split in two, Xavier had kept his resolve. And that had been with his brother involved. He could only imagine what he was about to walk in on.
And who better to comfort him? he thought. Not years in Hell, but weeks in his - Victoria's - basement. Piano wire through his hands and wrists and wrapped around his tendons like a bow. He knew pain. But he had to wonder if that lent anything here.
Ramsay's shoulder was given a squeeze. His first assumption was the bedroom, so that's where he was heading.
Ramsay/Rohan: Ramsay nodded, offering what passed for a smile as he watched MJ walk up the stairs. "Fuck the gods,” he sighed, lighting another cigarette and heading for the kitchen.
MJ's assumption was correct. Xavier was in his bedroom staring into the fire while Abel--in dog form--rested his head on his lap. The record player had been brought in so Mozart could attempt to lighten the mood.
Rohan, meanwhile, was waiting for MJ at the door.
MJ: Rohan was to be expected, just not so soon. Given his stance at the door, MJ was ready to argue his permission to pass. Argue, or push his old companion out of the way. He'd rather it not come to that.
"Got it from Ramsay," MJ whispered his greeting. "He's not talkin'?"
Rohan: MJ wouldn’t have to push or argue anything. Rohan had no intention to deny him entry or try to talk him out of seeing Xavier or anything else.
He shook his head. “No,” he whispered back. “He hasn’t said a word since Thursday when Abel brought him home.”
MJ: "What he say 'fore then?"
Rohan was given a once over. Not that this happened to him, but this was Rohan, and he was just short of an empath.
Rohan: One didn’t need to be an empath to feel the worry and exhaustion practically oozing out of Rohan’s pores. It had been a trying few days.
“Abel told us he said less than five words total. Nothing about what happened.”
MJ: "Why didn't y'all fuckin' call me? I coulda helped."
Rohan: “You’ll have to,” Rohan said quietly. “We haven’t buried him yet.”
MJ: "Buried, what?" A pause. "Y'all still got his old body? Why would y'all keep that?"
Rohan: “Christian’s body was his vessel for over fifty years, MJ. He deserves a decent burial or a dignified pyre, whichever Xavier decides.”
MJ: Guess Xavier would cross that bridge when he wanted to. For now, "Y'all got some magic woo-woo over the body or somethin'?"
Rohan: He nodded. “The body is at my cabin. We’re preserving it until Xavier is ready for a funeral.”
MJ: MJ pinched between his eyes. Maybe he wasn't cut out for this. There was a reason Rovena had chosen him as her Ravnos childe. His culture, his treatment of life and death was not the same as those in this house. Not that Calloways didn't have funeral traditions, but something about this put a thin layer of film over his body. Reminded him of the muck Abel and Peter had walked through crossing realms.
"I'm gonna walk in. Anything else I need t'know?"
Rohan: Rohan saw the frustration in that gesture but what could he do? This wasn’t up to him. Or for him for that matter.
“Yes. I need you to do me a favor.”
MJ: "Sup?" he asked, dropping his hands to his thighs.
Rohan: “I know it’s difficult but as much as you can…” He sighed. “Try not to look…surprised.”
MJ: MJ pointed his thumb to the door. "This man is still gonna dress like he's goin' t'the Ritz. Sits with me when I'm suckin' on a fuckin' bag of blood. He murders people for fun. Ya think I'm gonna gasp like a paid harlot when I see him?"
Rohan: “I don’t think that for a moment. But that man? He has a new face and try as we might it’s instinct to look surprised when we see a new face. He’s the same person, that hasn’t changed but his face has and the look he gave me when I first saw him and didn’t recognize him is going to haunt me until the day I die. He was crushed. So please. All I ask is that you try to lessen that instinct to look surprised so he doesn’t give you that look.”
MJ: "Did Abel not tell ya what happened to his face? It was Abel that found him, right?"
Rohan: Rohan nodded. “Yes he did. He found him and he told us what happened and I saw what happened.”
MJ: "But ya still didn't... figure the new faced dude was him?"
Rohan: “Instinct, MJ. I knew it was him but the face was different and I reacted. It was instinct.”
MJ: He'd already been playing human before arrival; the sigh suited the façade.
"You're always waitin' on the other side of doors."
Rohan: Rohan gave MJ a tired smile. “Today, guarding this door means guarding him. I’m his agent. Who’s going to guard him if not me?”
MJ: "The rest of the house. No one's gettin' in this place. Why don't ya go make yourself some tea."
Rohan: “The rest of the house doesn’t even know what’s happened. Just you and me and Abel and Ramsay.”
Rohan nodded and patted MJ on the shoulder. “I’ll do that. Abel’s in there with him.”
MJ: MJ straightened. "Fuckin' why? Where does Devlin think he's dad's been this whole time?"
Rohan: “They think he’s feeling ill which isn’t far off the mark. No one except us is allowed in these rooms for now.”
MJ: Hands covered his face for a long wipe down. "Thought everyone in this house knew he's a demon."
Rohan: “All except the seven year-old. And even if they do know, they’re human. They have human perspectives and their employer having a new body is a lot to digest.”
MJ: "They've fuckin' all watched Doctor Who. I think y'all are makin' this out bigger than it is. He's... He's Xavier. What matters is someone fucked with him n'they need their ass beat. What doesn't matter is what shape his nose is n'what color his eyes are."
Rohan: “Someone tortured him, MJ,” Rohan said softly. “His father tortured him and tore him out of his body and he was awake for all of it.”
MJ: "And that's what should fuckin' matter. Not him lookin' fuckin' different. If y'all make that a big deal then it's a big fuckin' deal."
Rohan: “The face may not be a big deal to you but how it came to be is. The two are linked together and maybe someday they won’t be but right now they are.”
MJ: He'd almost said something harsh. It wasn't for him to say, and it wasn't for him to say to Rohan. From his understanding, that wasn't Xavier's face to begin with. Didn't matter how it was obtained. Xavier should know that. He was a thief. Taking things that didn't belong to them was part of life. Part of life was having a thief take it right back.
He wiped his face again.
"Tea n'all that. Goin' in."
Without thinking, he leaned forward, kissed Rohan's forehead before opening the door.
Rohan/Xavier: That brought the smile back, tired as it was. “All right. I’ll be back in a bit.”
MJ would find Xavier half sitting up in bed, clad in one of his dressing gowns.
The skin of his new body was pale and unblemished. Long dark hair had replaced the chestnut waves while icy blue eyes replaced warm hazel ones.
Though it was hard to tell from this position, he also stood a couple of inches shorter and was considerably less broad than before. And his face, that brand new, angelic-looking face, reflected pure exhaustion.
MJ: Dressing gowns. The man still showed his age. This man, however, looked right at home in that gown. That was a face plucked straight from a novel. It was hauntingly beautiful. He couldn't say it was his type, but it was stunning nonetheless.
The chin was narrower, nose long and pointed. Reminded him of that bird that hung around. Those eyes were chilly, but that stance was Xavier. That faraway look he rarely saw, it was still Xavier's gaze.
Without word, MJ climbed into bed, kicked his sneakers off, and rolled onto his back. Inch by inch he made his way over to that new body, ready to plop his head in that new lap.
Xavier/Abel: Abel noticed MJ’s presence first, wagging his tail at the vampire’s approach. Not as energetic as usual but still glad to see him.
Xavier didn’t notice anything at all until he felt the bed shift under MJ’s weight.
He startled, instinctively pulling the covers closer until he saw that it was MJ and the surprise turned to confused dread and then to…something. It was hard to tell but it looked like anticipation of doom.
He was waiting for it. Waiting for that look.
MJ: There would be no look. He'd had all of the travel with Ramsay, the walk through the house, the talk with Rohan, the three seconds of staring to prepare. He meant what he'd said outside of this room, and that look of dread from his old friend was as easily ignored as the new face it came from.
This was still Xavier's lap, and this wasn't his first time with his head resting on this thigh. Probably a smaller thigh, from the feel of it, but still, this thigh.
"Man, that last delivery was borin' as fuck. Got t'talk t'Jeremy, though. Keep fuckin' forgettin' he's like seven hours ahead of me. Went down a dirt road. Thought I was gonna get fuckin' eaten by a goddamn werewolf. I really need t'buy another gun."
Xavier/Abel: Confusion won out over the dread and anticipation of doom.
MJ wasn’t…reacting. He was talking like normal, acting like normal. Perhaps he hadn’t noticed.
Xavier wracked his brain in an attempt to remember if vampires could see true forms when his mind went off on a tangent.
Jeremy Murray. The arrangement. How would that work now? He didn’t see the man every day but he had to see him sometime if the arrangement was to continue. How would he explain his new face without blowing his cover entirely?
And down the rabbit hole he went.
'Quick, say something more,' Abel thought at MJ. 'We're losing him.'
MJ: If MJ could swat Abel away he would. Don't get too excited, familiar. He probably feels that.
"Why did I think I was gonna get eaten by a werewolf? Glad ya asked. Could hear howlin' in the woods when I was on the phone. Didn't tell him. Wanted to. What good would that do, ya know? He's been dealin' with vampires his whole life. No tellin' what he'd do if I added that. But any fuckin' way, didn’t sound normal. Kept gettin' closer. Sounded like three of em. Was on the way t'Charlotte. Miiiight have t'take another route."
Xavier: He didn’t feel that but nevertheless, MJ’s voice succeeded in pulling him back from that faraway place he went to so often these past couple of days.
Xavier’s brow furrowed in concern. He didn’t like the idea of MJ traveling a road traveled by werewolves. He was always alone on these deliveries what if something happened. He needed protection, a—
“Bodyguard.”
MJ: MJ just smiled, made a playful face. "A bodyguard? Been workin' on my dweomer every chance I get. That shit I did in Chicago feels like a fluke. Ya know, makin' somethin' move on its own. It's like... I dunno. I dunno what I was thinkin' at the time. But! I've had this idea of makin' replicas of myself. Not t'do anything, but make someone think I'm not alone."
Xavier: The sound of his own voice still startled him and his face reflected it; he just stared at MJ for a few seconds, blinking.
But once again, surprise gave way to other emotions. Ones that brought back that thousand-yard stare.
He’d seen that spell used before. Fifty years ago, in this very house.
MJ: Slowly, one might say cautiously, MJ reached up to brush his fingertips along Xavier's new jaw. Skin like a newborn baby. Years with telepaths, he'd learned the bare minimum to keep his thoughts to himself. He certainly would that.
"Who'd ya want me t'bring?"
Xavier: Even as slowly as MJ moved, Xavier startled again, just as unaccustomed to having this new face touched as he was to the sound of his own voice.
“Ramsay.”
MJ: "Why Ramsay? I mean he's a fuckin' keg with legs n'I love him, but is he a fighter n'I just didn't know?"
Xavier: “He’s from East London.”
MJ: "Oh, well, that explains everything," he softly laughed. Nothing too loud or too harsh.
"Missed the fuck outta ya, man."
Xavier: Xavier took a shaky breath and closed his eyes. Well, MJ had gone and done it now.
The man who had spent the past one hundred years not crying in front of anyone now couldn’t seem to stop himself.
MJ: "Hey, hey. Hug my head, man." Xavier's hand was gently taken, encouraged forward. "Go 'head."
Xavier: Rather than hug MJ’s head, Xavier just squeezed his hand for all he was worth.
This had been the longest week of his life. Everything was wrong and upside down, nothing felt comfortable, nothing felt as it usually did. There was too much that was new. He just wanted something familiar.
Now here MJ was, giving him something familiar and it still wasn’t comfortable because now Xavier was wrong and upside down.
But rather than find a way to convey any of that, he gave it to MJ telepathically. Talking was just another reminder of how ruined it all was.
MJ: Such a strange feeling, having thoughts not your own. Felt wrong. He would never say so out loud, but it felt like a mental illness. A unique insanity with a friend's voice attached.
"You're not fuckin' ruined. If you're ruined, I'm ruined. Know what I mean? Ya woulda told me the same, back then. Ya'd tell me the same now. So don't ya dare."
Xavier: Xavier took a few deep, shuddering breaths. MJ may not have been ruined and he may not have been ruined but everything else was. Every last aspect of his life.
“My baby.”
MJ: "What he's gonna think?"
Xavier: “I don’t look like him anymore,” he said, breath hitching on a sob. “He has my eyes. That’s all he had of me and now that’s gone. I don’t look like my baby anymore.”
MJ: "Hey, we can change that. And," MJ thought a moment. No one had said anything, according to Rohan. "Lemme take care of Devlin, okay?"
Xavier: “We can’t change it. He looks like my old body and my old body is gone. Magic can’t change things and make it so he came from this body.”
His brow furrowed. “What do you mean?”
MJ: He was talking. Right now, that was progress.
"Yeah, he came from some other body's sperm, but he's a piece of you. Your soul. Not Joe Shumck down the road. That's gotta mean somethin' more than what color eyes he's got.
"I mean lemme explain t'him why ya look different."
Xavier: Xavier nodded. He didn’t have the strength or the desire to stop MJ from taking some of the weight off his shoulders.
“He’s only seven. This is too much for him. It’s too much for me. How is he going to understand? How do you understand?”
MJ: You don't want my answer.
"Not like your soul changed color, or I'm talkin' to a stranger." He considered a moment. Almost. He could almost say it, but no. Not now, probably not ever. Not to Xavier. To Rohan, sure. To Ramsay, maybe. It wasn't that he was ashamed of his belief; he doubted saying what he thought would dry the tears, demon or not.
"It won't be too much. He's seven."
Xavier: “I’m not so sure about that. About my soul.” It certainly felt like it was a different color. Just one more thing that felt wrong and upside down.
“He’s a baby. An innocent little baby that thinks his daddy is magic and can do no wrong.”
MJ: "His daddy is magic. One day he has t'know what he is, n'what ya are. But right now... he can know somethin' else, n'have somethin' t'brood about when he's a teenager."
Xavier: “He thinks I’m sick. I can hear his little hand knocking on the bedroom door when he gets home from school because he wants to see me to make me feel better.”
MJ: "I'm a big advocate of lyin', most of the time." Let's just leave it at that. "I'm gonna go talk t'your boy. 'Less ya want me t'wait on Theo or some shit."
Xavier: Xavier nodded. “Yes, wait for him. I don’t know when he’ll be home but it would be wrong to talk to Devy without him there. Fuck, and Theo…”
He sank further into the bed. “How the hell is Theo going to deal with any of this?”
MJ: "If he only loves ya for your looks, he doesn't love ya."
Xavier: “He doesn’t—god only knows why—but they matter.”
MJ: "Looks matter? I mean, comin' from a guy that dresses like a millionaire, I get it, but there's gotta be more than that. If Rohan looked like Brad Pitt, he'd still look like a prince. If ya looked like Edward Norton, I'd forgive ya."
Xavier: “Of course they matter. Being attracted to the person you’re with is important, it’s part of the whole…” He gestured vaguely.
He lifted his head to look at MJ. “Who is Edward Norton?”
MJ: "But what are they attracted to? Your nose? Your hair? Or the way ya smile, the way ya do your eyes when you're overthinkin'. Does Theo love the way ya bite your lip, or does he just love your lip?"
MJ held his hand up in disgust. "We're gonna watch Fight Club."
Xavier: “How should I know? But whatever he was attracted to is gone because now I’m,” he gestured again, “this.”
“What’s Fight Club?”
MJ: MJ sat up with an old man groan. For show.
"You'll know what kinda man he is when he comes home. If he's some shallow prick n'we didn't know all along, I'mma kick his ass. If he still loves ya, then goddamn right he should. We'll know, won't we?"
Rough hands cupped Xavier's face. He began to look him over. Not in shock and awe, but in earnest, as though this were a wound which needed tending.
"Mm. Hmm. Nah. S'still you in there. Pretty sure this is Sulfur Boy. I mean, you're dressed like fuckin' Ebenezer Scrooge, but that's kinda X's thing."
Xavier: Xavier was still waiting for that look. How could he do anything else? This was a new face, a face MJ wouldn’t have known if he hadn’t been told who he was and somehow, that look still wasn’t making an appearance.
“Ebenezer Scrooge never wore Italian silk robes. He wore long nightshirts and one of those caps.”
MJ: "You're gettin' one of them caps for Christmas. Fit right in with your aesthetic, old man."
Seemed to be doing the trick. The crying had stopped. Being argumentative had its merits.
"Hey. I fuckin' love you."
Xavier: “I’ll wear it if it’s made out of Italian silk.”
MJ was going to start the crying back up again with sentiments like that. “I fucking love you, too.”
Xavier: “Why do you need a laptop? There’s a television in the sitting room.”
MJ: "That television gonna pull up my Google thingy?"
Xavier: “It should. It pulls up all those other services.”
MJ: "That means movin'."
Xavier: “It can be brought in here.”
MJ: "Ya can be brought in there. Or, or I steal that laptop n'I get in sweatpants."
Xavierl: “Do that then. I don’t want to move. Get mine from the study.”
MJ: "Alright. Ya don't wanna move. Ya got two more passes 'fore I'm gonna need a note from your doctor," MJ smiled.
Xavier: Xavier pointed at Abel. “He’s right there. He accepts all major insurance carriers and chicken legs.”
MJ: The Ravnos' smile broadened. Sounding a little more like himself. "Gonna get the shit. Be right back."
Xavier/Abel: “We’ll be here.”
Abel hopped off the bed and changed into his human form. “We need popcorn!” he shouted, dashing out of the room.
MJ: Having to wait for Theo, he thought. Being one of the last in the house to know, along with the servants. Hamilton should know, he continued musing. He stripped down and redressed for a movie night. The laptop in the study was as good as any. He'd put it back, he swears.
Xavier/Abel: Abel would still be downstairs seeing to their refreshments when MJ returned to the bedroom, so all the vampire would find was Xavier in another trance with another thousand-yard stare.
It was bound to keep happening unless there was something occupying his attention.
MJ: And occupy he shall. MJ pulled up YouTube and typed in for Daily Dose of Internet. The laptop was placed near the foot of the bed, full screen to distract Xavier with a man explaining how to stop a snake from eating itself with hand sanitizer; the video then jumped to a captain of a boat being thrashed around by waves; an old woman cussing like a sailor while playing GTA 5; a woman attacked by a glitter bomb fake package stolen from a tech nerd's doorstep.
Xavier/Abel: It was a very good distraction. Getting too into his own head was impossible when he was trying to figure out the appeal of stealing something unknown or why someone would want to play what appeared to be a thoroughly frustrating video game.
“Back!” Abel greeted when he returned a few minutes later with an armful of food. “We’ve got popcorn, we’ve got wine, we’ve got cake! And for our favorite vampire we have some fresh Olympian juice!”
MJ: "Ya know, when ya put it that way, s'like everyone's a walkin' vegetable."
For some people, where was the lie?
"Alright. Lemme pull this shit up. Whose fuckin' laptop is this, anyway?"
Xavier/Abel: “They’re not not walking vegetables,” said Abel, setting everything down. The blood bag was offered to MJ and some wine poured for Xavier, who frowned at MJ’s question.
“It’s the one from the study, isn’t it?” The demon looked it over. “It’s mine.”
MJ: "Ah. I don't feel guilty, then." Signed into his account, the movie was pulled up and put full screen. The laptop returned where everyone could see.
"Ever have chili and lime in your popcorn? Should try it."
Xavier/Abel: “Had it with chili before,” said Abel, settling beside Xavier. “Never lime though. Next time.” Because he was too lazy to go back to the kitchen.
“What is this film about?” asked Xavier.
MJ: "'Bout a man tired of monotony. That's all you're gettin'."
Xavier: “All right.” Xavier sipped his wine. “Is the man this Edward Norton?”
MJ: "Look at that scrawny fuck."
Abel: Abel snorted. “Not everyone can be a big, swarthy vampire. Or even just big and swarthy.”
MJ: "Hey, this was years of baseball and trouble."
Abel: “You definitely earned your swarthiness,” said Abel, nodding sagely as he shoved an enormous handful of popcorn in his mouth. “Norton’s just a skinny dude. Even if he was jacked he would still be a skinny dude.”
MJ: "That's called a twink, n'they have a place in my heart, too. Just not that one. Somethin' 'bout him always rubbed me wrong."
Abel: Abel squinted at the screen. “I think it’s his face. Like he looks like an average dude but also like he’s up to something shady.”
MJ: "I liked him in Red Dragon."
Xavier: “What is Red Dragon?” asked Xavier.
MJ: Each time Xavier opened his mouth was a win in MJ's opinion.
"Movie-slash-book 'bout serial killers. One bein' hunted, the other in prison helpin' em find the one out."
Xavier/Abel: He narrowed his eyes. That sounded almost familiar.
“It’s one of the Hannibal Lecter movies,” Abel offered.
“Ah, yes. I’ve heard of that.”
MJ: "But have ya seen or read em?"
Xavier: “I don’t believe so.”
MJ: "Ya will soon. Wanna read or watch?"
Xavier: “Watch. Reading requires far too much energy.”
MJ: "You'll get back into it."
Xavier: “Perhaps,” Xavier said softly, sinking further into the covers.
MJ: Popcorn began flying across the bed to Abel's mouth. A little game between vampire and familiar while they watched.
Abel: Any game with food was Abel’s favorite game. He caught nearly all the pieces of popcorn in his mouth, and what wasn’t caught was offered to Xavier in between explaining things happening in the movie.
“How much you wanna bet random dudes everywhere started fight clubs after this movie came out?” he asked aloud.
MJ: "It was a reply to the boomer generation. A celebration of gen x takin' back their manhood." MJ rarely had answers like this, which said something he didn't even notice.
Abel: Abel turned to MJ with a smile, impressed. “Well listen to you! You’re a regular movie historian.”
MJ: "Just shit I like." More popcorn was thrown at Abel's face.
Xavier/Abel: Abel would continue to catch what he could and offer Xavier what he couldn’t, but only for a while.
The movie seemed to be putting the demon in a trance. Every few minutes his mind would start to wander, only to be brought back by MJ and Abel’s voices or the realization that he had wine in his hand.