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[grahamzusi]

rojoyellowrojo replied to your post “So my trip to Scotland in a month is a thing I am pretending is not...”

I'm sure there has to be something of the sorts ik for sure out here in Silicon Valley it exists. maybe Google can lead you on your journey Bilbo

You are the literal best. Look at you trying to solve my problems while I am obviously just complaining :P I’ll suck it up and do it at some point but maybe when I have more sleep and coffee in my system

[grahamzusi]

Today is the day I usually spend reflecting and gearing up for the new year, putting together resolutions, reminiscing about the past year, getting inspired for what I'm going to do to make this year better. This year is a little different.

I'm doing a bit of that today but I feel kinda dull, like it's lacking the excitement of a new start because I know I have some big decisions about life and relationships to make this year, and I'm kind of dreading it - just like I do before every big change, even if it turns out to be great. And I feel in a slump because that's what I always do - let the fear win out over the excitement. I'm good at sticking to the status quo. I'm good at delaying, and ignoring, and leaving my head in the sand. I'm good at sitting with a cup of coffee in my hand when I should spring up out of my seat, splash cold water in my face, and push ahead into what could be a really uncomfortable, difficult, but necessary push towards living the life that wouldn't make me feel like sitting with a cup of coffee is avoidance and escape, rather than contentment.

So I need that push today. I need a little help, and a lot of courage. I need to embrace being uncomfortable. It's what I've admired about every person I look up to, that they don't do the easy thing. Maybe I admire them because I know how hard it is. But I guess I know what I need for this year, and it's a lot of courage, and endurance, and honesty, and ultimately love that is going to push that fear away. I am scared, but knowing what I need to do is the first step. Not doing it would be the cowardly thing.

So if you think about it, push me, prod me, check in on me, ask me about my intentions and my actions. Some of you have already and it has helped so much - thank you. And some of you just listen, which provides that comfort I crave. So I guess in lieu of a list of resolutions, this is a thank you note for being there for me when I'm trying to run away from the world, and the suffering that inevitably comes with it. If this sounds ambiguous, I thank you again for bearing with me because I know the particular things I struggle with and hate myself for, and wish I didn't do, and some of you do too because you are kind and patient. And I am very very glad I have all of you in my life :)

I hope the new year brings you peace, discovery, triumph over challenges, continuing lessons and stories, and enjoyment of little pleasures. You all mean so much to me.

[grahamzusi]

rojoyellowrojo replied to your post “So I was baking apple crisp, and I turned off the oven and left it in...”

You are adorable Greta

Ummmm...look who's talking

[spainstateofmind]

F,Q

F. Favorite song?

oh no i'm really bad at picking favorites with music it's like asking a mother to pick her favorite child

probably "Good 'n' Evil" from Jekyll and Hyde right now because i'm working on it for an audition

Q. Question you're always asked?

"Are you serious?" probably bc i'm a joker and a sarcastic asshole

[spainstateofmind]

22,36

22. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex? Yep. Totally not worth it.

36. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to? Unfortunately, no. (I'm taking applications for this position tho :D)

[wezard]

Honey, I'm Home

[uhmonda]

Do u speak turkish?

no??

[grahamzusi]

2, 15, 68, 92, 102 :P

2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now? Nooooo. That would be cradle robbing if there ever was some. Just a tad inappropriate.

15. Do you care if people talk badly about you? If I know about it, it bugs me. If I don't know about it, people are free to say whatever they want. Heck, they're free to say it whether I hear it or not, but yeah I guess I care.

68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public? No, but my skirt has been blown into a compromising position; does that count? :P

92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael? Mari, how did you even pick this one...the former goalkeeper on my football team...

102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies? yeeeessss

Thanks girl :)