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🖤 BLACKSITE SCROLLTRAP — “HOW TO NOT SETTLE AND EARN YOURSELF A LONELY DEATH // EXTENDED EDITION”
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Ladies. Let’s talk. Because y’all keep DMing me this one question like the answer ain’t screaming back at you in every ignored notification.
“Why won’t he commit?” “Why do I feel used?” “Why doesn’t he show me off?” “Why doesn’t he bring me to family functions anymore?” “Why hasn’t he proposed after 3 years?”
The answer?
He already did make a decision. You just weren’t ready to hear it.
You thought it was mutual. You thought it was “we’re still building.” You thought “he’s just not where he wants to be yet.”
But here’s what you didn’t think:
Maybe he’s already where he wants to be. And maybe that place doesn’t include you.
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Truth time.
Men don’t need love to cum. They don’t need joy. They don’t need compatibility. They need a hole, a moment, and a reason to leave after.
Crude? Yes. Brutal? Definitely. True? Every f*cking man you’ve dated knows it is.
We could f*ck the Wicked Witch of the West if she had a pulse and a wet center. If no one would find out, we’d nut in her while the house was still on top of her legs.
You see men on podcasts talk about “standards” and “boundaries” — but behind closed doors? We’ve nutted into socks. Into lotion-filled paper towel rolls. Into our own palm like it owed us rent.
Men will sleep DOWN because up is often too complicated to schedule. Men can fake-compliment you for six months straight just to get a crack at you missionary-style on a bed that used to belong to your ex.
You think it means something? It doesn’t. Not unless he wanted it to.
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You ever wonder why the guy who took you out stopped doing it after he hit?
Because he was never courting you. He was court-staging. Auditioning for access. And now that he got it? You’re on the bench while he scrolls IG looking for a reason to leave.
And you still won’t talk to the guy who said
“Hey, I think you’re really cool, maybe we could—” And you cut him off. Laughed. Rolled your eyes. Told your friends “girl, these men are so weak nowadays.”
That man? The quiet one? The stuttering one?
He was YOU. But honest. Without the options. Without the arrogance. With just enough bravery to say something out loud before going back home to his silence.
And you killed him. Not with cruelty. But with disdain.
And he’ll never try again. Not with you. Maybe not with anyone.
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Meanwhile, you keep chasing Chad.
He’s six feet. Has jawline genetics. And a rotation of women who think they’re “the one.”
You think his memes are hilarious. You think his silence is mystery. You think his lack of emotion is “alpha.” You think his hot-and-cold means passion.
But it’s not mystery. It’s disinterest.
It’s not passion. It’s f*ckboy scheduling.
It’s not “he’s working on himself.” It’s he’s trying to find someone better while using you as his cum dumpster.
Still laughing?
Still blocking the good man because he used an emoji wrong or his shoes were off-brand or he stuttered when he asked you out?
Still ghosting the man who said
“I thought about you today. That’s all.” Because it wasn’t “cool” enough?
Still rolling your eyes at the cashier who held your gaze just a little too long because he’s working toward a promotion and thought maybe you’d look at him like someone worthy?
You call that creepy. You say he “gave you the ick.” But Chad sends dick pics with the crust still on and you open those with lotion in hand.
Let’s call it what it is:
You’re desperate for status. But allergic to sincerity. And you’ve trained yourself to turn away from love whenever it wears khakis and speaks softly.
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You ever wonder why you feel more empty after sex now? More tired? Less beautiful?
Because your body knows when it’s been used. And your soul? She’s screaming through the orgasms and calling out for the man you used to ignore.
The one who smiled at you in the library. Who messaged once and gave up. Who complimented you with trembling voice but never got a second chance.
He’s gone now. And so is the version of you that might’ve known love.
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🧾 EXTENDED SELF-REFLECTION CHECKLIST 🧾
☐ Do you measure a man’s worth by his social media presence? ☐ Do you ignore men who don’t fit your aesthetic, even if they respect you? ☐ Have you ever laughed at a man who nervously tried to connect with you? ☐ Do you feel rage when a man tells the truth about female behavior? ☐ Do you chase men who clearly don’t want you, but ignore the one who actually tried? ☐ Do you replay past dates and only now feel the ache of what you threw away?
Because the only thing worse than dying alone— is realizing there was someone who wanted to love you before you turned yourself into the very thing that repelled it.
And spoiler alert?
It wasn’t Chad. It was the man you never took seriously— until he became a husband to someone who said yes.
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