A NEW ME -3
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HOW CAN THIS BE - JADA
I was sure this wasn’t the best way but to leave a note on the bathroom counter would be the easiest way to say what I needed to say. I woke up before sunrise the next morning after spending the night with Q. Of course there was more sex than talking and I honestly didn’t mind at the moment. After round 3, Q pretty much knocked out leaving me alone to order room service and spend the rest of the night staring at the TV and him in silence. I could barely sleep so I gathered my belongings and headed the airport at about 5 am. I didn’t want to leave without making him aware of the baby because I honestly wasn’t sure when I’d see him again. Things just weren’t the same. The letter explained the situation. I was even honest about sleeping with someone before him and the possibility that it may be the other guys baby. I expect him to either flip out or disappear once he reads the letter. Either way, I had decided against an abortion. The main reason being that my parents were secretly coercing me to terminate the pregnancy. That hurt me to my core. Both of my parents were ministers that held high positions at our church. I found it rather hypocritical of them to push me to end the pregnancy. I had my personal beliefs on the subject and I learned that mine was totally different than theirs.
I arrived at the concert venue just in time to see my brother before he hit the stage. I had informed Mona of my arrival and she sneaked me backstage. I knew that he would be shocked and I was looking forward to the look on his face when he saw me. I was excited to show him my small baby bump and new boobs. My tits had grown from the pregnancy and I prayed they would remain this size after. I went from a size A to a size C in no time causing my bust to waist ratio to give me the appearance of a Kardashian; hoes were hating too. I located Jace’s dressing room but not before bumping into TJ. He screamed when he saw me.
“MY GIRL!” he shrieked. “I didn’t know you were coming!”
“Shhhh,” I silenced him. “No one knew I was coming silly,” I said with a chuckle.
“It’s so good to see you though. I miss you being with us,” he said with sincere eyes. I rubbed his arm and gave him a warm smile.
“Is my brother in here?” I asked.
“Ummm..probaby but if I was you I’d knock first,” he said as if he was protecting a secret. I rolled my eyes. I came to surprise Jace and I’m his twin sister. I have total access to him. What in the hell do I look like knocking on a door?
“Well, it was good seeing you. I’m sure I’ll see you after the show,” I said in a dismissive tone. Everyone knew I was the cool bitch so no one took offense to my shady antic.
I opened the door to Jace’s dressing room after shaking the knob a couple of times. I almost went into premature labor at what my eyes saw.
“What in the hell is going on in here,” I said dropping my purse and with my eyebrows raised.
My brother was sitting on the vanity with a guy between his legs in full tongue action. After further observation, I noticed it was Demarion.
“Well, I’ll be ‘Good Morning America’ damned,” I said looking away as if I was speaking to someone else in the room besides them.
“Jada! What are you..,” Jace began before I cut him off.
“Nah bruh. What are YOU doing here?” I asked taking a seat on the sofa.
Demarion put his shirt on and quickly left the room. Not with out me slapping him on the butt and catching a glimpse of the hard tree trunk swinging in his black Adidas track pants. He was shook. I was upset at first but now I amused watching them scramble like two roaches who had just been caught on the kitchen counter. Jace lowered himself into the vanity chair and turned away from him burying his head in his hands.
“Jace you may as well cut that out. I’m not mad or shocked hell. I’m mostly upset that you didn’t secure the door. That’s why I should have brought my ass on this tour. What if I was someone else,” I said.
“What do you mean you’re not shocked,” he said mumbling through his hands.
“Boy, I’m your sister and twin. You can’t hide shit from me. Hell, I can feel when you take a shit. You think I didn’t know you were gay? Or are you Bi?” I said in a jokingly sarcastic tone.
“Really?” he said uncovering his face and staring at himself in the mirror. I walked over to him and put my arms around his neck from behind him.
“Yes really. I was just hoping that when the day came for you to act on it that you would at least talk to me about it. But I had to walk in on you with your legs wrapped around one of the employees. Tuh, what is life becoming?” I asked looking at him in the mirror. He looked up at me with watery eyes.
“Before you ask, yes this is between us and I guess him and whoever else knows. I’m not going to out you to the fam. They are already mad at me no point in upsetting them more. But tell me, are you the plug or the socket?” I said planting a kiss on the cheek.
“I’m still a virgin Jada,” he said with a growl and eye roll that caused a tear to be released from his eye.
“It doesn't matter. I was just wondering. I have a secret fetish for gay porn. Don’t ask me why but yeah boy,” I said walking back over to the couch.
“You’re crazy,” he chuckled. “Jada, I don’t know what I am. I’ve never felt this way about a guy. Of course, I toyed with the thought growing up and even found some guys attractive but I always shook it off as admiration or something,” he said.
“You don’t have to label it. You like dick. Case closed,” I said.
“Could you be mature for a second, ugh” he said getting up to begin getting dressed.
“Oh, I’m very mature. I’m the one about to be a mother,” I said rubbing my stomach to reveal the baby bump. Jace rushed over.
“Oh my God,” he said. “You really are pregnant.”
“And you like Niggas. Surprise,” I said.
“If you weren’t pregnant I’d hit you right now,” he said with a smile.
Jace caught me up on the details. I admitted to him that I had sorta known about his crush for Demarion and gave him my stamp of approval. Demarion was very attractive and kind. He nor my brother were the stereotypical gay guy but I was learning lately not to be judgmental of anyone especially since some people were super homophobic. I really was an advocate for love. My only concern was Demarion ruining my brother with his wood. From what I watch on gay porn I knew all about how guys had sex and I was not wanting my brother to risk being hospitalized fooling around with mega meat Demarion.
I caught him up on my life and told him about my letter to Q. As I finished Mona barged into the room.
“Stage in 10 Jace,” she said and gave me a wink of welcome.
“Well I guess I better go to my seat,” I said. Jace embraced me and held me. I was obsessed with him and so happy that we finally caught up on each other’s lives. “Kill it bro. And I’ll see you after. I can’t drink but we’re going to turn up at the after party. Ayyye Ayye,” I said as I twerked my way out of the room.
I found my seat in a private section of the auditorium. As I sat down I felt my phone vibrate. I assumed it was Adrienne. I forgot to let her know that I had made it so I’m sure I had just received a bunch of curse words and emojis in a text. I opened my phone and it was 2 paragraphs from Q. OH SHIT!
Q’s Text: “Where do I begin. I’m seriously hurt that you couldn’t tell me this in person. You let me bang you out multiple times last night know you were pregnant. I’m not going to lie, I noticed the pudge but just thought it was extra weight. I didn’t mind but is it safe to have sex while pregnant. I lowkey feel betrayed. I know I involved you in some fucked up shit but I didn’t expect this. I should have though because it’s my fault for not strapping up. Damn Jada.
I paused from reading while tears dropped from eyes onto the phone screen. I was crushed and nervous about reading the rest. The lights went black and the announcer introduced my brother. The video reel played and he entered the stage wearing a Kimona robe with no shirt and baggy trouser. He had a totally different image but it was sexy, in a different kind of way. The crowd cheered. I’m sure most were unaware of him but he looked sexy so he had their undivided attention. He started to sing and I began crying even more. I’m not much of a crier but this pregnancy and the text I just received had me feeling like an emotional wreck. As Jace sang a beautiful song called “How Could This Be”, I opened the text and allowed the beautiful song to be the background music for the second half of the text message.
Q’s Text: I understand how this baby can be that other nigga’s. I didn’t think you were a virgin before we started messing around. I would like to know the results and willing to take a test. If it’s mine please know that I will take care of my responsibility. I’m going, to be honest. I’m in a lot of shit. I may not be the best guy to fuck with for a girl of your background. But you’ve opened my eyes. I think I love you, Jada. Matter of fact I’m sure of it. And I want you in my life regardless. I want you to be my lady. You’ve proved that you have my back and there are still things I want to come clean about but I want you. I want all of you. Baby and all whether it’s mine or not. I guess that’s why I’m so mad you didn’t just talk to me. I want to see you. I’m flying to you tomorrow. Stay there and I’ll come up. I have some business to take care of but this will definitely be on my mind until I’m able to look you in the eye. Enjoy time with your brother. I love you.
“Life is crazy..but I want you here with me...I can’t stop loving you...How can this be?” Jace belted the last line shaking my heart. We all cheered and my face was a slip in slide. I had to check and make sure my contacts didn’t swim out of my eye.
Life sure is crazy.
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HOW CAN THIS BE - JACE
“Jace he is going crazy over your performance! You killed it!” Mona said jumping a few inches off of the ground in excitement. She has just finished talking to Miguel. The concert went extremely well. The energy in the auditorium that sat 5,000 had way more energy than the arena that held 10,000 people when were touring with SASSY. I was so happy about the news. Miguel had been more than gracious to my crew and I since we joined the tour so to know that he was ecstatic about my performance gave me a sudden high.
“Ok I’m going to make sure everyone is headed to Club Passion for the afterparty,” Mona said walking out of the room.
Jada ran into the room. “Oh my God boy!!! You did that. I was crying. That song “How Can This Be” may get you your first Grammy. Why didn’t you save that for our comeback?” she said lightly punching me in the arm.
“Was it really that good Jada?” I asked trying to hold in my excitement.
“Excuse me but nigga you slayed that shit!” she said. I gave her a side eye. She knew how I felt about cursing, especially the N-word.
“Thank you!” I said reaching for another hug. “Oh and I’m not your gay best friend now. So you don’t have to feel the need to use gay terminology with me. I’m just Jace,” I said pointing my finger at her. I was so glad my sister surprised. I wasn’t expecting anyone after my mom told me they wouldn’t be able to make the first show. I should have known Jada would have a trick up her sleeve.
I began undressing to put on my clothes for the after party. It was hot out so I decided to dress really casual and cool. I threw on some denim destroyed jeans and a white v neck shirt. I ran my fingers through my hair and sat down to put on my Yeezy Boosts. My phone vibrated. It was a text from Demarion.
DEMARION’S TEXT: “Can we talk?”
MY TEXT: “Sure. I’m headed to the party. I’ll have a section but we can pull away and talk before I sit down.
DEMARION’S TEXT: “I don’t think I’m going to go to the party. But Have fun.”
MY TEXT: “What do you mean? I want you to come. Why won’t you come.”
I didn’t get a response. I started to text him back but I knew the car was waiting and Jada was rushing me.
We made it to the club and once I got to my section I checked my phone to see if I had another message from Demarion. Nothing. I couldn’t figure out another reason why he was being awkward besides Jada bursting into my dressing room and catching us kissing. Had she been 15 minutes sooner she would have caught me going down on him. It was my first time but he said I was great. I wasn’t sure who I was becoming but it was freeing. My feelings were so deep for Demarion so I couldn’t enjoy the party knowing something was bothering him. I decided to text.
MY TEXT: “Hey. Can we talk tonight? I don’t like this.”
“Hey, Jace come over here. Some people want to take pictures,” Mona said interrupting my thoughts.
I walked out of the section and near the bar. People were lined up for pictures. I was flattered. Ash came over bringing one person after another to take a picture. She was actually a great assistant. I was looking forward to getting to know her more. All of the fans were so kind. Each one expressed how much they enjoyed my set and loved my voice. I was overwhelmed. It was different performing alone after performing with Jada all of these years. She seemed super supportive but I wondered tonight if she was feeling any jealousy over the reactions I was getting while alone. She was sitting at the booth in my section texting away on her phone. She seemed to be chilling so I didn’t give the jealousy bit any more thought.
While taking a picture with a pretty girl with light freckles, I received a text from Demarion. I asked her if she would give me a minute. I couldn’t focus.
“Do you need some water or something?” Ash asked out of concern.
“No, I need to use the restroom. I’ll take this last one and then come back in just a second,” I replied.
I took the picture with the pretty girl. Her name was Rachel. She told me she followed me on Instagram and that I really inspired her to sing. I was flattered. I agreed to follow her on snapchat. The label had to approve who I followed on Instagram right now. She was very happy about the snapchat. Ash paused the line and I walked over to the restroom. I needed a moment to read the text from Demarion and reply. I couldn’t focus on anything but what he may be feeling.
DEMARION’S TEXT: “Yes. Of course. I want to see you when you get back to the hotel. I can’t sleep.”
MY TEXT: “I’m going to leave here in 30 minutes and I’m coming ok?”
DEMARION’S TEXT: “That’s cool. *Smiley Emoji*”
OK. Maybe he had come to his senses and was feeling better. The tone in his text was different. I went back out to take a few more pictures. After the last picture, I would request a car and go back to the hotel. When I got back to the line there was a tall light skinned guy with a razor sharp fade waiting to take a picture. Ash had the biggest grin on her face. I was sure he was someone I should have known but I didn’t know who he was. I looked at him and smiled and then at Ash so she could feel me in but she stood there like a silly pre teen. She had no words only jitters. I decided to say hello.
“Hi, Jace. I don’t think we’ve met.” the guy said. He was about 6′6 maybe, athletic build from what I could see through his half buttoned black dress shirt and slacks. Had he been any shorter I probably would have mistaken him for a bartender. He smelled really good and was we wearing a diamond crusted Rolex. He had a simple smile on his face while he talked, looking down at me as if he amused.
“No, we haven’t met. But I’m Jace. Did you enjoy the show?” I asked. “I did. Especially you. What a pleasant surprise you were. I always go see Miguel when he goes out on tour. Luckily I was in the city playing the last couple of days so I had to make sure I hit up the show,” he said rubbing his the hairs on his chin.
“That’s awesome. I’m glad you enjoyed,” I said staring at him. This dude was handsome. Extremely handsome.
“So can I get that picture now?” he asked.
“Sure,” I sat bringing myself back to the present happenings. We took the picture and he towered over me like a skyscraper.
“I’m going to post it to my Instagram. I’ll tag you ok?” he asked.
“Of course that’s cool,” I said and smiled.
“Nice meeting you Jace,” he said.
“You too,” I said. I didn’t know his name.
He turned and walked away. I took the last 4 pictures of people standing in line and told Ash I was ready to go back to the hotel.
“Dude. Do you not know who that was?” she asked slightly offended.
“If you’re talking about the tall guy you were gushing over then no mam,” I said.
“That was Cedric McAllen!” she said with excitement.
I gave her a blank stare.
“Umm, he’s the new point guard for the LAKERS Basketball team!” she said.
“Ohhh that’s what he meant by he was in the city playing. I thought he meant the casino,” I said.
She chuckled. “Let me go see if your car is outside,” she said walking away.
I glanced at my phone and decided to check Instagram. I couldn’t believe he was famous. He was so chill. I can believe he was a basketball player. He was very tall.
I opened Instagram and skimmed through my notifications to see if I had one from him. There were so many. I checked my DMs. His message was the last one received. I opened it.
CEDRIC’S DM: “Hope you like the picture. I almost didn’t post it. You make me look hideous haha”
My mouth dropped. The picture was nice though. I was posing like I was the star but he was the star. I decided to message him back immediately.
MY DM: “Haha man. I love the picture. You look great.”
He instantly replied.
CEDRIC’S DM: “As long as you think so. That’s what matters”
MY DM: Sorry I didn’t recognize you. I don’t know much outside of music.
CEDRIC'S DM: “It’s all good. I actually liked that. I could party with you all night”
I didn’t know how to reply to that. W.W.J.D? What would Jada do? Oh. Yea.
MY DM: “Maybe we’ll have a chance to party in the future.”
CEDRIC’S DM: “712-329-9939. The ball is on your side.”
MY DM: “I got you”
I shut off my phone and Ash was standing in front of me. She caught me grinning awkwardly at my phone.
“Umm, you ready? Jada left a while ago. She’ll be staying at the same hotel as us,” Ash said. I nodded and followed her.
We got back to the hotel. I ran to my room to shower quickly. It was close to 2 am. We would be in the city one more day but had to be up early for rehearsal.
After my shower, I texted Demarion to see if he was still awake.
MY TEXT: “Hey. Are you still up”
DEMARION’S TEXT: “Yep. Come here”
I threw on some basketball shorts and a tank top and rushed out of the room. We didn’t chill in his room often because he was messy. I got to his door and before I could knock he opened the door and stepped aside so I could come in.
“Look, I hate that Jada caught us kissing but she is cool. She’s my sister and now knows how I feel. She likes you too. And you don’t have to worry. We all have too much to lose for her or anyone to say anything,” I said. He stared at me. He was standing there in his briefs only. He had on his du-rag so I knew he was ready for bed. I wanted to talk. I didn’t want us to go to sleep with any tension between us.
“Demarion. Say something,” I said.
“I want you,” he said softly.
“Umm, You have me,” I said.
“No earlier when you sister first barged in I was startled. Upset even. After we performed I realized I didn’t care. I want you. All of you. I’ve never been with a guy or wanted a guy like this but Jace I want you. I want you to be mine for real. My first everything. I’ve never been in a serious relationship but I can see myself with you,” he said walking over to me.
“Wow. I don’t know what to say,” I said.
He lifted my chin and kissed me softly on my lips. “You want me too,” he said.
“I want you,” I said.
He picked me up and I wrapped my legs around him. He laid me on the bed. He kissed me deeply.
He broke the kiss to look at me. “What you did to me in that dressing room earlier was so good baby,” he said smiling.
“You liked it for real? I was just returning the favor. I want to please you,” I said.
“Can I have more?” he asked. I nodded yes.
He got up and went to his bag. I was confused. I assumed he would lay down so I could get to work on him. He came back with a small bottle of something and something small that looked like a condom wrapper. My heart sank. I wasn’t ready for this. I hadn’t prepared myself. I wanted to read up on the do’s and don’t before we attempted this. I sat up on my elbows.
“Demarion,” I whispered.
“Shh I got you. Trust me,” he said. I laid back down. My thoughts going 100MPH.
He got on top of me and started kissing me deeply again and pulling my shorts down. I cringed at his hands running down the sides of my stomach. He dragged his tongue down my chest to my belly button. Once there he removed my shorts and underwear completely. He quickly threw my legs over his shoulder. He stared at me for a few seconds and then lowered his head between my legs. I gasped. His thick tongue beginning swirling around my butt. He started eating it like groceries. I was stunned. He had done this before but this time felt different. I felt his finger massaging the middle. He stuck a finger in slowly. I couldn’t contain myself. I arched my back. He kept licking me and trying to inch in deeper. He removed his finger. After a few seconds, I felt a second finger. It was slightly painful but I was so caught up on pleasing him and giving myself to him, the pleasure of exceeding that expectation outweighed the pain I was feeling. He stood up and got on the bed. He scooted to the head of the bed and laid on his back.
“Ok, so this may hurt but doing it this way will give you control to stop and go as you please,” he informed me. His chocolate penis was standing fully erect. He instructed me to squat down and try to take him inside of me. My thoughts were everywhere. He put on the condom and lubricated his penis with whatever was in the small bottle. I put my hands on his thick chest. I really wanted to do this. So I thought about how this would mean so much to him and how I could finally lose my virginity to someone I was in a relationship with. I lowered myself down. I felt the tip of his penis and closed my eyes. He talked to me the entire time telling me how sexy I was and how much he wanted to make love to me. It was so sexy. I felt the head of his penis enter me. He moaned. It turned me on.
“Shit,” he said. “Baby you feel good. Take your time.”
I breathed in deep and tried to go lower. I’m not gonna lie. It hurt. I took my time and eventually the pain started to subside a little as my body adjusted to the size of him. He grunted and grabbed my sides. Before I knew it I was all the way down. From what I saw in movies, I knew that I was supposed to go up and down. So I did. It was a little more painful but his moans and seeing the sweat bead start to pop on his chisled chocolate body made me feel like I’d climax any minute. We increased the speed and I tried to hold back from waking the neighbors.
“DAMN BABY. You’re TIGHT AS FUCK. This shit so good,” he said. “You’re gonna make me cum baby”
I couldn’t say anything. I had found my rhythm and apparently a pleasure spot. It was the best feeling I had ever felt. I had never climaxed without touch myself but I felt myself coming.
“Oh damn baby. Give me that nut,” he said breathing hard. “I’m cumming too baby.”
We both moaned and he pulled me down to him.
“SHIT NIGGA,” I said. I cursed before I realized it. I gave him a combo curse word at that.
He chuckled trying to catch his breath. I climbed down and laid beside him. We were both drenched in sweat. He leaned over and planted kisses on my cheek..
“That dick had my baby cussing,” he said fully amused. I rolled my eyes and hit him in the chest.
“I love you, Jace,” he said.
I wasn’t quite sure what I felt but I knew I felt something.
“I love you too Demarion,” I replied.