#XD30 TWENTY NINE | DOUBLE TROUBLE
[ Baby What You Doin - Jada ]
Our last show with SASSY was tomorrow. We had a bid to continue the rest of the tour with them but waiting to get the final news from Mona. I sat in the upper level of the arena watching SASSY perform. I wanted some time alone. I wasn’t feeling well. I texted Adrienne and asked her to bring me some water.
While I waited on her to bring the water I opened my phone to scroll online. I found out earlier that day that Q had been released from jail on bail. He would have a court date within a few weeks. I wondered how long it would be before I heard from him. As far as I know, no one had tried to come do harm to me. I had security everywhere I went. Even now a new security officer named Davis was standing at the top of the stairwell so that he could have the perfect view of me and my surroundings.
Adrienne arrived with the water and sat next to me.
“Girl are you alright. You look flushed and tired. You sounded winded up there in rehearsal as well. Did you find out some bad news? How’s grandpa?” she asked.
“Everything is fine. I think I’m just exhausted. All I want to do is get back to my room and sleep,” I replied.
“Well, y’all are done. Jace is in the back talking to Mona but I can call a car so we can go,” she said.
“Talking to Mona about what?” I asked.
“I don’t know. I think he’s anxious to see if y’all will continue the second leg of the tour,” she said.
“Hell, I want to know too,” I said standing up. Adrienne got up to join me and good thing she did. She was able to brace my fall. I felt my knees weekend and I fell into her arms.
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I woke up to bright lights. I adjusted my eyesight to the light in the room. I looked over and saw Jace sitting beside me on his phone. From the looks of it, I was at the hospital. I immediately panicked. Jace heard me ruffling the sheets out of panic.
“Shhh baby girl,” he said trying to calm me. My mouth was so dry that I couldn’t speak.
“We’ve been waiting for you to wake up. Let me go get the doctor,” he said.
He returned with Mona and the doctor, a slender, white older gentleman in tow.
“Ms. Jada, we are glad you’re up. There is no need to panic. I want to go over the tests we ran and our findings. Would you like to go over it privately or do you want these two to stay in the room?” he asked. I couldn’t speak but I nodded that it was fine if they stayed. I didn’t expect anything to be wrong. I was in perfect health besides feeling exhausted the last couple of days and I trusted both Jace and Mona to take care of me through this process.
“Well, we checked out your heart and blood pressure and all of the levels are normal. We also did a brain scan and the tests came back fine. I was curious to why you suddenly passed out. I found out you are a performer so my first thought was that it was just exhaustion,” he said. He was telling me something I already knew.
“The final test I ran revealed the issue. Looks like you be welcoming a baby soon,” he said. He kept talking but I closed my eyes. I basically blacked out.
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I was shocked but not surprised. I thought about how I hadn’t used condoms with Q. I was so excited and caught up in the moment that I didn’t even consider the repercussions of my actions. Damn. I didn’t know how to feel. Here I am on the brink of a budding, promising career while on tour and I was about to bring everything to a halt for me and Jace. I immediately felt guilty. Jace never left my side. I heard Mona outside on the phone. I was anxious to learn how we would handle this but I suppose this finalized whether we would continue the tour. I messed it up for everyone. The entire crew depended on us to have a job. I began crying.
“Sister, don’t cry. We’re going to figure this out. Like we always do,” Jace said in a comforting tone.
“I just have one question. Do you know who the dad is?” he asked. I was almost insulted. He knew about Q. What else did he expect? Wait a minute. I began crying harder.
I also slept with Ernest multiple times. Many times we didn’t use a condom. I said I would be a hoe on this tour but I should have committed to being a smart hoe. Now I don’t know who soon to be baby’s father is. I was only a few weeks pregnant. I was dreading the phone call home. Hopefully, Mona hadn’t called home to break the news.
Mona waltz back in a room with a serious look.
“Well, guys. We have two options here. Y’all won the bid to continue the tour. We can try to get through the rest of the dates in hopes that Jada doesn't’ start showing. Because of the tour’s audience demographic, they don’t think it would be a good look to have someone pregnant on stage, especially the star. The other option is we can stop the tour and y’all can finish up the debut album and prepare for your own tour after the baby. The only issues are that all pregnancies are different and we can’t project how long it will before Jada is ready to hit the road again. I have my opinion on this but I will let y’all decide. I’m going to make a few more phone calls to see if there are any more options but let me know what y’all want to do,” she said with an awkward smile.
“I know there are mixed emotions about everything but we’ll get through it. Congratulations Jada,” she said while leaving the room.
Bitch was that shade or sympathy because it didn’t feel celebratory. I didn’t even care. I honestly wasn’t happy. How could I be so dumb?
“I’m so sorry Jace,” I said.
“What do you want to do?” he asked. “I’m in full support.”
“Well my first choice is whether or not I will keep the baby,” I said.
“ARE YOU SERIOUS?” he said with sudden anger. “I know you aren’t considering THAT option.”
“And I know my brother won’t judge me. We’ve been preparing our entire life for this. I’m not ready to cause this hurdle for us,” I explained.
“This isn’t a hurdle. This is a result. When you have sex there is a chance you’ll have a baby Jada,” he said with a frown on his face.
“I know but...I didn’t plan to have a baby. What will people think?” she said.
“People will think what they want to think. The only thing we need to figure out is what we will do,” he said.
I pondered for a moment. In my head, I began creating a to-do list. I knew for sure that I would have to figure out who the father was, I would have to speak with Q and I would have to decline on continuing the tour. The way I felt the last few days lead me to believe that touring would be too strenuous while pregnant. I didn’t want to ruin our reputation of great performances by getting on stage and passing out or singing badly. I had to do what I had to do.