#ronit

[stanford-photography]

Portrait of Ronit By Jeff Stanford, 2023 Buy prints at: https://jeff-stanford.pixels.com/

[starloving-186]

[jalebi-likes]

Yaadein

Isha x Ronit

[grendillo]

Disobedience

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[noteescapesdemi]

[bi-great]

“THE THREE OF US”

After telling everyone he couldn’t accept the position offered to him, Dovid left the room as fast as he could, without looking back. He couldn’t bear to see the looks on everyone’s faces right now. He needed to get some fresh air. He wasn’t outside for long before Esti reached him. She was crying and she hugged him tight. It was barely audible, but he caught a small “thank you” leaving his wife’s lips follow by a sweet kiss on his neck.

They were still clinging tight to each other when Ronit followed them out. She walked slowly towards them, not sure whether or not there was a place for her with her friends or not. She stopped before the gate, watching them from some distance.

Dovid looked at her and, for the first time since the woman had showed on his doorstep, he didn’t see a woman who had abandoned her faith and her community and, therefore, didn’t belong among them, but he saw his best friend. A friend who had longed for a hug, a caress, anything to soothe the pain left by the loss of her father and to whom he had denied any sort of affection. He opened an arm, inviting Ronit to join them in their embrace. 

The woman’s face lit up with the brightest smile as she ran into his and Esti’s arms. Dovid tightened his arms around the two women’s shoulders and his heart was filled immediately with the warmth and joy he used to feel when he spent time with them as a child.

Hashem had given them the freedom to choose and so he did. He chose his best friends and it was the best decision he’d ever made.

He didn’t know what was going to happen next, what was going to be of his life. But in that moment he had everything he needed.

[celestrian-gods]

The Fusions

Shuijing || Ronit

[musefulstranger]

What's truly heartbreaking throughout the first 20 minutes of interaction between Dovid, Ronit and Esti, is the fact that each one of them wants to desperately connect with the other but they don't know how, or if they're supposed to.

Dovid wants to comfort Ronit for her loss ,it is there, you can feel it in the way he helps her light her cigarette with his hands, the way he nods with his gentle, knowing smile, like he's whispering "i get you, i understand".

It’s like there’s this huge time jump that brings us  back to the old  days where rules and musts weren’t a  one way, because kids are still allowed a dose of freedom , crafting themselves for their future reflections.

Ronit’s family is a ghost of memories full of bitterness and unacceptance . She chose to forget because sometimes numbness is better. She burned all  her bridges  and run away like a wounded animal.

New place, new people and a fervid need for attachment,  because how do you survive  this  sense of not  belonging? You always, always need to grasp on to something.It ‘s in the human nature.

With no home, no mother or father to connect her to the past anymore Ronit is pleading Dovid and Esti.

Hug me. Miss me. I am back.Do you want me back?

How many times did Ronit ask Esti if she wants her in the house,if she needs to change her tickets, to go back to  her world where she’s accepted, where she feels safe.

A tired provocateur begging for reassurance, bold and witty and so very lost.

 “Come, let us talk, the three of us like we used to be”.

Poor Ronit. Her craving is so palpable but Dovid and Esti are so very broken. Their dysfunctionality as a couple catapults back to Ronit who is just standing there, in the kitchen or the attic  trying to understand.

“Was this marriage good for you?”

Not a hint of irony. It was an honest question.

And then their faces. The two perfect opposites. Dovid smiling, completely delusional, because what else is left to do? And Esti.

Where to begin and where to end with Esti.

Always calm and reserved, her life a social obligation because she must.

She must this, and she must that and she. must .

Suppress. Everything.

She will bite her lips and grit her teeth and show anger and bitterness and hollowness to Ronit  because she left  fourteen years ago, and since then  Esti ceased to exist.

How do you breathe the same air under the same roof after so many years, after so much pain, how is it possible for Ronit to be back?

It is actually painful to observe Esti’s reactions and decipher the feelings or how Ronit perceives them.

Because at first, Ronit doesn’t get it. She feels that something is off, because this is not her Esti.

But.

There’s a big difference between them.In those fourteen years Ronit managed to get a hold of her life. Her choice to leave everything behind was not easy but eventually she did make a choice.

Esti is not really there. All this time it’s like she postponed this, what she always knew, and this small tiny motion- to contact Ronit to come back for her father- set everything on fire. It was the first  awakening.

“what? Do I look old? i’m tired. I’m just tired”

Oh Esti.So fragile, Ronit could probably crush her with her nail.A halfdead fish struggling to stay alive.

“What happened to you?”

“Nothing.”

You happened to me.

And those were just the first 20 minutes of the film.

Imagine if I started analyzing the whole thing.