Xaden is just at a therapy appointment and wanted me to let you know he wants to be open with you, but is feeling embarrassed. Over the past few games he’s run into trouble with painkillers for his old shoulder injury after tweaking it. He’s been scared to tell anyone, let alone me, so he was beyond embarrassed to tell you because he loves you and doesn’t want you to see him as the broken version he feels he is.
He’s taken a month leave from hockey, and said he wants to be more open with you from now on, I think he’s staying one more night here, Harry wants to monitor him overnight, last night was really scary seeing him in that state an what he was saying…i’ll let him explain it to you better..
We all love you, especially Xaden, and he just wants you to be proud of him..❤️
Oh my gosh... poor Xaden this would explain a lot from what I've seen from him behavior wise.... but I never thought for one second he was broken. I feel awful he felt so embarrassed and scared to tell me what was really going on. I love him with my whole heart and I just wish he would... I don't know see or feel like I do. It breaks my heart he felt like he hide and feels like he's broken. He's not. Again I love him so much and that's never ever going to change. Does he have his flaws? Yeah sure but who doesn't everyone does. But he is not broken and I will never think he is. And since we are being open and honest... I have been struggling myself with my feelings and thoughts the past few days about Xaden... I thought I did something wrong or that I pushed too much or I'm doing enough to be there for him or that I am not being as supportive like I should.... and that's no one's fault but my own... I just wear my heart/emotions on my sleeve so I guess it's hard not for me to take things personal and that's something I'll have to work on. I am beyond proud of Xaden for reaching out and getting the help he needs. I've always been proud of him. That goes for hockey and anything else he decides or wants to do. This one incident isn't going to change my mind about him and isn't unfixable. Again I love you all and him. We are all going to get through this together🤍 -Ella