#rotnichor

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          “ you are not so special in the end. ”

@rotnichor / “man like that” gin wigmore

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          ❛ i wondered if our paths will cross again . . . and so it has. ❜ ╳  @rotnichor

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Do I Follow Them?: I DO. Heck I’d follow Cade TWICE. 

Why Did I Follow Them?: I’M JUST IN AWE TBH. Cade writes so beautifully I juST -clutches @ my chest- Ardyn is probably one of my  favorite villains at this point and she has him down to a art and i just mMMMMM

Do We Role Play?: Frick yes

Do I Want To Role Play With Them: YES I love to suffer.

An AU Idea For Our Muses: They rescue tiny bby chocobos and nothing hurts again  oR at the other end of the spectrum where EVERYTHING hurts, Ezra’s guardian plops her in Ardyn’s care before he gets starscourge’d and everything’s gr8 for two seconds until he’s corrupted and drags Ez into hell with him because there is no in between in this house :) 

A Song For Our Muses: Let Me Love The Lonely by James Arthur b/c this is basically Ez in that thread tbh

Do I Ship Our Muses?: U KNOW I’M NOT SURE. They’re both pretty unsteady atm, it’ll be interesting to see how they play out in the long run. 

What I Think About The Mun: CADE UR SUPER SWEET AND AWESOME. We haven’t spoken terribly much yet but you’re an absolute delight and I adore having u on my dash on any of ur accounts. 

Overall Opinion: MY LONGEST YEAH BOY EVER. There are few things that make me happier than people that get hyped about their muse and really, truly understand them. I love the depth you’ve given this trash grandpa and I adore reading your threads (especially the ones w/ ammy just fUCK ME UP) You’re def one of the highlights of the ff.xv fandom for me so far and I’m super grateful for you okay <3

Blog Rate: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10++++++++

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headcanon meme -- 32, 36, 46, 48.

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32. THOUGHTS  ON  MATERIAL  POSSESSIONS  IN  GENERAL? :

As a child she had everything. Her parents lavished gifts on she and her sister. Toys, books, games, anything to keep their children quiet and out of their hair, anything to SHUT THEM UP. & Then she had nothing, everything was a luxury. Bouncing from home to home and treated like she was a parasite ( ‘you should be GRATEFUL to be here, what better a gift than the ROOF OVER YOUR HEAD.’ ) Then she had even less, living on the street with her sister where food was scarce and her possessions were nearly nonexistent. Then she had everything once more, adopted by the very family that had driven her own out of the country, terrified that it would all be taken away again at the drop of a hat.

She doesn’t think much of material possessions, they can be taken so easily putting any value on them feels useless. Are they NICE? Absolutely! But they aren’t necessary. Ezra has learned exactly what she can live without.

36. WHAT  MAKES  THEM  FEEL  GUILTY? :

Honestly it doesn’t take much to make this one feel guilty. You could bring up a time were she was MEAN to someone as a child and she’d stew over it. She’s INCREDIBLY hard on herself  and struggles with self-doubt. She feels guilty that her sister had to fight so hard to take care of her growing up. She feels guilty that Anya was so worries when she was captured. Because her sister forfeit important information that would further her fathers reach across crime syndicates, she carries the weight of all those who were harmed in his grab for power. 

THAT’S ALL BEFORE HER ASCENSION, as a celestial, her guilt is almost insurmountable, made only a fraction easier by the coming of Christ. The fall of Eden onward she feels responsible for the depths in which humanity has sunk. Her own corruption and greed over centuries, the wicked things she has done in lifetimes. There is a LOT of guilt there.

46.  DO  THEY  EXPRESS  THEIR  THOUGHTS  THROUGH  WORDS  OR  DEEDS? :

I’d say a mixture of both with heavy emphasis on WORDS. She’s a very verbal person, she’s super chatty and takes pleasure in communicating with people ( one of the reasons she actually LIKES working at a diner ) Bouncing ideas off of people, telling stories, she likes to talk and will babble forever on certain topics. There are occasions when she’s incapable of expressing herself in such a manner though, usually when she’s feeling low. 

48.  HOW  DO  THEY  EXPRESS  LOVE? :

Ez honestly tries to express it in EVERYTHING she does, whether it be a cheerful smile at a stranger, an free cup of coffee for a diner patron, or a quick sketch of a classmate. HUGS are still her favorite, however wary she is of people. If she can get her arms around you she’ll try to best to make damn sure its the BEST hug you ever get and you walk away feeling a little less heavy-hearted. Second best is kind, encouraging words. If she can say something that will make you smile, she will do so. Little things like holding open doors, not because its a common courtesy, but hey maybe it’ll make their day a lil easier, maybe it’ll be the nicest thing someone has done for them that day. 

Is she ALWAYS like that? Not a chance, she’s still human and she has her bad days, but she tries super hard because THAT is the type of person she wants to be.

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rotnichor replied to your post: ‘ weeping is for gods & martyrs, we cannot...

you said vague angst – did you mean PAINFUL INSTEAD

pain?? there’s no pain here what are we crying about---