Feb 28, 2016
Lara
Goddamnit I need Lara. The only person I feel who could truly make me feel better about this whole bullshit (haha I wrote ‘hole’ and then my mind went off on a tangent about what the hole bullshit could possibly be about) and you are probably the only person I can’t talk to. Because we aren’t friends anymore. Because you are a ghosting, rotten, unfeeling bitch. I have never needed anyone as much as I have needed you in the past year. There are only two people who ever knew the depths of my worst darkness and the other one is my ex so talking about this stuff makes him feel guilty. But damn it. I need you, Lara. Why the fuck did you have to do the things you did? Or rather the things you didn’t?