#routevenus

[kawaii-shoujo-anime-palace]

also one of my favorite musical scenes from #sailormoon, in #sailorstars (Season 5 Ep.192) Minako sings #routevenus! : ) Always Loved this song & episode! : ) #sailorvenus #minakoaino

[most-of-me]

Clocks and the Mice That Run Up Them

I’ve deleted Grindr, Scruff and Growler from my phone…again. I kept OkCupid because, why not. I think it was a Buzzfeed(?) article I read a few weeks ago, about how disturbing we’d find online communication if it was real life. This random dude who probably lives either right in top or right below me messages me saying “So close.” Is there an appropriate response to that besides, “Yes, we are very close.” Then a demand for private pics after a non-solicited picture of his dick, and I was pretty much done. I politely said I was getting ready for work, closed the ap, tried to shower away the “interaction”, which like unsatisfying random sex, leaves its tiny piece of emptiness behind. I decided that if a rando dude in a club stood next to me, remarked how close we were and pulled out his dick, I wouldn’t be particularly pleased, so why settle for the electronic version of that?

I found myself asking what I want and what I deserve, two questions I very rarely ask myself. I came to the conclusion that I, as my dear Alice would say, want a connection. I am a pretty interesting person, if I must say so myself, I want someone who sees that, and accepts the challenge of dealing with some of my less appealing psychological issues that trickle into the physical. I in turn would do the same. Added bonus if they’ll dress up as Tuxedo Mask for me on Halloween, and are an active challenge in mortal kombat.

Wanting isn’t selfish, although it leads to settling quite often. At this point, with a major life change happening in around 90 days, the only thing I’m really open to is, maybe a whirlwind two week love affair. My Chicago chapter wasn’t exactly filled with romantic intrigue, so I guess even a long kiss goodnight with someone I barely know but wish I had all the time in the world to discover would do.

Not too much to ask, right?