#rows rants..

[mattsslvtt]

Ok so hi guys I know i literally said not too long ago that I'd post a fic 'soon' but I dont think that will happen, I write for fun, not to post, I write when I WANT to write and unfortunately I dont want to write very often, I struggle with coming up with ideas for fics and thats a big part of why I dont write a ton, I also dont feel like I can portray what I want too say alot of the time so I just dont write it. Along with that, im currently behind on school so I have to do twice as much work as the regular student, im also in the very grueling process of moving so I am very busy, im so sorry for saying I would write soon when in fact I did not know if I actually would or not, I of course, will continue posting fics when I feel like it as ive been doing, and im NOT AT ALL quitting, I just wanted to apologize because I know I write far less often than a majority of the writers on here 😭 I love you all so so much and thank you for being patient with me!! <3

[mattsslvtt]

ok guys lemme rant rq

so basically this girl Ky (not her actual name lol) and i have been friends since we were literal babies because our mom's were best friends, so we kinda grew up together, but when we were like 10–11 we had like a falling out thing where we didnt talk for years and like about 2 years ago we got back like in contact and became friends again, and while being friends we both like got feelings for eachother and dated for a bit, it only didnt work because I had feelings for someone else at the time so we like broke up obvi, but like a few months later we got back together and dated for like 2 weeks and we broke up cus she had to move away and so we didnt think it would work, but basically after that break up we like stopped talking for a few months but recently, like 2 or 3 months ago, we got back in contact again because she literally lives DOWN THE ROAD from me, and so basically I have like really strong feelings for her, and I dont think I ever REALLY stopped having feelings for her tbh, but she has a boyfriend right now so like im just waiting for her but like its highkey eating me alive cus im so jealous of her boyfriend and its just ruining me I cant lie 😭 and I keep avoiding hanging out with her cus I feel guilty for crushing on her, but like idk what to do cus Im obviously not gonna be a home wrecker but waiting is exhausting asf 💔 and even if she was single I fumbled her so bad so idk if shes ever gonna like me like that again..