#roxyfictive

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We hate this fandom and we hate the creator but homestuck kins... You're at least somewhat okay. — Dirk + Roxy (tag as fictives)

[fictionkinfessions]

i’m actually bawling right now we spilt glamrock freddy, monty, glam foxy, and glam bonnie.

im so fucking happy my friends are here, they are HERE they are with me i missed them so much.

- #🏎️🏜 #roxy fictive

( btw I’m changing my sign off this is 🪞🐺 )

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[fictionkinfessions]

i resonate with the song Spoken For by FLAVOR FOLEY so much

i was never really in control of how i was presented to the public, nothing i said to children or their parents were actually my words. i often paint the pizza plex as a happy place, a fun place, a place where things were good, it really wasn’t, not much of my “ life “ was controlled by me. but i guess it was better then the alternative *cough cough* ruin

- #🪞🐺 #roxy fictive

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i don’t like to talk about the ruin part of my “life” because it was really miserable and painful but i can’t always block it out i guess. it’s a really weird experience to have phantom pain from something that never happened, i don’t know if other experience it but it’s one of the strangest parts of my identity.

i really want to play ruin but i genuinely get sick to my stomach, i hate that part of my “life”. im so homesick i miss monty, and cassie, and freddy as weird as he was, I’m happy at least i have chica, i love her so much i don’t know what i would do without her.

- #🪞🐺 #roxy fictive

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i know it’s kind of a sucky thing to hope for, but i really hope that my friends miss and morn my absence as much as i do for them. i hate to hope for it but i really hope that they are as miserable as me. i have to think that they miss my as much because otherwise im just a pathetic loser.

-#🪞🐺 #roxy fictive

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i miss home so much, if i can even call it a home. I mean yes i had friends, and a schedule, things to do, photos to take, kids to talk to, but it was all rather repetitive.. sometimes it feels like my “life” was more of a curse than a blessing. I mean my whole existence was created to cover up the murder of CHILDREN, the same children I would perform for, the same children that looked up to me, the same children that had no idea I was a cover up.

I feel rather guilty for just existing, something I didn’t even decide to do, and that things I did decide to do were bad enough so I don’t really need to add that on top.

I know logically that it wasn’t my fault, I know that I didn’t mean to do those things, it was simply an error, a virus, an issue, and it shouldn’t have been at my hands to feel like I had to fix it, because I couldn’t fix it, there is no way I could’ve fixed it, I guess that’s just one of the issues with being AI, my consciousness is at the hands of someone else.

I really wish cassie would’ve come and put me out of my misery sooner. cassie was about the only kid I enjoyed being around, and she had to see me like that, disheveled, angry, ugly.

i wish i couldn’t remember, I really really wish that I couldn’t remember, but i can remember everything, and it sucks

-#roxy fictive #🪞🐺

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