#royally rixi

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Ppl tries to flirt with me thru txt but I just am dumb And give irrelevant response Unconventional answers Or Poop emojis

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"Bromeo, oh Bromeo. Are we still no homeo?"

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You can tell that you really like someone when you notice how often you're searching for their face in the crowd.

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Not to sound jealous but...

NOPE FUCK THAT. I'M A JEALOUS SON OF A BITCH. I'LL ENVY WHAT I WANNA ENVY. THE THIRST CAN'T BE QUENCHED.

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I’ve twisted my ankle about 3-4 times had to face insects several times and gotten lost in my own hometown several times

the only time i’ve cried from physical pain was when a volleyball meteored on my head and literally knocked the tears out of my eyes

and i will kind of easily cry at sentimental stories even if..

but i guess generally I don’t cry easily? (ah but when im super angry i do that.) no wait, i have some level of social anxiety too...

anyways, when i have to think about my emotions or share my problems that’s when i cant control it

haha then i laugh at myself for being pathetic which i then think more about realizing how fucked up that is and i am which in turn makes me cry more cuz I have to think more about my emotion and issues and then my reaction to offset all this sadness and turmoil is to simply laugh more which isn’t actually the answer?? so it kind is a bad spiral at times and i’m convinced im a certain degree of crazy

lik... that’s kind of weird/disturbing right?.. my self-deprecation is too strong that and my usual humorous demeanor are clashing for dominance its like both Hi & Lo of emotions at the same time

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ive been commissioned to render some panels for her new book

and she’s been using my old panels i drew back in high school, except the speech bubbles change

and she also uses her prior illustration she hired someone to do, which my drawings attempted to replicate with NO reference sheet

and now she wants me to draw some new ones in the same style

but like IM not a pro, so i can’t ever rly Replicate a style

and its like

WHAT DO I DRAW WORSE?? *tries to imitate old shitty style imitating first style but in new style with better drawing knowledge*

whut a life

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Last night I got a bit drunk. Sometime around 2, a while after my friend left I went to bed to get rdy to sleep But I ended up feeling extremely sad and started crying and laughing and not knowing why. I don't even know what set me off. Like yeah, I've been in a generally depressed mood as of late cuz that's what happens when I think about being alone. But I do well lik 2 days after and just live life. But yeah, I must've sounded hysterical just laughing and crying on and off for maybe an hour or less I still played Unison League tho lol Anyways, I woke up this morning feeling kinda gross and realized my period started. Drunk pms lol Glad I was alone I usually get too .. dramatic and make ppl worried if they see me in that state. It was a solid cry over nothing, at least nothing I can figure out.

[rixikun]

What are ya lin? An emotional wreck ahahahaha!