You know what, fuck it. Sent privately already but.. I know I’ve been talking to a lot of more moderate people lately. I don’t want to torpedo that connection but at the same time I hate myself that I wanted to sit on what I believe to be the Truth.
That isn’t what I came here for.
This is.
I just found out that my biological father was red. I'm not usually that pollution sensitive, but I know I'm spreading filth everywhere I go and I can't stand it. I stopped touching people for a while, but my friend noticed and I couldn't explain. I've thought of turning myself in before I get caught, but my brother's hypersensitive, he can't go to a red district, and my sister's expecting a kid, and...I don't know what to do, I feel like someone'll find out any second and I'm freaking out.
It’s not real. You aren’t any different. You are the same person you always were and you’re not any less clean than you always were.
It didn’t do anything to people when you touched them before you knew and it doesn’t do anything when you touch them now.
This kind of pollution is imaginary.
If people don’t know something is this kind of polluted, it doesn’t hurt them. They don’t even notice.
If people don’t believe in this kind of pollution, it doesn’t hurt them. They don’t even notice.
If you carry on as normal and don’t tell anybody, nothing has to change and you won’t be doing a bad thing. You will be keeping people safe from a lie that will hurt them if and only if they believe in it.
You do need to be very careful that nobody finds out about your father. But they won’t somehow figure out that you are polluted, because you are not. There is nothing different about you in that way.
Hereditary pollution is a lie.
You are not polluted. You are fine. They could take you into a laboratory and test every cell in your body and nowhere would they find ‘hereditary pollution’.
It’s something that only exists in peoples’ minds, and if we stop believing in it, or we don’t know about it, it literally does not exist.
It will be difficult for you to believe this, but you have to. You have to believe it because it is the truth, but also because it will save you.
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