Gabriella had been pacing for at least ten minutes. The snow fell gently outside the window, casting silver patterns across the wooden floor. Inside, the house glowed softly with the warmth of the fire and the twinkling lights woven through garlands and wreaths. The scent of pine and cinnamon lingered in the air, and the faint sound of carols hummed from a radio tucked in the corner. But the witch could barely hear it. She stopped mid-step, then turned, then stopped again. Her freckled countenance was tinged pink; not from the cold, but from the words caught behind her teeth.
In her hands, she held a small, wrapped box, simple, neat, tied with a ribbon that definitely took her three tries to get right. She stared down at it, chewing her lower lip, then huffed and turned on her heel. She found Rubina nearby, bathed in the gentle glow of the fireplace. Gabriella took a deep breath, squared her shoulders… and then the words came tumbling out before she could stop them. "Hey, so, I know it’s Christmas and I already got you a gift and yes, it’s the one in the silver wrapping with the nice corners, don’t act like you don’t know it’s from me but there’s actually something else I wanted to ask you."
She took a step closer, then another, until she was right in front of her. Hazel hues met hers, and her voice softened. "I’ve been thinking a lot about us lately. About how we got here. About the hunts, the chaos, the nights by the fire. And how, no matter where I go or what I do, you’re the one thing I keep coming back to." She looked down at the box in her hands, then offered it out. "And I guess what I’m trying to say is…" Her smile wavered, but her voice didn’t. "This Christmas, what I really want is more time with you. More mornings. More evenings. More stolen pies and burnt dinners and warm beds and laughter. I want to keep building this: whatever we’ve got, until it’s something we couldn’t tear down if we tried."
She shrugged, suddenly sheepish. “So… I guess I’m asking if you’ll keep doing this whole life thing with me. Next year, and the year after, and however many we’re lucky enough to get.” Then, softer: "Will you be my always, Rubina? Merry Christmas."
Where Gabrielle was deeply considering her words and the extra gift she had prepared, Rubina was concerning herself with more... pressing matters, reading the many letters she had received both yesterday and today.
Urgent: Increases in pelagic Pokémon migrations towards foreign regions.
Unusual Pokémon activity reported outside Venalos. Investigate ASAP.
Evidence found pointing towards illegal exporting of endemic Pokémon and commodities.
Wild Elder Dragons are on the move. Something, or someone, is making them very angry.
Rubina may have appeared laid-back, completely unbothered, seated on her favourite couch before the fireplace and bathed in the dancing flame's warming glow, but that was only because she had become such an expert at masking her emotions. Stone-faced, the only evidence to indicate her mood was a drawn-out exhale through her nose that could easily have been mistaken for a content and cozy sigh.
She already long sensed her darling lover approaching before she came into field-of-view -- it was nigh impossible to get the jump on Rubina -- so she committed the information to memory before feigning half-heartedness as she folded the reports into one big envelope and set them aside. No need to concern Gabriella with matters above her pay grade, after all. Rubina gave a soft smile as she turned her head to her beloved, quite expertly acting as though everything was good in the world.
Surely not even Gabriella, even with her flawless perception, would be able to know what was going through Rubina's mind.
Then the words came pouring out, and Rubina had to make a conscious effort to keep her warm smile from turning into an amused snicker, lest she made Gabriella pout and would never hear the end of it. She almost could not help it; her diminutive lover was simply too precious, too lovable. Yet Gabriella's words were heartfelt and genuine, and it would not feel right, be right, to make light of them. So she let Gabriella talk and reaffirm her love and devotion for her, and their shared desire to always love together and laugh together and be together.
Wordlessly Rubina accepted the gift yet still set it aside, instead opting to reach out with both hands and pull Gabriella onto her lap. Rubina was warm, very warm, like a comforting blanket or an oversized stuffed toy. Through half-lidded eyes she gazed deeply into Gabriella's own, soothing hazel hues meeting with striking ruby reds. Again she exhaled through her nose, this time genuinely content.
"If I didn't know any better, I'd be thinkin' you're about to marry me," Rubina teased, before moving in to kiss Gabriella's forehead. "You know well enough that my answer's always gonna be 'yes', don't you? Come Hell or high water, there ain't nowhere I'd rather be than with you."
Rubina's smile dropped abruptly. She broke eye-contact to instead gaze into the fire, a sense of melancholy washing over her without warning nor reason.
"I'm not sure if I told you this before, but... I was a widow before meetin' you. Was married to one Hell of a woman, who gave me my precious Adamantia. Lemme tell ya, you would've loved her as much as I did. What a trio we could've made."
She gave a single chuckle, though there was a pained mirth behind it that even she could not hide.
"I... did some bad things after she died. Unforgivable things. Tryin' to move on, I rolled in the hay with many other women... so to speak. Got most of 'em pregnant, I reckon, then ran like a coward every single damn time after my mind started yellin' at me that I was basically cheatin' on my sweetheart."
Rubina was quiet after that. Only the crackling of the fireplace filled the silence, as well as the shifting of fabrics and furs as her five eavesdropping Felynes shared uncertain glances, unable to believe that she was finally opening up about that specific, shameful chapter of her life. A minute that felt like an eternity passed before she heaved another sigh, this one filled with a weariness that held on for many, many years.
"It didn't stop 'til Rex put his foot down and told me to stop messin' around. Then we got into a fight. A big fight. Rosalind took his side, then my other 'mon, and they all gave me a proper whuppin'. Can't say I didn't have it comin', of course..." She shook her head. "That all was, what, ten, fifteen years ago? I'm not sure why I'm tellin' you this. It just... feels right. Like I owe you an explanation."
She forced herself to look Gabriella in the eye again. Really forced herself to, even when it was obvious that this normally imposing and extremely confident woman wanted to do anything but. The smile that followed was not as forced, but there was still pain. Uncertainty.
"Point is... I don't wanna run away again. You've been good to me, Gabby, mighty good, to the point that part o' me thinks you deserve better than li'l ol' me. Sure, that's the demon in me talkin, but--" she cleared her throat, feeling a sudden tightness "--I still wanna make right by you, and that starts by tellin' you the truth. To stop keepin' secrets from you."
Rubina felt the irony in that statement like a physical sting, considering she was withholding information regarding the reports she read just before this conversation. Still, she would keep it to herself for now.
"I ain't perfect. Never have been and never will be, though Stars know I'm tryin'. Even then, I'll always be here for you. Come Hell or high water--" she cleared her throat again, now feeling her eyes sting as her vision blurred "--I'll always love you and be there for you no matter what."
She could no longer bear to look at her lover for much longer, turning her head away and rubbing her eyes before she could shed any tears.
"I'm sorry, Gabby, you shouldn't have seen me like this... Heh... Ugh..."
Rubina continued to rub at her eyes with little effect. Her eyes remained moist and laden with tears. However, in the end it did not matter; though the memories still throbbed like a fresh injury and the past still haunted to this day, they were still together. Still covering her eyes, still rubbing them in circular motions, Rubina pressed her head against Gabriella's, some part of herself praying the other would not pull away even when the newly revealed knowledge of infidelity and unprocessed trauma gave her good reason to.
In reality there should be no shame in admitting to one's past failures, especially when one desired to change for the better, yet shame clung to her with mile-long talons that dug deep into her very core, unshakable, made her feel pathetic and like the very scum of the world. Rubina had learned her painful lesson, indeed, and now desperately clung to the very idea of Gabriella and her forgiveness like a person held on to a raft in a howling storm at sea. She could not and would never blame Gabriella if the latter decided that this was too much to accept and abandoned Rubina the same way Rubina abandoned all the past women whom she once loved and who loved her in turn, and yet...
The five Felyne chefs would slink away, into the kitchen, to prepare something warm and sweet and comforting. Perhaps hot chocolate with plenty of cream and cinnamon (and perhaps a lot of alcohol) will do them all some good.










