#rubyofthesea

[evienchantress]

Some Rubies💎❤️ #dnd #dnd5e #criticalrolefanart #CriticalRole #RubyoftheSea https://www.instagram.com/p/CGLdFa-jOtY/?igshid=1pvaa4liojqv

[aqenta]

“AGORAPHOBIA”, a study based on the painting “Kissing Cupid,” for The Saturday Evening Post, by J.C. Leyendecker.

I know this is probably a harsh Mother’s Day tribute to a lot of people, so I hope everyone will give me a chance to explain my conflicted feelings on Jester and the relationship with her mother. Critical Role is very therapeutic for many people in many ways, myself included.

My mother suffered from depression and very intense anxiety for as long as I can remember. As a child, of course, I didn’t have any concept of mental health. I just knew mom took pills sometimes.

I say ‘sometimes’ because she didn’t always have her pills. Money was tight in our household, and my mother, as far as I know, was never able to afford health insurance for the both of us – only for me.

She always made sure I went to the doctor, while at the same time, struggled to be able to pay for her own medication. There were large periods of time as a child where I remember thinking of her as lazy because she was unable to get or hold down a job.

For a long time we lived on government assistance and sporadic child support payments from my dad. She was often drunk during these periods, and on several occasions, it even threatened her life. I never knew how to help her, or how to -deal- with her.

Her anxiety and paranoia were the worst parts of her mental illness. Not only would she not go out of the house (save to drive me to school), she also began imposing her anxiety onto me. Everyone was out to get us. She obsessed over what I did, and who I was seeing/out with.

I wasn’t allowed to see friends, or do anything without a chaperone. She stalked what I did online (as I naturally became more introverted, most of my friends became online friends), even going so far as to harass people she didn’t like for perceived slights/danger.

An adult now, I think often about the kind of person I am, and the kind of child that I was. How my mother’s anxiety groomed me, in a sense, into being a certain way. I loved my mom. So much. It was just us for a very long time, and she was my best friend.

Jester and her mother's relationship reminds me, in so many ways, of what I went through growing up, albeit in a slightly different way. Seeing Matt and Laura roleplay these two characters is both a gift, and incredibly frustrating at the same time.

Every sending, you can feel the genuine warmth that Marion feels each time her wayward daughter contacts her, every time she finds out that she’s still alright, somewhere out there in the big, scary world that she fears. I love that, so, so much.

But at the same time, I’m desperate for her to get the closure that I couldn’t. To ask, “Why did you do this to me? Why did you keep me inside? Why did you leave me alone?”

I feel like there has to be so much pent up emotion in Jester, so much that she never had a chance to get out, because she felt scared of making her mother dislike her. Of pushing her away more. Of losing her love, and her attention.

This is the sort of thing I hope to see from the characters in the future. I want to see not only Jester’s love for her mother, but her resentment as well. Her anger, her pain. But more than that, I want them to get through it together, and come out stronger on the other side.

Today, I experience a lot of the same symptoms that my mother had regarding her depression and anxiety. I understand her a lot better now than I ever did, and yet, there are so many questions that I wish I could ask her.

My recommendation today, Mother’s Day, is that you not only spend time with the mothers in your life, but also don’t be afraid. Don’t be afraid to leave an abusive family relationship, if you’re in one. Don’t be afraid to reach out if there’s been a falling out.

Don’t be afraid to talk to your mom (or any parent/guardian) about things that have been done or said that have hurt you. Don’t be afraid to call them out. And don’t be afraid to forgive.

We’re only on this rock floating in space for a short time. And you never know when something might take the people you care about away, either expectedly, or unexpectedly.

Anyway, sorry for the novel! I sincerely hope that everyone has a warm and bright Mother’s Day.

[natashagalyaart]

Marion Lavorre the Ruby of the Sea.

[blacktigerlilly]

A sailor and his one true love, (the ruby of) the sea.

(Inspired by The Kissing Sailor statue/photo)

[verasartblog]

Inktober 21: TREASURE The Ruby and the Sapphire #treasure #criticalrole #criticalrolefanart #rubyofthesea #Inktober #Inktober2019 #inktoberday21 #jester #jesterlavorre #mightynein #themightynein #artistsoninstagram #womenofillustration https://www.instagram.com/p/B35DsNMgtcG/?igshid=10k0b07pdk40k

[penelopebarbalios]

"My little Sapphire!🥰" 💙❤️💙❤️💙❤️💙 One of my very 1st #criticalrole fanart pieces I made of the #RubyoftheSea holding her most precious gem, #Jester 💙 . . . I know it's taken me forever, but I've finally made small 4x6 prints availible in my etsy shop! You can get yours here: http://tiny.cc/7s65gz (link is in my Bio) . [Shop will Close Dec 14th & Re-Open Jan 1st] ✔️20% OFF now through Dec 14th ✔️Free Shipping on all Orders with THESE ITEMS ✔️FREE GIFTS with ALL ORDERS!! . . . #criticalrole #criticalrolefanart #mightynein #jesterfanart #therubyofthesea #Jester #JesterLavore #Tiefling #dungeonsanddragons #dnd #mothers #motherandchild #motherhood #baby #babies #scifiart #fantasyart https://www.instagram.com/p/B5lfOukDiuL/?igshid=16nxb38tx6bx1

[criticalrolecosplay]

Ruby of the Sea #cosplay by @badgerofblue Photo by @theportraitdude . #rubyofthesea #marionlavorre #criticalrole #criticalrolecosplay #themightynein https://www.instagram.com/p/Bx9jFZujljG/?igshid=1xz1hdcy3ytsp

[possumproblem]

Jester's mom has got it going on #criticalrole #dungeonsanddragons #dnd #tiefling #rubyofthesea #marionlavorre #fanart #art #drawing #digitalart https://www.instagram.com/p/BswqxNOhjDG/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=8tuwaz664ejm