#rucha rambles

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i hate job hunting so much someone skewer me please

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the idea that jess grows up to become part owner of an indie publishing house just makes so much sense cause that’s exactly what he does since the moment we meet him. he reads books at an unrelenting pace, multiple books at the same time, and he has so many thoughts that get left in the margins. more than that, he goes beyond what’s on the page and understands the literature from its context. even when it comes to music, he’s adamantly against the mainstream. he listens to the music that gets ignored, that is kept underground. maybe it’s psychological, what with him being largely neglected his whole life, but he spends pretty much all his time listening to and reading the stuff that gets swept aside. so the idea that he makes a career out of publishing books for indie authors and boosting indie artists just makes so much sense.

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the pipeline from 'i gotta get over 90% or i'm worthless' to 'please just let me pass this class' is a harrowing onw

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life update: got a new ear piercing and it looks gorgeous

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it's finals week and i have oc brainrot and zero time to write fics so instead i'm gonna do a masterpost of things i come up with while studying.

derek, piper, and spencer have big 'oldest child, middle child, youngest child' energy where derek will tell piper to make sure spencer doesn't do something stupid (like take off his vest and confront an unsub) and then piper will do something stupid (like confront the unsub unarmed)

emily, penelope, and piper bring a very emo, goth, punk vibe to the table that make people uncomfortable, especially during halloween parties where they agree to come as witches. emily has a very haunted evanescence vibe, penelope goes full goth, and piper's gone full punk with piercings and earrings and metal rings.

putting rossi and piper in a kitchen together is a huge mistake. he's a purist, she's a perfectionist, and the only time they cooperate is to tell emily and spencer to get away from the knives.

piper and jack are huge thrill seekers. she teaches him to rock-climb and dive into pools and when he's still 5-7 years old, he comes with hotch and piper on their saturday morning runs with a scooter to motivate them. for his 12th birthday, piper buys him a skateboard and shoulder/knee pads and a helmet and teaches him how to skate.

piper and hotch have a very similar sense of humour, and a couple years into the job, they only have to look at each other with barely noticeable smirks.

after gideon leaves, piper notices how arson cases/cases involving children affect hotch just that little bit more than the rest of them and she offers to take the lead in interviewing victims/taking down unsubs

despite being relatively new to the team, hotch puts an immense amount of trust in piper when she wants to follow a tangent, even if it'll get him in trouble with strauss.

piper and derek are both defensive instructors at the academy, and they both have very different teaching styles. derek's a little more instructional, like teaching them to paddle before they start swimming. piper throws her students in the deep end, she's a lot tougher on them, and she doesn't hold back as much when they're sparring with her. the students definitely prefer derek as an instructor, but piper's students always seem to perform a little bit better than his ones.

piper and spencer both teach psych 101 classes at the academy, and while they're very good separately, when they're teaching together, the class is jam-packed. students who aren't even taking the class show up because it. gets. heated. spencer's got a very textbook straightforward teaching style, piper's is experiential-based case study style teaching, and they butt heads. a lot.

rossi asks piper to beta-read his books for her perspective and when he gets them back, she's given him more edits than the editor he actually has.

piper's journals every case, good or bad, and keeps an eye on every criminal they've arrested -- making sure they're being treated appropriately, whether they're getting the help they need etc.

henry and piper have a big parallel play vibe where they don't talk much, but he'll sit beside her and draw with his crayons while piper works on her caseload and they'll both sip from their mugs -- his drink of choice is orange juice (extra pulpy) and hers is tea.

piper takes extra effort to make sure the bau spouses (haley, will, savannah, kristy etc.) all feel as included as possible because she knows how exclusionary it can feel. she'll take the time to find out what their favourite foods are, and if they're doing a whole cook-out thing, she'll make the kind of food they like.

technically, penelope and spencer are the go-to god-parents, but piper's always in the background, making sure the kids are going to bed on time, that they're eating their veggies, that they've got their coats on if it's cold outside, and derek knows. so when he has hank, he asks piper to be the godmother, because there's no-one he trusts more to be a good parent.

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there’s definitely a pattern in the way spencer gets angry at jj after emily’s resurrection by saying ‘what if i’d taken dilaudid again? would you have let me?’ and spencer trying to get his mom to stop smoking as a kid by telling her that ‘it was 6 minutes less he got to spend with her’. like it’s just the way spencer expresses his feelings and experiences constantly as the subject of other people’s whims and actions. just how powerless he was a child to his surroundings and the way it carries over in his adulthood is fascinating. but also the fact that he remains powerless in other major life events too. like with gideon leaving and hankel giving him dilaudid and haley dying and emily dying. AND THEN i think his trauma response to emily’s death is so fascinating, i’m disappointed they didn’t go further with it but they just make the smallest reference that he’s always at the shooting range after which reads to me like him trying to take power back in his life, only for jj and hotch to reveal, inadvertently, that surprise, you never had any power anyway.

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thinking about penelope’s voice message that emily listens to after she leaves the team in ‘lauren’ and flares by the script and “you're in the darkness all alone and no one cares, there's no one there” and “did you see the sparks filled with hope? you are not alone ‘cause someone's out there, sending out flares” and i’m gonna go insane on this thursday night

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‘aggression’ doesn’t need that many g’s :(