#rukatalks

[rukafais]

FJKSHGHSGKH I’M LAUGHING SOMEONE WHO TREATED ME BADLY IS TRYING TO TALK SHIT ABOUT ME

like sure, you were aware of my issues and you basically just used them against me and expected me to agree with you 100% all the time and patronised me and apparently didn’t see me as a human being, just some kind of sad monster that needed to be treated delicately and redeemed

go ahead, if you want

it just means your apologies mean fucking nothing, you piece of garbage. how the fuck did you ever expect me to trust you lol

[rukafais]

sometimes i still think about the people who basically stomped all over me and tried to paint me as The Worst Person bc i had a disagreement with them but acted all nice and civil to my face

i’m beginning not to trust the words ‘i hope you have a good life’ because everyone who has ever said that to me has then gone on to try and demonise the shit outta me lol ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[rukafais]

the kirby series was probably one of the biggest influences on my life gaming-wise honestly and i’ve met a lot of people (and lately, a lot of friends) through that

thank you for everything, mr iwata, you’ve done so much for everyone

rest in peace

[rukafais]

takin painkillers before i even think about eating, the ruka life

[rukafais]

me when im tired

brain: how long of a nap do u want

me: just fuck me up

[rukafais]

i think i'm good at writing nonhuman experiences in a human body because i too get mildly weirded out by the fact that sometimes i can stand up too fast and then i'll feel immediately like i need to lie down again because i can literally feel my heartbeat in my skull.

[rukafais]

what it's kind of like having bpd:

it's like someone's playing wheel of fortune with your emotions but they never announce when they're going to spin the wheel, you have no idea what emotion it's going to land on, and you have no idea how long it will take before the wheel starts spinning again

the prize is being suddenly punched in the face by your brain as it forcefeeds you whatever emotion the wheel landed on 

also, everything is on fire

[rukafais]

I'm glad to have made such an impression on this person's life yall

rukafucker's got a nice ring to it