#runxongasoline

[bcwandarrowxxxxxx]

✿ ( jace )

[text to jace: unsent]: i don’t know how else to tell you this, so text seemed like the safest option. it’s cowardly but maybe i’m not as brave as everyone makes me out to be. i know you’re my parabatai and it’s wrong but i’m in love with you- i have been for years. i’ve always been too scared to tell you.

[text to jace: unsent]: i’m sorry i’ve been acting like an ass, i’ll try with her. sort of? i’ll look out for her okay? i’m just trying to go through some stuff and it’s confusing me. and seeing you with her it just doesn’t help. 

[text to jace: unsent]: i risk my ass off for you and your crazy plans time after time, would it kill you to do things my way? just once. why can’t you do me a favour and just listen? or try and follow the damn rules. they’re there for a reason. 

[text to jace: unsent]: i’m tired of all the arguing. i’m getting married and i’m so confused and i have no idea what i’m doing, even though i always pretend like i do. and i need you here jace. i need us to be on the same side again. fuck. how did things get so messed up? and i know you’re wroking through shit too and i want you to talk to me again. i hate not talking to you.

[text to jace: unsent]: with you gone and mom and dad now hating me and my decisions, the clave riding up my ass. i feel like i’m slowly losing everyone and i don’t know how to handle it. we never get things right do we? we just work it out and then things go and fuck up all over again. remember when we were thirteen and we used to bet who could climb to the top of the tree the fasted and then we’d always argue over who won? mom and dad would yell at us for goofing off and wasting training time. but right then, there was nothing else in the world that mattered. it was just me and you. brothers, parabatai. wouldn’t you give anything just to go back to that place, that time? 

[text to jace]: i’m sorry for being a dick when i saw you. like izzy said, i’ve got a switch that’s always on and i reacted the wrong way. i know you did what you did to protect us. i just felt so out of control when you were gone and we had no way of knowing if you were okay. it’s the protective brother in me. sorry. @herondalcc

[irredcemables]

✞ ( katherine + pls bring me kaitherine let them make hell grace nyc )

meme: btvs quotes. accepting.

    “Feel like a bit of the rough and tumble?”

[badlnfluence]

@runxongasoline 12 hrs later than expected

          “occupied,” esme says as the door to the public bathroom door opens ( the lock was broken, she’s not dumb ), her voice unnaturally steady for someone who’s been crying and still is. there’s no real reason behind it, it’s just a weepy spell -- ever since she’s been away from home, there’s no need to be upset, but the fact she can’t pop lorazepam like candy now that she’s in the states is an issue. she’s been substituting with other drugs, but they’re expensive. at first, she rushes to wipe her face with her sleeves, but when she peeks out of the corner of her eye to realize she knows who entered in is no one she needs to impress, she slows down and rolls her eyes. “or you can just burst right in. i guess i’m done in here.” she’d much rather leave with her head down than ask him for a couple more minutes in front of the mirror. in similar fashion to a few months prior, her hands drop to her sides, fingers clutching onto the material of her sweater as she moves forward. “all yours,” she deadpans, eyebrow cocked, “please move.” 

[badlnfluence]

@runxongasoline wanted feels ✌️

         stumbling upon a broken looking miles had to be one of the most sobering things esme could encounter. she wasn’t exactly that drunk to begin with, but finding the boy looking obliterated wasn’t something she expected to see. crouching in front of him, she placed a couple fingers under his chin and lifted it, her eyes scanning his face. “miles. idiot -- what did you take??” she asks, voice harsh, though she’s trying to be gentle, but her nose wrinkles at the smell of alcohol. pot meet kettle -- but he reeks of it. “and how much did you drink?? i’m not carrying you back to your apartment.” she’ll wait until he’s semi-cognizant to ask if he came with someone. 

[ofmagnusbanex]

I DONT KNOW WHAT THAT PART IS OMG

like the whole book is pretty horrible tbf as far as feels and angst and stuff go

but the part im talking about will probs make me more sad than you

[claryfrcyx-blog]

I am here to announce that I am no longer @claustrcphcbic‘s owl, okay? okay.