now there's just a hole where you were wholesome
something is missing
feels like something is gone
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I refuse to believe that anyone could be born hollow. Like original sin, it feels fundamentally wrong and antithetical to humanity. However, it seems as though many people end up as a shell of the person they were, or the person they could have been -- but what use is "could have been"? I think it's more of a "could be, still and until you die, if you choose to try." Maybe no one is irredeemable. More pressingly, maybe everyone does have the potential to self-actualize -- maybe it just takes a different understanding of the term. What if, once one has climbed Maslow's pyramid, the ultimate goal is not the culmination of achievements, but rather to find and carry out the will of the purest light within them? I do not yet know how to conceptualize the self, but I imagine that one must understand all their layers and their influences, and be content or remedy whatever upset, and live according to the force of their spirit.
