Ok promised Agatha and James platonic ramble like I promised because their friendship (or lack thereof) compels me
Its all because of those damned undelivered letters 😔 like yes Grandpa fucked up and gave Agatha some degree of abandonment issues... but the one who made it worse was J
James was the person Agatha needed to hear from the most after the fire. Their grandfather discarded them but J would never do that to them, right? She had been sent away and had no one, and foster care was already a hard enough time as it is, so wanting to hear from him was what kept them going
She even tried writing to him herself to get something, anything from the place they called home. It made them feel like everyone just forgot about them and that they didn't matter, which just worsened their (rather destructive) grief
She eventually forgave J about it, and even learned that J actually DID write to them! But that wound of feeling like they're fundamentally forgettable never healed quite right
Agatha isn't rude/unkind to James by any means! But they ARE keeping him at arms length emotionally in a way that they aren't doing with anyone else
Thank you for coming to my TED Talk
