I know... I don't draw my OCs much, but it doesn't matter! I decided to redraw my old honkai oc, I'll post it soon, it took me over 1 week to draw it ∩( ✧Д✧)∩
A buncha doodles of Ryan I did yesterday evening- whose face is made of paper! His expressions are always drawn on.. He's VERY fun to draw
Original design by HURT1100FF on ToyHouse!
Next up is Ryan! I pretty much left his design alone/didn't change much. All I did was make his wings match his eye color, fiddled with his skin tone a bit, changed his haircut slightly, took the ripping off his jeans, and added a lighter shade around the cuff/bottom of his sweater.
Your body was sore and it didn’t take long after opening your eyes to remember why.
A soft smile spread across your face, but then faltered slightly when you saw that there was nothing next to you but a dipped pillow and ruffled sheets.
Your arm stretched across the bed, your hand running over the spot that Dean was in just a few hours earlier, your fingers tightening and digging into the sheet as you stretched your body out.
Rolling onto your back, memories from earlier that morning flooded your thoughts. The way Dean’s lips felt against yours, and the rest of your body for that matter. The way his hands felt on you and tangled with yours.
If it wasn’t for the lack of clothes and stiffness of your body, you would have sworn you just had a really vivid dream.
Finally pulling yourself out of bed, you saw one of Dean’s shirts tossed on the floor at your feet, so you leaned down and grabbed it, pulling it over your exposed body.
You caught a glimpse of the time before heading for the door, seeing that it was a little after ten. Coffee and food were definitely on your priority list when you got out there.
As you pulled the door open, your smile widened as you were expecting to see Dean out on the couch, or even in the kitchen making food. But that smile fell when you were greeted with an empty and quiet condo.
The smell of coffee drifted through the place which made you happy, but the absence of the six foot Winchester stopped you from enjoying it.
Moving towards the kitchen to fill a cup up with one of your favorite beverages of all time, your eyes caught a note resting on the bar next to the coffee maker, making you slow in your mission.
Of course it was from Dean and it brought you some relief when you saw what he had wrote.
Went to grab some grub. Be back soon. I made coffee!
When you came out to an empty condo, your mind instantly went to the thought that Dean was probably struggling with what happened between you two and took off for a walk or a drive somewhere, but to see that note calmed your nerves a little.
You put on some music to kill the silence of the place. You liked it to a point, but a good cup of coffee and music just sounded perfect.
Listening to one of your favorite songs, you cradled your warm cup between your hands, your head bobbing slightly along with the beat while a smile played on your lips.
You weren’t sure when Dean left, but you were content right now. As long as he got back soon, because your stomach wouldn’t be so forgiving if you went much longer without something other than coffee.
You perked up a little when you heard keys jingle on the other side of the door, and sure enough, seconds later the door popped open revealing Dean on the other side with a few bags in hand.
“Hey.” he smiled at you before kicking the door shut behind him. “Got my note, I see.” he glanced down at your coffee before moving into the kitchen to unpack the food he just got.
“Didn’t really have to read the note to know there was coffee.” he chuckled quietly at that as he continued to pull out the rest of the food.
With your coffee in hand, you got up from the table and moved to the bar, peeking over the counter to see what spread he got.
“What time did you get up?” you asked before pulling the mug back up to your mouth.
“Uh...about nine. I was trying to hurry back before you woke up.”
“You didn’t need to.” Your eyes met for a moment and within those few seconds, you couldn’t breath.
“Well...I got a little bit of everything. I wasn’t sure what you would feel like, so...we got a little buffet going for us this morning.”
“Sounds perfect.” your smile grew, the sound of a variety of different foods making you anxious to dig in, and your stomach agreed completely, being a little less patient than you.
“Great.” Dean’s smile also grew and he didn’t hesitate to reach up into the cupboard and grab two plates and then hand one over to you.
“Ladies first.”
“Ugh....” you fell back against the couch eyeing the food that was still on your plate. “I’m full.” Dean chuckled next to you, wiping his hands on his napkin before taking a sip from his coffee.
While Dean continued to take a few more bites of food in attempt to clean his plate, you let your eyes wander around the condo.
The escape this place has given you for the last four days was something you never thought that you would need.
The heaviness of the news about Ryan and Lisa weighed so much on you before you got up here, and yeah, the first night was rough. But Dean made sure that your entire time wasn’t circling them. He fought to keep your mind off of it, to let you enjoy this mini vacation for just that. A vacation. Not an escape that allowed some friends to spy on your significant others.
But now that the end of the road was quickly approaching, your mind jumped right back to that place. The real reason of why you were up here.
“This is it, huh?” With a piece of bacon in his hand and half of it sticking out of his mouth, Dean looked your way, his expression quickly changing. “Our last night here.” He chewed up the piece in his mouth and dropped the remaining half back on his plate.
“Yeah.” You felt bad for bringing him down, but your mind was just running wild with everything that was coming next.
“I don’t even know what I’m going to say to him.” your eyes glanced at him for a brief moment, quickly seeing that he himself hasn’t thought about any of it either.
“God...” you breathed out, pushing your head further into the head cushion. “How did we get here, Dean?”
“You got me.” he wiped the grease off his hands as best he could on the cheap paper towel and then sat back, becoming parallel with you.
The heaviness in the room seemed to weigh you both down, and your mind was circling around different ways you would bring up the affair to Ryan. But when a heavy sigh from next to you broke you from your thought process, your mind then changed the subject. This time, it was about your affair.
You weren’t sure how to bring it up to Dean. You didn’t know if he just shrugged it off and was acting like it never happened or if he was like you and was just avoiding the subject because neither of you knew what to do or say about what happened.
Your hands fidgeted for a few moments as your mind ran through different ways to bring it up, but every single one sounded dumb, making you curse silently in your head.
“Hey, Dean?” you voice was soft and you were sure he could hear the slight fear in there.
“Yeah?”
“I, um....about earlier....” That got his attention and made him roll his head to look at you. “I just want you to know that I take full responsibility for what happened.”
“Full responsibility?” A confused chuckle fell from his lips and he slowly sat up.
“Yes. Cause I know how you can be and I don’t want you thinking....”
“How I can be!?”
“Yes!” you shot back, becoming a little annoyed for the constant interruptions.
“And how is that!?”
“I-I...I don’t want you blaming yourself and regretting that you let it go that far.”
“Regret!? Y/N, I don’t regret anything!” You froze at the confession. That was definitely something you weren’t expecting him to say. “Do you?” It took a moment or so of more silence before he realized how much he shocked you, so he decided not to wait any longer for an answer.
“Look, Y/N....you may have initiated it, but I can tell you right now that I didn’t want to stop it.” A weird feeling washed over you and you had no idea what it was. But it wasn’t a bad feeling, it was just different.
“So, as long as you don’t regret anything....then don’t worry about it, okay?” Your eyes were the only part of your body that wasn’t frozen solid and that only made Dean more worried that he may have just ruined everything.
“Hey.” his hand gently rested over your thigh, pulling you out of your frozen state. “Do you regret it?” he couldn’t read your expression, but it didn’t take you long to shake your head.
“Okay. Then we’re alright?” Again, you nodded. “Good. Now, how about we just lounge all day, order food in and watch movies and crappy reality TV?”
Yeah, its not hamilton, but I'm tired and couldnt find a ref so my ocs!!! Its not much, but I drew it too small to add more detail rip. Anyway, I dont think its too terrible for the first attempt for drawing a kiss!!
3. What does their safe space look like? for Ian :3
Ryan's bed. It's a place he knows he can go to relax and not be shamed. He knows he can scream into his pillows if need be. He can pull up the covers to hide his face if he's feeling vulnerable. The texture of the sheets and covers is soothing to him. It's a lot nicer than his bed at the lab and serves as a reminder that he's not there anymore. And, as an added bonus, Ryan is usually there alongside him if he needs.
Currently thinking about a hypothetical completely non canon situation where Ian and/or Ryan get shrunk and have to deal with tiny whump... Hmmmmm might have to write/draw something eventually...
