WHEN'S A JOKE NOT A JOKE?
Summary: When jokes take another turn.
Warnings: ANGST , chubby fem!reader , insecurities , sucidial!thoughts , mention of consumption of alcohol, bad influence, SU1C1DE
pairing : fem!reader x Toji
MDNI!
A/n : Guys I'm so sorry for writing sad lil shit abt our favourite gangsta daddy 😰
For the record – you've always been insecure about your body. You'd see those other posts of instagram models flexing their huge curves and tiny waists , but you? you'd just lie on your couch the whole day feeling bad about yourself.
To make matters worse – your bf , Toji used to make little reminders about your body. He knew that you were aware about your insecurities. Even after knowing all that , he still chose to make 'harmless jokes' about your size.
"Babe , it's just a harmless joke" was what he said when he make a complete fool infront of the strangers in target when you went to buy a t-shirt for your niece. You could clearly hear the silence and the sound of squeking shopping carts rolling forward while you were still picking out t-shirts.
After coming home , you tried to brush off that akward moment in target, but it didn't work. You tried to confront Toji about it but he just shrugged it off – like it was the most normal thing ever.
"I mean that is true , you can't deny it . And plus its just some harmless joke right??" you could hear the cockiness in his voice , almost to which made your blood boil. Just because you were a little more bigger than most women , didn't mean he could take advantage of you – treating you like some fucking animal.
Once you were even doubting yourself if Toji actually loved you or not , or he was just using you for his own entertainment. Sometimes you wanted to disappear in the void when he was making his "jokes" about you infront of starangers , peers and even your own family.
The last straw came when you and him got invited to a gathering with his friends. At home while you were getting ready with him - you wore an elegant long silk slip dress , while Toji just pinched you really hard on the hand.
"oww , what was that for Toji?" you shrieked , still rubbing the sore part.
"Hmm , your skin is so thick , almost like leather . If you were in the 1800s , I'd use your skin as bulletproof armor." He said it in the most cocky and joking voice , almost like he was trying to give an indirect comment about your body.
If that wasn't enough , in the event- you sat in the corner just sipping plain water because you'd know that Toji would make another about how ' wine was gonna add another few pounds and how it was going to stain my dress'.
Then him and his friends drank lots of alcohol , almost intentionally trying to get drunk. One of Toji's female friend's asked him "So , what do you like about that y/n girl?"
"No , I'd never choose her over you . I mean - she's such a ugly , good for nothing piece of shit . A slut - if you'd ask me , she thinks she's so soft and beautiful and all but in reality that little pip'squeak bitch doesn't even know how to stand up for herself."
That was it - you felt that the whole world had shattered , 7 fucking years of relationship down the drain in 2 fucking minutes.
You tried to speak , but the pain was that deep that nothing came out of your mouth.
You ran away crying and sobbing in the bathroom. And you had no other choice and thought in mind but to hang yourself. Flashbacks of Toji's words came.
"I mean don't ever try to hang yourself , the rope could'nt handle your weight."
So you took a rope next to the expensive glass in that club and you hung yourself.
Blood was dripping down your throat and you're whole face was pale , it was only then when you realised "that's what Toji really wanted from the beginnig".
And you died right their on the spot.
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A pt 2 here!!
happy ending for reader
angst ending for reader
Thx for reading , love ya'll , this one was kinda short.😚🖤